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A/N Some of you have been wondering what Edward has been thinking all this time. Well your wish is my command I hope you like it and let me know what you think.

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EPOV

"Hey Emmett I didn't expect you to be home already. I just dropped your sister off at school." I said to Em while I was walking in the door.

"Thanks dude."

"So I got a look at the Ex. He was waving her down before she even got out of the car."I told him

"What did Bella do?" He asked with a hint of concern for his little sister.

"Well she said he had just started talking to her yesterday and she wished he wouldn't but I think we may have taken care of it." I told him almost smugly.

"Oh ya how did you manage that I hope you beat his ass."

"Well no, I just gave him a little show."

I told Emmett about our little act in front of the school and the look on the Ex's face by the time she walked by him. He didn't look all that happy about me touching his little sister and I can't say that I blame the guy. I would be protective too. I had heard about her for so long from Emmett but it was all about his little sister and the picture he had of her well let's just say I didn't expect to see what I did when I came out of my room a few weeks ago. I was still having a hard time getting that image out of my head. I flew out of my room to find out what in the hell Emmett was yelling about and found him standing with a young women in tight jeans that covered her little ass just right. She had long chocolate brown hair that hit just above her waist and was flowing down her back. When she turned dear lord she had on a form fitting navy blue t shirt that hugged a perfect set of tits then I caught her eyes, huge brown eyes they looked like she had stolen them right from a puppy. She had milky white skin and as she turned her cheeks filled with a shade of pink I don't think I had ever seen before. Then I remembered that Emmett's sister was coming for the weekend. I had not given it much thought I mean what was she like 15 or 16? I saw the resemblance to Emmett and knew this was her though I am not sure how it could be, this was a woman, a fucking hot women. I quickly converted my thinking of her tits as breasts and that of a 15 year old and her ass no longer existed. I successfully avoided our house for the most part all weekend only running into her a few times. I couldn't shake the feeling I got when I was in the same room with her I couldn't explain it either. I had to ignore it and I figured it would pass after all she was just a kid.

Now I sit here in her house and I will be staying here for a month. My plan was to just be cool and not think about it well that went straight to crap in front of her school this morning. Emmett had told me about the ex or fuck nut as he so affectionately referred to him. I got the feeling he was leaving a few details out but the gist was that he had cheated on his little sister and was now hounding her and giving her shit. So when I saw this tall dark haired kid waving I knew this had to be the Ex or a new boyfriend, I was shocked when I had a pang of anger at either thought. When I pulled her from the car and into me for an embrace I smelled her hair and her skin she smelled like fresh strawberries and something else I couldn't quite place. Her tiny form molded to me in a way I don't think anyone had before. I lifted her and whispered in her ear but I knew to him it would look like I was doing a lot more than whispering. The dickhead guy part of me wanted to but fuck, she is like 15 or so and your best friends little sister that

would make me a sicko. I placed her back on the ground and we said our good buys. I knew that Emmett had planned to pick her up but I figured the scene would only be complete if the mystery guy also came to get her from school.

I pulled up to the school and she was waiting at the curb with the dark haired fuck nut standing next to her. I got out and walked right up to her placing my arm around her.

"Hey you ready to go?" I asked her

"Oh hi Edward yes thank you" she said with a look that clearly said 'Thank God You're Here'

"Bella who the hell is this you're uncle or some shit?" the idiot asked.

Ah the fuck nut has some balls he was giving her shit right in front of me.

"No ass hole I am not her uncle back the fuck off!" I told him

"OK OK guys! Edward can we go please?" Bella asked

"Sure." I said while placing a small kiss on her temple, I escorted her to the car, opening her door and waiting for her to climb in before I closing it after her. I jumped back in and sped off spinning my tire's a big just for effect.

"Edward you didn't have to do that really he is pretty harmless he just wants me back but that isn't happening." She told me.

"Emmett would kill you first then him if it did you realize." I told her seriously.

"Ya tell me about it. So Emmett didn't mind you coming to get me?"

"No I told him what happened this morning so he went to the gym for a while instead. Your dad said he would be home around dinner time I guess so it worked best for me to come get you any way."

We pulled up to the house and I knew before we went in that we were alone and God she smelled good. I stepped out of the car and went around to open her door. She looked up at me with a shy smile and thanked me. She bit her bottom lip and reached back in to get her back pack. Fuck me when she bent over her ass pushed back and grazed my thigh. I stepped back a bit and closed the door behind her as she walked toward the house. I stood and watched her walk. She can not be 15, she has to be older I am sure Emmett told me her age but I probably wasn't listening. I stepped into the house.

"Hey Edward are you hungry or anything?" Bella yelled out

"No thanks, I had something before I left to pick you up. I am just going to go up to my room for a bit."

"Oh well um OK." Bella said and I thought I heard a hint of disappointment in her voice.

I got the feeling she spent a lot of time alone being her dad was the Chief of police and was probably gone a lot. I should keep reminding myself that he has a gun. I sat up in my room playing my guitar trying to clear my head when I heard a light tap on my door.

"Come in" I yelled through the door.

"Hey I heard you playing do you mind?" Bella asked sounding a little nervous while she motioned to the chair in the corner.

I nodded but just kept playing. I felt the air thicken as she entered the room and I was having a hard time breathing.

"I would love to learn to play maybe I will tell Emmett to get me a guitar and lessons for my birthday." Bella lamented, not really talking to me, I think more to herself.

I did however seize the opportunity to find out her age at the mention of her birthday.

"When is your birthday?" I asked her.

"February 18th! I will be 18 on the 18th Alice my best friend is planning something big or so she says."

HOLY SHIT she is not 15 she is 17 almost 18, this is not good so not good. I cleared my thoughts and returned to my playing.

"So you want to learn? I could show you a few cords if you like?" I asked her after awhile.

"REALLY? That would be great." She said sounding excited.

I motioned for her to come and sit by me on the bed and she scooted in next to me sitting on the corner. I gave her the guitar and showed her how to hold it. I placed her fingers on the strings and told her to strum with the other hand. As I tried to change her fingering she almost dropped my baby. I decided that wouldn't do so I got up and slipped in behind her now having her positioned between my legs she leaned her back into my chest and I could feel things getting a bit tight in my jeans. I scooted back just a bit so she wouldn't feel it as well. I placed my hands over hers and began moving her fingers and strumming the strings with the other hand. I hadn't noticed when I started humming in her ear.

"Edward that is beautiful what is it?" She asked with a hint of awe.

"Oh um just something I have been working on." I told her.

She twisted a bit and her face was just inches from mine. I could feel her breath on my lips and I licked them with out thinking. As I did she pulled her bottom lip into her mouth and began to nibble on it. It was quiet in the house reminding me were alone. Our eyes were locked and the air was thick. She is 17 She is 17 She is 17 I mentally chanted to myself but not removing my eyes from hers. I leaned forward just slightly not even sure she detected I had moved and she leaned forward a bit and as she did I went the rest of the way and placed my slick wet lips on hers. I pulled the guitar from her hands and placed it on the floor and took her face into my hands and kissed her once again. She let out a soft whimper as I did. I opened my mouth ever so slightly over hers and I felt her hand on my shoulder griping it. I now had my hands in her hair. We were still seated on the bed her in front of me twisted around to me. I pulled back quickly and stood up causing her to slip right off onto the floor.

"Oh fuck Bella, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that, Oh shit I um, Oh God, here let me help you up."

I pulled her up off the floor and she came right up my body. Her hands were on my shoulders and she was starring up at me. She hadn't said anything yet. Was she mad was she in shock was she grossed out by the older guy kissing her?

"Shouldn't have done what Edward? This?" She said sounding sexy as hell.

She snaked her hands up around my neck and pulled me down to her. To be honest she didn't have to pull very hard. She swiped her tongue over my lips asking me to let her in and I did. I tried desperately to keep my hands to myself so I was pretty fucking shocked when I noticed they were on her hips and my fingers were digging into them. I had pulled her completely flush with my body and I began to pull us toward the bed. I gently guided her to the bed never breaking our kiss. Did I mention I hate twin beds? I lay on my side next to her letting my hand roam up her side and back down. She was grasping my shirt to hold me close to her. It was clear that she had been kissed before. I let my fingers play with the hem on the bottom of her shirt and gently graze the skin there. I moved my leg so it laid limp over hers and I held tight to her hip forcing my hand to stay where it was. My internal fight with myself was loud and clear. Edward get your fucking hands off the girl, Emmett will kill you twice and cut your dick off! But the other side of my brain was telling me. Edward she is beautiful and tastes like fresh fruit and she feels like she was made for you. I chose that moment to pull back and I leaned my forehead against hers.

"Bella we should stop, we shouldn't be doing this I mean Emmett will kill me." I told her begging her with my eyes to understand that I really didn't want to.

"Emmett is not my keeper and I like this."

"Bella your, well you're…we just need to stop before you get more than you bargained for."

I stood up and pulled her with me. I picked up my guitar and placed it back on its stand and walked to the door out into the hall way.

"Come on lets go get something to drink." I told her.

She turned about 8 different shades of red and walked right passed me and into her room closing the door behind her. I heard the lock click. Way to go fuckward! First you play like you are kissing her at the school and then you actually take advantage of your best friend's baby sister in their fathers fucking house. All of what I was thinking made perfect sense she was young, not as young as I had thought, she was Emmett's sister all be it Emmett's amazingly gorgeous younger sister. She didn't ask me to stop and she deepened the kiss so she was very into it. I needed to keep my head together she was not like some of the girls that I had been with, she was different. I probably could have taken it further and I wanted to, God how I wanted to, but I was not going to do something that she would regret later on and I like my dick and I really don't want Emmett cutting it off. She tells him everything and I am sure that this would come up. I went down stairs to warm up some coffee and relax. I would go up and talk to Bella in a little bit I decided I would give her some space. I didn't want her to feel like she had done anything wrong because everything she did was very right.

BPOV

It is fucking freezing out here I hope Emmett or Edward get here soon. Shit I could see Jacob coming I had avoided him all day and now he was making a B line right for me.

"So Bella who was the old man this morning? Someone you fucked while you were at your brother's?" Jake asked me.

"Oh fuck you Jake! Besides I bet he would have actually been able to hold it together for longer than 2 seconds!" I sneered at him.

Just then Edward pulled up and I could not have been more thankful first off it was Edward picking me up and second I could get away from Jacob he looked like he was going to explode. Edward got out of the car and walked right up to me pulling me into his side asking if I was ready to go. Just then Jacob opened his big mouth making some smart ass comment about Edward being my uncle. Edward's eyes got big and turned black. He looked right at Jacob and if I am not mistaken I think I heard him growl a little. He told him to back the fuck off. I put my hands up on both of their chests and ask Edward if we could go. He bent down kissed the side of my head and started walking me to the car. I felt a little weak at the knees I am not sure if it was from all the adrenaline running through my body or the feel of his soft lips on my skin. We arrived home and made our way into the house. He wasn't hungry and went to his room. He seemed to be avoiding spending too much time with me but seemed to be stepping in where Emmett was absent in regards to Jacob but it felt more like he was possessive of me not protective if that makes any sense at all. I stood in the kitchen thinking about what to make for dinner when I heard the soft sounds of a guitar being played I knew it was Edward and he told me he would play for me so I didn't think he would mind if I went up to listen. I knocked softly on his door and heard him yell to come in. I opened the door and he was sitting on the end of the bed playing softly. He looked lost and distant like he was in another place all together. I asked if he minded if I came in and listened for a bit he motioned for me to have a seat. I sat in the chair in the corner and pulled my legs up under me. I began thinking about asking Emmett for a guitar and lessons for my birthday that it might be fun to learn. I guess I was talking out loud because Edward offered to show me a few cords. Hell yes I jumped at the chance to be closer to him.

I walked over and sat on the corner of the bed next to him and he placed the guitar in my hands. He used his delicate hands to place my fingers on the strings to make a cord and told me to strum with the other hand. I did and it didn't sound half bad. He tried to show me how to move my fingers to a new cord and I almost dropped the guitar. He stood up and moved behind me putting a leg on either side of me and taking my hands into his. I leaned back against his chest and tried desperately not to moan. He shifted back just a bit and began to help me move my fingers while he strummed the strings. I could feel him breathing on my neck and he began to hum a tune with the notes we were playing his voice vibrated against my skin and I began to feel hot and flushed and a tingling in between my legs I had not felt in a long time.

I turned my body enough so I could see him.

"Edward that was beautiful what was it?" I asked him.

"Just something I have been working on."

OH DEAR God he writes music too could this get anymore unreal?

We just sat there breathing in each other's breath his brilliant green eyes starring right through me. I am sure he could see the want in my eyes hell my entire body was screaming it from a high tower. He moved just a tiny bit toward me I saw him run his delicious tongue over his lips and I could have died right there. I moved in a bit and as I did he placed his now slick lips softly against mine. He gently removed the guitar

from our hands and placed it onto the floor and returned his hands into my hair and pulled me forward and placed his mouth on mine I could feel his breath on me and I let out a soft whimper signaling my approval. All of a sudden I was on the floor and he was standing over me.

"Oh fuck, Bella I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that, Oh shit, I um, Oh God, here let me help you up." Edward said sounding very confused.

He bent down and picked me up pulling me close to his body and I couldn't help myself I reached up and pulled him down to me. I let my tongue escape my mouth and beg for entrance into his mouth that heaven that I envied my finger for having already enjoyed. He gave me entrance with no fight. I deepened the kiss further now fully flush with his body. His hands finally moved to my hips and he dug them into my hips hard and it sent a surge of lust through my entire body. I felt him moving us and I let him gently lay me down on the tiny bed in his room. He lay on his side never letting up on his assault on my mouth. Our tongues explored each other's mouths for what felt like hours I'm sure it was only minutes. His had ran up and down my side pausing at the hem of my shirt and grazing my belly. OH DEAR LORD YES GO FOR IT EDWARD GO FOR IT! My mind was screaming but he grabbed my hip again and dug his hand in again sending another surge of lust through me. The way he held onto my hip made me feel safe and desired in a way I had never felt before not with Jake not with anyone. Then just as I was about to take his hand from my hip and move it back to my tummy he stopped our kiss and put his forehead to mine.

"Bella we should stop we shouldn't be doing this I mean Emmett will kill me." Edward said with a pleading look in his eyes.

"Emmett is not my keeper and I like this." I told him defiantly.

"Bella your well you're…we just need to stop before you get more than you bargained for."

He stood up pulling me with him.

He walked to the door that was still open and into the hall.

"Come on lets go get something to drink." he said.

I was beet red and I wanted to die, I mean I knew what he was trying to say, I was a child I mean he had already called me a kid before. Did he think he was some dirty old guy for having just made out with me? I was almost 18, I was only 4 years younger than him and this all just felt so right nothing about it felt wrong or weird. Trying to save myself from any further embarrassment I walked passed him without saying a word and into my bedroom. I closed and locked the door hoping to send the signal of 'hey don't worry about I'm just a kid no big deal'. It was a big deal I was hot and bothered in a way that I had never felt before I mean had he wanted to, I would have let things go much further. Get more than I bargained for? Hell I was begging for it. I had only known him or even of him for a few months and it felt like I had known him my entire life. I sat on my bed and the tears began to flow. I was pissed, I was frustrated, I was embarrassed and I felt alone. When I was with him in his room I felt the most alive and desired I have ever felt in my entire life. I sat on my bed silently letting the tears fall when I heard a soft knock at my door.

"Bella please open the door and let me in." Edward said through the door.

"Edward its fine no big deal don't worry about it." I yelled back without moving.

"Isabella it's not fine and it is a big deal please." he replied sounding a little sad.

I was up off my bed right after he said Isabella I couldn't say no to him I didn't have it in me. I unlocked the door and pulled the handle to unlatch the door. I whipped my face as best as I could and let my hair fall down hoping he wouldn't notice I had been crying. The door creaked open slowly and he stepped in closing it behind him. He walked over to where I was seated on my bed and he sat down beside me leaving a safe distance between us.

"Bella I'm sorry I shouldn't have let that happen, I mean don't get me wrong I liked it."

"Yes I know, I felt it on my leg." I giggled, trying to lighten the mood a little.

I looked over at him forgetting my tear stained face to see him pull his hand through his hair and blush slightly. He looked at me.

"Shit Bella have you been crying? God I am so sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen, I just got caught up in the moment and you were looking at me with your big brown eyes and you just looked so…." He trailed off and sat quietly.

I moved closer to him and he looked like a scared puppy dog.

"Edward I won't bite. I am not 13 I'm almost 18 and whether you believe me or not this is not the first time I have had a boy in my room."

"Well that may be true but how many men have you had up here?"

I smiled and felt myself blush yet again.

"Edward I have had one boy up here who thought he was a man. You are not that much older than I am and I like you and I am pretty sure you like me and I want you to kiss me." I told him.

"Bella if Emmett found out he would.." He said sounding scared, but not very committed to the idea.

I pulled him to me and kissed him deeply. He let out a groan. I pulled on his collar and leaned back effectively pulling him on top of me. He didn't allow himself to lie between my legs even though that is exactly where I wanted him. He let his hands roam my body a bit more this time and I ran my hands up and down his back and into his hair. He began kissing my ear and down my neck he got to the crook of my neck and unbuttoned the top two buttons of my shirt and placed soft wet kisses on the exposed skin there. I moaned into his ear hopping he would continue and he did he unbuttoned a few more buttons and placed more kisses on the newly exposed skin. I shifted my hips up to him and met his thigh which was planted firmly between my legs allowing me to feel exactly what our little make out session was doing to him on my hip. As I ground into his thigh he ground into my hip and moaned into my ear.

"Mmmmm Bella we should stop" Edward said rather unconvincingly

"Not yet Edward please." I begged.

He unbuttoned the rest of the buttons and let my shirt fall open exposing my chest and making me very thankful had put on a pretty bra this morning. He let his hand graze over my covered breast and he dipped his head down and kissed the fabric.

"Ugh Edward don't stop, I don't want you to stop."

"Fuck Bella if I don't stop now I'm not sure I will be able to."

He ground hard into my side and as he did he grasped my breast in his palm.

We were so lost in what we were doing we didn't hear the car pull up or the front door open we did however here Emmett.

"HEY ASSHOLE! YOU BETTER NOT BE ON MY SISTER!" Emmett's voice boomed around the house

We froze, he was most defiantly on me!