Flashback

"Mrs Lopez, I'm Dr Tresider, how are you feeling?" The dark haired middle aged man said with a warm smile as he clicked the pen in his hand against the clip board he was holding. The underweight almost ghostly looking Latina acknowledged his presence with a vacant expression and a small nod.

"Can you remember how you got here Santana? If it is okay for me to call you that?" the girl had been brought in the night before with a fatal overdose and stab wound to her side, she'd lost a lot of blood but the knife had missed her vital organs, never the less she was very lucky to be alive.

"I don't- I can't speak about it. I can't, just there's no words for how I feel. I can't cope. I can't function, I need her. I need her more than anything. No one understands, you can't help me!" Santana sobbed a tear trickling down her face as she clenched her arms around her skinny waist.

"That's fine, I understand if you don't want to speak about it, but you need to realise how lucky you are to be alive Santana. Whatever happened to you, or whatever you are doing to yourself is a very big deal. I can get you all the help you need for recovery Santana."

"Lucky to be alive?" Santana bit out quickly as she stared down at the IV line on her arm. "I don't want to be alive. I don't want to feel anything anymore. And I certainly don't want your help!"

"I'm sorry Mrs. Lopez" The dark haired man muttered apologetically to deaf ears. "I'll have another Doctor come over and check your vitals." Santana, oblivious to his words, carried on staring at the chipped paintwork on the wall next to her, the big blank canvas of white. Almost like a fresh start, immaculate, no writing on the walls. No marks. What she would give to be able to go back to when her life was like that, no trouble or pain. No heartache or misery. Void herself of the constant dull ache in her body that fuels her need for an escape.

A young woman in her early 20's approached the bed with the Latina in with a confident smile and sparkling eyes on the instruction of her senior. The small brunette in front of her however, made her smile falter, as she flipped through the notes at the end of her bed. She wasn't a fully qualified Doctor, not yet; she was still going through her placement at south over hospital and apparently according to her asshole mentor, is competent enough to take vitals. She was also competent enough to kick his ass but that wasn't exactly classified as professional.

"Mrs Lopez, I've come to check your vitals if that's ok?"

The Brunette looked up from her blank gaze as she felt like she had just been propelled back to earth and the first thing she saw was a smile that bright and eyes that hypnotising. It almost sickened her, but in a good way. She gulped back the lump in her throat and nodded slightly. "It's Santana"

"I'm Dani" the doctor smiled as she drew nearer. Almost drawing a smile out of the broken girl.

Present.

"And could you see yourself going back to how you were?" Dr Martinez nodded slightly in contemplation as I shook my head.

"I have Dani; I don't need anything else to fill that gap. Not that you fill a gap or anything" I quickly hastened out making sure she didn't get the wrong idea. "I couldn't see myself doing anything that would make her disappointed in me; she makes me want to be a better person ever day."

"That's amazing progress Santana from the girl who I first saw, I just wonder if you become so heavily dependent on Danielle, if you were to split up for unforeseen circumstances what that would mean for you? A relapse would really test your strength Santana" the Dr mussed as I frowned disbelievingly at him, the thought hadn't crossed my mind and I certainly didn't want it too. "I've never seen anyone so broken in my whole professional career and to see you like this now I just want you to become independently secure in yourself and not replace old stories with new faces."

"I'd never break up with Santana" Dani stated confidently as my stomach flipped at the comment making me lean even more discretely into her side. "She's not dependant on me, I'm her rock and she's mine." Dani muttered as she glanced her head in my direction almost feeling my gaze on her.

"I just want to ensure that when we discussed what has brought you to counselling and what you said you would like to gain from these sessions will be met Santana and I know you had worries over you capability to trust someone again let alone love, if this relationship is as serious as you say it is, too love someone to the extent you did Br..."

"Don't say it!" I all but shouted out as my heart rate increased so fast I felt faint. "Don't mention her name, ever. I came to these sessions because I was a ticking time bomb every day, I'm always so constantly mad at everything, nothings easy with me unless Dani's there. I've got –or more like had, so much pent up anger I couldn't function properly which made every day a battle with wanting to turn to my old life to deal with it all."

"How do you feel when you're around Dani?"

"For a start I actually feel. Without her it's kind of like I'm just there you know? Just getting through the day, counting down the minutes till I can se...This is stupid." I stopped myself as I glanced at Dani who had a smile hidden beneath her hair which was hanging over her face as she leant forward staring at her feet. "Look, with no disrespect, I'm not going to go injecting myself or anything like that anytime soon. I'm perfectly happy and the only reason for that is this girl sat next to me. I don't care if I'm dependant on her, I don't care if I put myself at risk of being hurt, or loving her too much. Because what we have is something special and I wouldn't change it for anything. I think I'm done here Dr." I stated confidently as picked up my bag and stood up, Dani's hand still very much in mine.

"What she said." Dani laughed with a nervous edge to her voice that all but made me die on the spot.

"I'll take you out of my schedule Santana but if you need me please call"

"Thanks Doc, I'm certain I won't need to but thanks for everything" I nodded as I pulled open the door and exited with Dani obviously still beaming after my words.

So far it's Brittana endgame guys! So I know there is a lot of Dantana but that's only because Dani will play a major role in this story! review if you want or tweet me or whatever. I love hearing from you!