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Warnings: In chapter one
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It hurts more than you think: Chapter Four: I love you, I'm lying to you.
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Sasuke woke nearly an hour earlier than he normally would. It was just past five A.M, he had classes in three hours. Our Uchiha Sasuke found himself shivering in his bed, a body equally as cold curled next to him, drawing from his warmth. The pale teen slid out of bed and retrived the blanket on the floor he'd dropped the previous night. He wrapped said cloth around the red-head, covering both of them up with his own blanket. Sasuke could get over his own lack of warmth, though he didn't want Gaara to lay there shivering and freezing. His current position was on top of the older teen, the only thing seperating their bare chests was the blanket enveloping Gaara's body. He found that the red-head had seemed to warm up, he'd stopped shaking and looked comfortable enough.
Climbing out of his bed, he pulled his laptop from under his bed, opening the screen. The blue light illuminated his face, giving him a glowing appearance. He opened his MSN program, clicking on the blonde's name. His boyfriend was always online, if he was asleep, his computer was on and the ping would wake him.
sasu-kun: Hey love, it's really hard to type right now
naru-chan: Excuse me while I figure out who you are..
naru-chan: Ahhh, Morning, Sasuke.
sasu-kun: lol, did I wake you up?
naru-chan: -nods- mhhmm
sasu-kun: I'm sorry, couldn't go back to sleep
naru-chan: nah, s'ok. I was gonna get up in two hours anyway. lol
sasu-kun: you can go back to bed, I'll bug someone else for a while
naru-chan: Nah, I'll stay up. I love talking to you anyway
sasu-kun: aw -huggles-
naru-chan: teehee, how are your arms feelin?
sasu-kun: Ok, I guess.. kinda heavy when I lift them. I'll get used to it though, I guess
naru-chan: since you woke me up, will you come over? Lay down with me or something?
sasu-kun: Can't, I don't want Gaara to wake up and be alone.. he might do something
naru-chan: can I come over then?
sasu-kun: um, if you really want to
naru-chan: you don't really want to see me right now, do you?
sasu-kun: its not that, I just don't wanna wake gaara up..
naru-chan: what if I promise to be quiet? really quiet? I'll just sit in your lap and sleep, or something.. but I won't make a sound, I swear
sasu-kun: Naruto...
naru-chan: its ok then, I'll just stay here
sasu-kun: I don't want you to think I'm mad at you or something, cause I'm not.
naru-chan: I know...
sasu-kun: -sigh- what's wrong?
naru-chan: nothing, why do you ask that?
sasu-kun: ah, let me count them, 7 dots, what's the matter? and don't tell me nothing, I don't like it when you lie to me
naru-chan: I just wanna see you, and you're worried about waking G.. I don't know, I just kinda feel left out.. I'm not used to only seeing you every once in a while.. you used to be in my room all the time..
sasu-kun: alright alright, get your ass over here
naru-chan: I don't want to if you don't want me to
sasu-kun: ok, then don't come over. Just know that I really do want to see you.. as long as you're quiet and we can just lay down..
naru-chan: I don't like it when I can't talk to you though, but I'll still keep hushed, I'll be over in a few
sasu-kun: kk
Sasuke slid his laptop back under his bed, standing up to gently wake Gaara. "Hey, Gaara." He whispered, shaking the pale teen softly.
"Hmmmmmm?" He questioned, wondering why he was being woken up this early.
"Naruto's coming over, I need to move you to your bed. I'm sorry."
"Nn..s'ok." The older teen opened his arms, allowing himself to be carried back into his bed. He wasn't going to pretend the kiss meant something, it was just a friendly thing, though it was still to early for him to worry about it. But when Sasuke kissed him softly after setting him back down, Gaara couldn't help but mentally question the Uchiha's commitment to his boyfriend. A warm weight settled on his hips, lips pressing into his own. He melted under the pleasure, nearly fainting when Sasuke's tounge slid into his mouth. He groaned, eyes falling shut. Just as quickly as it had started, it was over, and Gaara's green eyes followed Sasuke into the bathroom. The sink water came on and he heard spitting, indicating the Uchiha was brushing his teeth. He wanted to question the actions, only when he was about to, blonde hair peeked into the dark room. Gaara pretended to be asleep, regulating his breathing to make it seem real. He could hear the two kissing, their teeth clicking together and them moaning. He didn't understand, how could Sasuke go from kissing him, leading him on, to making out with his lover right in front of him? It made him feel as if he was just being used, just a tool for someone to enjoy briefly. He fought back the urge to get up and find a razor he'd long ago tucked away, just so he wouldn't have to listen to them. He bit his lip as he heard the matress squeak, a quiet, barely audible giggle passed the raven-haired teen's lips. Another pin in his heart, that's all this was to Gaara, just another pain he had to put up with.
The pins soon turned to kinves though, as he heard a zipper come undone, obvoiusly Naruto's since Sasuke's pants didn't zip. He heard shuffling, most likely the remaining clothing being removed, and a muffled cry. It sounded as if there was a hand pressed over the offending screamer's mouth. He couldn't bring himself to look, but he could have sworn he heard protests coming from behind the hand. Of course, he didn't know what was going one since he couldn't see, but he had some idea that one of them didn't want this.. namely the one who'd just kissed him.. But his suspicions were proved wrong when he heard the Uchiha whisper 'harder'. His heart sunk, Sasuke had just been toying with him. How could he do that? Why would he do that? The noises stopped and the mattress complained again, the two had probably just finished and were falling back against the bed.
"What time is it?" Gaara heard the blonde whisper, shuffling around for his clothing perhaps.
"6:15, you should go home and get cleaned up.. We have class today."
"Yeah, are you gonna need help showering or anything?"
"I think I can manage.. I'll see you first period." A pause, kisses trading possibly. "I love you." He's lying, he dosen't love you, Gaara thought to himself, He loves me..
The red-head blocked out the rest, only turning over to view Sasuke when he heard the door close. "Hey, did we wake you?"
"No, I didn't go to sleep..."
"Why not?"
"I'm confused..." Gaara replied, rolling on his side to better view the boy talking to him.
"About what?" The pale teen asked, confusion on his face.
Come on, as if he didn't know.. "Nothing... It's too hard to explain.."
"Heh." Gaara's green eyes watched as the Uchiha slid out of his bed, mentally noting that his legs seemed to be moving funny, and crawl into his. His hand rested on the red-head's cheek, the base of his thumb rubbing over the older teen's cheekbone.
Gaara scooted back, to give Sasuke more room, only to be pressed into the wall, the Uchiha ground his hips into the red-head's forcefully. The older teen of course protested, pushing his hands between them. The younger male just took this as mindless struggles, thinking the cutting boy was just fighting a little to please him. Warm lips tried to meet his, only to be blocked by a hand. "Sasuke, stop." He demanded, turning his head to avoid any more stray kisses.
"You didn't complain last night.. in fact, you seemed more than willing." Sasuke retorted, pulling the red-head's hands away from his face. "Just let me kiss you, it's not like I'm hurting anybody."
"You're hurting me, Sasuke. You kiss me, fuck him, and then come back to me? I don't like this, not at all. Just leave me alone.." He pressed his hands into the pale teen's chest, pushing him further away.
Sasuke took the hint, and crawled away, heading to the bathroom. A few minutes later, the water came on. Gaara took this chance to leave, slipping on his shirt and a pair of black pants. He headed down to Iruka's office, and knocked on the door.
"Yes?" Came the male's voice from the otherside of the door. The red-head opened the door a crack, peeking in.
"Umm.. Can.. I come in?" He asked, quietly, opening the door all the way to show who he was.
"You sure may Gaara, sit down. Something on your mind?"
The pale teen simply nodded, sitting down in the bean-bag chair in the corner. He picked up a little stuffed bear that sat next to the plush chair, set it in his lap facing him and picked at random pieces of fuzz on it. It was about 10 minutes before he said anything. "Iruka?"
"I'm listening."
"Can.. do you still not trust me to be alone in a room?" He asked, not looking up from the bear.
"Gaara-san, it's not that I don't trust you, its just, knowing your past, its kind of hard to leave you alone." The brunette replied, amazed that the quiet teen had actually spoken to him, willingly at that. "Why, are you having problems with your roomate?"
"It's not that, I get along with him just fine." Gaara paused, a barely visible blush forming on his cheeks. "In fact, I think I might have crush on him.." He explained, pulling the stuffed animal to his chest. He smiled and looked up at the man in his desk. "I get all.. tingly and warm and stuff when he's around, and when he touches me or looks at me, I swear I die a little on the inside."
"Don't you think it might be a bad idea to fall in love with someone already in a realtionship?"
"It's a horrible idea, but.. I don't think he really loves his boyfriend.."
"Why do you say that?"
The red-head shook his head, absently chewing on his lip ring. "But I don't want to be around him anymore.. He's hurting me a whole lot."
"Physically?"
"No, no. Not at all, it just feels like he's toying with me. Like, I woke up this morning in his bed, he told me to sleep with him last night 'cause we were both cold, and he carried me back to my bed and practically stradled my hips and just kissed me. And he kissed me last night.. and it wasn't just like a kiss between friends either.. And then he goes, in front of me, and makes out with Naruto.." He rambled, not ever in his life did he remember talking this much.
"Hm. That seems confusing, it seemed to me like he really loved Naruto. What reason would he have to cheat on him?"
"I don't know.. Should I tell Naruto he kissed me?"
"Do you want him to know?"
"I don't want him to be mad at me.. But, I don't want to let him stay with Sasuke if Sasuke dosen't really love him." He paused, a look of frustration coming to his face. "I'm so confused. I don't know if he loves me, or if he's just trying to make me feel good about myself..It's bothering me really bad." He drew his knees up to his chest, hugging himself tightly. "What do I do?"
"I don't know if you're ok with this, but you could confront him about it, ask him why he can't seem to make up his mind." Iruka suggested, folding his arms over his desk expectantly. It did his mind well to know that Gaara had finally opened up.
The red-head nodded, making an attempt to pull himself from the plush filled bag. Finally, he stood up, leaving the room without saying even goodbye to the older man. He made his way slowly back to his dorm, walking in to find something he did not expect to see. Uchiha Sasuke laying in his bed, wearing nothing at all, dripping wet from the shower he'd obviously just taken.
"What are you doing..in my bed?" He asked, not able to rip his eyes from the scene if it meant his life. This boy was doing nothing to help the task at hand, how could he talk to the paly boy when he was naked, in his bed to add to it all.
"I'm laying here. You're bed is much more comfortable. I'd like it very much if you accompanied me." Sasuke raised an elegant brow, with a face that said you-can't-tell-me-no.
"No, I want you out of my bed.. and dressed too. So I can talk to you." This boy was just toying with him, stupid bastard. Coming into his life so unexpectedly and messing up all of his ways.
"Yes, master." Sasuke replied sarcastically, he slid out of the bed into sitting position, pourpousfully leaving his legs slightly open for a moment longer than he should have. He walked across the room and slid on a pair of jeans, yes, without the boxers. How does he stand the friction? Gaara thought, watching him intently.
The Uchiha could feel the red-head's eyes on him, it pleased him to know he was at least interested in his body. He turned around, facing the older teen again. "What is it you wanted to talk about?"
Gaara sighed, sitting on the corner of his bed. "I wanna know what you're doing.. I mean, you're confusing me.. a lot." He lowered his head, looking into his lap. "Are you doing this to hurt me or something?"
"Doing what, Gaara?" The Uchiha asked, sitting next to the red-head. "Kissing you?"
"Yeah, and touching me and all this stuff.."
"But isn't it what you want?" He furrowed his brows, confused. Gaara had asked him what this would feel like, why did he suddenly not want it?
"Not when you have a boyfriend..." The red-head explained, his voice trailing off as he spoke. It was all he wanted, to be touched and loved and happy. But from Sasuke, it was wrong. Sasuke had someone to give those things to already.. Why couldn't he find somebody single to love? Maybe he just wasn't meant to ever really be happy.. But he was happy last night when he fell asleep with the pale boy.. Though he wouldn't let it happen again, he wasn't going to deprive somebody of their happiness just for his own.
Sasuke sat still for a moment, contemplating on what he could do in the situation. He was pretty sure he loved Gaara, but he knew for a fact that he loved Naruto too. But he couldn't put either of them through a point where he had to pick, it would hurt one of them either way.. But Naruto was a prick, he was rough and demanding sometimes, gentle and understanding othertimes, he was sweet, loving, rude, loud, quiet, obnoxious, desirable. So many different things, and Sasuke had always been the type to go for more calm, simple things, yet he loved the blonde with all his heart.. But then again, Gaara was everything he'd ever wanted. The red-head wasn't a rounded off version of what he'd like in a boyfriend, he was straight to the point. Quiet, calm, sensetive, loving from what he could tell, warm, cuddley, just.. perfect. Except for that single flaw, his cutting. But Sasuke could look past that, Naruto had a lot of flaws, so did he himself. Nobody was 100 percent perfect, but Gaara came pretty damn close. And, the-red head had an air of innocence about him, the fact that no one had ever touched him made him all the more irresistable. The Uchiha couldn't help it, he wanted to be the older teen's boyfriend.. He wanted to cuddle with him, be to Gaara what Naruto was to him. Sasuke made a decision, if Gaara wanted him to, he'd break up with his blonde lover. Loving for a reason was far more important that loving because you were lonely...
"Gaara? I'll leave him if you want me to, 'cause I really love you."
The red-head's green eyes widened, he must be hearing wrong. "No, stay with him, ok? He loves you."
"But, Gaara." Sasuke protested, only to be cut off before he could continue.
"No really, it's what I want.. Stay with him and leave me alone, ok?" He demanded, voice cracking as he strained not to let tears fall. He refused to cry over this, he couldn't love someone who was already in love.
Sasuke nodded sadly, standing from the older teen's bed. The pale teen made his way into the bathroom and locked the door. Gaara didn't see or hear him again until it was time for class.
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The class room was a sick shade of white, three-seater benches lined up in front of long tables all around the room. Black computers sat in each place on the tables, screens idle.
"Uchiha Sasuke." The gray-haired man called from the front of the room, checking names off of the list. Sasuke was seated in the corner behind Kakashi's desk, Gaara next to him, Naruto next to Gaara.
"Here."
"Hyuuga Neji." Neji was by himself in the opposite corner of the room.
"Hm."
"Rock Lee." Said teen was sitting as close to Neji as the pale-eyed boy would allow, which was four chairs away. It wasn't that Neji didn't like Lee, it was just he prefered to keep his ear drums working for the whole day.
"I am here, Sensei!"
"A simple 'here' will do, Lee. Aah, My favorite, Uzumaki Naruto."
"President."
"Gaara."
"Here.." He whispered, softly, but just loud enough for the man to hear him.
"Well, this is a small class, I think I'll like you guys. Do whatever, just stay out of my hair." The gray-haired man stated, pulling an orange book from his pocket.
Sasuke watched as Gaara opened an MSN program, typing in his screen name and password. Suprisingly, the pale teen only had two people on his list, and neither of them were online. The Uchiha opened his own MSN, quickly adding the name he'd seen to his friends list.
sasu-kun: I didn't know you had msn
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: um, yeah... I don't have my own computer.. I don't ever get to use it
sasu-kun: buy one
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: do I look like I work?
sasu-kun: -twitch- get a job then
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: I don't like people
sasu-kun: you like me
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: oh, I guess being molested is liking you, right?
sasu-kun: I don't understand why you insist on ignoring what I'm offering. it would take a mere minute for me to message him right now, and dump him.. whether you want me to or not..
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: do what you want, I'm not stopping you.. but don't expect me to date you when you leave him either
sasu-kun: I expect nothing of you Gaara, just that you at least consider me
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: No.. if you dump him for me, you'll end up alone
sasu-kun: that'll be fine too
Gaara looked over at the blonde, who's hand was currently in the air. He looked back over at Sasuke.
sasu-kun: one minute, and he's gone
"Kakashi-Sensei?" The blonde called, voice cracking.
"What do you want?"
"Can I go, please?" Naruto asked, hiccuping softly.
"What for?" The man asked, irritation obvious in his voice.
"Please just can I go?"
"Go on.."
The blonde grabbed his bag and made a quick dash for the door, heading back towards his room.
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: you bastard
sasu-kun: its like chess
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: what do you mean?
sasu-kun: all everybody is are just pieces on the board
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: what are you getting at?
sasu-kun: you know how it is in chess, you have to get rid of pieces
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: that's cold, colder than me even
sasu-kun: I could warm you
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: fuck off
sasu-kun: I did that for you, Gaara.. please let me love you
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: Sasuke...
sasu-kun: please..
I'd like to cover you in sand for that: give me some time to think about it
sasu-kun: ok, but I don't want to end up alone...
"Boys. Off of the messenger." Kakashi called, nose still buried in his book.
sasu-kun: wtf, how does he see us?
"Off."
The two boys signed off of MSN and Gaara rested his head on his desk, thinking over the past class. Sasuke had broken up with his boyfriend for him, and he barely knew him.. It wasn't fair, now he'd have to live with the burden of knowing that the pale teen hurt his important person for him. Naruto was probably crying his eyes out in his dorm and it was all the red-heads fault.
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Sobs echoed throughout the room, the blonde huddled up under Sasuke's blankets. He couldn't believe it, what had he done? Was it because of what he'd said to his boyfriend before he tried to kill himself? The words kept flashing in front of his eyes.
sasu-kun: I don't love you anymore.. that's why.. I love him now, he's softer
It wasn't fair, was what happened that morning nothing more than a goodbye fuck? He didn't even know why he was in Sasuke's bed right now. He was just causing himself more pain. The bed was even still warm from their earlier 'tangle'. Naruto rolled over on his stomach, pulling the pillow underneath him. "Sasuke.. don't leave me. Please don't leave me.." He whispered, choking on his tears.
"So the bastard did it, eh?" Naruto jumped, flailing out of the bed.
"How do you know about this?" The blonde demanded, rubbing the tears off of his face.
"He told me.. "
"Oh, so I guess you helped him decide, right? Since you can't keep your hands off him. What makes you think you can just go around and touch other people's boyfriends? Shit dosen't work like that.."
"No, it wasn't like that at all.. I didn't have a say in any of this. In fact, I even told him not to."
Naruto snorted. "Psh, bullshit.." He pushed past Gaara and left the room, his bed seemed to be calling to him.