Chapter 4

Hey guys! Here's chapter 4! I Hope that you'll enjoy it and I appreciate all you're reviews! And please review more! Makes my day!

Song I've used in this chapter:

Natalie Imbruglia - Torn

xo

Angie

Previously in A Drop In The Ocean

"Rose, maybe I was crazy, I guess I was sometimes, especially when I was a strigoi.." He choked out.. "And maybe it's hard to chase this, but I had to know what's right. Everyday you've got to live, for what you believe. Please understand, I had no choice... It's what had to be... I did it for you..." he whispered to me.

Oh boy, I thought, this is going downhill. What am I supposed to say to that? I really didn't know. So I just smiled a barely visible smile, turned around and walked away.

Rose POV

When I left Dimitri at the garage yesterday, I didn't know what to think, what to believe. I couldn't gather my thoughts properly. But it doesn't really matter at the moment. I mean, we aren't together and I don't think that we'll ever be together again.

Before I went to bed yesterday I got a call from Lissa...

Flashback

"Hey Rose, are you alright?" Lissa asked with a concerned voice.

"Yeah, well I'm not sure what I'm feeling actually. But don't worry I'll be fine, I promise." I told her. I didn't want her to worry about me.

"Rose... you're not fine! Why can't you just talk to me?" she asked with a sad voice.

"Liss... I don't know... you don't need to be concerned about my feelings. You know I'm the one who's protecting you and not the other way around." I said to her with a stern voice.

"You know what? I love you to death, but why can't you just talk to us?" She said and then continued "I know that you're the one who's doing the physical protection, but I can be the one who's protecting you emotionally"

"Why?" I asked.

"Oh... gosh Rose!" she grumbled "We're your best friends for God's sake. You know what, I'm gonna throw a girls night tomorrow night and you're coming whether you want it or not. And you'll talk to us, okay? Promise me this." She said to me.

"Do I have to?" I said with an exasperated voice.

"YES" She shrieked.

"Fine..." I huffed back.

End of flashback.

So that's why I'm not in my bed right now. I'm on my way to that stupid girls night. But I guess I have to please them so they'll stop annoying me with all these stupid questions about my non-existent love life.

I was the last one to arrive, as usual. Mia and Jill were already there, seated comfortable on Lissas cushy couch, waiting for me with all their questions.

"Hey, what's up?" I asked with a soft voice.

"Hey Rose, not much just waiting for you" Jill answered me with a small smile on her lips.

"Yeah Rose, we're really happy that you finally showed up. And we will listen to all that you've got to say. So no spill!" Mia said to me, a small smile were also visible on her lips. And her pretty blue eyes watched me while I sat down on the other couch in front of them.

"Rose, we really need you to know that we're here for you. All of us! Even the guys..." Lissa said.

"What do you want to know?" I said to them.

"Everything you feel." They said in unison.

"Well, I thought I saw a man brought back to life. He was warm but he came around like he wasn't dignified. He showed me what it was to cry... and you guys know that I never cries." I started of...

They all watched me intently, ready to hug me and tell me that everything will be okay.

"He couldn't be that man I adored. He didn't seem to know... didn't seem to care, what my heart is for... no I don't know him anymore..." I whispered.

"All our conversations has run dry, that's what's going on... nothing's fine!" I said, my eyes filled with unshed tears. I wouldn't allow them to fall ether.

"Oh, Rose..." I didn't know who said that, 'coz now I'm staring down on my knees.

"I'm torn... I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel. It feels like I'm lying naked on the floor, chained." I continued. "So I guess the fortune teller's right... I should have seen just what was there.. but Dimitri.. he crawled beneath my veins... I really don't have any luck do I, I whispered."

When I glanced back up at the others I saw that they had tears in their eyes. All of them were moved and sad about what I revealed about my feelings. I also saw in their eyes that they didn't know what to say back to me. But i couldn't blame them. Their moroi and I'm dhampir. I'm not supposed to love someone, because my life has been written already. I'm a guardian, a damn good guardian. And even though they're my friends, I haven't really talked to them since that day.

"Rose, how do you know that he doesn't love you?" Mia asked.

"He told me..." I answered her.

"What? He did?" Lissa asked with a bewildered voice.

"Yeah..."

"What did he say?" Jill asked.

"He said... Love fades. Mine has." I choked out, still with watery eyes. But i wouldn't allow them to fall.

They all stared at me in shock. Once again they didn't know what to say. But I guess that you really can't say anything reassuring to that statement. Even I didn't have a response to that. I remembered that I too, stared at Dimitri in shock when he told me those words.

"So... what do you want to do about it?" Mia asked.

"Nothing" I said.

"Nothing?" Lissa asked incredulously.

"Yep, nothing. Besides there isn't anything I could do, you know." I told them.

"So you're just gonna let it be?" Mia almost screamed at me.

"Yeah Mia.. that's exactly what I'm gonna do. I didn't run away from here 'coz I don't want to leave you guys alone. I would probably miss you all too much if I did. And if I stay, I can show him that I'm strong. That his words can't break me. And you know that I'm telling the truth. I'm not a runner!" I told them sternly.

"I think I know what we all need right now!" Lissa squealed.

"What?" We asked her in unison.

"A vacation! I know for sure that you do need one Rose. Don't take me wrong, I know you hurt and I know that you need time to heal. And what's better than a vacation?" Lissa asked.

"Well I suppose that it's fine with me." I said while smiling back at her.

"You're all up for it?" Lissa asked us happily.

"Yes!" We cheered

"Do you think that the boys are up for it too?" Mia asked while dancing happily in Lissas livingroom.

"Yeah, I bet they are!" Lissa squealed back att her.

"Liss... do you mean all of them literally? I asked with alarm in my voice.

Oooh! Do you think that Dimitri will go with them on their vacation? Review and tell me if you want him to follow them!