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Chapter 4: Notes, by Cagalli Yula Athha.

Warnings: A little bit feminine.

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02:33 Message sent to: Lucky star

'I am falling into the abyss of endless insanity. I do not see nightmares anymore, my memories slowly fade away, and my wounds do not bleed. My unbelievable dreams to spend this life as everybody else arise from nowhere. But still it feels like hopelessness. New monsters consume old ones. However the past still decides future.

Damn, I'm losing my sight. Do wide open eyes in past lead to the blind future?

Su.'

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After entering Grand University, Cagalli's life started to sharply change. Since that day, nothing could compare to what she was now experiencing. Everything seemed to be improving for the better for her, it was even enjoyable to say the least. She had found the silver lining on a black and dreary cloud. Her new family, friends, and even her studies were going great. She thought of herself to be a blooming rose surrounded by love and care. This gave her anger and pleasure all at the same time. She was now on cloud nine.

Three weeks had already flown by, after that rocky beginning. Cagalli had a chance to understand and examine those around her, and she hadn't missed a single minute. She had accepted her detective role since that day, so she had tried her best to catch every single detail from those around her.

But, she had found it more difficult than she had planned it to be, from all the nonsense she had heard. But, she wasn't the type of person to give up so easily. At times, the blonde had often thought of just asking her brother directly, but he had always acted so sweet and was so in love with his new angel. That she would often just throw that idea away as fast as it had entered her mind.

The truth was, Cagalli had found herself so immersed in finding out the truth behind their words she hadn't paid any attention to those around her. But that soon changed, after a while Cagalli had found herself being more sociable and hanging out with her new friends. She liked hanging out with them, she had found them interesting and funny all at once.

While all the while she had found herself writing various notes to concentrate and arrange the bundle of thoughts she had. No one knew about her little hobby, of observing. After all no one would suspect her of doing these things, she was after all lively and very energetic.

She had started playing basketball with Shiho recently, she had always adored sports and was proud of her success in it. Cagalli had also become part of the student's theatre, instructed by Mwu La Flaga, a very supportive tutor of the fine arts. He, to her point of view, was very handsome, he had short blonde hair and light blue eyes. But he had a bad habit of behaving too shy, and would constantly blush every time the boys would be talking about girls, and their preferences.

Cagalli was indeed delighted about her new friendships with Shiho and Stellar, even though both girls were entirely different from one another. But they both supplemented one another. Everything was going the way she liked, so far anyways.

However the blonde sometimes found herself lonely, she would often think back to her mother and her friends back in her old town. She would often find herself thinking of them. She would also talk to Miriallia, but not as much as she would have liked to or wanted to. The closeness they once held between them was suddenly vanishing. The string that held them together was slowly weakening by each passing day.

Miriallia was now busy with her new jerk of a boyfriend and her family problems. The always bitter expression on her ever so lovely face showed Cagalli everything, even with Miriallia's fake smile. Cagalli was able to tell there were problems, but since she lived so far, there was no way for her to help her once best friend.

Cagalli would often find herself writing notes in her so called secret area, using a small green pen which was given to her as a present from Athrun. And that was the light of her starting…

Notes.

By: Cagalli Yula Athha.

Well, he was the one that gave me this, so I can blame him for starting my investigation Isn't is said that a criminal wants to be caught and punished? Kind of weird to me, but funny in a way.

I can't believe this pen is green.

I don't like writing, I'd rather use my laptop. But this small note book seems to be much safer, since Kira has been trying to improve my computer. I just hope he doesn't break it…

Even though I've told him I don't need nor want an upgrade. Kira is so stubborn, but I really can't complain. I can tell he likes me, and is starting to care for me.

He did offer his assistance when I needed to go to the chemistry shop. I found myself helpless, realizing that I had brought nothing to class with me that day. And I had totally forgotten to ask Via about it that day too…Then all of a sudden he said something stupid like, You look pale, stomach ache? Do you need help? I was sure I was going to kill him for that, how in the hell would he have been able to help me? Why couldn't I have a sister instead? I was blushing madly when he had gotten up with his keys and was rushing towards his car.

I thank god Athrun had stopped him and told me where I should go. I was saved from telling Kira about my illness. I'm still not sure he's understood the situation quite yet. I'm so embarrassed to even be writing it down here now…

All I know, Athrun knows way too much for a guy who doesn't even have a girlfriend, or any girlfriend for that matter. As said by Shiho…

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Cagalli stood up and walked towards her door, she could hear Via talking to Kira. Athrun wasn't in the house today. So as she walked back to her desk she started to write freely.

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Kira Yamato. (my twin brother)

-I've been told he is defiantly a heartbreaker. But, there is no way! I mean, he's so sweet and kind I feel just like the devil when I'm next to him. He's calm and funny most of the time. His open toothy smile could melt even rocks and diamonds I'm sure.

-He seems to be very smart and a friendly person, everyone always asks him for help and advice. And not once has he ever refused. It's really great, but at the same time annoying. He's also very stubborn, he has to be the most stubborn guy I have ever met.

-There is only one person in the entirety of the world I'm sure who can change his mind in under a minute. And that's Athrun Zala.

-I'm slowly, very slowly starting to like my brother. He understands me and there are plenty of things we are similar at. I do feel like he is a part of me, my twin. Maybe he thinks the same way…but who knows with him.

-But, I have a feeling that he's sometimes hiding from me. But I'm still not too sure yet. I'd wish to know what he's so afraid of.

-Note for myself. -I will write related items-

Indie Masters. (Kira's new crush)

-As called Miss GU! And that's a known fact. She is the most beautiful and nicest person I'm sure there is. She is even filthy rich. Everyone loves her from what I can tell, except for…Yzak, Shiho and Athrun. Stellar on the other hand is positive about everyone.

-While Lunamaria is Indie's close friend. I like Indie, because she makes Kira happy. But I feel there is a large gap between us.

-The main point is, Athrun seems to avoid her. Not openly, but I caught it, every time she is in the area, he seems to disappear in a speed of light. I wonder if anyone has noticed besides me, I know for sure that Yzak knows too.

Shiho Hahnehfass. (Miss Hurricane)

- Shiho is a hurricane, and that's a fact. She is also my new best friend here and I know I can trust her. She's helped me a lot, she calls me over 100 times a day, I'm sure. She always offers activities and random entertainment.

-She also doesn't mind explaining things to me in our subjects. In school I mean. The best part is she holds no secrets around her personality, she is very open.

-However…she hates Yzak Joule with a passion. But they are very similar in a few ways. Stellar told me that they were dating for about four months and then just broke up suddenly. The reason, nobody knows, but maybe someone's just hiding it. Anyways I think they would be good together.

Yzak Joule. (Mr. hot temper)

-I know for a fact that I can rely on him. He's a good friend of both, my brother's and Athrun's. I've called him over sometimes, and not once has he ever said no.

-Though he seems to be very arrogant, he cares for his friends. But he calls Athrun and Kira by their last names, It's really odd to hear. He is very conservative, and is gallant with girls when nobody sees him.

-Yzak's got a younger sister, Silver. Who's about sixteen so he's overly protective of her that's what I found out from over hearing a few phone conversations.

Dearka Elsman.(Every girl is mine)

-He really does believe that every girl is in fact his girl friend. I've often wondered why Yzak is so close to him. He's a funny guy. He loves parties and all the stuff that goes along. He is an absolute optimist and in a way too damn talkative for his own good.

-The one thing is though, he adores girls in a way they don't want. He has a girlfriend, Helen. She's a bit older than we are, but that doesn't seem to bother him in the slightest bit.

Stellar Loussier. (Serenity)

-She is so very calm. She is my complete opposite, but I still like her. She doesn't really talk a lot, but when she does all you hear is logic and intellect. She likes singing and likes to act in the student's theatre. And sometimes I can see her talking to Athrun alone.

-He smiles at her and hugs her a lot, well I'm glad for her. He had never talked to me that way. Am I jealous? No…but what could that mean…

Lunamaria Hawke. (Fashion model)

-Lunamaria is a designer, in her every breath. She is a good girl but too arrogant and selfish. She's always out shopping every weekend always spending her father's money. She doesn't appear to be a spoiled brat. I heard she has a boy friend, Rey something. I haven't yet seen him but he exists in LA-LA-LA land.

-Lunamaria also has a younger sister, Meyrin. She has a crush on Athrun, I've noticed it in her eyes. Poor girl, Athrun just looks right through her as if she doesn't exist.

-Lunamaria also likes our head of student council that makes me laugh.

Shinn Asuka. (Just go die and leave me alone.)

-I haven't quite figured out why he became head of the student council. He never talks to anyone, pretends no one exists. He isn't friendly at all, but he is active. He from what I can tell adores sports and likes being alone.

-I've heard people say he had a sister who died when he was fourteen or something, and he suffers because of that. It's true that could be possible, but I doubt it.

-I think I may not be able to get along with him.

-Shiho is sure that he likes Stellar, just by observing I can confirm it. It's quite amusing.

Meer Campbell. ('Witch' and actress)

-The only reason I am even writing of her is because of Athrun. She is one of Indie's friends. She is in another course. From what I've noticed Athrun spends some of his spare time with her.

I've often seen them leaving the university together; I find it a bit strange.

- She is totally different from Stellar, but I've once seen him hugging her.

- And… She is always favorite actress in our theatre!

Lacus Clyne. (Black dress girl. Still unknown)

-Nobody really sees her, or even talks to her and from what I can tell she hasn't tried to change that either.

-She looks somewhat like Meer, or does Meer look like her? Anyways, but they aren't related from what I've heard.

-Athrun…he seems really nice to her, and I can't understand why. Maybe I should just ask him.

-I heard she likes music, but that's all.

Athrun Zala. (Can't find an appropriate nickname)

-Athrun seems mysterious. And it seems, girls like to embrace him, certainly. I mean who wouldn't, maybe it's his cologne.

-I admit it, but I'll never tell him that. And I'm not going to be hugging him.

-He doesn't have a car, his cell phone calls once a week. Maybe no one cares for him. And I can't see any health problems he had mentioned before. He doesn't seem to be weak in my point of view. Actually, he is strong enough to catch me when I fall.

-He once caught me when I almost fell down upon the floor in the kitchen last week. His grip was amazingly tight, he has some really powerful arms…I should really stop thinking this way.

I mean as in strong…well it's not really important. Maybe there's something wrong with his eye sight, I think I'll need to check.

-Shiho says he doesn't have a girlfriend, or any love interest for that matter. But I know that he hides someone. And I believe it's a woman. I once saw him buying flowers, wait. Could it be that he likes men? It's true his behavior could be regarded towards that way…no way, I mean I can't believe it. Maybe I should just stop thinking…

-Note to self, need to get to know Athrun better.

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Cagalli closed her note book nervously. Her hand had a slight shake to it. She had soon found herself being afraid of speaking to Athrun. It was true they were both friends, but every time she got around him she would get embarrassed. That made her feel uneasy, but she always had to tell herself: 'He's not my type…' but maybe that was the main reason why she liked him. Because he wasn't her type.

Cagalli then fell on her bed sighing. She then reflected on that night.

Via's supper was perfect like always, both boys were absent that night. Kira was preparing a project with Yzak. And since Kira never lied, he would openly tell his mother of his new fling, Indie. And she would always smile to him. So he was surely at the Joule mansion.

While Athrun on the other hand was somewhere out with Meer. He had called Via earlier, she was positive she had heard Meer's painstakingly loud scream in the car.

"I'm not good at investigating." Cagalli said rather loudly covering herself with her large confider. "Maybe sleep will help me forget everything. I still have Ms. Ramius's test tomorrow…" added in the blonde with pulling the large blanket over her head.

The blonde then closed her eyes, soon she was in dream land and was having an odd realistic dream. In her dream she was standing in front of Athrun. Naked. They were both so close to one another that she could feel his sweet warm breath on her forehead. And in the dream she was crying, because he was blind...

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08:21 Message sent from: Lucky star

'I don't know… Please, tell me you'll be alright, I don't want you to suffer anymore, after all you've been through. If there's anything I can help with… I don't need the future that hurts so badly. I don't believe heavens are cruel to its angels. Angels of forgiveness… do you remember?

Lucky'

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