The Twilight saga Eclipse is finally out!

Thanks for all the reviews. I really appreciate it. This chapter is a present for all you Twilight fans. By the way I must inform you that I also love Raven and Trevor story, but please don't kill me if the romance takes it's time or the story takes a turn for the better. (Big clue)

Chapter 4

My first impulse was to kick him. Hard. I could hear his breathing close by my ear sending shivers throughout my body. The way it felt left me confused.

I suddenly couldn't hurt him anymore. Instead I just stayed there. Letting him hold me.

His arms felt wrong and I couldn't help but feel my heart ache with tremendous pain. But it felt good to be held.

He must have sensed my sudden change in mood because he left his arms around me and placed his head on top of mine.

"Well that didn't go so badly." He chuckled against the side of my head. "I thought for sure that you'd kick me." He chuckled again. I didn't move an inch. My mind was starting to cloud with other thoughts.

The reason I'd been weak in the knees in the first place was from the result of hearing his voice. I replayed the way he had said it. So low but yet so clear.

As I listened again to it being said I felt an overwhelming sense of sorrow sweep over me. My already wet face was getting more wet with new tears. I was thankful that Trevor was behind me, unable to see my face.

Trevor's hand started stroking my hair and he was softly humming. That only made me cry more. This was wrong. Trevor's not the one I want doing this to me. HE is supposed to be soothing me right now. Not Trevor.

My body shook with my tears now and I could no longer hold myself up. Trevor immediately starting supporting all my weight. I let him. I really didn't care who held me. But it felt good to have someone hold me for a while.

I wasn't sure how, but one minute we were standing, the next minute he was picking me up and putting me in his car. He set me down in the passenger seat and held on to me while I cried.

My tears were soaking through my mask. Trevor noticed and gently took the mask off my face. His face showed deep concern and anger. He knew why I was crying. But I couldn't figure out why he would get angry.

He started whispering things to me. Things like. "Please don't cry." Or "I'm here. No one's gonna hurt you anymore." That only made things worse. The confusion that ran through me left me not wanting to know what he truly felt for me.

Who was this guy? Trevor and I were known enemies. Never once were we friends. Trevor shouldn't be doing this. But yet he was. For reasons I didn't feel like knowing. I knew Trevor liked me. But I never guessed it was this much.

As my tears slowed I was abruptly aware of the headache. When I started to hiccup, Trevor cuddled me even closer to him. He held me close to his chest, running his fingers up and down my back.

"It's okay. It's okay." He said as he rocked me gently in his arms.

"Raven." The voice was so low I almost didn't hear it. HE was here. My gothic mate was here. I looked around for him, struggling in Trevor's arms. HE was finally here!

Trevor kept his hold around me tight. "Raven its okay."

"Let go!" I screamed it at him. He let me go at once.

I ran out of the car and looked around. His voice sounded distant, but near. All I had to do was follow his voice. It was hard to say where it had come from.

When I didn't find him, the hole in my chest suddenly got bigger. HE had to be here. I heard him. But where was he?

"Raven who are you looking for?" Trevor's voice sounded from behind. I didn't answer. I had to find him.

I thought about where he could be. Maybe he went back to the Mansion. My stomach did a weird flip. He had to be there.

I turned to Trevor. "I need you to drive me somewhere and fast."

Trevor looked confused but I knew he wouldn't refuse me. "Sure." I got into the passenger seat while he took the wheel. "Where to?"

"The Mansion." I tried to say it as casual as possible. He heard my voice crack at the end. He sighed.

"Look, Raven, I can't stop you from doing anything stupid. But that doesn't mean I'm not going to tell you how stupid it is." He looked at me for a second then turned back to the road. "I know how much you care about" he took a deep breath. "about him."

I waited for him to continue, he just stared at the road. I felt the need to defend myself, to tell him how my actions weren't stupid at all. Instead I sat there looking out the window.

He drove in front of the gates then turned his gaze on me. "He left you, Raven." He reached his hand out to stroke my cheek. I wanted to smack it away. My mind kept screaming. This was wrong. Trevor's not the one. But it felt really nice. I leaned into it instead "And I could just kill him for that. You deserve better."

I leaned away from him and unlocked my door. I wanted to tell him something. When I couldn't find my voice I turned to get out the car. Trevor didn't stop me and I was thankful for that.

I walked up to the gate and pushed it open. I heard Trevor drive off and turned to watch him go. When his lights were no longer visible I heard his voice again.

"Raven."