Chapter Four:Spoke with a voice that struck the sky

I placed my foot down on the pavement, and took a quick glance around, I was now in Forks, there was no question about it, nothing had changed in ten years.

It was like stepping on sacred ground, I knew I shouldnt be here, that I should turn back and run, but the sudden pain in my chest, told me other wise.

Everything I tried so hard to keep buried deep down inside, was now flowing through my heart, through my veins, through my eyes, and onto the pavement.

I couldnt believe that here I was trying to keep a low profile, and my emotions betrayed me.

I was crying infront of people who were walking back and forth across the street. I kept my head down so no one would notice.

To my relief no one did, because it was raining by now.

I had made a pit stop in the air port to buy myself some winter accessories.

I had my head wrapped in a scarf, and scarf covering my mouth and most of my neck. I had a hat on, on top of my head scarf.

I used the head scarf to hide my long brown hair. I had a winter jacket on and gloves.

I had hoped to be incognito, and thankfully with the rain I had not be seen crying.

I now had to make the choice of where to go next. My stomach made my mind up for me, I hadnt eaten all day, my stomach was growling and in knots.

I needed food in my stomach, before my nerves made me vomit.

I headed in the direction of a local diner, keeping my head down, or straight ahead, to avoid unwanted eye contact.

Not to many people went to this diner, and this is exactly why I chose it. It was near the forest, and most people went to the local cafe.

The only people who ever ventured here, were the out casts in town.

This fit me perfectly, no matter where I went, I was the outcast.

I hadnt made friends in Arizona, well not close ones anyway, I did have people Id occasionally talk with, or once and a blue moon maybe go to the library with, but other then that, I had kept to myself all those years.

I had made school my biggest priority, and was focusing on getting into a good college.

I took up a music class in Arizona, that i took throughout middle school and high school, because my school counselor had said it would look good on my college application.

I could play the piano, and the guitar.

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I was now a block away from the diner, and to my satisfaction, it looked almost empty.

I hurried my pace up a little bit, because it was raining harder, getting darker, and this wasnt a part of town you wanted to walk alone in.

As i stepped into the diner, I was shaking myself off, trying to get rid of the water from my body.

The host was sitting at a table with one of the waitresses, who were both now eyeing me up.

I had never seen either of these ladies before, and for that i was forever grateful.

I looked around to see where there was the least amount of people, and from what it looked like, to my left around the corner would be my best bet.

I finally spoke up a bit, "Table for one please".

The host got up and grabbed a menu, she gave me a strange look, as if to say "Pathetic".

"Do you mind if I sit back there?", I asked her quietly.

I had pointed to the back left, and by now I was sure she hated me anyway.

She gave the waitress a quick smirk, I guess she didnt think I had seen.

I smiled at her anyway, as I walked on by. As I followed the host to my table, I now noticed I was not alone back here.

I kept my head down as I sat, until I could further examine the company to my right.

I took my coat off, and the scarf that had been around my mouth and neck.

I finally got the nerve to look up, no one was looking at me. How pathetic, no matter where I went, not one person noticed me.

It finally dawned on me I was invisible. Part of me was thankful, while the other part felt complete and utter despair.

I would always be the pathetic, invisible girl, who ruined her fathers life. It dawned on me just then, maybe I hadnt ruined Charlies life.

What if he was happy that my mother and I were gone?

What if, he had never missed me?, What if all this time, I had just been one big nuisance to him, and my leaving, was the happiest thing that ever happened to him?

My face dropped as I thought of this, as well as my heart. I was now fighting back an army of tears, and my body started to tremble.

I had known that my mother loved me very much, but after a couple years, I had gotten the feeling that she regretted taking me with her, because now her and Phil, couldnt travel.

It felt like my whole existence never mattered to anyone, for the first time in my whole life, I realized, I was truly alone, and I always had been.

I was just a bother to everyone and anyone. I was too pathetic for most people, what with me being clumsy, and so fragile.

"HA", I laughed to myself in my head, though it was more of a conviction then a humoured laugh.

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*Someone cleared their throat*

I was brought back to reality, and now realized I had been staring at the table across from me.

My cheeks automatically flushed a shade of dark red, Im sure no one had ever seen before.

I gave a sad smile and turned away to look at the menu.

I hadnt really caught a glance at any of them, because I hadnt really been paying attention when I was looking at them.

The only thing I knew was there was 3 girls and 4 boys.

I decided I needed to get a better view, because if I had just blown my cover, I would need to leave as soon as possible.

I took my hat and head scarf off, and hung it up with my coat on the hook on the outside of my table.

I let my messy brown hair fall in front of my face, when I was sure no one was looking, I put my menu up as to say, I was reading it, and now looked at them from the corner of my eye.

I definitely didnt know any of them, and I now realized that none of them were boys or girls.

They had to be in bewteen the ages of 19-30. They were so beautiful, nothing like I had ever seen before. My eyes were now locked on the women.

The first one I saw had short, black hair. She looked so tiny and fragile, like a pixie.

I had to laugh at this, because she reminded me of myself, fragile, besides the fact that she looked like a goddess.

The girl sitting next to her had long beautiful,blond, wavy hair, she looked very confident and strong, I could understand why, she was the picture perfect woman.

She was definitely the most beautiful girl I had ever seen.

Next to her was a woman with carmel colored hair. She was the epitomy of beautiful, she carried herself like she wasnt from this time.

She seemed to be very motherly, everyone looked up to her.

Across from them were the guys.

Directly across from the pixie, was a tall boy with honey blond hair, he was very muscular, but also very lean.

His facial expression caught me off guard. He looked like he was in immense pain, even though he seemed to be enjoying everyone's company.

"Odd", I thought to myself. Next to him, but across from the blond hair goddess, was a man who caught me off guard.

He was very intimidating, he was even taller then the last man, very burly and muscular. He had curly dark hair, and dimpled cheeks.

This made me laugh, he reminded me of a big teddy bear. How could someone so intimidating have the cutest dimples, sweetest smile, and laugh I had ever heard?

Next to the big teddy bear, across from the elegant motherly woman, was a man who looked like a model.

He had blond hair, and like the rest of the men was tall and muscular, but he was very slender.

He also reminded me of someone who wasnt from this time, he carried himself a certain way that made me believe he was the leader of this group.

He had a defined authority, not one to be questioned, or disobeyed.

He seemed so kind hearted, and caring though, not someone who thought he was better then everyone, just someone who wanted the best for his friends, or family, I couldnt be sure if they were related though.

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I finally put my menu down and looked away, I didnt want to get caught staring at them again. My waitress came over, the same one who had given me a dirty look at the door.

Im sure she was so delighted to have to be waiting on me, the feeling was mutual.

I hadnt even looked at the menu, so I had to think fast. I ordered off the top of my head, before she could even ask.

"Two eggs, over easy, white toast, hot tea with milk, and a glass of orange juice, please and thank you", I spat out as fast as I could.

She gave me a look of confusion and surprise, and walked away.

Thank God, she was gone.

I knew I shouldnt look back over at them, but I couldnt help myself. I pushed my hair down again to cover the side of my face, and looked to my right again.

This time I noticed, they were all extremely pale, paler then I was, which was not normal.

Their eyes were like a topaz color, nothing like I had ever seen before, which led me to believe they were from Europe, or somewhere exotic.

I was still examining them, when I realized someone had caught me, though it was not some one at the table.

A tall boy was walking past me, staring at me. I had to catch my breathe, he had the same topaz eyes, and pale skin as the table across from me.

He had an angular face, high cheekbones, a very defined jaw line, a straight nose, and very fully lips.

His messy bronze hair, set off his beautiful eyes. He was tall, between 6'0- 6'3. He was very slender, and from the looks of it was muscular, also.

I couldnt help but stare right back into his eyes. He wore a very strange expression as he stared back into my eyes.

It was as if he was trying to see into my soul. He looked frustrated, like he couldnt understand something.

This made me very uncomfortable, and annoyed. Would I always be the freak of nature?

I shot him a look, that said, "Back off". He looked surprised, and amused. This only fed the fire to the flame burning in my chest.

I had, had enough emotional badgering for one day, and was certainly not going to take shit from any stranger.

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He was now sitting at the table of which had, had my attention this whole time. He ruined the only fun I had been having, and this just made me even more angry. T

he only peace I had was analyzing these strangers.

People always intrigued me, I always liked to keep to myself, but I liked to people watch, wonder where they were going?, what was waiting for them at home?,who they lived with?, if they were happy or not?, make up my own stories about them.

I wanted everyone to be happy, to get what they wanted, if it benefited the better good of everyone else around them.

They were all speaking louder now, and I could finally hear all their voices.

This startled me like nothing I could ever imagine, they all sounded like angels. How could this be?

Even the biggest kid of them all, with the dimples and dark curly hair sounded like an angel.

My jaw had dropped, and I was now picking it back off the table, thats when I noticed the stupid boy staring at me again.

What I wouldn't do, to just get up and sock him, right in between his beautiful eyes, that would teach him to stare at a complete stranger.

What a hypocrite, huh? I had been staring at his family for a long time, and here I was getting angry at this annoying kid for looking at me, the nerve of some people, right?

Haha, Oh Lord I was really loosing my mind. My food finally came, and I scarfed it down.

The strange family was still sitting across from me, every now and then when Id finally look at them, Id catch them all stealing glances at me.

Why on earth any of them would want to look in my direction, was beyond me?

They were all so beautiful, they had to know that, they had to understand when people looked at them, but to look at me?

I was the most pathetic, scrawny creature alive. I had to get out, I had to get away from them.

Something wasnt right, and was making me feel highly uncomfortable.

I finished my food and asked for my check, which my waitress already had in her hand.

I got up as quick as I could, which had been a little to quick, because before I knew it I was falling over.

I didnt know exactly what hit me, but I knew that the ground was ice cold and hard.

I finally opened my eyes after passing out for a few moments, and realized I wasnt on the ground.

I was in the arms of that stupid boy. I was more then embarrassed, and I could feel my blood pressure boiling.

I got up as quick as I could, which only made me stumble backwards again.

"Maybe you should sit down miss", I heard his angelic voice say.

"I-i-m F-f-i-inn-e", I whispered.

"You dont look okay sweetheart", the motherly woman affirmed.

"Esme", I heard the stupid boy laugh.

I was now aware that the whole table of strangers was standing around me.

How did he get up so fast and catch me? How did he know? Maybe he was getting up to leave, and by lucks chance, he had seen me going down.

I wouldnt have known either way, I had been in such a hurry to leave, to get away from them, and here I was surrounded by them.

The boy was ice cold, I guess he hadnt warmed up from the cold.

I tried to stand up slowly this time, and thats when the short pixie like girl, grabbed my hands to help me.

She had the sweetest smile I had ever seen. Her and the stupid boy helped me sit down, thats when I heard the beautiful blond call out to someone.

"Carlisle, you better check her out and make sure she's okay", she said so beautifully.

I was sure I had hit my head so hard and died and gone to heaven. The fatherly figure moved closer to me, and pulled out some things from a bag.

He must be a nurse or something, because only medical staff carried a bag like that.

My cheeks kept getting even more red by the minute, I couldnt sit here and deal with this right now, or ever actually. I liked to suffer in silence and they were ruining my plan.

"R-r-eall-y, Im-m Ffi-ne", I squeaked out

. This made them all laugh, it sounded like thousands of angels laughing.

"Carlisle, is a doctor", the boy who looked like he was in pain stated. He kept a safe distance from me, and now I wondered if I smelled?

I was too tired to fight anymore, so I let the doctor check on me.

He made me look at his finger as he pointed a bright light into my eyes. It burned my eyes, so I was thankful when it was over quickly.

"You look fine sweetie, I think its just a case of getting up way too fast, you looked like you were in a hurry, was your car on fire?", he laughed.

I couldnt help but smile back.

"Actually I dont have a car, well atleast not right now", I answered back, which only made them all look at me with a puzzled expression.

They stayed with me for a couple minutes, until I felt better and ate a piece of bread just to make sure.

I thanked them all for helping me, and quickly walked to the front to pay for my check. I glanced back at their table, and realized they hadnt eaten any of their food.

"How strange?", I thought to myself.

I paid for my check and was getting ready to walk out the door when I realized I had forgotten my belongings.

I turned around to get them, and almost smacked into someone.

"You forget these miss", the voice declared. "

Oh, um, I was just going to get them, but er, thank you very much", I said as I reached for them from the hands that were extending my belongings out to me.

I turned around and was walking away, when I heard the voice call out from behind me.

"Excuse me again?", and I turned around as he came walking towards me.

"Do you need a ride anywhere", the voice asked?

I didnt even know this person, why would I get into the car with them? I was about to say no, when I realized it was snowing hard now outside.

"Um yeah sure", I said with a hesitant look.

"Dont worry, we dont bite", the voice laughed.

I followed them outside, thats when the stupid boy finally turned around to me and said

"By the way, Im, Edward Cullen", he said as he smiled the most beautiful crooked smile in the world.

I was lost in his eyes.