Disclaimer- I don't own any of these characters (all but 2- the sons are mine) or the story that this is based on. They belong to Stephenie Meyer (unfortunately). Not me(it's so sad I know but that's how the world works)!!!

N/A- As by now you should know that this is my first fan-fiction ever so don't decapitate me because it sucks. I'd love you if you left a comment good and bad. Please R&R!! I am begging. And constructive criticism is wanted and needed. So I am pretty sure you want to read more since I left the last chapter and the chapter before at cliff-hangers. So here it goes. Please enjoy Chapter 4.

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Bella's Point Of View

He stood up without taking my hand. "I'm so sorry, Bella." Is all he said then he turned and ran out of the meadow, our meadow.

He left. He just left like he did before but this time I could fallow him, I could keep up. But should I?

He left me twice. But every time he has come back.

Should I fallow him? Or just wait for him to return?

I just stood there rooted to the stop.

What should I do? Do I fallow him? Should I fallow him?

Alice ran after him. Jasper took my hand and started to lead me toward the spot where Edward and Alice had disappeared to.

I wouldn't go with Jasper at first. All I could do was look at the spot where Edward vanished from. I just couldn't get my feet to move. Jasper pulled my hand making me take a step forward. "Jasper I can't" I said. He just looked at me, willing me to move. He grabbed my arm and frosted me to go with him.

I didn't resist him I couldn't. I wanted to see Edward. I needed to see Edward.

And there he was.

He was on his knees staring at the ground with his hands in his hair as he was cursing the ground.

I couldn't look at him knowing that he wouldn't look at me. I didn't listen to what he was saying. I couldn't hear his velvet voice and know I couldn't have him. I closed my eyes I wanted to run but couldn't because Jasper wouldn't let go of my arm. So I just stood there trying not to listen to him. But no one was saying anything at all. We just stood there (or in Edwards case kneeled there). All I could hear was the sound of our breathing. I didn't open my eyes. I couldn't look at him and know I couldn't have him.

We stood there for 15 minutes 2 second and 28 milliseconds.

I finally opened my eyes. I saw Edward staring at me. His eyes were a deep black and the circles under his eyes were unnaturally dark (even for a vampire).

He was more beautiful then I remembered. My angle. I wanted to touch his face; I wanted to kiss his lips. I took a step forward, without even thinking about it. Jasper let go of my arm as I took my step.

Edwards's eyes got bigger as I moved toward him.

"Bella, I love you." was all he said.

As the words came out of his mouth I knew they weren't true. He has said those words to me hundreds of thousands of times, but he still left and he would leave again. He has no reason not to.

I took a step backwards when I realized this.

"I'm sorry" I mouthed then turned around and started to run. Before I could take one step Jasper had my arm again.

"No Jasper let her go" Edward said.

Let me go. LET ME GO? He couldn't say that if he really truly loved me. He wouldn't have been able to let me go.

I was trying to convince myself not to stay. So I left.

I ran as fast as I could home.

Home to my sons. Home to my family. Home to the people who won't leave me.

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Ok that's chapter 4. So what do you think? Press the button and tell me. I want to know.

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