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Edward's POV
I understood why she did it, but it didn't make any sense. The way she did it was nothing like herself. I guess I just put her on the spotlight, and the pressure was too much. Nothing made sense to me anymore. After all, she was the only one for me. I had thought of going back to the Volturi, but I thought living forever would be the more appropriate method of torture. She was gone forever, and it was all my fault. I think about it night and day, what I could have done different, what I could have done to make her stay with me. I knew she wouldn't love me forever, but I wasn't ready for her absence just yet.
The pain grew so much that I couldn't stay in Forks. I had to get away from all the reminders of Isabella Swan. Alice begged me not to go, that she was worried that I would try to end myself again, but she didn't see anything in the future, and I planned to keep it that way. I decided to move up to Alaska, and lock myself in a cabin for the rest of eternity. The cold air would never phase me, seeing as how I am colder than it. The best thing about my idea was that there would be a very small population, if a population at all. I didn't need anyone wondering what was wrong with me. I'm the only one who needs to carry this burden.
I set off in a brand new Volvo, the smell of the new leather was almost strong enough to clear my head completely. The old one had her scent still in it. I drove slowly, as if there was nothing else for me to do, which was true. After a good three days, I arrived in Juneau. I pursued past the capital, to the northernest point. The neighborhood had very few houses around, which I liked. There was a small, four roomed cabin on the corner of the street that had a "For Sale" sign out by the curb. It would be a big change after what I had been accustumed to, but it would have to do. I moved my things in by myself, and planned to spend the rest of my life the same way.
It was a boring time, I'll admit that, but I thought I deserved it. I spent no time thinking about her, about my mistake, but you couldn't help falling back into some sort of trance if you caught yourself off guard for even a short while. Even though I had gotten rid of most of my things, the walls still screamed reminders of her at me. I had also noticed that I had become more clumsy. Without someone to stay alert for every day, you forget your feet. I swore at myself everytime I tripped. I knew that floorboard was loose, I just didn't do anything about it.
Nothing ever got done around the cabin. There were so many little flaws the place had, but I liked it that way. It reminded me that everyone has flaws, and no amount of glue or paint can hide them, you just have to love them as they are. So with unlimited amount of free time on my hands, what did I spend my time doing? I read most of the time. Depressing, gloomy love stories that always ended up going awall. It seemed like I could relate to them more.
Now, on one particular night, I wasn't sure what day, I got a knock on the door. I slouched over to answer it, and before I reached the door it swung open. Stupid me, wasn't even reading Alice's thoughts. I didn't do that much anymore, I even forgot I could. I laughed silently to myself. Alice started talking to me, but I wasn't paying attention, so I forced myself to listen. "...so you're getting a roommate." My brow tightened.
"Umm, say that again."
"You're getting a roommate. I think you're doing nothing but wasting your time and wallowing in your own misery up here, so I got you a new friend. Bella's moved on, you should too." That name made me wince. I couldn't argue with Alice, she only wanted the best for me. "Carsisle, Emmet, Jasper, and everyone else are in on this too, so if you don't like it, take it up with them." I shook my head. "I'm glad you're not going to argue. Her name is Kris, and she'll be moving in within the next week or so." I sighed, at least I'll have something to do.
Alice stayed for a few games of chess, and took off after a while. I looked around, the place was a mess. I didn't want Kris, or whatever her name was to think I was a slob, which I'm not. I spent the night dusting, waxing, mopping, and basically cleaning the cabin until it was spotless. Suddenly I realized that I was happier already, and Bella was out of my mind. I made a mental note to thanks Alice later.
A/N: Maybe a little short, I dunno. Let me know your thoughts, I've already got a "Bella should jump off a cliff again" comment. How about it? Because seriously, I'm making this up as I go.