Hey, if I could throw everything away...
Would it be easier for me to laugh and live?
She walked down the streets in her ragged old clothes. No one cared for her, at all, nope
My chest will hurt, again
So don't say anything anymore...
Her chest felt heavy, like it was full of lead, but she continued to walk down the street.
Her eye sight was blurry, but it was always like that, the sand from the cars driving on the street always bothered her eye sight.
It was always like this, sad and boring, with just herself.
-
Hey, if could forget everything
Would it be easier for me not to cry and to live?
The two young, blond twins who ran down the street every day came past her, chasing a beetle, probably.
They didn't notice her though, as usual, she was always ignored by everyone, especially HIM.
She pushed the thought out of her head and continued to walk.
What did she have to do to get some help?
There was always that nice, blond-haired lady,
But she would just be rude to her like the rest of them.
But I won't do something like that
So don't show me anything more...
Suicide had always passed her mind everyday, but left with out a trace after,
I mean,
It's not like anyone would miss her!
She had no family,
No friends,
And talked to no one...
She was never important to anyone!
Not even herself, for she herself had left a while ago and was said to come back,
but never did, which left her sad...
And lonely...
And hungry...
But she was dumb enough to believe that herself would come back to her...
No matter how close I get to you...
I will only have one heart...
She had had her heart torn to pieces by the one she used to call 'love'
But he disappeared...
And took 'herself' with him...
He was seen from again...
and neither was 'herself'...
And their 'love'
Had crept into her mind...
again...
day after day...
night after night...
month after month...
year after year...
she though about the relation ship him, 'herself', and she had together, but...
it was non-existing...
like 'herself'...
Her relationship with him was fake,
'Herself' was fake,
everything about this girl...
was gone with the wind...
and never...
even...
existed...
but yet, people could see her and understand what she said...
You're cruel...
You're cruel...
I'd rather just break my body,
Tear me apart and do what you like with me...
Even if I shout and struggle and my eyelids swell...
Hug me close...
And don't...
Let me go...
Again...
please...
tell me it's going to be OK...
please...
tell me it's just a bad dream!
please...
make them go away
please...
before its too late...
~Kokoronashi~