A/N: OK so there is a lot of dialogue in this chapter. Hope you like it
2 Years later – Naomi and Sam's Farwell party
"I can't believe he brought her" Addison whined to Naomi and Savvy
"I can't believe he is still with her" Savvy added
"Yeah how long has it been 6 weeks?"Naomi asked
"9 actually" Addison amended
"hmp maybe she's the one" Savvy said
"Oh please she may be the one for right now, there isn't a ONE for Mark Sloan" Naomi said
"God she must be all of 21" Addison said with disgust
"Why are we even talking about this and Addie since when do you care so much" Savvy eyed her friend.
"I don't, I'm just saying... look I have to spend more time with him then you guys do, it would just be helpful if I got along with his girlfriend."
"Yeah well if I didn't know better I'd think you were jealous" Savvy continued
"Good thing you know better" Addison answered. Careful Addison you can't let anyone know how you STILL feel about Mark. I just need to stop this. I want to stop these feelings I still have for him. Derek just think about how much you love Derek.
Savvy was clearly bored with the conversation and now left to talk to other people. Naomi was quiet, she knew why Addison felt the way she did. Not that they had ever talked about it. Naomi had wanted to bring the subject up so many times but in the end couldn't bring herself to do it. She would never forget the look in Addison and Mark's eyes when they looked at each other whilst dancing at the wedding. If Addison wanted her to know something she would tell her. Talking about it would just open up Pandora's Box.
"Do you know Mark isn't coming to the Shepherds for Christmas this year? It will be the first year he won't be there" Addison said sadly
"Addie, Mark has his own life, I think it's great that he isn't leaning on you and Derek so much these days" Naomi said
"Yeah of course you're right" Addison said wanting to change the subject "So I can't believe you're moving to L.A."
"I know next week. I think it's going to be good for us. I think L.A will be a great place to bring up Maya"
Mark stood quietly talking to Lucy, his new girlfriend when he caught sight of Addison approaching them. It didn't matter how often he saw her, every single time his stomach did somersaults.
"Hey" Addison said
"Hey Addison it's good to see you again" Lucy replied sarcastically
Addison held out a platter of cheese and crackers.
"Oh no thanks, do you have any idea how much fat is in cheese? I mean in your line of work Addison it doesn't matter if you put on weight, but I certainly can't"
"Thanks for the tip, it must be so difficult standing in front of a camera all day, really hard work I'm sure" Addison replied
"Addison that is enough" Mark said
Addison smiled sweetly, popped a piece of Brie cheese in her mouth and walked away. She returned to the kitchen, picked up her glass of wine and walked outside.
"What the hell was that?" Mark said angrily shutting the door and walking outside.
"She started it" Addison said without turning to look at him.
"What is this Addison? High School?"
"Stop being so dramatic, I'm sure you will be finished with her soon enough, so it won't matter that we don't get along"
"Actually for your information Lucy and I are not "nearly finished" I'm going to meet her family at Christmas" He still had a raised voice
"Oh" was all Addison could manage. She was a little shocked that he had plans with her for Christmas.
"Look Addison you don't have to like Lucy, but you WILL be NICE to her. Do you understand?" Mark spoke to her as if she were a child.
"FINE, I will be nice, but you may want to have the same chat to her"
"She has a name Addison"
"Fine I will be nice to Lucy. Happy now"
"God you can be so frustrating. You don't get to be like this. You don't get to be jealous, this was your choice remember, you chose Derek instead of me. So you are not allowed to behave like this"
"I'm not jealous, Mark don't flatter yourself, I just think you could find someone better, someone with a brain"
"Just because Lucy is a model does not mean she is stupid"
"No well from the conversations I've had with her I beg to differ"
"It sucks doesn't it?" Mark asked in a softer voice
"What sucks Mark?"
"Thoughts, thoughts of the person you want to hold, touch, kiss and make love to is doing those things with someone else"
"I...I.. um.. Don't know what you are talking about" Addison Stammered
"Yes you do. You've thought about me having sex with Lucy and it is killing you. Well Addie welcome to my world. I've been living like that for years" Mark said in a voice barely above a whisper which did nothing to hide his sadness.
"Mark, God I'm so sorry, you're right it is none of my business. I don't have any claim on you; I have no right to think about you in any way other than friendship. If Lucy makes you happy, I will try and get along with her. I promise"
Addison sighed and looked up to see Derek in the window with a strange look on his face. Derek walked outside.
"Hey is everything OK?"Derek asked
"Of course" Addison replied
"Mark?" Derek said as he looked from one to the other.
"Yeah we were just having an argument about who was better U2 or The Beetles" Mark replied
"Are you sure?" Derek said unconvinced
"Yes of course, you know Mark and I always argue about silly things. It's what we do." Addison said hoping to convince her husband.
"Ok as long as you're alright" Derek said smiling at Addison.
All three of them walked inside and enjoyed the rest of the night.
2 days later Mark was looking out of his office window when he heard a knock on the door, he didn't turn around when the door opened he only heard the soft clacking of her heels and the smell of Chanel No 5.
"What do you want Addie" Mark said softly
"It's not ADDIE" Lucy emphasized Addie
Mark turned around and in fact saw Lucy standing in front of him.
"Sorry, it's just Addison wears that perfume. I guess I just..."
"You just what Mark, thought that Addison was coming here to profess her love for you? Are you so wrapped up in her that you honestly don't think any other woman in the world wears Chanel No 5?"
"What no you're being ridiculous. We had an argument, I thought she may have been coming to apologise. Obviously not. Anyway it's good to see you" Mark smiled and walked towards her
"Mark don't. You and I had fun, but we both know it's time to call it a day. I mean I can't compete with her."
"Lucy, there is nothing to compete with. There is nothing going on between me and Addison"
"Maybe not, but you want there to be. Don't you? Look I'm not going to say anything to anyone, but I'm not stupid, contrary to what Dr Montgomery-Shepherd thinks. I see the subtle looks you give her. The real reason she doesn't like me is because she wants you just as much as you want her. You know the whole situation is pretty fucked up. You know that right."
Mark was too tired to argue. Lucy was right. The situation was so fucked up and had been for so long now. Mark started to laugh.
"I don't know what to say Lucy. I'm sorry. You are a great girl and any man would be lucky to have you"
"Yeah I know which is why I won't be anyone's second choice. What are you going to do?"
"What I've been doing for years, admiring from a distance. She's married to my best friend; there is nothing that I can do. Just when I try to get over her, I get sucked back in."
"Well Good Luck Mark, I hope you get the girl one day. For what it's worth I actually think you suit each other"
"Yeah, so do I" Mark mumbled as he hugged Lucy for the last time and watched her leave.
And there it was. Alone again. Damn you Addison. Am I destined to spend the rest of my life alone because I just can't get over you??
A/NSo hope you didn't mind the choice of perfume. It has been my favourite for years, thus my penname. Ok so this chapter was really just to build up a little more tension. Next chapter Addison starts to realise that she may have made the wrong choice. Please review and let me know what you think!!!!