This Fanfiction doesn't belong to me; it is simply a translation from German to English.

I'm trying to do my best to make my favourite story available to more readers, so please be kind and don't be annoyed by mistakes. You are welcome to correct my English as it is far from being perfect.

Credits go to Melisendis, who actually wrote this story with the beautiful name of "Schneeflocken". All of you able to understand German should perhaps rather read her story than poor translation of it.

I also already apologize for not updating frequently. I have got quite a stressful student life so I might not be able to update in a few weeks.

Please be patient!

I know it took forever this time...I'll try to improve :)

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Part 4

It's a strange feeling to wake up one morning and not have the slightest idea where you are. I have been in this situation three times and it has always been the same. At first you want to understand what happened – once you know, you immediately try to forget it.

Warm rays of sun were gently tickling my nose; I was close to sneezing but tried to suppress it. Through my half-opened eyes I could see Luke bending down to my Mom and whispering something affectionately into her ear. She smiled.

I closed my eyes and breathed deeply. Tears would destroy the beautiful moment.

-Flashback-

"Luke and I are together!" Mum radiated happiness as she took a huge bite from her pizza.

We were sitting in our living room, some stupid talk show was still audible in the background.

I had sensed before that she actually had big news for me. It had been one or two weeks after our big fight about the thing with Dean, the "incident", as we called it. The whole town already knew about the happy couple, including myself.

I smiled. "I know."

"He's taking me to a fancy restaurant tonight. I don't have anything to wear!" The desperate expression on her face was priceless. I tried hard to hide my smile. Mum behaved like an enamoured teenager.

-End-

Luke ran his hand tenderly over her head. She reached for his hand. Her fingers were trembling. Her looks were full of warmth.

Only true love could look like this.

-Flashback-

After listening to Paris' neverending stories about her new boyfriend, a young doctor, for almost two hours, I finally managed to make her leave. I had loads of studying to get done. I hadn't even finished with my second paragraph of a really huge script, when I heard a resolute knock on my door.

I opened, already annoyed. "Mum?"

She stormed into my apartment and jumped onto the couch – missing my script by an inch.

"I have to tell you something." She was glowing.

I sat next to hear and moved my script to my lap. She was supposed to see that I didn't have time for a long chat.

"You know Luke, right?" She began excitedly.

I nodded but didn't reply. After a hard critique from my chief editor, a strange tingler of a tutor, a heated argument with Logan and Paris' overjoyed praise of her boyfriend - whom she would probably curse in two weeks at the latest - I really wasn't in the mood to talk.

"So…Luke. Our dealer, friend, lover…"

"Your lover!" I corrected her.

"We had a date yesterday."

I sighed. Couldn't she just get to the point of this?

Mum smiled cheerily. "It was so romantic! A Picnic in the moonlight."

"Luke and a Picnic?" I had definitely misunderstood her.

"Yeah. We were directly next to a little lake. It was unbelievable! The water sparkled in the moonlight…" She sighed. "He had brought two big blankets. There was chicken, fries, pancakes…everything you can even think of! And a huge piece of Danish. After dinner he packed away the food and we cuddled up under the blankets. He kissed me tenderly and…"

"Please, Mum, no details!" I groaned.

Mum smirked. "After the details he took my hand and pulled me up. We started walking slowly around the lake to the other side. You should have seen the sky, Rory! It was so beautiful. I tried to count the stars but got lost all the time." She laughed but turned serious again quickly. "Then he suddenly took my hand and kissed me. It was a kiss full of passion. I have never before been able to feel such love and passion for a man. He hugged me. I never wanted to let go of him again, I felt so secure in his arms. Suddenly he pulled away. Rory, it was like a fairytale! He told me, how much he loved me. He had done that before but it was totally different this time. While softly caressing my cheek, he pulled out a small black box from his pocket…"

"A small box?"

Mum beamed. "He…asked me to marry him."

"What did you say?" I already knew the answer.

She breathed deeply and held up her hand, so I could see it. It was silver and a single ruby was shining in the light. I hugged her.

-End-

Luke kissed my Mum softly.

That's what being loved looked like. I swallowed my tears. It was almost like I had never come. They didn't see me. They lived a full life.

They had always been in love. Their marriage had been out of love. Like it was supposed to be.

-Flashback-

"Are you sure?" Lane looked at me, doubt in her eyes.

I nodded decisively. "It doesn't make sense to keep up this relationship any longer."

-End-

I had wanted to finally break it off with Logan.

-Flashback-

I stared at my watch and stared at the small cup in my hands. Alternately.

Time didn't do me the favour of just freezing. There was no way back anymore.

I was cowering in the corner of the little bathroom in our dorm. The door was locked. I could hear my flatmates curse and knock vehemently against the bathroom door.

I was trembling when I pulled the strip out of the cup. I knew the result before I had even seen it.

-End-

I had wanted to leave Logan but then I became pregnant.

-Flashback-

"You are…what?" Logan stared at me, appalled.

I nodded. Tears were streaming down my cheeks. I had absolutely no idea how to go on.

Having the baby seemed right to me, I would have never been able to have an abortion.

I sank down on Logan's bed.

He sat down next to me and softly caressed my back. His voice became smooth all of a sudden. "We will make. Let's do the right thing now."

-End-

"The right thing", as Logan had called it, had probably been one of the worst decisions of my life.

A single tear slowly found its way down my cheek.

"She's awake." I suddenly heard Luke's voice.

I tried to smile. "Good Morning."

"Are you hungry? It's almost noon."

Noon…what difference did it make? Then I realized that time was vitally important.

"No, thank you." It seemed impossible to eat.

"You have to eat", said Mum.

"How about a pancake?" Luke smiled. He knew how to tempt me.

"Okay." I agreed.

"And get me some coffee!", demanded Mum, before he left the room.

They were worried about me. Wasn't it my turn to worry about them?

Mum stroke my hand lightly. She looked less pale than yesterday but the brightness of her eyes was still missing.

"Did you sleep well?" I inquired hesitantly.

She smiled lightly, hardly noticeable. "You were with me. As long as both of you are here, I will always be well."

Suddenly Luke entered the room, a trey in his hands. "Carol called. She'll be here tonight."

I hadn't been there for my eldest daughter numerous times. But she still didn't let me down. Well, at least not her grandmother.

"Go on, sweetie. I need to hear more." She tried to smile. Luke had left the room. She could still remember exactly what I had told her the day before.

Luke had mentioned good and bad days. I was afraid of the bad ones.