Chapter Four-Good News Or Bad News-BPOV

'Jasper please calm down. I'm alive, be happy! In all the stories Dad told us to teach us to be aware of our surroundings all of the people who were rapped got killed. That was so close for me that I don't even want to think about it but it's true. I'm just happy I'm alive,' I whispered the last part. I had many near death experiences in my life but my last one was by far the most terrifying.

'You keep telling me to calm down, that you're happy, that you're alive, but look at yourself! You legs are paralyzed, your arm broken, your ankle broken, many ribs broken, a concussion and a possible pregnancy or STD! Your life sucks! How could you possibly be happy?' He asked shocked. He didn't even realize that every word he said stabbed me leaving invisible marks. He was killing me in a way that no one else could see. The marks others can see hurt less than the ones that no one can.

Tears streamed down my face as I answered his question. 'I'm happy I'm alive Jasper. I'm happy I'm not in that alley anymore. I'm happy I'm safe. I'm happy I know that some people love me and care about me and aren't trying to hurt me. Now please leave.' I whispered in between sobs. His face looked broken. He should see my heart.

'Bella, I love you but I think you must be crazy to be happy at a time like this. Like you said you almost d-'

'Get out Jasper. Now.' I ordered sternly.

'But Bella-' He pleaded.

'Please?' I cried.

'Leave now Jasper. Don't come back unless she asks for you specifically.' Dr. Cullen ordered.

'Alright,' Jasper sighed in defeat. He slowly trudged out of the room with his head bent in shame.

'Bella, I need to draw some more blood for the pregnancy test. Would you like for me to wait until you fall asleep?'

'Can't I just use a store bought one?' I asked hopefully.

'They aren't as accurate and you have to wait about a month before they really work. Do you wish to wait?' I shook my head no.

'Could you please do it while I'm awake though? I like to sleep in peace and I won't be able to fall asleep if I know I will be having blood drawn when I do.' I confessed.

'Yes I can do it now because you asked. I knew your aversion to blood and thought I should ask you when I should do it though.' He told me.

'Thank you Carlisle,' I said gratefully.

'You are very welcome Bella,' he told me.

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'Hey Dad?' I asked half an hour later.

'Hey Bells?'

'Do you think that Mom is watching over us?' IO asked remembering my mother's accident. She had been walking our dog Mini, a Great Dane. He darted across the street dragging my mom who couldn't let go of the leash just as a car was speeding around the corner.

Mom was killed immediately. We were told that she felt no pain. Mini however, died a day later of a heart attack. All the vets said it was impossible that she died of a broken heart but we all knew that she loved mom to death.

'Yeah Bells, I think she is. She's looking down on our beautiful baby girl with love and care wishing she were here to comfort you,' he told me sadly with a broken voice. Tears streamed down his face at her memory.

'I'm sorry Dad I shouldn't have brought it up.' I apologized

'No Bells, it's okay. I like to find different ways to bring your Mom into my life each day. I never go a day without thinking of her. I love you Bells,' he whispered. It had always been hard to get dad to open up but when you did you could always tell that his emotions were true and had meaning to them. After Mom's accident he spent weeks upon weeks holding us at night and telling us stories about Mom that we had never heard before. He's the perfect father and he doesn't know it.

'Thank you Daddy,' I whispered just as I had every night after he had said good naught to me when I was little.

'For what Bells?' He asked.

'Everything.' I told him.

'All right Bella! May I please speak to you? It may be alone or with your father present. It's you choice.' Dr. Cullen announced coming into the room.

He sat down on a stool beside me and looked me right in the eyes. 'He can stay please.' Carlisle nodded.

'Bella, I have some good news and some bad. Do you want the good news or the bad news first?' He asked. I hope this was about my tests.

'The bad news please,' I mumbled.

'Bella, I am very sorry but you are pregnant. I have already gone over your options with you so it's up to you and you can come tell me what you want to do later and we can arrange for it and you can just set up the appropriate appointments. Please tell me when you have decided.'

'Okay,' to say I was stunned would be an understatement. I knew it was a possibility but I hadn't really thought about how much of one. Sure he had told me but I didn't really take it in. I was still in shock from the possibility that I could be.

'Fortunately you don't have an STD so there is no chance that one of them could harm the child,' he told me. Dr. Cullen knew what my choice was when he told me it was a possibility but he must have thought my thoughts might have changed now that I knew I was because he looked at me asking me silently if I still planned on keeping it. I noticed that my father was in shock. He was starring blankly at the pillow that I had extra beside me. I nodded my head that I hadn't changed my mind knowing that my Dad wouldn't see

in his state of shock.

'Thank you Dr. Cullen. I will be sure to get back to you on my decision.' I said formally hoping my Dad wouldn't clue in that I had made my choice already. Carlisle nodded in acknowledgement.

'Thank you Bella. I will send in your discharge papers.' With that he left the room.

'Come on Dad, lets go get the discharge papers filled out and then we can go home. I need some time to think.' I feigned being shocked and scared. I knew what I had to do.