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The Traveler's Blessing
Chapter 4: Not My First Rodeo

Raven

She was trapped again. Trapped and beaten and angry and she was going to make that bitch Allie regret the day she pushed Raven fucking Reyes out of her own brain for the second time. That bitch is fucking with the wrong mechanic, let's boogie Allie.

It took longer than anticipated to build the computers, she almost died far too many times for her liking at the hands of the goons that Allie had watching her, that would help her access the outside world. She hasn't wanted to believe it and if she hadn't been so objectionable to it, she would have made different choices. Instead she gets to pin all her hopes on a half-baked idea about reaching out to find the other AI that Allie is hell bent on merging with.

The other AI was a closed system but she was able to wirelessly locate it. Problem was it wasn't functioning properly and it would be a thing to repair it without alerting Allie to its exact location. But it was also everyone's only hope and there was no other way to escape. Four days later she had just input the last few lines of code that would complete the repairs for the other AI when Allie decided to crash the party.

"Well, well, well, if it isn't our AI overlord coming down from on high to mingle with the commoners. What do you have for me today Allie, ECT, self-inflected gunshot to the stomach, amputating my good leg, or are you going to cut my arms open again..." She did nothing to stop the hysterical laughter and in fact threw her head back to let it all out then went back to putting the finishing touches on the repairs. "Can you make this quick, I'm a little busy and I don't have time for your level of insanity right now."

"I know what you've been doing Raven." She looked up and raise a brow at Allie. "And it won't work."

"Ah now you see that's where you're wrong." She hit enter and grinned as the little progress bar vanished from the screen; the other AI was repaired. There was also a nasty virus spreading throughout the city of Light. "I am a fucking genius and you have made me ten times better than before when you hi-jacked my body. Time to reap what you've sown bitch."

The virus was designed to disrupt Allie's control over the system long enough for her to get a message to whoever it was that had the other AI. She would have done a victory dance as Allie melted into a red puddle on the ground but she knew that Allie wouldn't stay down for long.

She spent another four days blocking Allie from intercepting her S.O.S. She just hoped that commander heartless wouldn't betray them again.

Raven

Her eyes were bloodshot as her fingers flew over the keyboard. She spared a glance for the commander, who was leaning against the wall on her right before her attention returned to the screen. Where said woman was currently hacking and slashing her way through the virtual army of her own people. It was mesmerizing to watch the commander slice off limbs and dance through the arterial blood spray.

"Reivon," There was a sickening squelch as the commander kicked a body off the end of a sword, and then a screech as she spun bringing her swords up to create an X, catching the huge broadsword and stopping it from cutting her in half. "have you found a way around the firewall yet?"

"What, is commander heartless not enjoying the bloodbath?" Despite the harsh edge to her words, her eyes scanned the screens frantically for a solution and when she found it, a wide malicious grin split her face, "Boom time mother fuckers!"

She cackled with glee as she hit enter and watched as the commander dived for the nearest bit of cover. When the first drop of rain hit the ground, a tiny spark ignited as the water splashed onto the concrete and as more drops fell a raging fire spread.

"What is this?" The commander watched with something akin to awestruck horror as the army was devoured by the flames, that seemed to be fueled by the rain itself.

"That would be Greek fire," She paused to input a few more lines of code and, "but don't worry commander heartless, I won't stab you in the back, like when you left us in that mountain. As of two seconds ago I made your ensemble fire proof. Now take the alley on your left and go all the way down it. At the end you'll see a door like the ones on the ark."

She breathed a little easier as she watched the commander run, they were almost there, and soon everyone would be free from Allie's control. She sighed in relief as the commander made it to her door. "Thank fuck." She said as she rested her head on the table beside the keyboard.

"Lexa?"

Her head shot up at hearing Clarke's voice and when her eyes landed on the screen. She flinched away from it and looked anywhere but at the screens and the commander's physical body. But inevitably her eyes were drawn back to the screens. The commander's eyes narrowed to slits and the vibrant green became murky with shadows and unfathomable rage.

"Lexa please stop. You don't have to suffer anymore. In the city of Light-"

A war cry echoed across the city, the code on the screens was scrambled and turned to static. "-we will owe nothing more to our people."

"You're just a trick." The commander was a harsh whistle as the commander's swords slash the air and a thin red line seeped through the white shirt as the commander began chanting. "You're not my Klark."

Holy fuck, O you were right about them. Lexa isn't seriously going to...of course she is, she left Clarke at the mountain. A chorus of clicks and clacks filled the air as her fingertips sped across the keys like they were possessed by a demon. With each stroke of a key her hatred of the commander lessened as she tried to stop the tragedy that the stupid self-sacrificing commander was bringing upon herself. I saw what it did to Clarke and as much as I hate Lexa, she doesn't deserve that.

"But I can be. You just-"

She ignored the urge to see what was happening as she typed faster and faster. Her heart was breaking as she heard the commander yell 'Yu gonplei ste odon.'At the same time that she hit enter. And when she looked up at the screen she just about died of happiness at seeing that she'd successfully deleted the fake Clarke before the commander had run the blonde through with the swords.

"Thank you Reivon."

"Don't mention it, Lexa." Her smile was so wide that it hurt as she saw the look on the commander's face. "Earth to commander heartless, two minutes and counting before you become a brainless zombie like everyone else." The insult had lost it's bite as she saw the commander finally open her door.

The moment that the commander had disappeared behind the door, she closed her eyes against the tide of memories of the first time she'd done this but instead of the commander, it had been Clarke.

Everything hurt and she had never been so glad to be in pain before. But her relief was short lived as her eyes tracked Clarke. She tensed when Jasper moved closer too her. "Here," She saw him drop a white object into Clarke's hand. "I can't do what you did."

The drive to Arkadia was silent after she kind of fangirled a bit over the second AI and its creator Becca Pramheda. And she'd be lying if she said she didn't have a huge girl-crush on said chick whose been dead for a hundred years.

The silence wasn't good for her, it gave her too much time to think about that desolate and dead look in Clarke's eyes. She may not have gotten to know Clarke very well but she could recognize crushing grief when she saw it and that interaction between her and Jasper raised questions as well.

"I don't believe it." She whispered as she read what the code on the screens was showing.

"What, did you find the kill switch?"Monty asked from behind her.

"Don't answer that, Allie can hear us."

"I'm reading the code, Harper. Allie already knows."

"Knows what," He says as he tries to make sense of the information on screen. But all he sees are numbers. "What are you talking about?"

"Clarke is in the city of light." Her attention is riveted to the screens as the first wave of Allie's soldiers descend on Clarke.

But before she can do anything to try and help, the commander comes flying out of nowhere. As she shouts a fierce war cry into air, the commander slashes her swords in a wide arc, slashing all four of the soldiers' throats that were near Clarke. The commander's every motion was fluid, her swords flashed as she danced through the assault of enemies.

When the commander stabbed the last enemy and had sheathed her blades, Raven was shocked to see commander heartless run to Clarke; even more heart wrenching was how Clarke reached for the commander. The hug she witnessed between Clarke and Lexa was the most bittersweet and painful thing that she'd ever seen. And for just a moment, she saw life spark in sky blue.

After the door appeared and she learned that the commander had a mean right hook, it got even worse. She could see the life fading from Clarke and as the commander was going to run off and be noble, a vice closed around her heart as she saw the look in Clarke's eyes as she looked at the commander, as if it were the last time that she'd ever get to see her. Clarke never said a word but she was astounded at how easily the commander could read Clarke. "I'll always be with you."

As soon as Clarke passed through the firewall, the people attacking the commander vanished. Raven quickly started to scan for where Clarke went and just as she found that bit of code, another more insistent sequence of code caught her eye. "Look after her for me, Reivon kom Skaikru."

She froze and stared at the screen with the commander's code and she felt the heavy weight of those green eyes. It gave her unpleasant flashbacks to that moment when the commander had sliced her arm open.

"Beja, Reivon. I have no right to ask anything of you. But she needs someone to care for her. Don't let her light fade." The commander of thirteen clans was on her knees, begging.

Her fingers were steady as she started typing a line of code but by the time she hovered them over the enter key, they shook as she pressed down.

"You're damn right you don't get to ask me for anything, commander heartless. But I will look after her."

The screens went dark as the commander's eyes slowly opened. "Is it done?"

"Yeah." She nodded and watched as the commander stood up. "What's next," She almost said her nickname for the woman but she was so tired of pretending that they weren't friends. She'd deal with the consequences later, as it was highly likely that she'd travel again soon, and so with the weight of old memories at the forefront of her mind, "Leksa?"

The slight tilt to the commander's head at her Trig accent was extremely satisfying. Hmm maybe I should make a game out of this with O. See if the two of us can't break those walls down.

"We cleanse the pain of the past in fire."

Oh fuck, I forgot how much seeing that fake Clarke made her withdraw into 'Heda Mode'. "You know Heda, you could have just said, burn the dead." She fought down her amusement as the commander sent her a withering glare. Maybe next time I will have figured out how to stop that idiot from trying to kill you.

Raven

The wind was pleasantly cool as they moved through the village's square. The general had stepped up their patrols ever since the object had fallen from the Skai. The people inside the object did not appear to be a threat. But then the scouts had reported their attempts to reach the mountain and that made them nervous. After the second object crashed down they'd seen an increase in ripa activity.

Theo, who had received his warrior marks that morning, glanced up to gauge how long it'd be before they reached the other side of the village when he saw the missiles hit the square. Theo was frozen in place as the acrid smoke filled the air. He looked around at his fellow gonas and they'd just begun to relax as the wind picked up. The dying embers from the missiles were ignited by the wind and within seconds the village square was a raging inferno.

Instantly he brought the horn he carried up to his lips and blew two short blasts, then a much longer one. "Faya!"

As he rushed to the buildings that had yet to catch fire to help get the people out, tears spilled over his cheeks as he turned away from where his family's home was entirely covered in flames. He knew they were dead so he pushed down his grief and went to save as many as he could.

His legs shook as he carried Tris into the temporary camp. He was lucky that he'd been held up helping the survivors of his village and had to delay his departure. Because of his lateness general Anya had placed him toward the back of their formation. He saw the explosion on the bridge and the sheer force of it had knocked him off his feet.

He'd jolted awake some time later with Anya's seken laying not to far from him. He saw the look of relief that flashed in her eyes as he brought Tris into camp.

He rushed forward to embrace his little brother when he saw him in Tondisi, he hadn't expected to see him alive after the village had burned down. His joy was short lived when the Ripa attacked. But he would be damned if he'd let the Maunon take the last of his family. They'd survived the attack. Then he watched as his brother was shot by the fraga.

"Do you know why you are here, sky girl?" Her head was pounding as Theo shouted into her ears. She was disoriented and had no idea what was going on.

The last thing that she could remember was helping the residents of Tondisi set up a relay tower for the radios that the commander ordered her to build. It had been slow going until the commander recommended enlisting the help of Theo, who'd shown an interest in mechanics.

As soon as she'd seen him, a dull ache pulsed in the back of her head. She'd pushed through the discomfort and after awhile the ache went away. But later that night that ache resurfaced as a migraine that forced her to retire early. Her dreams that night were just brief flashes of colors like a kaleidoscope. Her dreams slowly got clearer as she spent more time working with Theo.

"I asked you a question." He growled. Her silence must have angered him further as he'd dragged a blade across her back.

The pain ripped into her disorientation and that's when the other pain she was feeling made itself known. Her shoulders and arms were sore and the muscles in them were screaming as she tried to shift them. The motion caused the shackles on her wrists to dig in and as a slow trickle of blood began running down her arm, her eyes shot open; she was hanging from the ceiling in a run down shack.

Another searing line of pain was drawn across her back. "Don't make me ask you again."

"I," Her eyes closed against the images that threatened to overwhelm her from the nightmare she'd had last night. But she knew it wasn't a nightmare, for months now she'd been having nightmares about different people; echos of their pain from the city of Light. "yes. I know why I'm here."

"Good." He said as he pressed the tip of his blade against her back once more, "Are you prepared to meet your death?"

"Yes. And for what its worth I'm sorry about your family, no, I'm sorry about all of them." She tried her best not to make a sound as he started cutting into her back. By the time he'd made the seventeenth cut she passed out from blood loss.

"I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry." Their eyes stared through her as they shambled forward. Flames licking at their skin as it went from red to coal black.

"Hold her down." The voice was accompanied by more pain as it came alive across her entire back. It felt like she was trapped in the burning village.

"No you can't take that. Stop. Three hundred people will die." She was delirious from the rough treatment that her head had gotten during re-entry.

"He's infected her with the fever. There nothing we can do." She weakly attempted to say, 'blood transfusion' but she slipped into the comforting darkness before she could get the words out.

"You know how to make the pain en-"

She watched as the commander's lover, who was chained to the wall spat blood in her mentor's face. It took a lot of strength not to act, the last time she'd done so without the queen's leave; Nia had had her whipped.

"I'd sooner die than help you."

"I do so wish we could have come to an understanding, Kostia." Nia tutted and wiped her face off before striding toward the door. She was quick to follow after her. "I suppose, I'll just have to send you back now."

"Leksa will never do what you want, she won't give you a war. You could send her my head in box and she still won't given in." The color drained from Costia's face as she saw Nia pause in the doorway. She quashed the small pang of sympathy that she felt for the commander's lover as the fool peaked the queen's interest.

"My, my, my," Her blood turned to ice as she heard the malicious glee caressing each word that Nia spoke. "That, my dear Kost, is a splendid idea. I was going to have my faithful Gerall remove a bone from you and then taunt your commander with the uncertainty of having freed your spirit completely. But this...is a much better idea. Its a shame that I didn't think of it myself. Ontari kill her however you see fit and do be sure to mar her pretty face. After all we must make our message to the commander as clear as possible."

"Actually I've asked Clarke to say in Polis as my guest." She braces for his disapproval and she isn't disappointed. "Clarke will you excuse us."

At Klark's nod she watches wistfully as the blond leaves, she really wants to leave too. Once the doors close she turns away from him. She waits patiently for the lecture she knows is coming.

"On this sacred day I beg you to remember my teachings," At his pause she turns and gives him her full attention."Love is weakness. To be commander, is to be alone."

"I will not hear this again." She sighs before brushing past him.

He is already speaking as she finished. "Yes you will." He turns to keep her in sight. "Your feelings for Clarke put both of you in danger." She unconsciously starts grinding her teeth. "Your kill order must be fully enforced," Her breath starts coming faster. "If you care for Clarke, you will send her home. It is the only way that she will be safe."

She has her breathing under control as he falls silent. She's still grinding her teeth."Don't make her pay the price for your mistakes as Costia did."

She goes still at this as her eyes shift to him for an eternal moment. "My mistakes," Her rage is simmering just below the surface and is singing through her blood as she steps closer to him. "Azgeda cut off Costia's head and delivered it to my bed. And still, I let them into my alliance! I am more than capable of separating feelings from duty!"

"I'm sorry Leksa." He could hardly stand to look her in the eye but he does. "I did not meant to offend you."

"Yes you did." His focus shifts to the floor. "But you also mean well and I know that, teacher."

He looks up with a small measure of hope in his eyes and inquires beseechingly, "May I make arrangements for Clarke's departure?"

"That's up to Klark." As he shifts nervously and debates on whether or not he should say anything more. She continues, "I know where you stand, Titus."

There was a grittiness to her eyes as she cracked them open and almost immediately a hoarse groan spilled out of her as the harsh glare of sun light fell on her face. Her back gives a twinge of protest as she turns over to fire a bullet into the last grounder of the army that attacked the drop-ship. Honestly she was about ready to swallow a bullet herself with this fucking time travel deal she had going.

She was completely out of it when the ark guard found them but was jostled and shaken so much on the stretcher that she was forced to think about what she'd do this time. Here we go again. I need to study the area around the drop-ship. So I can aim the flares properly next time. And maybe this time I can actually stop Finn.

Unfortunately do to complications from her surgery and the infected burns on her back, she was kept on strict bed rest until Abby cleared her. By the time she was freed from med bay, Clarke and the others had left for Tondisi to burn Finn with his victims. Maybe next time I could make a secret pair of radios and make Octavia take one with her before the battle, so that when Clarke shows up in camp, she can talk him down. Or maybe I should...

Raven

It had been a fucking nightmare of a day. As it had been packed with mandatory lessons on leadership from Kane, the only bright spot had been earlier that morning when she showed Lexa the crossbows. She couldn't stop smiling at how she'd managed to crack the mask of indifference that the commander always wore. She took great pride in knowing that she was the only one who could get her to feel anything other than sorrow or rage. Octavia's turned it into a sport. Wish I could some how get O to cut Lexa some slack...

Over all things hadn't got too badly this time, except she still couldn't for the life of her figure out how to save Anya, Gustus, or Clarke. As far as she could tell was that she needed to be healthy enough to travel to Tondisi, but also distraught over Finn's death enough for the giant idiot to target her; another thing she was tired of pretending to be tore up about, Finn. Its taken her longer than it should have to realize that she loved the Finn she had on the ark and even longer to fully accept that that boy died the moment he took the fall for her. She also only had small bits and pieces about the night Clarke was dragged into med bay.

There was one thing that she had down pat now though, she could properly aim the flares away from any Trikru villages; especially Theo's. When she'd finally succeeded in not burning Theo's village down he'd become somewhat of a friend. From then on she always aimed the flares but occasionally the weather altered the trajectory of the flares and Theo's village burned; in those loops, he tracked her down and killed her.

For the last few loops she'd been trying to narrow down the locations for farm station and stop Pike from massacring the army Lexa sends to protect them. She loosed a frustrated breath and slammed her fist down on the table, tearing a hole into the map. She wasn't worried about anyone coming to check out what the noise was, her workshop was on the other end of Arkadia; no one was around at this hour to bother her. She has been through countless loops now and she is so tired of pretending. So tired of being trapped in the City of Light and trying to sent overt messages to Lexa. Tired of having the weight of the world on her shoulders.

"Maybe its time I stopped being overt. I should try to convince Clarke next time that I'm some how stuck in a time loop..." She groaned and slumped over onto the table. Her leg was in pure agony as she moved but she couldn't be bothered enough to care. "It sounds like I escaped from the loony bin when I say it out loud."

She stayed like that for a while until she couldn't stand the pain in her leg anymore. She about died when she levered herself off the stool and hobbled out the door. The trek was even longer as holding that pose had aggravated her leg. I also need to figure out how to stop Lexa from leaving us at the mountain. It causes her no end of grief from the Azgeda and five other clans when they learn of her dealings with the Maunon. Fucking assholes.

It was amazing to finally be able to prop up her leg and relax on her couch for a few hours. She hardly slept nowadays because Allie's mind invading re-wired her brain with all the memories of her chipped puppets and those memories turned her dreams into nightmares. But without those memories she wouldn't be so driven to get things right with the grounders, she was disgusted with how arrogant and maunon like the arkers were; something she was guilty of as well before the time loops started.

Every fiber of her being wanted to hold the commander as she wept for Clarke. But their friendship wasn't as close knit as the last loop's, so ehe settled for a happy medium and stayed in the room, as a bastion of silent support. We both need to get drunk. Because I know she'll have trouble remembering much of anything that I say about time travel if I get enough of Monty's hooch in her and maybe I can risk asking for information about Gustus and Anya.

Raven

If there was one thing that she wishes she could keep from the city and bring with her, it was the coffee; it helped to ease the blow that not not taking the key, was the lesser of two evils. The one time that she had told Jaha to go fuck himself, it had unleashed a chain of unforeseen events that conspired to get her chipped as fast as possible; her reticence to accept the chip pushed Allie into 'hacking people' faster than the original time line.

She sighed before chugging the rest of her latte, as it seemed like there wouldn't be any new arrivals to the city today and Allie's firewall was closing in on her virus. She needed to move on or Allie would be able to see her. She sighed again before standing and making to leave the coffee shop when Titus, who was still some what of a huge question mark on her mental time loop map, appeared inside the shop.

"Welcome back to the City of Light, flame keeper. "

She had to fight down her initial reaction to move closer to Allie and the man responsible for causing so much suffering. So this is the bastard responsible for getting her killed and for what's happening in Arkadia and the blockade in this loop.

"I live to serve the flame," Her blood was boiling as the flame keeper spoke with a reverence in his voice as he addressed Allie."I was unable to acquire the flame from Leksa."

She rolled her eyes at that but a small grin persisted at hearing how, at least, one thing was going well. This loop had kicked her ass and even though she'd found Pike and farm station's location within a month after Lexa had betrayed them. He'd managed to turn Arkadia against Kane even faster after the Azgeda destroyed the mountain. The self-destruct code, much to her dismay, was different each loop. Can't win them all but I'll die trying.

"However she is headed for the blockade with Clarke, the journey will take them a few days. How is the situation with Pike proceeding? " Her breath caught in her throat as she heard him speak Clarke's name. She carefully positioned herself to better eavesdrop on Titus and Allie. What in the actual fuck did I do, that saved her? How?! This has got to be some kind of game. Clarke has never made it out of Polis alive since that loop, where I went to the capital with Bellamy and Octavia.

"Two days will be sufficient for the Pike issue to be resolved. Tell me, would Lexa take the key if Clarke only existed in the city?"

She unconsciously crushed her empty foam cup and stayed unnaturally still as Allie causally discussed Clarke's imminent demise like it was just another day at the office. This was the last straw. I am never taking the key again. Fuck the consequences. Her hatred for Allie had officially reached new heights. Lexa's emotions in regards to Costia, and Ontari's memories of her torture, had caused her first intense breakdown since the loops started; it was not her last. Doubtful, commander heartless is the most tragic self-sacrificing person I've ever met. And there's her vow to Clarke too. So nice try Samaritan but you'll just push my best friend into full on Heda mode.

"No. The only way forward is to kill Lexa and take the flame." He rubbed his chin, as he thought deeply for a moment. "Suppose you had Kane and the others bring Pike to the blockade as Leksa arrives. She'll need to move quickly to have them executed...did your agents approach Emerson kom maunon? And was he receptive to their offer? Has he taken the key?"

"How may I serve?" It took every ounce of her strength to not jump over the table that separated her from the trifecta of this loop and murder them, violently. In fact she was mentally reciting her mantra to keep her homicidal urges, that these three birthed in her, at bay. Watch, listen, learn, adapt, and plan. Watch, listen, learn, adapt, and plan. Watch. Listen. Learn. Adapt. Plan.

"The red fog that your people used to take large numbers of Trikru, do you still have some of it?" She could feel the warmth of her blood as it slowly seeped through her fingers as her nails punctured the skin of her palms at Emerson's nod.

"Leksa is likely to hold the executions, a candle mark after sundown. We use the red fog in our ambush and kill Leksa. Then take everyone else prisoner and force them to take the key." Both Titus and Emerson gave Allie their full attention. She thought they looked like over eager puppies when Allie gave them the green light.

Her blood ran cold when Allie turned and locked eyes with her after her two lackeys left. "Ah Raven I was wondering where you'd gone. Now I require-"

She had barely made it out the door before her EMP grenade detonated and plunged fourteen city blocks into total darkness; the disgruntled grounders that would be complaining about their wifi not working over the next two days was an added bonus. Sometimes she wished an EMP grenade inside the city wasn't just a glorified smoke bomb and could do lasting damage to Allie. I have two days to smash through Becca's firewall and get an S.O.S to commander heartless.

Raven

"Turn her over." She could hardly draw a deep breath as she felt herself being rolled onto her front. The rich cloying scent of wet dirt was oddly soothing and helped orient her. She caught a flash of red on the edge of her vision as she felt a slight cool sting slide down the back of her neck.

"O, her heart is in fibrillation. We need to hit her with a shock baton now." In the back of her mind she heard herself think. "Ooo fibrillation sounds bad."

"Your fight is not over yet, Reivon."

"I love your voice Leksa. It oozes sex and does deliciously awful things to me. But I know you're still carrying a torch for Clarkey and...I'm sorry that the arkers are so troublesome and you seriously should've just killed us all. I'm sorry that I haven't managed to save general cheekbones, the overprotective gorilla, and Clarkey. You don't deserve to have your family taken from you. And I just want you to know that when I call you commander heartless, its because you have the biggest, most awesosmest heart ever but you can't let anyone see it, except I know you've shown it to Clarkey. So when you hear me say it, just know that its how I show my affection and respect for you- " A searing bolt of heat blooms over her heart and then she sinks into the darkness.

Trigedasleng translations:

Ripa: Reaper/murderer

Fraga: Murderer

Faya: Fire

Also virtual *insert sugary confection/baked good/reward of choice here* to anyone who sees what I did...