Did She Just Thank Me?
-I don't like you and her together that much, Rae. –Karma was cleaning her desk trying to look like this wasn't important but in her eyes it could be seen the fear. –what if she finds out about what we did?
-Babe. –said Reagan getting really frustrated. –has she done something to you since then?
-No, but...
-Then don't worry and kiss me!
Reagan took her beautiful face to kiss her when the door opened. Vanessa and Lauren appeared smiling playfully. Her relationship was a secret for everyone (they could get expelled), except for her friends.
-Hey, you. –Lauren pointed to Reagan. –I heard you and my sister will be together this whole week. –better if you prepare your ass because she's a huge pain in it.
-You're always telling those things but in the bottom for your heart I know you love her, you're talking about her all the time. –Karma said hugging Reagan's back.
-You'll never hear that coming out from my mouth. –she said in her bitchy usual tone of voice.
-Can we forget that? –Vanessa rested all her body in the wall. –Reagan, we came here to tell you that your job begins now.
-Yes, Amy's waiting for you at the third garden. –Lauren smiled.
The confused look in Reagan's face made everyone laugh. –I'll show you the way, girl. –Vanessa said.
After a good bye kiss with Karma, she founded herself following Vanessa through the school. Karma was getting clingier every day, she didn't know if that was a good or bad thing, she's never been in a proper relationship. This thing being all new to Karma was starting to be for Reagan as well, and she wasn't sure if she liked her enough to date her.
-What're you thinking? –Vanessa asks getting close. –Problems with your girlfriend?
Girlfriend?!
-I don't have problems of any kind. –Reagan blurted out.
They were getting close to a huge garden that Reagan deduced must be the one she was going to be in. Then Vanessa got closer to her.
-You know, Rae. –she said playing with her hair. –Karma's kind of a little girl, the first time I was very surprise of you two together!
-If I'm being honest, I have to say I'm surprised too. –Reagan confesses.
-Maybe the thing is that you need a woman –she got closer-, not a little girl.
She leaned in to kiss her and Reagan let her. She wasn't even thinking it was so normal for her to kiss girls, then the image of a sad Karma when to her eyes and she stopped.
-I can't do this. –she says. –Karma… she… aren't you friends?
-We are! –she said with lust in her eyes. –But why are you two lying to yourselves? You two together is not going to work. You know it.
-If it's good to you I prefer to find that out for myself.
-If you change your mind… I can always give you what she can't…
She walked away in a seductive, moving her hips and Reagan was really tempted to follow her, but she didn't.
Maybe I'll need a cold shower first, she thought as the sight of a blond girl got to her eyes.
-I've been waiting for you all day, you know?! –Amy yelled to her.
-I don't know and I don't care. –Reagan said not even a bit scared. –Now can we stop the shit and began with this fucking job for once.
Reagan was very mad, but she just walked to the garden, and knowing she had to do this, Reagan follow her steps.
They began to watch the theater because sometimes, troublemakers began to cause problems there. Something that was very stupid, because the only troublemakers at that school were the ones defending the place.
-This is stupid. –Amy said after a couple of minutes.
-You stole the words from my mouth. –Reagan agrees.
Time keep passing and Amy started to look annoyed with Reagan. –You know…
-What? –Amy wasn't sure if she should keep talking. –Spit it out, Raudenfeld, ain't got all day you know?
-I know it was you.
Reagan freezes just there. –I don't know anything of the sort…
-Just stop with the lies. –Amy said annoyed. –You're the only bitch in this place who could've done that.
-And what if I did it? –Reagan smiled. –You can't do anything about it.
And for the first time since Reagan had been in this school she saw some kind of weakness in Amy. She seemed affected, emotional.
-Are you… going to show the pictures to everyone?
-I should to teach you how to be nice. –Reagan said, but she wasn't annoyed now, she felt a bit sad for her. And she was mad because of it. –Don't worry, blondie, I'm not going to show them.
Amy's eyes seemed grateful for it. -…thanks…
Did she just thank me?
-Yeah… -a bunch of girls of third appeared at the door. They had formed the imaged of a monster which they let in the floor.
Its eyes were of glass. One of the girls said to Reagan and Amy that they should keep that thing safe.
-Stupid thing right? –Amy began to look something in her backpack.
-Yes, it kinda looks like one of your huge friends. –said Reagan and both girl laughed. –its eyes are weird.
-You know. –Amy said getting excited. –We could do a bad thing now… nobody's seeing.
Reagan gave it just one thought, and then both of them were painting the face of the monster ruining the work of the girls.
Amy could barely stop the laugh. –They're going to die when they see this!
-Why?! –Reagan joked. –It's even better now!
Amy laughed as she put out a slingshot which made Reagan laughed harder (she kept her own slingshot as a secret because usually people laughed at her because of that)
-Who the fuck are you? Bart Simpsons?!
Amy shot little stinky balls in the eyes of the monster ruining completely the monster for outside and from the inside.
-Hey! –One of the girls had come back.
Reagan grabbed Amy's arms and they began to run in a triumphal way, until they crashed with Molly Ashcroft, the principal of the school.
-I knew you'll make some trouble. –she said moving her head slowly side to side.
Fucking great.
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Some weird stuff happened the first day of that Halloween week, like Amy and Reagan being at one prank of expulsion, or that Karma waited for Reagan with a draw of them together holding hands (really girl?), but the weirdest of all was that since that moment Reagan began to think that maybe Amy wasn't such and ass as she believed.
Fucking Great!
-Time to wake up, lazy girl.
Reagan felt a sweet pair of lips all over her face in the morning. It was the way of Karma's to wake her up. A pretty good one.
-Hey, beautiful. –She yawned deeply. She began to kiss her harder and Karma got a little uncomfortable.
-What now? –asked Reagan frustrated.
-I'm sorry, it's just… I don't know if I'm ready.
-I could make you ready in two minutes. –Reagan smirks. –C'mon, thing, lay with me. Let's try something…
-Reagan… -Karma tried to move her body but she was trapped now. –Reagan…
-Please, just let me do this.
-Stop! –Karma yelled which stopped Reagan. –I said no! Why are you always pushing me to do something I'm not ready for?!
-Because I like you! –Reagan was equally mad.
-I just want it to be special…
Reagan snarled. –Special? Sex's not special, Karma, is just something that can make you feel good. –she stands up of the bed-, life is not like a fairy tale you're not going to have sex and everything will be awesome or magic! Grow up, damn it! I'm getting bored of this!
Karma was crying now which made Reagan feel like a huge ass.
-I'm sorry…
-No! –she yelled getting up too. Her cheeks were red and full of tears. –I don't want to see you now…
She grabbed her stuff and went out of the room probably with Lauren.
Well done, Reagan! Reagan really believed what she said but the way she said it was pretty awful. Why couldn't she shut her mouth sometimes? It'd make her life much easier.
The yells of her father saying she was a looser began to be heard in her ears. You're always making problems! Why can't you be a good girl for once?!
-I don't know. –Reagan whispered to nobody in the room. Suddenly it felt like a huge place.
She received a text from Amy. They had to watch the girls of third again. Some new bullies were making problems there for what the message said.
Amy waited for her in the outside. She was holding hands with Chloe. That remembered the words she read from her diary. Amy needed to know the truth, but in her eyes she had just love for that bitch.
This was going to be a problem.
-Hey, girls!
Both, Amy and Chloe jumped scared, but seeing it was Reagan give them some relief. If someone other sees them only holding hands…. Well, this school was very strict about those things.
-Hey, ass. –Amy said smiling a bit.
-Hey you, and you. –Reagan said but Chloe didn't turn to see her. Maybe she was embarrassed. –So, what're you doing here? You want to run of the school?
-My gi…friend Chloe is waiting for a ride. –Amy mumbled.
-A ride? Wait... can we go out of this place?!
-Just when you have good grades and a well behavior. –Amy yawned like if the possibility of act like that was the most boring thing ever. –But this one –she pointed to Chloe-, is one of the best students so she'll be out a little. -Again, Chloe was like not really listening to no one, but Amy seemed happy. She should be very in love with this girl. –So let's wait for it and then we do our job.
-Hey, you're not gonna find me arguing with that.
A car parked outside the school, from it a tall and very good looking boy appeared. –Well, I must leave! –said Chloe smiling. –I can't let Liam waiting too much!
Amy went to her to give Chloe a kiss but she was already running to Liam's car.
-Love you! –Amy yelled seeing Chloe leave.
Does she really not suspect what's happening?
Reagan felt pity for her, and since their new "friendship" she had the strong instinct of help her telling everything she knew about the diary.
-She's so cute. –Amy was daydreaming now. –look at the cute way she moves her legs!
-Yeah, maybe not so much. –Reagan took a bit of distance. –Ummm… Amy, I think there's something you need to know.
-That I'm the luckiest girl ever? Because I know I am.
Those fucking words ended up changing Reagan's mind. She just made Karma crying in the morning, she didn't want to be broke Amy's heart. Even if it's not her fault, telling her the truth didn't seem right in that moment.
Amy waited. –So, the cat got your tongue or what?
-Forget it. –Reagan muttered. –C'mon, the damn garden is waiting.
Some girls painted and ruined a couple of flowers and now Reagan and Amy must protect the flowers. A really stupid job, they got bored at the minute. Amy started to shot some leafs with her slingshot, she had such a good sight that soon lots of leafs were down to her feet.
-And, how are things with miss red head? –Amy asks surprising Reagan. -I thought she wasn't one of ours.
-One of ours?
-You know what I mean. –Amy keeps shooting.
Reagan gave her a sideway smile. –Yeah, I didn't believe it at first. –She didn't ask how Amy knew. –We had a fight in the morning.
-Why? –Amy's face was firmly looking up, but Reagan sense some real curiosity on her voice, but Reagan doubted it was because of her.
-I was a dick with her. –Reagan said. –Sometimes I forgot that this is new to her.
-Tell me about it. –Amy seemed to understand her perfectly. –With Chloe I had the same problem. –then she stopped, as if she sees with who was talking to. –I don't know why I said that…
-It's fine. –Reagan looked down. –If I don't said anything after the pictures I'm not gonna say something now.
-I'm still mad at you for that. –Amy snarled. –You're a creep, spying girls in those moments.
-I didn't know you two were on that!
-If you weren't bullying Karma things could had been different. –Reagan said annoyed. –Speaking of that, why are you a bully with her?
-Oh, shut up! –Amy said defensively. –I didn't bully her! You're overreacting.
-She cried. –Reagan revealed trying to make her understand. -She was sad because of you. I had to put you in your place.
-In my place?! –Amy pointed with her slingshot to Reagan's face. –You know, what happened the other day doesn't mean we're friends now, bitch! Don't you dare to talk to me like that.
-Oh please don't' shot me! –Reagan said pretending to be scared. –You know, the bully with a slingshot is so a fucking cliché. And if she's blond is worst even.
For a moment, Reagan thought Amy was going to shoot her.
-Fuck you! –she said walking away. –And you know what?! Karma is just using you, she is not in love with you!
Reagan was so angry she didn't control her mouth. –Yeah?! Well your girlfriend is now fucking the guy from before!
Amy turned at her, her eyes like sparks. –Don't talk about Chloe! She loves me!
-She loves Liam's dick.
Amy began to shoot at her stinky balls that left all her shirt smelling like hell.
-Don't you ever talk to me or Chloe again! And if you –Amy threatened her-, if you dare you show those pictures, I'll say to the principal the thing between you and her precious little daughter.
She walked away not before Reagan yelled: Yeah?! Well I know she's cheating on you because I read that on her diary!
Reagan saw the blonde go feeling almost as bad as her smell.
-Fucking great! –she shouted to anyone in particular.
Promise me
Sometimes it's very easy to pretend everything's fine instead of say I'm sorry. Her mom used to told her that, but Reagan never understood what she really meant. Until now. Until the night when she and Karma keep doing her things in silence without making eye contact.
Oh fuck, just say it!
Reagan tried to talk but her mouth did this weird sound like if she was moaning and Karma looked at her suspiciously.
-what's going on with you? –she asked a bit concerned.
-Nothing, okay? –She sounded so defensive.
Karma curled her lips annoyed. –Sorry for ask. –she said, hurt in her voice.
Reagan saw how the little girl began to cover herself inside of her bed. Something like a sob could be heard.
-Don't cry please.
-I'm not crying!
-Oh fuck, Karma, I'm sorry! –She yelled, not knowing why but she felt furious. –I'm fucking sorry, okay?!
Karma makes eye contact. –that's your idea of an apology?
-Yes! I… I'm sorry. –she sighed.
Her words made Karma blink a few times. –I'm sorry too.
-Why are you saying that?
-I don't know. –Karma whispered which makes Reagan laugh.
-You're really a thing, Karma.
Both girls laughed with all the bad mood suddenly forgotten. Karma went to Reagan to kiss her shyly in the cheek. –I missed you today.
-It was a bad day. –Reagan agrees kissing her. –Now it's better, though.
-You could talk to me before then. –Karma pouted. –I waited for you all day.
-I'm sorry. –It was easy to say it now. –I had a bad day from that, to Vanessa, to Amy…
-What? –Karma opened her eyes curiously. –What happened with Vanessa and Amy?
I have to lie! Lie, Reagan, lie!
-umm, they were jealous of me because my good grades in Spanish.
-you're good at spanish but you don't have good grades, Reagan. –Karma pointed out.
-Still I'm better than them, so…
It was a stupid joke, but Karma seemed to believe every word. –Oh, then it's fine.
They were lying in the bed, Reagan kissed her softly every time not wanting to get hot again, but that wasn't precisely easy when you have a girl like Karma kissing you.
-Karma, wait…
-What? –she asked not stopping the kisses. –let me kiss you.
-Karma I'm getting hot. –she decided to be honest. –I don't want us to fight again, so maybe we could… be nice about this?
That stopped Karma, who couldn't stop looking at Reagan. –You know, I want you to promise me something.
Reagan cupped her chin with her hand. –What, little thing? Tell me.
-I just… I know you want to do it, but I'm not ready –she pauses-, not because I'm not ready, but because I want it to mean something. I just don't want to be another of your girls from one night.
-Who told you of my girls of one night? –Reagan said faking innocence.
-Reagan... please, promise me I'm not one of them.
-Karma, I really don't know what you're doing to me, I really like you so I'll wait for you and… -she stopped a minute, was she sure of this?
-What? –Karma asked her eyes wide open with hope.
-and… I want you to be my girlfriend. Officially. –Reagan couldn't believe what she was saying, and her mouth wasn't stopping. –that's my promise, I want this to…
She found Karma's lips on hers. –I'll love to be your girlfriend, Reagan. –she kissed her again. –I don't know what I'll do with my mom and everyone but I don't care. You do things to me.
-You too.
-Thanks for act like a lady with me. –Karma moaned.
-Maybe this school is really effective. –Reagan said, playfully.
Both girls laughed as they kiss in bed.
It's not Your Fault
Next morning was nothing like the one before. Karma was so happy that she couldn't keep her hands off Reagan. It was hard not to get hot because of that but the morning was cold. She managed to be good.
-Are you worried because of later? –Karma asks sweetly.
-Why would I be worried?
-Wasn't Amy mad at you? You have to work again now…
With all what happened last night Reagan had forgotten Amy completely. –Right… But I'll be fine, little thing, you know I can take care of myself.
-I don't want you to fight. –she pouted. –Please, promise me, no fights.
-You are very exigent.
-Pleeease.
-Fine, Oh my gosh, Karma. –Reagan felt strangely happy. Her family didn't used to get that worried for her. Angry maybe and worried because of what people could say about the family, but not because of Reagan. Not like Karma.
Reagan kept to herself the thing that happen with Vanessa. She decided after last night she'll have to talk with her to end whatever that little kiss of yesterday meant. But there wasn't need of making Karma sad, not after how happy the two of them were now.
She got dressed, and went to the damn garden from yesterday, but Amy wasn't there.
Better, she thought. Yesterday she had spent two hours washing her clothes from the smell of the stinky balls.
The day went boring as usual. She went to lunch without anything interesting to tell, but Lauren had something interesting. Whens eh got to the table she catch her just talking about Amy.
-…and she's now crying in the bathroom.
-Poor Amy. –Karma said surprising everyone.
-What happened? –Reagan asks.
-Chloe and Amy were dating. –Vanessa said immediately. –But Chloe cheated on her and now Amy is crying in the bathroom.
-And how you know that?
-I heard them fighting. –Lauren said, her cheeks slightly pink. –But don't say anything, this is top secret.
All the girls were whispering in their tables looking guilty which told Reagan that it wasn't a secret.
-Hey, Lauren. –Reagan said, holding hand with Karma behind the table. –Why you're always worried for Amy? You like her or what?
It was meant to be a simple joke but Lauren got all her face red. –I don't! Shut up! –she yelled defensively.
-Wait a moment, -Vanessa said, seeing Lauren suspiciously. –But you two are friends right? I know you talk to her sometimes.
Lauren seemed like she was about to murder someone. –We talk sometimes, that's all. We're nothing! –she said standing up. –now if you excuse me I have to leave.
-Wow. –Karma whispered. –You make her angry.
-Lauren's always angry, little thing.
They keep eating, speaking stupid things. Vanessa gave her some weird faces sometimes but she just kept holding Karma's hand. She felt soft and fragile.
Some part of her didn't realize they were girlfriends. She'd never had a girlfriend before, and having a girl as naïve an innocent like Karma as the first one… she was confused, but still she wanted her. She didn't want to make her feel sad. Maybe this was weird but Reagan prefers to be confused than to be fighting with her, and she felt good now, so it can't be bad.
They were late to Math class (something Reagan didn't regret), when Karma yelped cuping her mouth with her hands.
-Nooo…
-What happens, thing? –Reagan asked.
-I forgot my book, and my notes. –she sounded so sad.
-Don't worry, Karma. –Reagan said giving her a little kiss. –I'll go for it, you just go with Vanessa to class.
She went to the locker of Karma still hearing how she called her a brave knight. No one erases the smile of her face, until she heard the sobs.
Her eyes were straight to the bathroom. She remembered what Lauren said and suddenly she felt a bit guilty. Maybe she didn't have to tell her about Chloe, she didn't lie or anything but it wasn't really her business.
She took Karma's things, then, she got closed to the bathroom, slowly at every step.
-…She just said it like that! –She heard Amy crying. –I can't believe after everything we…
-It's not your fault. –another voice could be heard and Reagan recognize Lauren's. –You deserves so much better than that bitch.
-Don't call her that… she…Maybe I could do things different…
-Amy! You can't keep defending her. –Reagan took a risk and look inside the bathroom. The image of Amy, crying and Lauren hugging her came to her eyes. –You deserves better. –she repeated getting closer to her.
Lauren got so close to her. –You're so beautiful, Amy, and you are worth it, don't let Chloe make you think different.
Lauren cupped Amy's chin in her little hands. They stared at each other eyes until Lauren's lips meet Amy's. The kiss was hot and so personal that Reagan leaved them alone, and seeing that Lauren didn't appear in the whole class made her thought that the little blonde believed the same.