FoxDemonYouko: Alrighty then, this chapter is okay…but Seto is a little OOC…for a reason! I kind of gave up on the whole JoeyxSeto thing, and then I thought of doing JoeyxSetoxOC, but I didn't like that either. So I'm keeping the story JoeyxOC, but it will still be angsty, dark, and depressing…if any of you like that.

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh but I own Alex and a Rammstein cd.

Italics are thoughts

Chapter Three: Ich Will

---Joey's Point of View---

I still can't get the image of Alex lying helplessly on the floor, he looked to broken…It's been two long days since his accident and he still looks the same…I've done everything I could. He just needs to get better emotionally… "Hey Alex, why don't we go out for a walk. You could use some fresh air." I said, not really thinking he'll say yes. "Umm, su-sure." I smiled and went over to the bed to help him up.

"Here put this on." I handed him the sweatshirt he got at the mall a few weeks ago. "Thanks." I saw him put it on and slip his boots on. I grabbed his hand and led him out of our stuffy apartment into the cold April air. While we were walking I thought I should start some small talk. "Everyone at school misses you. They want you to come back." "Yeah." I sigh. "I want you to get better Alex. I miss you." "I'm sorry Joey…I don't mean to do this. My heart hurts though Joey. Help me…" I look him in the eyes and a tear rolls down my face. "Come here. Let's sit down in the park." I said, bringing him closer to my body and sitting down on a bench.

"Baby, you are my life and I really love you. I hate seeing you like this, it breaks my heart. I'll do anything I can to help you. I want to see that happy, full of life person I'm used to seeing." I said, almost to tears.

"Joey, I'm trying it's just I kept those images out of my head for a reason. My dad…shot my mom…I saw it. Hold me Joey. Don't let go." I hugged him and kissed his forehead. "I love you." He said. I poked his nose and he laughed. "Now there's the Alex I know. Let's go and have some fun." I saw him smile and I kissed him. "I think I want to go back to school tomorrow." Alex said. Thank Ra. He needs to get out of the house. We walked back into our apartment and we sat together on the bed, me holding him as we sat looking in each others eyes.

(Two Months Later)

---Normal Point of View---

Joey was working at Grand Union for one year now, and he's been through some crazy shit; robberies, baby snatchers, unexplainable fires, but the craziest was about to happen. Joey was at the cash register not really paying attention, he was thinking about Alex and how happy he has been lately. He was shaken out of his thoughts by a cold, familiar voice.

"Wheeler?" Joey's head shot up and he gasped. "K-kaiba?" "I haven't seen you for two years." Seto said. "Yeah…you got that right. What brings you here?" Joey asked. "I was getting some food." Joey laughed. "I mean America." "Oh, well I decided to take a break from Kaiba Corp., I put Mokuba in charge." "Wow, that's great. Do you wanna go catch up? I have an apartment down the street. I get off work in a couple of minutes." "Sure, I've got nothing else to do." "Okay." Joey smiled.

---Joey's Point of View---

It was a real shock meeting Kaiba at work. It was cool that we actually had a civil conversation. Maybe he was a little too nice. "So how have you been? I heard your old friends were asking about you." I heard him say. "Who cares about them. My life has been good…Well here we are, my humble, stuffy apartment." I opened the door and walked into the kitchen.

"Well this is it, Alex won't be home for an hour." "Alex who?" "Umm, he's my boyfriend." "Ahh, that's cool." I was shocked. "No fag comment? I would expect that from you." "Well mutt, it just so happens that I'm gay too." I blushed. "I'm sorry." "So…why did you leave Japan?" Seto asked. "Well, I told Yugi, Tea, and Tristan that I was homosexual and they said that they didn't want anything to do with me anymore. So I left." I said quietly.

I heard the door open, the close and heard the sound of Alex's pants clanking together. "Alex?" "Yeah babe?" "I've got someone you should meet." Alex walked into the kitchen. "Who's this?" "This is Seto, an old friend from Japan. He came in during work and I thought we should catch up." Seto got up and shook Alex's hand. I noticed how Seto gave Alex a sort of 'I'm repulsed by the way you look…' look. "I should go. I don't want to intrude on anything." "Here, I'll give you my number if you ever want to hang out." I said, wanting to talk to him more. "Sure, here's mine." Kaiba started walking away then looked back at me and winked…I hope Alex didn't just see that. I nodded and Seto walked out the door.

"Hey Joey…wanna go take a shower?" he gave me the puppy dog eyes. I laughed as I lifted my shirt over my head. "Sure babe, let's go." I ran the hot water as we started to take each other's clothes off, kissing everywhere. We got in the shower and immediately I was thrown on the wall. "What's this for Alex?" I asked, curious. "We graduate school tomorrow. This is your gift." I laughed as he trailed small kisses down my body. "I really like the gift…" I feel bad for saying this…but I wish Alex was Seto right now…

(Three Months Later)

---Alex's Point of View---

I was being more secluded after the whole thing with Joey's friend. I didn't think Joey wanted to spend time with me anymore. I'm being replaced…and rejected. I sighed. I went to go sit in our bedroom which didn't feel like ours anymore. He was always at Setos' place now. I have to go to work so I put on some clean clothes. I hope he'll be home later. I turned on my MP3 player, put it on Disturbed and left the apartment.

When I got back in the evening, I noticed a light on in our bedroom, so I ran into the apartment and called his name, no one answered. I sighed and went into the kitchen and saw a note.

Alex,

I'm sorry but I'm not going to be home tonight, Seto wants to take me out to dinner.

Joey

I stopped and reread the last part. I fell to the floor and sobbed. You know what Joey…if you don't care then neither do I. I got up and found my backpack and filled it with my clothes. I opened up a drawer and took out a gun that I had hidden from Joey since we moved in. Here's a song for you…I put a CD in the computer and turned the volume all the way up and hit 'repeat'. The song played in the background as I looked back at the place I've lived in for so long. I'm leaving Joey…I guess some things don't last forever. I closed the door and headed toward the park which Joey and I spent so many hours in.

---Joey's Point of View---

(Same time period)

I felt real bad that I kept leaving Alex out of the picture, but I loved spending time with Seto. He's so amazing and he's so nice to me. But so is Alex…I got aggravated with my mind. I'm glad I get to see an old face though. "Hey, do you want to go out to dinner?" I heard him ask. I blushed. "I don't know, Alex would get worried." To be honest, I really did want to go.

"How about I bring you home so you can get some better clothes on and leave him a note?" "Sounds reasonable." I felt bad though, I missed Alex. We both drove over to my apartment and Seto followed me inside. I changed my clothes and wrote a note. I thought the ending was pretty harsh but Seto said that Alex would understand. When we left the apartment Seto was behind me and I felt a hand on my ass. I squeaked because I didn't expect it and blushed because I kind of liked it…

When we got back to Seto's house after dinner I said that I wanted to go home and see Alex so I left and went back home. I got back in and I hear a song playing loudly throughout the house. I know that song…I walked into our bedroom expecting to see Alex but I didn't I looked at the computer and it said 30 Seconds to Mars 'The Kill' That means…he's done with me…The lyrics in the background were:

/Go break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you./

This can't be happening…I collapsed on the floor and started to cry.

/Look at me eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you…/

---Normal Point of View---

Alex walked over to the bench where Joey and he spent most of their time. He took the black pistol out of his bag and brought it up to his head. After sitting like this for a few minutes, he got up and put the gun away. Walking out of the park and out of town. "This is for the best, he won't have to deal with me anymore." Alex thought…

FoxDemonYouko: Well that chapter sucked. I love the next chapter though.