Klaine FTW!

Chapter 4

Sorry guys for not updating soon enough. I'll try my best to update it regularly. I won't go on about how busy I am or something to keep up with this cause really, Nobody wants to know that, but seriously though, Sooo sorry for the long absence! Hopefully you'll be happy with this one.

Copyright: Nothing is mine. I don't own Glee. I hate this fact.

Rachel thought it was supposed to be magical. It was supposed to be intense. Intense with need and passion for each other. The touch of their hands against one another. Skin against skin. It was described by philosophers and in movies, books and everybody in the whole damn world as flames burning within her body and soothing with every touch and every kiss. Making love is described to be the most sensual and pleasurable thing you could ever do with the one you love.

To Rachel, it was awkward and painful.

She wasn't sure why did she did it. Yes, the reason of giving something to Finn that nobody else could ever have from her sounded like a very romantic idea and she was sure that because Finn was the love of her life, it would be every bit as romantic as it could get, making love.

But as she made her way home, (Finn insisted she stay the night or to at least drive her back, with that dopey happy grin he has, but she politely declined. Saying that her car was here and she had to be somewhere early in the morning.) She was stumped at the disappointment she felt. Her first time wasn't supposed to be like... that! It was supposed to sweet and cherished. She didn't know if she even enjoyed it all together. At one point, she was so into it, she moaned loudly enough that it had Finn grinning smugly. But most of the time, she was so uncomfortable and awkward, and no amount of kisses from Finn could shake the feeling off.

Finn was oblivious to her though. So clouded was he by the pleasure he had, he didn't realize that Rachel didn't receive any pleasure from it. But of course he wouldn't when he basically panicked when he saw the blood on her thighs and thought that the flush from her face was because of the immense pleasure he gave, not the real pain of feeling herself break into two.

Rachel shook her head and parked her car into the driveway. She fished out her keys and slowly crept her way into the house and into her room. Going into the bathroom, she looked at the mirror and examined herself. They've said that you could see when a person has already done it. She looked at herself and saw that despite the dark circles under her eyes due to the fatigue of just finishing her opening night and the little activity she had with Finn, she looked like her usual self.

Huh, she thought. Maybe other people could see it. Undressing and giving one last look at herself in the mirror, she jumped into the shower and scrubbed herself of recent events.

The next night, having the "experience" done, she could feel herself opening up a bit. She knows now what Artie said about the couple's sexual tension being the tool for them to play their character. Rachel used her knowledge and experience of wanting that love and pleasure so much to portray it on the stage. She understood now, Maria's need to be with Tony and her intense longing for him. It makes the whole play even more dramatic and beautiful.

If only she had that 'intense' pleasure last night.

But she was sure, that by the way Blaine was walking, more like strutting with an extra jump in every step, that he got some of the 'intense' pleasure she was supposed to have. His eyes practically beamed with love and happiness. She could see that his way too secretive was going to be plastered on that face for a long time coming. Oh, Blaine did indeed get lucky last night.

Tonight's play was a hit! The crowd gave extra enthusiasm whenever they came up to the stage. Everybody improved and if last night was fantastic, tonight was ten times more fantastic. Ms. Pillsbury and Coach Beiste, even Artie was in tears when the curtains rolled down.

"All of you were fantastic! Incredible! It was much better than last night and the audience absolutely loved it!" Artie said as he wheeled in the center of the circle of actors and crew members. Mike, who was beside her, gave Rachel a high five and hugged Tina. In the corner of her eyes, she saw Blaine wrap his arm around Kurt, they were smiling at each other. Oh, those two are so adorable and so in love.

"And I want to congratulate both Blaine and Rachel. Last night you were already amazing, but tonight, you guys left the audience speechless. Simply brilliant!" Artie said. Rachel glanced at Blaine and she smiled knowingly at him, causing both him and Kurt to blush. Rachel giggled.

It was the same for every seven nights after that. Rachel gave her all and in return was praised by everyone for her stellar performance. Even Santana, who said that she was so good, people forgot about the giant nose impairment on her face. Rachel shook her head and smiled at Santana and the Latina smiled back, because Rachel knew that despite that rough bitchy front she always gives, she really meant what she said. It was just Santana's way of saying things, adding some insults here and there.

Finn was being the great boyfriend that he had forgotten to be these last few weeks. He went to see her every night, and told her she was great and that he loves her. She nodded and kissed him even though she noticed that the entire time he was there, he was either sleeping or playing with his phone.

And every time he tried to convince her to come over to his house or hers or maybe go somewhere private, she politely declined saying that she was tired and pulled her puppy dog eyes out until he agreed and left. It wasn't that she didn't want to be with him. She just didn't want to have sex with him. She didn't want to be disappointed again after the last time. She was afraid that once she agreed, she would create some high expectations of it being better only to have it crushed because in reality it... sucked.

The following week, some kids at school nodded at her and some would say hello to her. Rachel was smiling all the way to her locker. Finally, she thought. She feels like she could fit in wholly in high school. She smiled as she grabbed her books for the day and closed her locker to find Puck leaning against the locker beside her.

"Hello, Noah." Rachel greets. She started calling him Noah again after he defended her and Finn for kissing at Nationals. (No one deserve some love beside you, princess) and Finn was a bit annoyed by it but let it slide after Rachel convinced him that she loves him and only him.

"Hey, my hot Jewish American princess." Rachel giggled at the nickname. She really liked it. It gives her the same giddy feeling as her father calling her their Star, or Blaine calling him Maria and Kurt calling her his Diva. "So, how was it?" Puck asked.

"How was what?"

Puck rolled his eyes and wrapped his arm on her back and walked with her to their next class, which was Spanish. "Rach, you are talking to the Puckasaurus here; Man-whore and badass of McKinley High. What do you think I was asking about?" Rachel glared at his choice of words and told him to not be so crude and that he is a respectable and a changed man now. The only response Puck gave was rolling his eyes and arching his infamous eye brows that she was sure got the attention of the girls around her because she thought she hears one or two sighs around her.

Rachel knew what he was asking but was shy and a bit embarrassed to answer it. She was quiet for a while and Puck was beginning to suspect something was wrong when Rachel answered him. "It was okay, I guess."

"Okay? Okay as in how?"

"Oh my God, Noah. You don't honestly think I should give the details do you?" Rachel said.

"No way! I don't want to hear how Finnocence got it up. That's something I'd never want to hear in my life even if ScarJo wanted to whisper it with her sexy voice. I could still throw up," Rachel laughed. "But seriously though, Okay? What is that? Was he forcing himself on you or something? Cause I could beat him up, you know. Nobody messes with the hot Jews, even Finn." Puck said it with so much hope that caused Rachel to rolled her eyes at him.

"No, Noah, He didn't force himself on me." She cringed at the word and stared incredulously at Puck, who was pouting, knowing that he's not punching anyone.

"Too bad. I miss beating people up. I need to kick some ass."

"You are not kicking anybody behind, Noah. The sex was... okay."

"Rach, sex is not supposed to be 'okay'. It's suppose to be fun and pleasurable and momentous enough like having to score a touchdown or maybe for you like, getting a solo for you to have a go at it again." Puck explained. Rachel was kinda surprised to see Puck being so... insightful.

"I don't know what to say, Noah. It was just okay for me. It does mean something to me because I did it with Finn, whom I love but, that is just it. It was Okay." Rachel said. Seeing the students milling around in the hallways, Rachel whispered, "But don't tell anyone I said that it was okay. I don't want Finn to think that he was bad in bed or something."

Puck smirked and halted, turning to face Rachel. "Well, obviously he is. Or else you wouldn't say it was 'okay'. Seriously Rachel, that is so bad like it's the same level of being slushied or being called gay for a guy. Not that I have anything against gay, but you get what I mean."

"But, that doesn't make sense. I read all the books and watch videos on how it was supposed to happened..."

"You watched porn?!" Puck shouted, causing several students around turns towards them and some guys to give an appreciative glance at Rachel. Who knew Rachel Berry watched porn!

"What?! No, Noah. I meant I watched the documentary of sex on Discovery Channel and the 'bird and the bess' 101 video that my dads gave me when we had the 'talk'." Puck clamped his mouth shut. Of course his princess watched some documentary instead of some porn to learn how to have sex. He shook his head. Man, when he thought Rachel said she watched porn, he nearly came in his pants!

"Anyway, I don't know. It was... I just... We were just... doing it, you know. God, Noah, I don't know how to explain. It's not like I didn't feel anything. I loved him, and he loves me and I get that but..."

"Maybe you are wrong. Maybe you're not in love with him."

Rachel was silent. Was she not in love with Finn? No. She does love him. They did not go through all the things they did to not love each other. If she didn't, than she obviously cared for him; He is her first love.

"Because seriously Rach, for someone who just had sex with someone you love, you still talk and act like you have a stick up in your ass. Plus, you don't make any googly-oh-I'm-in-love eyes at Finn anymore." Puck said.

"I don't?" Puck nodded and Rachel was once again spiraled in her thoughts with confusion.

"Yup, and you know how people looks like when they just had sex? Here's your example. Hey, Blaine. Kurt. What's up?" Rachel looked up to see both Kurt and Blaine, hand in hand. Blaine smiled and approached the two of them.

"You go ahead, I'll catch up with you later." Kurt said to Blaine, to which Blaine nodded and Rachel watch as Kurt gave a glance at her and continued on his way to other side. She really needed Kurt back in her life. He would know what to tell her now.

"Hey Puck. My Maria. What's up?" Blaine asked.

"What's up? What's up, is you guys apparently. Getting busy under the sheets. Congrats man!" Puck slapped his hand on Blaine's back, who was blushing madly and glared at Rachel who was giggling watching them.

"How did you know?"

"Pfft, please. You are talking to THE Puckasaurus here. I know when someone just had a good lay. Well, at least one of you did." Blaine looks at them questioningly and before Rachel could stop him, Puck relayed to him how Rachel's first time was 'okay'. God, she really hates that word now.

"Are you serious? What happened? Are you alright?" Blaine asked his face filled with concern.

"I'm oka- I'm fine. There's nothing wrong with me and Finn." Rachel said. She was getting agitated by all the talk of her first time. It was uncomfortable!

If only Kurt was here. Or maybe Mercedes. She wouldn't feel so awkward right now.

"Bullshit. You didn't get a good lay with Finn and you can't deny it." Puck said.

"So, what if I did? So what if I didn't get to come when I had sex with him? It was done and I get what I wanted from it to perfect my role as Maria and he gets me. We love each other and that is enough."

"Rach," Blaine said, putting his hands on her shoulder. "That is not how you are supposed to feel about your first time. It is not what you should do to perfect a role or something. You should feel loved and enjoyed it. It most certainly not supposed to be just an okay experience."

Rachel sighed, she was really uncomfortable discussing this with two men but who else could she talk to? "I know. It means something to me because it was with Finn, the guy of my dreams and the moment was perfect and all..."

"It's just… not what you expected?" Blaine asks.

Rachel looked down. Not what she expected? What did she expect to happen, after all? She didn't know what she expected out of the sex, but one thing for sure, Finn did not gave her any.

"Or maybe you don't love him as much as you think," Puck chimed in.

"What?!" Rachel turned to Puck incredulously.

"Yeah. Puck's right. Maybe you didn't love him enough to actually feel anything about it. When I was with Kurt, I felt it and to be honest Rach, lately you and Finn seemed kinda off." Blaine said.

He definitely thought that Finn and Rachel were off. Ever since he came to McKinley, Finn started hanging around the jocks a lot more and picking fights with Santana and basically leaving Rachel alone. Also, he became a bit of a dick to Blaine whenever he got the chance. Kurt sometimes hated the way Finn behaved but since he was his stepbrother and their dad was running the campaign for the elections, he let it slide. He watched as Rachel was silent, thinking of the things that he had said. Blaine looks at Puck and the mohawked teen nodded at him. Puck felt the same and he even thought that with Rachel focusing on getting into NYADA as well as Finn getting a scholarship, the 'romance' sizzled out. Also, he thought that Finn and Rachel were both deluded by their idea of chasing around to get each other as their love.

"I.. don't know..." Rachel trailed off. The bell rang, signaling that classes were about to begin. Rachel quickly muttered her goodbyes and fled to her class with Puck in tow. She wanted to hear no more of the discussion. It left her thinking that maybe Finn was not 'the' right guy and she can't tell him that.

Rachel rolled her eyes as she watched Finn and Santana with Rory and Brittany lashing out at each other throats. Well, Santana lashed out. Finn was seething and glaring at Santana that making him look like he was constipated. It has been the same thing all over again. Every time they passed each other, whether in the hallways or at the parking lot, or maybe even during glee practice where Santana sometimes popped in to make snide remarks to them, she and Finn would get up and throw each other insults and verbally fought with each other, at first defending their glee clubs but then ventured off into personal matters (personal as in Santana kept making remarks of how Finn was bad in bed and she feels sorry for Rachel for having to go through with it now... Rachel tried to defend Finn but always faltered as she could not denied it, Finn was a bad lay. Blaine and Puck seemed to enjoy it every time Santana brought that matter up.), to which Mr. Schue or maybe Ms. Corcoran would stop them. It seems a petty thing to be argued upon for Rachel. It seems childish to her to insults and fight one another, when you could just end it by winning Sectionals. Sing. That was more her style.

But apparently, Finn and Santana thought that shouting and screaming profanities and insults are a better method than singing. Rachel, and the rest of the members, she believed, were tired of it. She was also angry that nowadays, all Finn could talk about is Santana and their daily quarrel and how he was going to make a good comeback the next time they do. Honestly, she just want to ram his head into the wall repeatedly and shout at him to grow up and help her with the set list for Sectionals if he wanted so much to beat Santana.

Now, because of that thick boyfriend she has, she and the rest of New Directions and the Trouble Tones are dressed in their school gym tees and shorts because Finn suggested that they settle their fight through dodgeball.

She could finally understands now why Puck and Blaine said that she maybe didn't love Finn because, playing dodgeball? Finn has never acted stupider than he was right now. What on Earth did she ever see in this guy?

Sighing, she looked around and her gaze settled upon Kurt who was tying his shoelaces. Rachel walked up to him and released her breath. She misses him and she is going to get him to talk to her again. Apparently, Kurt was not interested in talking with her, or being friends with her at all since she, as he described it, should have thought of not being a overboard socio-pathic freak and walked all over him.

Okay, she knew that she deserved that because of what she did, but that doesn't mean that it didn't hurt her. She was really sorry and she misses him so much. Rachel watched as Kurt walked away leading to Blaine and she watched as Blaine gave an apologetic smile to her. Blinking back some tears, she started to stretch her muscles. She cursed her boyfriend as she was once again reminded of why they were here.

"Hello. I'm Rachel Berry and I have campaigned for president on a crusade for school book covers, a plan to save the school thousands of dollars." School book covers? Why did she think of that idea? It seemed so small and not as worthy as what Kurt had vouched to do on his campaign. She could even see herself voting for Kurt.

"While I still consider this plan an inspired stroke of political genius," She took a deep breath. She was going to do this. She has to. This does not matter to her. Not as much as Kurt does. "I hereby withdraw my candidacy and urge you all to vote for Kurt Hummel." She watches as the people all looked at her in shock. She turned toward Kurt, who looked at her curiously.

"He's the only candidate here who never went negative. H-He's the one who deserves to be the president." Rachel looked through the crowd and saw how Mr. Schue, Mr. Hummel, Mike, Tina, Artie, Blaine, Puck, Finn and even Quinn looked at her... proudly. She smileed. "That's why I'm casting my vote for Kurt Hummel. Vote Hummel, McKinley. Vote for Kurt."

"Only Rachel Berry could perk up an old boring high school debate with such a riveting twist."

Rachel smiles. God, she missed the sarcastic retorts that only Kurt could gave her. She grinned at him. She had missed him so much!

So, when she asked for a hug after telling him how she hated him hating her and that he hated it too, she nearly squeezed the life off of him but both didn't care. They were friends now and that's what important to them. They are together now and will still be together in New York and nothing is going to stop them from reaching their dreams.

"Thank you," Kurt said to her.

She nodded and grabbed his arm and they walk together like they used to. Finally, after a long time of being alone, she finally had her best friend again.

"I think you should talk to him," Kurt said to her as they both sat on her bed, doing their homework like old times.

"Who?"

"Finn, of course." Seeing the hesitant look on her face, Kurt continues, "You have to tell him how he is neglecting you and that it's not working out for you two anymore."

"I don't know, Kurt. I mean, he's not the only one who is doing the neglecting part. I've been so preoccupied with NYADA and hanging out with you again. Not that I don't want this. I missed you so much and Finn is busy with his own hunt on a new scholarship for football."

"Don't you mean consoling Santana for outing her out like it was a Saturday Night Live Show? Rachel, you were suspended and he didn't even came up to comfort you. You're still suspended and all he could think about is covering up his mess with Santana," Kurt fumed.

"Maybe he is sorry? I don't know, Kurt. I'm mad that he is doing this to me. But I find it partially a blessing since I don't have to spend time with him and hear about how he is sorry for outing Santana," Rachel said. She realized now that maybe the fire that was usually there with Finn had sizzled and now, she couldn't stand being with him.

But she still is reluctant to break up with him. They've just reached their fifth month anniversary. One they didn't celebrate because it was the same day they did a number for Santana. Again. She wanted to be jealous of the girl, but feels that she couldn't care less.

"Rachel, it is not healthy to continue this. I know that you loved him and care for him but think of what's to come. I mean, we're going to New York no matter what's the circumstances and Finn is still undecided, plus he basically screams 'Toby Keith". Not as much as Sam does, but you get my point." They both giggled and Rachel had to stop herself from remembering last Thursday's event where She and Kurt went out to look for Sam since she had been banned from competing at Sectionals.

White chocolate has another meaning to them now.

"Kurt, how can you say that? He's your step-brother."

"Step-brother or not, he's acting like a two year-old knuckle-dragger who could not even tell a difference between jelly beans and jelly worms. Rachel, you are my best friend, despite all those fights and animal sweaters we have been through." Kurt smileed and she laughed, "You are my best friend and if you stay any longer with Finn, you will get hurt. Both of you will." Kurt put his hand on top of hers and squeezed comfortingly.

Smiling, Rachel said, "Have I told you how you make me want to be your boyfriend?"

"Yes, and if by some disastrous intervention and you got yourself a sexual transgender operation. I'm sorry to say that you still don't have a chance. As you once said, Klaine for the win!"

"Oh, shut up Porcelain."

"As if you don't preach it, Doll."

Next chapter: Sectionals and Rachel and Sebastian meet for the first time :)