From me..what? Me..wha...I'm a...no..I couldn't..a vampire.. How? I stood stunned. Finally realization came flying at me. How stupid of me! I had completely overlooked the obvious. Sam had even been laying the clues out nicely. I had been too concerned on finding where that mystery scent led too.. I cringed. Jacob... Sadness swelled up in me again. I didn't let it sit there long, I had too much to take in right now. Of course I was a vampire. How could I be so blind? The eyesight, exceptional smell and hearing...the voices.. The voices..could I..be like...him. I was! I was now sure of it. It all made sense. I hadn't been going crazy, I could read minds. But then? I can block them too? I didn't understand. He was never able to block them before. Why was I different? It was all so much. So many thoughts were coming at me now. Jacob. Vampire. Victoria. Pack. Jacob. Why did I ever go back to that stupid meadow! Jacob was dead because of me! The pack is terrified of what I might do! I was sobbing again. They really thought I was a monster! Maybe I was.. My emotions were getting out of hand again. Thats when I heard them. The packs thoughts flew at me again.

"Jacob.."

"Sam what are we going to do? Action must be taken."

"Why is she just standing there? Bella say something!!"

No, no, no!! I looked up. I couldn't take this. I couldn't handle my own thoughts, much less the packs too! I had to get out of here. I looked around. If I ran, would Sam and the others try to stop me? Would I fight back? I was overwhelmed with panic. I had no idea what new instincts might take over if I was threatened. I really had to leave before something terrible happened. Where could I go that would be safe? I could only think of one place.

Suddenly I was surrounded by darkness. My body was being compressed, what was happening? My entire being was forced into itself. How much pain must I be forced to endure today? Every bone in my body felt like it could shatter into a million tiny splinters. My lungs felt like they might explode. The pressure was imbearable. And just when I could take the pain no longer, it stopped. I sighed.

I opened my eyes and let out a gasp of suprise. I was no longer in the forest anymore..I was in the Cullen's house! More specifically, in Ed..I mean his room. What had I just done? It took a moment to recollect myself, I mean I was in Ed..HIS room! I tried to think back to my last thoughts, racking my brain for information. I remembered that I was trying to think of a way to escape the wolves. Thinking of a safe place to go.. The Cullen's house had been my automatic response. I didn't really think I would end up here! Especially not in this room. Yet again, I remembered where I was. The hole in my heart burst wide open. Sadness was my companion. I felt as if I couldn't catch my breath, even though I didn't really need to breath. Fresh tears came flowing down. Then reality snapped back. I was crying?! Vampires couldn't cry! What was I?! Not normal, thats for sure.

More tears came. I didn't question them this time. I was a wreck, I really needed to get a handle on myself. But today had just been too much. And to top it off I end up here!

I needed to think, get my thoughts in order and figure some things out. I calmed down just enough to think back. Okay, first. How did I get here? I traced back to my original thoughts. Theres no way I could have ran that fast, and that feeling.. All that pain, right before I opened my eyes. So I must have teleported. It was the only explanation that made sense, even if it was a little farfetched.

So that makes two powers. Reading and blocking thoughts, and teleportation. I sat and thought about this for awhile. Could I have others? Had there ever been a vampire with more than two powers? Better yet, more than one? I was so confused. Why did I have to be the wierd one? And then all that crying. Vampires were not able to cry. I couldn't even come up with a logical explanation for that one.

I layed there in the middle of the room in complete and utter confusion. I decided that now that I had a grip on being a vampire, it might be safe to let my mind wander.

I thought back to Jacob. He didn't deserve that fate. He deserved to be happy. To get married and have little black haired children. I thought back to when Jacob had offered to let me be a part of that. I told him no. What might have happened, if I had told him yes? If I had let go of all this sadness, and tried to be happy. I sighed. That was it though. I would be trying to be happy, but not truly happy. My happyness was somewhere far from here. I hadn't deserved a friend like Jacob. He had put so much of his time and effort into me, only to wind up dead. Why him? It wasn't fair! Tears welled up in my eyes. Right about now I wished that I didn't have the ability to cry. Just tp be a normal vampire.

I still couldn't believe it. Me..Bella Swan, a vampire. After wanting this for so long, and now here it is. Did I even want this anymore? To spend eternity alone. Alone. I hadn't quite comprehended the impact of that word until now. I really was alone now. I could never go back to Charlie. I could never go back to La Push. Jacob was dead.. This was it, completely alone for all eternity..