And so, we arrived at his family's beach estate. True, it was lovely; but to someone as… economically stable as I am, it was only partly impressive.
Though its location was magnificent. A beautiful ocean lie a block away, wonderful little shops along the way, and most importantly, not many people. Perfect.
Ashamed to say, I actually fell asleep on the entire helicopter ride. I AM sick, don't you recall? It's quite difficult for me to maintain consciousness.
As soon as we arrived, I tried to bribe Tamaki that I take another nap. But he insisted he give me a tour of the estate.
Oh, and by the way, he did have a washer and drier for clothing. Needless to say, I was praising the gods of luck, technology, and all inner desires.
When given the option of choosing a guest room to stay in, I didn't think choosing Tamaki's room was an option. And so I chose the room next to Tamaki's.
But all part-joking aside.
I believe the real reason that Tamaki was so insistent on us going on this vacation was that we needed this time together. We need this time to think about things and to work things out.
You see, we are in love. We're just having trouble trying to figure it out, I suppose. Especially me.
For some reason, I just seem awkward around him. Like I always feel that he has the upper-hand, and it bothers me. It makes me wish that I had the ability to at least say, "I love you."
Perhaps I'm a coward. But when it comes to these new emotions, I feel a lack in progression on my part. Like I won't be able to keep him happy, or I won't be able to give him what he really wants.
I always seem to say the wrong things. Or the things that I don't mean to say. I'm a blunt person, you see, but when it comes to speaking of matters of the heart, I have trouble.
Tamaki, on the other hand, has no problem with saying, "I love you." He's confident and non-caring of what other people think.
Maybe it's because I'm hesitant. Perhaps I hesitate because I know that our bond is forbidden.
I'm not sure if I told you already, but our parents have resorted to becoming enemies. I'm not sure when or how this change came about, but they must have figured out about us, slowly falling in love. Naturally, they were perturbed about us, and so they called off our family's relations.
Not that that stopped me or Tamaki. Besides, we had schooling to attend to next year together. And it's not as if we're just there because of each other, right? Well, I may be lying. But I see nothing wrong with spending time with a loved one.
But all rambling aside.
I really do hope, as he does, that this trip can bring our bond closer together.
-Kyouya