Dear Diary,

Today was the most horrible day ever.

Tori decided to take pictures of what happened last night and she posted them ALL OVER The Slap. Now everyone thinks I'm some gothic, dyke bitch.

I hate her with all my heart. And to think I thought I was falling in love with her.

I had over 50 text messages, all from people wondering what the hell was happening. I'll just tell you the important ones.

Jade, what happened between you and Tori? Please text me back. - Beck

Can I watch sometime? - Rex. Seriously. How does he even have a phone?

Hey Jade! I saw what Tori posted. Can we try that some time? It looks fun! - Cat. How adorable, she doesn't even understand.

Jade? What is that on the Slap? I'm here if you need me. - Robbie. I don't even like that kid.

What did you do to my sister! She's gonna be more popular than me now. Can you make out with me too? - Trina. Ugh, I hate that girl even more than Tori.

Hey, I saw what happened on the Slap. Wanna talk about it? Come over if you want. - Andre. I was actually considering that. I had no one else to talk to …

Oh look, a text from her.

I have more of those, Jadey. Don't test me.

A chill ran down my spine when I read read that text. How did she take those pictures without me noticing? I should probably go to Andre's house. I need to get this stuff of my chest. Talk to you later, diary.

-x-

I told Andre everything. And I actually cried in his arms. How could I be so weak? But he held me and told me I'd be okay. I made him promise never to tell anybody and he promised. I just hope Tori doesn't find out. The things she'd do …

On that note, I really hope she doesn't come tonight. I can't deal with her.

I guess you want to hear - or read - another story from my past? Here you go.

It was 8th grade. Tori and I were inseparable, but only because she would never let me out of her sight. Everyone thought it was cute how close we were, but no one could tell how much I was really dying inside.

We were having our weekly sleepover, the one we had every Friday since 1st grade. She was running her fingers through my hair, whispering sweet nothings into my ear. I didn't fall for it, though. I knew it was a matter of time before she transformed into the horrible monster I've come to know.

"Jade-y," she whispered.

"Yes, Tori?"

"Do you love me?"

I didn't know what to say. Of course I didn't love her. She made my life a living hell. I felt her fingers stop moving against my scalp and she leaned back away from me.

"That's enough of an answer," she growled.

"N-no! I-i…"

"Don't lie to me! You don't have to love me. It's fine. Just know, I love you."

My heart stopped at those words. Was she serious? Did she really love me? Or was she just saying this so I'd continue to do what she wants?

"I'm serious, Jade-y. I know I've been a bitch to you, but it was only because I didn't know what to do."

"But why? After what you've been doing to me all these years…" I instantly regretted my words.

"What Ive been doing to you? What exactly have I been doing to you?"

"You've been… r-raping me…"

I felt her warm hand against my cheek, the sting resounding through my body.

"Raping you? Raping you? You've got be kidding me. Do you know what rape is? Do you want me to show you what rape is?"

Tears cascaded down my cheeks as I turned to look at her. "N-no…"

"Rape is what my father's been doing to me since I was in kindergarten! Coming into my room at night, telling me my pajamas are on backwards, and then telling me it's our little secret! That's what rape is, Jade. What Ive been doing to you? You like it! Sure, maybe I forced you at first, but you like it. Thats why you haven't told anyone."

My mouth took the shape of an 'O' as I stared up at her. She wasn't crying, no. She looked furious.

"I just tell the girl I've loved since God-knows-when that I love her, and this is how I'm rewarded."

The tears finally fell, and they fell fast. I shot up from where I was sitting and held her in my arms.

"No, Tori. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. You're right, you're so right. I do like it. I love this whole thing. I'm sorry. I love you, Tori. I'm in love with you."

Her tears slowed down and she looked up at me, smiling. "Really?"

I closed the space between our lips and smiled into the kiss. "Really."

Cute, huh diary? I wish. There's more to the story… but I'll reveal that later. Right now, I'm tired. Goodnight.

Did you like that? I dunno where I'm going with this story, sorry if it seems like a hot mess. Hope you enjoyed!