Robin, had thought a lot about what to say to Barney the whole night after breaking up with Nick. She, figured that the only way to tell him what she has to and needs to get off her chest would be to just come out with it. She needs to put herself out there, after everything that has happened between them this is the only way for him to know and believe that she's being honest with him about her feelings. So, she needs to come clean about everything and the only way to do that is to get him alone.
The, next night the gang all met at Maclaren's but as the night went on Robin was quiet for most of that time. Thinking, about how to say all the things she has to, to let him know that she's ready... ready to be with him. Ready, to have a life with him and only him. Ready, to love him like he thinks nobody does. But, she does and it took her a long time to realize, accept and admit that she's in love with him and wants to be with him. No, more playing games, no more lying, no more secrets, no more backing away from each other, no more living in denial and no more living with the one regret she's had made in her life. Not, only did she give up on their relationship the first time. And, then once again she gave up and caved feeling guilty for sleeping with him just last year, staying with Kevin when she wants in love with him is the biggest mistake and regret she's ever made and has to live with that. But, she hopes that he can see why she did what she did then, not because she didn't love him but because she was scared.
Barney, really loved having Missy but when the gang threw that intervention for him. He knew he had to give her back to the shelter, after all it was a trial run to see if he wanted to keep her. But, she had already destroyed some very expensive shoes and some ties, luckily those ties were old but she still ripped them a new one. So, the only thing to do was to give her back. After, his friends talked some sense into him. He was sad, but it had to be done.
So, when Barney gave Missy back to the pet shelter he instantly regretted it. He wanted to keep her so badly but realized that the more she grows the more she's going to destroy his apartment. So, giving her back was the right thing to do after some tough love from his friends. But, maybe in a few months or years he will get to bring her home again or find another dog who's just as great at Missy. Until then though Barney will live his life trying not to be to miserable without someone who loves him... or the only one he wants to love him.
It was getting later one night at Maclaren's when last call was announced everyone started leaving and when everyone left it was the best time to talk to Barney. Robin, has thought and thought over this for the last 24 hours but it was time to clear the air between them and to tell him how she really feels. She, hoped that he will forgive her and move on... hopefully together.
Sometimes in life you might start regretting the things you do or say and in the case of Robin Scherbatsky it's regretting giving up on Barney and rejecting him for someone she didn't love. Regrets, are the one thing in life where you start to hate yourself for doing or saying the things you do and say when she rejected Barney she instantly regretted it. So, that's why when she finally realized that she wants to be with Barney and that she loves him and never stopped she also realized that the only way to fix this was to get it all out there, not holding anything back and to tell him flat out that she regrets what happened between them last November. When, they are finally alone she finally gets to talk to him after being quiet thinking about all of this while her friends all talked around her.
"Look, Barney there are some things that I need to talk to you about and I don't want you to interrupt me while I'm saying these things because I have been wanting to tell you these things for a long time and I just recently came to a conclusion about something that's been eating at me for a while." Barney nodded at let Robin continue with whatever it is she wanted to say and Robin took a sip of her scotch before continuing with what she wants to say.
"I-I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. Thinking about my life, thinking about why I'm not happy, thinking about this past year, thinking about you, thinking about us and I realized that for the first time in my life the only thing that makes me happy is you." Barney wanted to say something but let Robin continue. "So, with all of this thinking I came to realize that it's you who makes me happy and it's you who I want to be with. I know it took me years to realize this but it's only taken me this long because I was scared of being with you again cause if a new relationship started and ended the way our last relationship ended I would just not be fine. Last time, our break up nearly killed me and I don't want that to happen again with us. There are so many things I regret but the one thing that I truly regret and want to clear up is rejecting you for Kevin." Robin froze up at this point and looked down for a moment before looking back up at Barney.
"Do you know how much you hurt me by choosing Kevin?" Barney interrupted about to have Robin have it cause he's been wanting to tell her these things ever since but he was interrupted when Robin started talking again.
"Yes, but I didn't realize it until Ted told me that you set up rose pedals and candles in my room the night we were supposed to get back together. He told me that you told him about our relapse the night before and that you broke up with Nora to be with me. I am so truly sorry that I chose Kevin cause if I knew that you were serious I would've broken up with him to be with you. I regret doing that so much, I didn't know how much pain I caused you and I do regret it all and that night we had was not at all a regretful moment because before that I was madly in love with you but so scared of telling you also I thought you were happy with Nora so I let you be happy even if it's with someone else. I even went as far as trying to break you two up but tried to stop it then got arrested for beating up a girl who was trying to get with you." Barney stopped her for second and looked at her like he never seen her before and said.
"Wait, you beat up a girl for me because you wanted to break me and Nora up?" He was shocked by what he's hearing he would have never thought that Robin would go as far as beating someone up for him to be happy but she did and it shocked him.
"Well, I stopped her from seeing you when you were on your date with Nora she wasn't giving up on seeing you so I pulled her hair to stop her from seeing you and we started fighting. The cops stopped us and I went to jail for a few hours but nobody knew about this and I don't want anyone to know so this just stays between us okay?" Robin really didn't want anyone finding out about this cause it was really embarrassing and one of the worst times in her life.
"So, you were in love with me then but didn't say anything? Tell me this, how long have you loved me? And why did you take this long to tell me?" Barney was both shocked and impressed with what Robin did for him that he was a bit entertained by this whole thing.
"Yes, I was in love with you then and I am in love with you now. I have never stopped loving you and I did all this because I wanted you to be happy and I thought you were so after all of this the court ordered me to have mandatory therapy and that's how I met Kevin. I just didn't meet him willingly or by accident I met him because I beat up that girl the court thought I was crazy. Anyway, I have loved you for a long time. Since we were together, I never stopped loving you and I just realized that when Nick pointed it out to me." Robin didn't stop talking and Barney was listening and getting more and more entertained by this story so he stopped her by kissing her so hard that it made her head spin in shock.
She really did miss this, she missed his lips on hers she missed his tongue connecting with hers and she missed his hands on her, in her hair, her face, all over her body and when they broke apart Barney smiled.
"I can't believe you did all that for me." He told her kissing her one more time before taking her hand and leaving Maclaren's.
"Well, it was just an instant reaction. But, seeing you happy with her killed me. So, I was really upset about that. Next thing I knew was that I keyed the judges car then I ended up in therapy because I was struggling so hard with my feelings for you. I, I love you Barney I really with all my heart regret not telling you sooner but I'm glad you're not mad at me." She's relieved that he took this so well. He was mad at first but that quickly subsided and now he's not mad at all. He could never be mad at her for long, even though he was very angry after she chose to stay with Kevin. But, he guesses that he did have some resentment over that for the past year so it was good for them to finally talk and have it out even though he's not mad at her about that anymore.
"No, not mad. I was a little resentful at first... well not not at first, for this whole year. But, I'm not mad. I could never hold anything against you, I love you too much to do that. As, much as I was mad for a while I'm not mad now." This time, she leans in a kisses him.
There is still a lot to talk about including her infertility and where this new relationship will lead to. But, for now they go back to his place and spend the rest of the night making up for all this lost time and opportunity. They're in love, that is the truth and now that they said it and it's out there and known to both. They, are finally feeling free for the first time in their lives. They, don't know what the future hold but they do know that this conversation was the start of the rest of their lives.