A/N: What's up guys? I'm back for another update! I hope you all are enjoying this story so far. Anyways, this chapter takes place a few weeks after the last chapter. Also, I struggled with it some. So sorry if it sucks!

Chapter Four:

Dear Elena,

I'm still writing you these letters, hoping that maybe one day you'll write back or visit us sometime. Its been about a month since I transitioned. Its been hard but Damon is helping me through it. A couple days ago, we finally reunited Care with her humanity. She really needs her best friend, and so do I. I've officially moved into the boardinghouse, until we kill Kai. Those are Damon's words of course. I'd never admit this out loud but I'm scared. Every time I turn around I worry that he'll be there waiting for me. I miss you Lena. We all do. Please come home.

-Bonnie

I sat on the bed in my room of the boardinghouse, writing what seemed like the hundredth letter to my best friend. I tore the piece of paper I was writing on out of the notebook and started the spell to send it to wherever Elena was. After the paper evaporated, I heard a door creak open. I turned to see a familiar blonde poke her dad through the doorway.

"Hey Carebear." I called out.

Caroline stepped through the door and plopped down on the bed beside me. "Another letter to Elena?"

I nodded. "You know I don't get it. We're supposed to be friends for life. I just font understand what I did to make her leave."

She sighed. "Bon, its not your fault for the last time! Elena left because, once again, she couldn't handle it." She tried to pull me in for a hug but I pulled away.

"I'm gonna go for a run." I stated before vamp-speeding out the door.

I ran straight through the woods, not bothering to look at my surroundings. I kept running until I felt like I couldn't breathe. I stopped on the edge of a cliff. I couldn't bottle up my emotions anymore. The pain from losing my friend, the grief of every family member I lost. My power was getting out of control. For once in my life, I let go.

I screamed as loud as I could. My screams were echoing off the waterfall. I fell to the ground in tears and cried more than I have in my entire life.

I heard a twig snap behind me and recognized the scent as Stefan. I slowly rose from the ground and wiped the tears away.

"Bonnie, are you-"

"I don't need your help!" I screamed before using my magic to blow him across the woods. I turned back to face the water and jumped straight off the cliff.

Stefan had returned to the boardinghouse with a few broken bones that were slowly healing.

"What do you mean she's gone?" Damon questioned.

"I'm telling you. She attacked me and when I went back for her, she was gone."

"Well, we have to find her." The eldest Salvatore stated.

"Okay, Stefan and I will go anywhere we think she might be. Damon, try using the sire bond to track her." The blonde vampire replied.

The three headed off into the night to find none other than Bonnie Bennett.

I was currently sitting at the grille after draining an innocent couple that were walking down the street.

"I'm gonna have to cut you off. You've drunk way too much." The bartender informed me.

"No you're not. Keep the drinks coming please." I compelled him. And like a good little boy, he did as I said.

Three drinks later, I had a plan. "Follow me. Don't panic, just do what I say." I ordered him.

I led him out into an alleyway and compelled him not to scream or run away. When he was least expecting it, I sank my fangs into his neck and drank. I fed until his body went limp and fell to the ground. I grabbed him by his feet and drug him over to a dumpster. I was about to dump his body when someone clapping caught my attention.

"Well, well. What do we have here?"

I groaned and smiled at the blue eyed vampire that stood next to me. "What do you want Damon?"

"Come on Bonnie. I know you. You're better than this."

I scoffed. "I'm better than this?! You don't know who the hell you're talking to!" I threw the mans body into the dumpster and continued my rant. "You know that I sat and witnessed my dad die and the entire time I couldn't do anything about it!? And you already know what happened to my Grams, don't you Damon?"

He looked shocked. "Bon, just calm down okay?"

"Calm down?! Are you serious right now?" I screamed.

At that moment, a brown haired woman that look like she was in her thirties walked out. I sped over to her and held her by the throat. "Back off Damon. Or this woman gets to be collateral damage."

"You do know I'm not my brother right? Kill her, I don't care." He stated simply.

I caught on to his bluff. "Okay." I said sweetly and snapped her neck.

"No!" Damon called as he rushed to the woman I had thrown carelessly on the pavement.

"Don't bother looking for me." I said before speeding off into the night.

A/N: And there it is! If you're confused as to why Bonnie was acting this way, she's been through a lot and it was just a matter of time before she exploded. Hopefully y'all enjoyed it! Review please!