AN: We moved away from the texting in this chapter, I hope the way I've written it is okay. Just a quick request; me and my friend are unsure on how to finish this story so if you leave a review could you please say if you would like an ending that stays true to the anime or a happy au ending. Thanks!
Psst…Light-kun ~L
Psst… Light-kun ~L
If you have time to look at your phone, as I am watching you do, then you have time to reply ~L
What is it Ryuzaki? ~Light
Light-kun, you noticed me :D ~L
Quite difficult not to notice you ~Light
But yet since the handcuffs have been on, you seem to favour ignoring me…Are you still mad at me for the other day? ~L
Is this your attempt to apologise? ~Light
We already exchanged apologies, why would I say I'm sorry again? ~L
I don't know. No I'm not mad, I'm just thinking ~Light
What is it you're thinking about? ~L
Life ~Light
That answer was a bit vague ~L
I'm thinking about my life and the future. What will I do after we finish the investigation? Sure, I could go back to school, but I don't know if I want to. To be completely honest, I don't know what I want. ~Light
Well, this is the first time you've sounded the age you are. I suppose if it turns out that you are innocent then you have the potential to do whatever you wish. I wouldn't worry though, I don't see this investigation coming to a close anytime soon ~L
Thanks, Ryuzaki. That was helpful ~Light
You're welcome, Light-kun ~L
I know you've seen the message, don't start ignoring me again. We were having a conversation in which I didn't't accuse you of being Kira ~L
I know but I'm just really conscious about the future. I know you said I can do whatever I want, but I don't know what I want to do, and I don't want to spend ages looking for something. I know people expect me to join the police, and I was considering it, but I'm not sure anymore, it just doesn't't seem…right anymore I guess. ~Light
Well, it's no secret that I admire your deductive abilities, you're only eighteen and they practically match mine. If you turn out to be innocent when this case is over…what would you say to a job offer from me? ~L
Working with you? Are you sure about that Ryuzaki? Or are you just saying it to make me feel better? You see if I don't join the police, my father might get disappointed. I don't want to disappoint him. However all my mother wants is for me is to be happy. I don't think I will be happy in the Japanese police. I don't know what would make me happy. There is something missing, and I can't quite put my finger on it ~Light
I am sure, it's been on my mind for a while now but I've been holding back because of the case. I don't think that what is missing is the choice of career…maybe it's something else. Wateri is always getting me to do things that make me happy between cases, he tells me that its what is important ~L
So, do you mean to tell me, that what's missing from my life is happiness? I have all the reasons to be happy though. I'm healthy, I'm doing well in school, my family is alive and well, and now thanks to you, I have a friend…And a potential job offer. I have all the reasons to be happy. Why wouldn't't I be? ~Light
Well you said yourself that something is missing. Maybe it's to do with the fact that you're so emotionally detached with Misa and other pass girlfriends ~L
I don't think it's to do with Misa or any other girlfriend I had, I honestly don't know why I was with them, other than the fact that I wanted to make them happy. It sounds ridiculous by it's the truth ~L
It does sound a little ridiculous but that's mainly because of a theory I have. A theory that seems to be even more possible since our…incident. Before we met I deduced that there was a 50% chance that you were gay or asexual. But gay seemed more likely due to the fact you actually dated girls. If you were asexual its unlikely that you would have felt the need to hide it ~L
Is this what you refer to it? Incident? I guess I can tell why you think I could be gay. I can't be though. What would my father think? ~Light
I wasn't aware of what Light-kun would be comfortable with me calling it and besides, that being the first time I'm not really sure what I should refer to it as. The idea of you being gay is hard to come to terms with I am sure but its not impossible. Besides when you were with me was the only time you've seemed to show a romantic interest in anyone. Does it really matter what your father may think? ~L
I'm not uncomfortable with it. I can tell why you think it's not impossible. It was…interesting. Pleasurable even, but yes. The idea of my father thinking I could be gat is not something I look forward to as he can be quite strict about it. It's nothing personal, Ryuzaki. Just…my father…well…I guess you are able to figure it out. ~Light
Yes I understand, Light-kun. But your father doesn't need to know, there is a reason that we're doing this over text is there not? I wont push the issue of your sexuality, mainly because I don't think I've ever known you to be unsure of anything until now. However I would like you to think about it. I would hate for my only friend to be unhappy ~L
Are you trying to chat me up, Ryuzaki? ~Light
And here I was thinking that we were having a touching conversation. You get me out of my comfort zone and then ignore what I say. But, no. Not intentionally anyway. ~L
Sorry to be a bad friend, I just never see you out of your comfort zone. If it makes you feel any better I like it when you get out of your comfort zone. Just between the two of us though, it's a bit of a shame, that you didn't in fact hit on me ~Light
You're not being a bad friend…I don't believe so anyway. I do believe, however, that we're both out of our comfort zone a little, although as friends I suppose it's a good thing…Light-kun, did you want me to hit on you? ~L
I don't know if I want you to or not. I guess it's up to you. To be honest, being out of my comfort zone, is not as bad as I'd imagine ~Light
Light-kun is normally so sure of himself…Let yourself figure it out and then let me know. However, as you're the one with the experience, shouldn't you be the one to make the first move? ~L
Would you like me to make a move? ~Light
Only if Light-kun wishes to, however I would not object if he did ~L
Light looks around the room to ensure that no one from the task force had returned from their break and when he finds the room still empty he stands.
"Well if that's the case"
He moves to stand in front of L, who was perched in his usual position and leans down so that he's inches away. "Do you want me to make a move?"
"Eighty percent"
Unsatisfied with the detectives response Light leans closer so that he's whispering in L's ear, his hands on the arm rests. "That's it?"
"Just one more thing" was the warning Light received before L turned his head and pressed his lips to Lights.
Light smirked into the kiss as he slowly kissed back and pulled away every few seconds before pulling away completely, a grin making its way onto his face as he looked at the detective.
"Is there something you want to tell me, Ryuzaki?"
L smirked in response to Lights question before whispering "eighty five percent".
Light pulls away and stands up straight, looking down at L before leaning down again and giving the detective a deep kiss. Then after pulling away he moved to sit back down in his seat.
Neither man spoke for a moment until L managed to compose himself and broke the silence.
"Are we going to be adding this to the list of things we aren't't going to be talking about?"
"We can talk about it if you like just not when my father is around" Light paused for a moment. "Eighty five percent of what?"
"Eighty five percent chance that Light-kun is gay. If he wasn't its unlikely that a second incident like this would have occurred and I do believe that it is something we should talk about. Especially since it's a repeat occurrence, and there's a high chance of it happening again."
Light turns to face the other man. "Go ahead, talk about it".
L put his thumb in his mouth and started to bite on his thumbnail as he contemplated his response.
"Well…I feel as though I'm putting myself in a difficult situation. If you are Kira then I might as well be signing for my own death, this is putting me in a vulnerable state after all, or I would have to prepare myself for sentencing you to death. It's bad enough that my first friend may be Kira but if my feelings became something deeper…I don't know how I'd handle it."
"You actually have feelings for me? Well don't worry about Kira, as far as I know I'm not Kira; don't worry though, if I ever feel like there could be a chance of me wanting to act like Kira, I promise to let you know."
"I didn't say I did but perhaps, do you not feel the same way? You certainly seems to enjoy the kiss, and what happened before. But thank you, Light-kun. I just wish I could believe you."
"I can't tell you if I feel the same way, if I don't know how you feel. We've been through so much together and you still don't trust me."
"We've been through so much together because of my suspicion that you're Kira."
"And so far, did your suspicions turn out to be truth?"
"They have not yet proved to be, but they have not been disproved yet either."
Light sighs, getting agitated by the older man. "The fact that I don't feel particularly murderous is no proof then? Trust me, I don't want you dead."
"No I'm afraid not. How am I supposed to know how you're feeling? You could be lying to me."
"Look at me Ryuzaki. Look me in the eyes and tell me I'm lying when I tell you I care for you."
L looks up at Light, catching his eyes for a moment before looking away. "Just know that if it is some act to get me to reveal my name to you, it will not work."
"I don't need to know your name, I just need you to realise and I accept the fact that I care."
L turns towards Light once again, this time maintaining eye contact. "Okay, Light-kun. I believe you when you say that you care."
"Do you though? Or are you just saying that, because it's what I would like you to say?"
"When have I ever said something simply because it's what you want to hear? I do believe you. It may be that my judgement is a little off because I want it to be true but, I do mean it."
"Well it is."
The two men hold eye contact for a few moments longer analysing each other before L looked away to stand from where he was seated. "Well then now we've gotten that sorted lets go and check on how the rest of the team are doing with that Yotsuba lead you discovered."
Light moves to stand as well. "Yeah, sure, lets go. But before we do…"
Light grabs the front of L's shirt in both hands to pull the detective to him for a deep kiss. After a moment he pulls away and heads towards the rooms exit.
L stands dazed for a moment and moves only when the chain attached to his wrist pulls him.