It is now three years to the day that Christian and I became a family. He is now seven and is getting really tall. He enjoys going to his school of course with Sawyer with him. He has gotten really close to him and I am glad he has a male role model besides Carrick. We are still really close to Grace and her family. They adopted a little girl named Mia and are thinking of adopting another baby.

Christian and Elliot have become best friends more like brothers. We can't seem to separate them at all. So that is why I made a room for Elliot in my house. If Christian isn't at our house he's with Elliot causing mischief. With in the month Grace and Carrick settled down I made the legal requirements to make them Christian's legal guardians. I smile at that thought knowing that my son would be in good hands.

The past three years had gone by without any problems and now since I turned thirty that's what I told Grace. It wasn't easy to believe since I look like someone in there mid twenties. I look like some girl fresh out of college. Sooner then latter I'm going to work on making me look older.

On my way to pick up Christian from school I get an email saying I am need to go to Thailand to close a deal. The great thing about me traveling now I can take Christian with me and leave him here with some nanny. I'm pretty much a hands on mom when it comes to Christian. I am there through it all. With touch issues still being a problem it's complicated to get him out of his shell a bit more.

Stepping out of the car I see Christian walking with Sawyer to car and being extremely quiet. Wanting to wait till we get home to discuss his problem I keep glancing at Sawyer, but doesn't mention anything.

"Did something happen at school Christian?" I ask.

"Nothing happened mom," said Christian.

"Are you sure?" I ask. He nodded his head yes and went back to looking out the window. Getting home Christian runs into the house and goes to his room. Which is his normal routine. So I don't push him, but rather talk to Sawyer instead.

"Sawyer what happened today at school?" I ask

"Christian was getting bullied at school because he doesn't have a dad. They kept on name-calling and tease him. I took care of the situation by telling the principal and teacher and contacting the parents of the children," said Sawyer.

My blood is boiling with anger. How dare those kids tease my son. Thank god for Sawyer handling that. When I am in momma bear mode I went to rip there heads off for hurting my son.

"Next time that happens call me immediately and I will go to the school and handle it. You did good Sawyer."

Walking up the stairs to Christian's room I knock on the door before entering. I peek my head through the door and seem him taking a nap on his bed. The one thing that calms me down in an instant is watching Christian sleep. I wait till he stirs and wake him up. I go sit on his bed to talk to him about what happened at school.

"Hey there sleepyhead. Wake up its almost dinner time," I said.

"Okay," said Christian.

"Do you want to talk about what happened at school today?"

"No," he says while sighing.

"Okay I know you got tease today since the principal called. Can you tell me what you were getting teased about?" I never let him know that Sawyer tells me everything like things like this. I want him to communicate me even if I have to lie to get the truth out of him. He stays silent for five more minutes before he starts to sniffle.

"Why don't I have a dad? Is it because am a bad boy? Did he not love me? Did I make him leave me?" He rambles on asking why doesn't have a dad and breaks down crying. It broke my heart knowing he thinks that he is responsible for his father not wanting him.

"Don't cry baby boy. I don't know the reason why your father didn't want you. If he was here with you now he would love so so much cause your just an amazing boy. Anyone would be lucky to call you his or her son. I have that honor and blessing to call you my son. I love you deeply. Don't let anyone ever bully for things they don't understand."

"Okay. I love you mom. Can we have pizza for dinner tonight?"

"Sure why not. I'll order it now. Did you finish your homework?"

"Yes before I took my nap."

"Good."

"Can Elliot come over for pizza too?" I really just want to have something tonight just him and me because of what happened. Anything to make him happy I'll do it.

"Sure let me call Grace?" He left to go watch a movie while I called Grace to see if Elliot was free to come over. Grace said Elliot couldn't come because he got into trouble at school and would be grounded. So it's just Christian and me just like I wanted it.

After dinner and watching another movie with Christian he falls asleep on the couch. I pick him up and carry him to his room. I get him all tucked in before heading into my study I let Max go into his room after taking to use the bathroom outside. I head into my study and call in Taylor and make Welch come for an emergency meeting.

"Good evening gentlemen. I called you in here today because I need you two to find Christian's biological father."

"Ana are you sure?" ask Taylor. Welch looks just as surprise by my request.

"Yes. Just as a safety reason incase some tries to claim that he is Christian's birth father. I don't want to Christian to suffer incase he actually believes that they are telling him the truth. With in time if Christian asks about his birth parents I want to be prepared also. I want you to look high and low for him and get information on his birthmother too. I want you to keep me update and only get me involve if it's really necessary. I just want a file with everything you can find and put it in my safe. I don't want to know about them at all. I just want to have something that states the truth incase something happens. I want this be top priority till it gets done."

"We will do the best we can Ana, but we can't promise you to actually find him," says Welch.

"What I am asking is impossible given the situation that Christian was born into. I want my son to be happy and if he ever want to find he real father than I will support him. Just start in Detroit and go from there."

"We will do our best. Is there a budget on this incase we have to persuade someone for information?" ask Taylor

I burst out laughing. Taylor knows when it comes to Christian I spare no expense.

"No budget Taylor you know this." The men chuckle and leave for the night.

I walk up the staircase and head to Christian's room, but stop by the door when I hear him talking to Max.

"Max do you think I will ever have a daddy? Mommy says she loves me, but I wonder what it would be like to have a daddy. I get jealous and sad when I see boys with there daddies. I feel like I don't deserve a daddy sometimes but mommy loves me I know that. I hope I get daddy some day Max."

Hearing my baby boy say such things has me fill with rage and sadness. Rage because I never want him to think he doesn't deserve the love of someone other than mine. Sadness because he desperately wants a father something I don't know that I can give him. I feel like I failed him in that category. Well that stops know I will find his father and see if he is cut out to be in his life.

Double-checking if he is asleep I go into his room and prick his finger to get a sample of DNA. I leave his room head down to the basement. Once I am in the basement I do something I would never do again. Grab a glass of bourbon and sit in my chair. Since I became a vampire I found out I can find people if they are related by inhaling a scent of there blood. The first time I did this was in eight hundred and I tried to find some of my living relatives. When I found then they were nothing but liars and thieves. I was really disappointed and promised to never do it again.

But here I am doing it for my son who I love deeply. Concentrating hard I inhale his blood and focus on trying to pin point his father on the map in front of me. It is not like a see a vision and I see his face and all, but I just get a vague location and till I get to the location I am drawn to the scent of there blood and when it stops I find who I am looking for. My finger land in Ireland. I am a bit shocked thinking his father was here somewhere in the United States. His copper hair can be explained now. Now I need to see if I can plan I trip to Ireland and soon. I can schedule it in with my trip to Thailand. Now I am debating whether to take Christian or just do it on my own.

I go with my gut and decide to do it alone. I wont let Christian's hopes up and then make them crash and burn. Now I don't think I can take Christian with me on this trip. I better make plans for Grace to watch him while I am gone. Now I just have to see for myself if Christian's birth father is cut out to be his father. I wont hesitate to rip his throat out if he plans on hurting my baby boy.

Getting ready in the morning I decide on giving Grace a call to discuss Christian staying with them.

"Hello," says Grace.

"Good morning Grace. How are you?"

"I'm fine just getting the kids ready for school. And you?"

"getting ready as well. The reason behind mine call is because I want to see if Christian can stay with you while I go to Thailand for about five days. I know you may have plans if not then I can take him with me, but I don't want to miss school so much." Now I am just rambling on the phone.

"Ana it's fine. Christian is more than welcome to come stay with us. I feel like there is more to this am I right?"

I chuckle. "Nothing can get pass you can it Grace." I hear her laugh through the phone. "Yes it's because I have a lead on finding Christians birth father." There is a long silence on the other end of the line.

"I didn't know you were finding his birth father. Why now?"

I sigh. "There was an incident at Christians school yesterday. Kids were teasing him about not having a dad. Plus I want to make sure that I know who his real father is for security reason. I don't need some physco trying to make a quick million saying he's his father. Sooner or later Christian will ask so I just need to be ready for that as well. I'm sorry I'm rambling. I just feel like I disappointed him in a way." I start to feel tears running down my cheeks.

"Oh no honey you have every right to look for him. You're a great mom that Christian loves. You just want to protect him that's all. Don't be to hard on yourself you are raising a fine young boy."

"I know… what if he tries to take Christian away from me. I couldn't live with happening." I sigh. "There's a lot of what if playing in my head."

"Ana you have to stay strong for Christian. Whatever happens you will have my support. We love you like family. Stop your worrying all you are doing is checking out the guy to see if he actually Christians father. Now I have to go, but don't hesitate to call me if you need to talk or help."

"Thank you Grace. I don't know how I couldn't of done it with out you. Well I will let you go and make arrangement fro you to keep Christian. Send my love to your family."

"Okay dear bye now."

I felt so much better after that phone call. I just wanted someone to listen. I am probably am worrying for no reason. I make my way to the kitchen and see Christian eating cereal while talking to Gail.

"Good morning baby boy." I kiss he forehead. His tries to dodge my kiss I chuckle at his response.

"Mom I am not a boy," says Christian trying to scowl me.

"That is not true you will always be my baby boy. Even when you get married and have kids you will be my baby boy. I will pull you into y lap likes this. And shower your faces with kisses." Christian now sitting on my lap I shower him with kisses. I see him struggle to get out of my grip.

"Mom stop. It's not cool."

"Alright fine. Finish your cereal so we can go." Once getting in the car we make our way to Christian's school. I start talking to him about what is going to happening when I leave for Thailand. He is happy about staying because he and Elliot are going to go to a baseball game with Carrick and Elliot's grandparents. I make a note to get the best seats for them. Stopping at the drop off section Christian is hesitant to leave.

"Remember what we talked about yesterday. You are loved and always will be loved. Not having a dad is nothing to be ashamed about. I will be here in an instant if kids start to tease you okay?'

"Promise?" he says looking at me with a lost boy expression.

"I promise you. Sawyer will be there too. Alright give me a hug and go learn something." Saying our goodbyes I text Sawyer to call me immediately if something happens.

Heading towards my office I go through emails and email Andrea about making the arrangements for the baseball game and for Ireland. Heading into my office I call Taylor and Welch and let them both know I will be heading to Ireland after my business deal in Thailand. I make Taylor get more security on Christian since I will be out of the country.

Now I just continue with my daily routine till it's time to come face to face with Christian's dad. I hope I know what I am getting myself into.

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING. EVERYTHIGN BELONGS TO E.L JAMES.