Chapter 4 Seeing Esme Again Part 2 More Bitter Sweet Memories
CPOV (Carlisle)
The lobby receptionist guy made me snap out it and said, "Hey! I don't have time to watch you stare out into space I have work to do!" I just walked away. As I was walking to the elevator I began to whistle a Christmas tune which caused a security guard next to the elevators to stare. And I just smirked and pressed the button. Once the elevator doors opened, I went in and up I went. As I pressed floor number 30, and as it slowly began going up, that is when another memory hit me.
*Flashback*
It has been 3 months since the incident with Charles and everything seems to be getting back to normal. However about a few weeks after Charles attacked Esme, she began throwing up, and every day until I finally said, "You know what Esme, I think it's time we get you a pregnancy test, because you have been throwing up every day for the past few weeks." So she takes the pregnancy test and it comes out positive. She began sobbing and said, "Carlisle w-what am I-I-I g-oi-i-ing to do?" I then told her, "Sh sh sh it's okay I'm here." "The first thing we are going to do is see how far along you are, and then whatever you want to do from there I will support whatever decision you make." The next day I take her to the St. Hill Memorial Hospital where I work. When I took Esme into the exam room, I told her to put the gown on that is when I left the room. A few minutes later, I came back in and I told Esme to then lie down on the bed and put her feet on the stirrups. I then put on my gloves and put the cold gel on the ultrasound wand and checked to see how far along she was. I sighed and said, "Well Esme you are approximately 2 ½ months pregnant." "What do you want to do?" Esme then thought about it for a few minutes while I was putting the stuff away and washing my hands. I then left the room so she could get dressed and when I came back she said, "Carlisle I have decided that I want to keep the baby so that we can raise it and even though Charles is the father you can become the father of this baby." When I heard her decision I was thrilled, because I have always loved children and couldn't wait to raise a baby with Esme even though I wasn't the father.
*Time Reverse Back to 3 Months*
Esme is now 5 months pregnant and she decided to take some time off since she divorced Charles and maternity leave. While I was at work she was at home taking a bath and relaxing.
*Flashback Ends*
EPOV (Esme)
Since I divorced Charles and I am now 5 months pregnant I decided to take some time off and take a nice relaxing bubble bath. Just then, I heard banging at the door. I started freaking out so I got out of the bathtub and put on some clothes. Just then, I heard two gunshots and that's when I heard the door burst open. Charles then came into the room as I shut the drawer there he was. "Hello sunshine, glad to see me!" Charles said grinning. I gasped and said, "Get out!" "You aren't supposed to be here!" "I filed a restraining order on you!" He then pulled out his gun and I tried dodging the bullets but it was too late, he had shot me 2 xs in the side. "Nnnnnugh!" "Uggggggh!" I said while doubling over in pain holding my side. "Get up you whore!" Charles said. He then dragged me and threw me on the bed I tried escaping but then he knocked me out. Half an hour later, I woke up tied to the bed I tried wriggling out of it but the rope wouldn't budge. "Aaaaaaaaah!" I said as I felt the sharp pain go through my side. "Well, well, well, if it isn't Esme the doctor's girlfriend I should've killed you when I had the chance!" "It's too bad that pretty boy isn't here to save you this time!" Just then my cellphone rang. "Charles please just let me go!" I said while sobbing.
CPOV (Carlisle)
I had just gotten out of surgery and after washing up, I decided to call Esme to see how she is doing. After the fourth ring I said, "Come on Esme pick up!" Someone picked up and I said, "Hello? Esme?" "Are you there?" In the background I could hear shuffling and just then I heard Esme's voice say, "Carlisle! Help! Please!" "Charles let Esme go you fucking bastard!" I said seething while gritting my teeth. I heard a slap and Esme gasped. "Shut up!" Charles said. "If you want to see your precious Esme again, you are to come to the house where there will be a surprise waiting for you." Charles said while laughing. I then said, "If I find any wounds on her I'll rip you to shreds you hear me!" I then hung up the phone and headed home.
EPOV (Esme)
I was now sobbing hard at this point and I just wanted Charles to let me go. "Just wait until Carlisle gets a hold of you! I said. Charles again slapped me only harder this time. After he slapped me he pulled his gun out again and pointed it towards my stomach and said, "If you don't shut up I will kill this baby and then kill you!"
CPOV (Carlisle)
When I was in the car I began to boil up with anger, because if Esme was hurt I would blame myself for not keeping her safe. The second I got home, I would be tearing Charles into shreds if it's the last thing I do! I then pulled in my driveway making the tires screech, and noticed that the door was already on the ground. So, I went in and found Esme tied to the bed bleeding from the right side. Charles was standing at the foot of the bed holding the gun to Esme's stomach. "One more step pretty boy and I'll kill the baby!" Charles said. That had done it for me that was the last straw. "Charles you bastard get prepared to be ripped to shreds!" I said seething through my teeth.
EPOV (Esme)
Carlisle stood at the bedroom door and I can tell that he was ready to lunge at Charles. I yelled, "Carlisle! Please hurry!" "Please Charles let me go!" Charles then said, "I thought I told you to shut up!" He then shot me three times in the stomach. "Aaaaaaaaaaaaah! Uuuugggh! Uuuuuggh!" I said while gasping in pain.
CPOV (Carlisle)
"You are in for it now!" I said. That is when I lunged at Charles and broke his arm and cracked his wrist in half and punched him in the face. "You are going to pay for what you did to Esme!" "You are the dead man here you got that!" I then picked him up by the collar and said, "If I catch you here in my house again next time you won't be so lucky!" I then heard Esme scream in pain. When Charles ran off, the neighbor came out and told me she already phoned the ambulance. So, I then ran to Esme's side and said, "Sh sh sh its okay I'm here."
EPOV (Esme)
I started feeling dizzy and everything started going blurry. I then scream in pain and call for Carlisle. Within two seconds he was there telling me that I was going to be okay. I then began sobbing and said, "C-c-a-r-l-lisle I'm cold, p-p-l-ease don't l-let m-me d-die." He then wrapped me up in his thick navy blue jacket and said, "Shh shh don't worry love I'm not going to let you die I promise." I was then put in the ambulance and hooked up to the heart monitor. I was put an oxygen mask on me and they told me to breathe. Carlisle let me squeeze his hand and he was stroking my hair. It took all I had not to cry but I just couldn't hold it in anymore. I began to sob.
CPOV (Carlisle)
It just hurt me to see Esme crying I too tried hard not to cry I wiped her tears away but more kept coming. When we got to the hospital, we had taken Esme to the operating room. When she was getting prepped to get the bullets out of her, I whispered in her ear I will do my best to keep you and our baby alive. I then put the anesthesia mask to help her sleep. Once she was asleep, one of the nurses put a fetal monitor belt to monitor the baby's heartbeat. I then pulled the bullets out of her side with no problem, just then all of a sudden as I started pulling the first bullet out on the lower stomach the baby's heart rate started dropping rapidly due to a blood clot inside the umbilical cord. I said, "Rita put 500mg of epinephrine in Esme's I.V. so the blood can thin and get rid of the clot. But it was too late, the baby's heart rate hit to 0 and I blamed myself. When I had finished pulling out the bullets and sewing the holes back up. The chief of the hospital said, "Carlisle I want you to take Esme's baby out and sew her stomach back up." "And then I want you to tell Esme that her baby is dead." So I was now faced with the most difficult decision that I would have to make in my whole life. But considering the fact that I had no choice but to remove Esme's baby and tell her the devastating news. After I did that the nurses and other doctors took Esme to the ICU. When I got into Esme's room, I waited for her to wake up.
EPOV (Esme)
When I woke up, I saw Carlisle at the side of my bed holding my bed sobbing silently. I said, "Carlisle what's wrong?" "I'm still alive aren't I?" He looked up and that's when he told me the most devastating news that I never expected to come out of his mouth. He sighed and said, "I'm sorry Esme, but he's gone." "I had to take the baby out, which would explain why your stomach is now flatter." I then starting sobbing hysterically and said, "w-w-what h-happened?" Carlisle then said, "I'm sorry Esme, during the removal of the bullets, the baby's heart rate dropped rapidly due to a blood clot in its umbilical cord and died." At this point I was now sobbing loudly into Carlisle's chest because he had gotten on the bed with me and enveloped me in a hug. "I-I-I'm sorry Car-r-lisle." I said while sobbing. "It's okay I'm here." "It's not your fault. If anything it's my fault for not keeping our baby alive." "I did all I could to get rid of the blood clot and to stop the bleeding, but it just didn't turn out that way." Carlisle said. I then looked up at Carlisle and said, "You did the best you could and at least I am alive and for that I am grateful." That is when I started calming down. A few days later, Carlisle and I went home and after a few minutes of getting home he said, "Esme, would you like anything to eat and drink?" I then slightly smiled and said, "Not right now, I'm very tired maybe later, but thank you for asking." I then headed to the bedroom and lied down on the bed.
CPOV (Carlisle)
Seeing Esme in tears just breaks me in two and makes me want to cry along with her. I couldn't believe what Charles had done to her. He was going to pay one way or the other he will pay!
*Flashback*
Five days later, Esme was discharged from the hospital, but during that time Esme and I made funeral arrangements for our unborn child. Harry Carlisle Cullen was going to be his name. Even though I never got the chance to hold him, I was still heartbroken now that he was gone. We had decided to make it a private funeral service. It was going to be Esme, Pastor Trinity, and me. When we arrived to the New York Methodist Church, we sat down and heard Pastor Trinity give the most heartfelt speech that Esme and I have ever heard. Pastor Trinity said, "Good morning Esme and Carlisle, I welcome you today for this hard time for which both of you are going through. I know this isn't easy for you both but, I know what it is like to lose a loved one. Harry Carlisle Cullen was a sweet innocent angel who was taken too early. And Lord our savior, as we come before you today, we just ask that you help Carlisle and Esme in their time of need and let them know that you are with them to help heal their broken hearts. In your holy savior's name we pray to you Amen." After the speech, we headed out into the cemetery and found a luscious green hill with a hole already dug into the ground where we were to bury our unborn son. Just before Pastor Trinity put in our son, she said, "Dear Lord and holy savior, may you let Carlisle and Esme know that he is now in your hands resting peacefully with you for all eternity. Ashes to ashes, and dust to dust may Harry Carlisle Cullen be risen and I just ask that you let Carlisle and Esme know that they will see him one day again. Amen." Just as Pastor Trinity was putting the tiny box of his ashes in the ground, Esme began to sob loudly, and I too began to cry, and I just put my arms around Esme and let her cry into my chest. "Car-r-lisle, I-I'm s-s-sorry I just c-can't s-stop c-crying." Esme said while sobbing hard. As tears came down my eyes I choked out and said, "Sh sh sh it's okay love I'm here, and you have every right to cry." "You can cry as long as you need and want to." "But I am not going anywhere; I will be there for you always no matter what." I then kissed the top of her forehead. After the service on the way home, Esme had calmed down and said, "Carlisle, I want to thank you for being there with me through all of this." "You're welcome, you know that I would do anything for you right?" I said. She then smiled and said "I know and I love you Carlisle." "I love you too Esme." I said while giving her a smile back.