Author Note:

Random: HEY! WHAT IS UP! Now we are on chapter 4!

Hikaru: You learn things!

Kaoru: And meet Katie!

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Kaoru: WARNINGS: Language and mentions of sex.

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*So yes… we could hold up here well-provisioned and well-armed… and half of us would be dead within the month! Which seems grim to me no matter how you slice it! -Jack Sparrow*

I woke up in a surprisingly cheerful mood. The haze of jet lag had lifted, leaving me feeling refreshed. Although, I couldn't say the same for my temporary housemates. When I left my room, after showering and getting ready, I walked into their kitchen to find the two hunched over bowls of cereal.

"Good morning!" I said happily. I went over to their fridge and pulled out a carton of eggs. I was too happy today to have a boring bowl of cereal. "How did you sleep?" I asked them, taking out a couple of eggs and cracking then into the heated skillet.

"We didn't." Logan dead panned.

I frowned. "Oh too bad. You needed to get some rest for today!" I said cheerily, folding the eggs into an omelet shape and flipping it over.

Carlos sighed. "Well we were trying to figure out what we were going to say to Kendall, like you told us to." He grumbled and ate another spoonful of his cereal.

I blinked, adding cheese and other things to the omelet. "Oh right! I did say that…I didn't mean it literally!" I exclaimed. I found a plate and pushed the finished omelet onto it and went to sit next to Carlos. "Did you figure out what to say?" I asked.

"No." They both grumbled.

I got up again and poured myself a glass of milk. "Then what, exactly, do you plan to do?" I asked.

"Wing it?" Logan questioned.

"Yes, that's always a great plan." I said sarcastically, with an eye roll. I sat back down and took a bite out of my breakfast. Delicious! "Seriously though."

"We are serious." Carlos said. "That's all we came up with."

I choked on my milk. "Really? Dude, that is not going to work! Knowing you two, you'd probably just not say anything or say something stupid and hurt Kendall even more."

"Thanks for the vote of confidence, James." Logan grumbled. "…Did you just make yourself an omelet?" He asked, eyeing my plate with the almost gone omelet. "Without making us one?"

I looked at my plate then at him and ate the last bit of my breakfast. "No, and that's not the point. You need to think of something."

Carlos sighed. "We'll just apologies the moment he opens the door…or something."

I looked at him skeptically. "I don't like the 'or something' part to your plan." I told him.

"Look James, we're trying. It would do us a world of good if you would lay off us." Carlos snapped.

I took a sip of my milk. "I'm not the one who abandoned him in a time of need." I said, looking at them with the corner of my eye.

I saw them flinch and glance at each other before looking down. "You're not going to stop, are you?" They asked.

"Nope!" I smiled at their pain. They sort of deserved it for what they've made Kendall go through. "Now get your lazy asses up and dressed!" I exclaimed, pulling Carlos out of his chair. "Come on. Up. Got things to do, people to see."

Carlos groaned and rolled his eyes, jerking out of my grip. "Yeah, we got it. Be back in a minute."

I smiled widely and watched them walk to their room. "And no funny business! I will come in there and pull you two off of or out of each other. I've done it before."

"We get it!" They yelled back, slamming the door behind them.

*Time Skip*

Once everyone was ready, we all piled into the car that I drove yesterday. I couldn't stop smiling as we drove down the road to Kendall's. After not seeing the man of my dreams for over five years, that's what happens.

"James, quit that. It's kind of creeping me out." Carlos said from the passenger seat.

"And why are you driving? This is Carlos' car!" Logan added from the back.

"Carlos, I love Kendall. I get to smile about it. Logan, because I can't trust you two to actually drive to his house. You might chicken out." I told them, keeping my eyes focused on the road.

I heard an appalled gasped from the back seat. "We would-" I glared at him through the rear view mirror. Hey, my hair looks great. "Okay, maybe." He sighed.

I smiled at him, then looked back at the road. "So, figured it out yet?"

They both sighed. "No."

I groaned. "Okay, if you say anything that's hurtful and out of line, I'll punch you," I gave both of them a meaningful look, "Where the sun doesn't shine."

They both flinched. You know, this was fun. I think I might be a bit of a sadist. Oh well, I'd be anything for Kendall.

Soon we arrived at the Knight house. I parked the car in their driveway and turned to face the fidgeting couple. "Again, say anything hurtful and I punch you."

"You know, that doesn't help!" Carlos glared.

"Yes it does! Motivation, Carlitos, motivation."

"Yes pain is a wonderful motivator, James." Logan grumbled.

I smiled again. This is fun, really, really fun. "It works for all those bad guys in movies!"

"So you're the bad guy?"

"Yes."

"…The bad guy never wins, James. You know that right? The hero comes and defeats them." Logan said slowly.

"Exactly! So in this case, the hero is Kendall. He has the power to save you from my wrath. Hurt him and I punch you, don't hurt him and I don't punch you! It's simple, really." I said cheekily.

They both stared at me for a moment. "You're insane." They simply said.

"That's what I'm striving for! The villain is never fully right in the head." I grinned, tapping my temple. "Now! Time to fix things with Kendall." I clapped my hands together and opened my car door.

I was about halfway to the door when I realized that the other two weren't following me. I stopped and turned around in confusion. My eyes landed on the parked car I had just left and sighed. They were still in the car…you know, I might just punch them for being idiots. I walked over to the car and yanked both Carlos' and Logan's doors. I stepped back and crossed my arms over my chest.

"When I said now…it meant NOW!" I said tapping my foot. I was really getting impatient with these two.

Logan suddenly looked at me and climbed out of the car. "James, I'm…I am sorry for what I did and I regret it, so much, but I'm not sure we should just…spring this on him. As a doctor, this isn't a good idea."

I looked at him for a moment. I knew that this was compulsive and could possibly hurt Kendall more than help him, but as the saying goes, rip it off like a band-aid. "I get it. I do, but what other way is there? This is what both you and Kendall need." I reached over and yanked Carlos to my side.

Carlos gasped. "What the hell?"

"So we are going to march your sorry asses up those three measly steps and face the terrible mistake you made all those years ago! Let's go!" I punch a fist in the air and dragged Carlos with me.

Carlos flailed, waving his arms around frantically. "Wait! James! Don't I get to say something about this too? Like-" I cut him off by slapping a hand over his mouth.

Logan sighed behind me. "I need new friends."

"No, you need to make up with your friends." I corrected.

We made it to the door and I let go of Carlos. Him and Logan positioned themselves behind me, probably so I was the first one to be seen and Kendall wouldn't slam the door in their faces. I lifted my hand up and knocked on the door. I heard what sounded like Mama Knights voice and then the sound of heals tapping on wood. The door swung open and all I saw was brown hair as I was nearly tackled into a huge.

"James!" Said a familiar voice. It took me awhile to place it, because it had changed somewhat over the years, but when I did I wrapped my arms around the body and spun around.

"Katie!" I laughed, setting her back down and holding her at arms length to look at her. She'd grown into a beautiful women. She was at least the height of a model and she had that subtle beauty that seemed to be missing nowadays. "Oh my god! Katie! Look how much you've grown!" I gushed. It wasn't very manly, but give me a break, I hadn't seen the girl since she was about fourteen.

She beamed at me. "I could say the same Mr. Tall Dark and Handsome."

"Hey. I'm part model. Comes with the territory." I laughed. I just looked at her for a moment. "Gosh Katie. You're beautiful."

She blushed and pulled me into a hug. "It's great to see you again, James. We have so much to talk abou-" She stopped when she noticed Logan and Carlos. She pulled away, face growing hard as she glared. "What are you two doing here." She almost growled.

Okay, that threw me off. Maybe whatever happened was bigger than I anticipated, if Katie seemed to hate them too. "Whoa. I brought them." I told her, drawing her intense glare from the couple to me.

"What?" She hissed. I gulped. She was so much like her brother sometimes, it's scary. She was going into overprotective sister mode and she didn't go into that mode often. It usually was Kendall who went into overprotective mode. Well, used too. I don't know what happened after the accident. It probably came out more often now.

"I brought them." I repeated. "I know something happened between them, but that shouldn't stop them from being friends. It was in the past and they're sorry. They're here to apologize."

Katie seemed to soften somewhat, but only for a moment. "Did they tell you exactly what happened?" She asked me.

"Not exactly." I confessed. "Just that things were said that were hurtful and they left."

She looked between me and the others for a moment. "It goes a little deeper than that." She said then spun around. "Well come in. Mom almost has lunch ready." Then she disappeared through a door.

Spinning around, I stopped Carlos and Logan from walking farther into the house once the front door was closed. "What did she mean, 'It goes deeper then that?'" I hissed.

They looked down. "It's complicated James."

I gritted my teeth. "I'm beginning to wonder what was so bad. If it turns out to be something that I normally wouldn't forgive you for, I'm going to do more than just punch you." I threatened.

I didn't give them a chance to talk and just headed toward the door that was the kitchen. Upon entering, I was greeted by the sight of Ms. Knight in front of the stove. "Hey Mama Knight." I greeted.

She turned around and smiled at me. "Hello James!" She gave me a quick hug. "Kendall's in his room. You know where it is." She said, like she read my mind.

I nodded and thanked her. I walked the same hall from all those years ago, before we'd became Big Time Rush and I would come over. I opened the door to his room and found that it was completely different. All the pictures of hockey players, singers, actors, and pin-up girls, were gone, his walls completely bare. The hockey sticks normally leaning against the corner, gone. His guitar that sat right by his bed, gone. His huge collection of music, ranging from heavy metal to classical, was now small, only a fraction of what it used to be.

His room used to reflect the person he was. A fun, sensitive at times, spirited, loving, protective, loyal, stubborn, cocky, music playing, hockey jock that was always there for his sister and best buds. All that once reflected that, was gone. And I guess now the room reflected who he was now. Things were misplaced, lost. Wall's bare, guarded. Everything's changed. He wasn't Kendall anymore.

I walked into the room and saw the blonde in his bed. "Hey blondie." I smiled.

He jumped and looked up from the book he was reading. I smiled softly. He had always liked to read, not big encyclopedia books like Logan, but action sci-fi fantasy books with just a dash of romance. I'd once caught him reading a book his mom bought about a forbidden love much like Romeo and Juliet's, but without the sad ending. I still don't let him live it down. "Sorry. Did I interrupt your forbidden passionate love making scene? I can come back later."

He glared at me and set the book on the bed side table. "No… It hasn't worked up to that part yet." He grumbled crossing his arms.

I laughed walking over to sit on his bed. "Admit it Kendall. You're a girl at heart. What are you reading anyway?" I asked reaching over to grab the book.

"No!" Kendall shouted and lunged for it, but I got to it first.

I looked at him curiously. "Come on Kendall. We're 24, do you really think I'd care if you're reading-" I glanced down at the cover, "- 'A Man's Love'?" I froze, looking down at the cover again. "What the fuck?" I said in disbelief.

Kendall groaned, burrying his head in his hands. "It's not what it looks like." He said, voice muffled by his hands.

"Kendall this book is about a romantic relationship between two men." I paused. "You read gay-!" Kendall slapped his hand over my mouth.

"SHHHH!" He hissed, looking up at me. "Could you be quite? My mom doesn't need to know the literature I read!"

I felt a small amount of hope take root in my heart. "Kendall? Are you…?" I trailed off meaningfully.

He sighed and looked down, taking his hand off my mouth and rubbing at his face. "Yeah." He breathed with a nod. "I never got to tell you, because I didn't come to terms with it until about a year after the break up."

And the hope blossoms. "Does anyone know?" I asked. It would complicate things if he hadn't told anyone else. I'd have to be sneaky and I didn't like being sneaky.

He nodded. "Yeah I told every one about two months before the accident. Doesn't really matter though…" He sighed, hugging himself.

My face scrunched in confusion. "Why wouldn't it matter?"

He looked to the side. "I'm not able to do most common things now, James. I wouldn't be able to…satisfy my partner because of my injury. No guy in their right mind would want to date a guy in a wheelchair." He said sadly.

I blinked. Then I'm fucking insane, because I'm in love with a guy in a wheelchair. That's what I wanted to say. But I couldn't. Kendall was damaged. He wouldn't be able to handle the stress that sometimes comes with relationships along with the stress of being in a wheelchair, I could tell and until he was stable enough for me to tell him that, I would just be the best friend he can lean on.

"That's not true! I bet there is a guy out there that has a secret kink for dudes in wheelchairs." Because I think I was forming one.

He smiled slightly. "Yeah, just my luck. I'd find a guy who has a thing for people who can't move their legs. Can't run away." He joked.

I rolled my eyes and hit his shoulder playfully. "Seriously though. You'll find the right guy."

He smiled brightly. "Thanks Jamie." He said, reaching forward and pulling me into a hug. "You always did know how to make me feel better." He whispered, head burried in my shoulder.

I smiled and hugged him tightly. "It's what I'm here for."

"Lunch is ready!" Mama Knight called.

I tensed. I need to warn Kendall before he gets there.

Kendall looked down suddenly, cheeks flushing a beautiful shade of pink. "Um, c-can you help me?" He asked, looking embarrassed.

I stared at him a moment while he looked at me shyly. "What?"

He flushed more, looking like he was about to cry. He tilted his head to the left, gesturing to something in the room. I looked over and saw his wheelchair. Oh right, wheelchair. I looked back at him. He was looking down, face flushed and eyes watery. My heart broke at the sight. Kendall's changed so much.

I got up and wheeled the chair to the bed without a word. I walked around it and helped him into a sitting position. "Okay, I sort of got you a surprise. From what I've gathered from Katie's reaction, you're probably not going to like it." I said.

He looked up at me quizzically. "What is it?" He stretched his arms out toward me. I immediately picked him up and sat him in his chair. A sense of warmth flooded through me, when he gave me a thankful smile.

"It's a surprise…just remember I did this because I care about you." I told him and went behind the chair again.

"What do you mean?" He said reaching down and unlocking the wheels. I stopped him from taking off.

"You'll see." I whispered, placing my hands on the handles and pushing before he could reply. "Now let me steer you. Give those arms a break."

He turned to look at me in confusion, but shook his head and turned back around. "You don't need to. I can do it." He said.

"I know, but I want to." I declared. "Besides it's more fun when someone pushes." I beamed as he laughed.

"James! Not so fast!" He laughed.

"Shut up and enjoy the ride!" I smirked, running out of his room and down the hall to the disaster that is about to take place. Oh boy.

*CHAPTER END*

Random: Yup. I did that.

Hikaru: You're so cruel.

Kaoru: You put Kendall in a wheelchair and now you leave them hanging.

Random: *Grinning* Yup! Makes for a good story!

Twins: *Eye roll*

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