"UGH, i can not believe you did that," Dean yelled at sam as soon as the brothers walked into their motel room. "You completely ignored everything i have been going through. How did you like it when i tried hooking you up after jessica? huh? it's the same thing sam, except you decided to start hunting again. i don't want to keep hunting. i am done sam. d-o-n-e done. no more, i can't do it anymore,"dean exhaled and just looked at his younger brother sitting on his motel bed.

"whatever, you know lisa's hot and how awesome was that meal?" sam said with his puppy dog eyes and a pouting lip at dean.

"ah, uh, eh shut up"

sam laughed at his brother and layed down on his bed. "ahhhh, now back to the case..."

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"wow, now i get why you never mentioned your job,"lisa said to dean. dean and sam had just saved ben from the local changeling and dean explained what his job really entailed.

"yeah, but i don't wanna do it anymore,"dean said looking down at his fidgeting hands.

"why?"

"my wife, i cant- i just can't without her," dean said as a tear slipped down his cheek.

"dean, i know sam has probably already told you this but she would want you to move and do what you do. save people,"lisa said taking deans hands.

dean started to cry and said," but i can't." lisa took dean into her arms as the tears started spilling. and they just sat, locked in a hug.

lisa then kissed deans cheek and led her lips to his. they kissed for a deep passionate second and then dean pulled away. he exhaled as she whispered," dean, i i um i know you'll never love me like you loved her but why dont you you stay in town for a little while and-" their lips interrupted lisas babbling. the kiss had this awesome power in it. like the sun and the moon were touching. no matter how much dean enjoyed lisa he still loved hailey more then anything, but he went along with it because he cared about lisa and hadn't felt like this in a while, content but not amazing, and dean like it.

somehow they had reached lisas bedroom and were laying a top her bed. they stripped down and lisa layed dean down on the bed. she wiped his face with her dainty fingers and kissed the splotches away on his cheeks.

"i'm not as flexible as i used to be," lisa smiled.

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"i'm not gonna try to replace her, dean. i just want you to feel some happiness again," lisa said. they were laying in lisas bed. ben was stil asleep after the nights crazy activities, he did get abducted by a crazy changeling.

"i know. i just i don't know how i am gonna be there for you and ben. everybody that i care about gets hurt."

"we're not everyone," lisa said. She got up and walked into her bathroom. she brushed her teeth and hair and then returned to the bed. she cuddled into deans chest and pulled the blanket up around her. " ahh, i wish we could just stay her like this all day."

"me too. i-" dean was interrupted by his phone ringing. he reached for it in his jacket pocket and flipped it own.

"maybe i spoke too soon," lisa said getting up and putting on her robe.

"hello?"

"dean, where the hell are you?" it was sam. he sounded worried and tired.

"i'm at lisa's house."

"oh, oooooooh," sam said. dean could hear the smirk in his voice.

"what do you want?"

"oh, nothing. i just thought maybe you had trouble dropping ben off last night. but now that i know your safe i'll just see ya later," sam said hanging up the phone.

"that was sam," dean said getting up and putting his pants on."i'd better get going anyway."

"mm-hmm," dean kissed her cheek as he walked out the room with his jacket in hand. "dean, don't forget my offer about sticking around for awhile," lisa said looking at dean in the mirror on her bedroom window.

dean looked back and met her gaze in the mirror," i wont."

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"What do you mean your sticking around?" sam hollered at dean. Dean had returned to the motel and explained to sam that he wanted to stick around in town.

"sam, i told you i was done and i meant it. i can't do this anymore and i think we or i will be happy here."

"dean, hunting is our life. we cant just get a new one. there will be other jobs and other girls and we have to be there. and what makes you think your ready to settle down again after hailey? huh?" sam yelled.

dean looked down at his hands and then up at his younger brother. he met his gaze and said," i'm not asking you sam. you can't drag me out of here again. you just cant. and why is this life our life? huh? why did god give us this crap life? what did we do to deserve this? nothing nothing of huge significance that i can remember dad telling us. well, i can't take it anymore. i'm sorry but why is this our destiny? why did the man upstairs have to give us this destiny? well i'm sick of it. for now on i'm making my own destiny and you cant do anything about it sammy,"dean said and looked up at his brother.

"well, it looks like you've already made up your mind,"sam said sitting down.

"i have," dean said and stood up to face his brother.

"well, i hope lisa has a guest bedroom," sam said smiling up at dean. dean looked back at him and let out a chuckle.

"your a good brother sam."

"yeah yeah i know. no chick flick moments okay," sam smiled up at his big brother.

more coming soon :)