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Kylo stood there feeling the wind rushing over his cold cheeks staring at this girl. His mind still fogged with the alcohol that was rushing through his system as he stared into the dark eyes of this girl who asked him a question that no one else had ever asked him. Even through all the shit plaguing his mind he just stared at this girl who he had yet to actually talk to since the first day she showed up.
And the first question out of her mouth was. Why did he want to die?
Again, he thought back on all of his sessions with his therapists. Not once had either of them ever asked him that question. They always asking him to describe his thoughts and his feeling, but not once had someone been so fucking point blank with him on the subject. Why? That was a question he wasn't really ready to answer, or it seemed he didn't have and answer at the moment. His thoughts scattered like marbles all over the ground.
He turned his head away from her slowly eyes looking downwards to the dark ground below of the alleyway. Fucking hell! he began to process where he was and How he even got up here. It was like the fog was slowly lifting on his brain as he realized just what the fuck he was doing. Slowly he began to shake at the realization that he was about to do something stupid. The dark thoughts suddenly dropping from his mind as the fear of what he was about to do over shadowed them in a massive wave.
"Tell me Kylo," she said taking a sideways step closer to him looking down at the ground below them. "Why do you want to die? There is a reason for it, we all have one that consumes our brain. Whispers those horrible thoughts pushing us slowly over the edge. Literally." She said nodding to the ground before looking back up to the taller man standing before her. She watched him swallow hard his eyes locked onto her as she could see the gloss of tears over his eyes as she read that look knowing it all to well. The look of pleading help. Even if he couldn't say it out loud his soul was begging her to help him. The fear that was over his face at the realization at what he was about to do. The fear of death over throwing the want to jump like his dark thoughts were pushing him to do.
She slowly lifted a hand up towards him with a small smile on her lips.
"You may think that this will solve all your problem but will it Kylo?" She asked him in a soft voice the cold coming winter air whipping around them. "You are just plunging yourself into that forever darkness with those feelings and nightmares I hear you waking up screaming in anger at every morning. Even after death I'm pretty sure those demons will chase after you."
"How would you know that?" Kylo said with a crocked voice fighting the tears. "How the fuck could you possible know what I'm feeling?"
'Because like I said, I've been here before and I did jump." Rey said in a matter of fact voice looking downwards. "and I did die."
Kylo eyes slightly widened at her comment as she still held out her hand to him. He stared hard into her eyes trying to call her bluff. Trying to see if she was lying. But the stern look on her face was that of someone who was telling the truth. Even in his drunk'n state he could see her dark brown eyes burning into his own at her words.
"How did-what happened?" Kylo asked.
"You get down off this ledge with me and I will tell you my sad and pathetic story, one that I see you walking down the same path as I did." She said. "And its indeed a fucked up story."
Kylo stared hard at her then down to the hand she held out to him. Something within his brain screamed to take it. To grab it and let her lead him out of his dark world. Slowly letting his fist loosen up he lifted his left hand up slowly and shaking to reach up the short distance to take the hand she was holding out to him. He didn't know a damn thing about this woman or if she was lying through her teeth about what she had gone through but that voice in the back of his brain begged him to take her offering hand. She didn't sugar coat her words and didn't make him feel belittled. If anything, she was challenging him to make the right fucking decision and not a stupid one.
His long fingers slipped around her smaller hands as she gave him a warm smile as she pulled him backwards off the ledge. Both climbing down slowly his hands still wrapped around tightly in hers. As his feet hit the roof top his legs gave out as he dropped to his knees his brain going crazy with the through of him almost jumping.
Kylo gasped for air Tears rolling like waves down his cheeks as the girl was kneeling next to him still holding his hand just as tight as he was holding her. Her arm wrapped around his neck pulling him into a hold as he just gasped for air and the anxiety attack took over.
'What the fuck…" he paused gasping in a deep ragged breath his other arm wrapping around her back pulling her closer. "is wrong with…me?"
Again, he had no idea why he was drawn to this chick he hated and knew nothing about, but the need to hold onto someone right now is all he wanted.
"Nothing is wrong with you." She said resting a head against the top of his pressed against her chest her hand running over his head in comforting way. "you just let those demons in your mind take the lead. I promise you I will help you defeat them. that is why I am here. I won't give up on hope for you as long as you have hope within yourself. I see that small light of hope for help in your eyes, Kylo."
Kylo sat there crying to this complete stranger that been lurking around his house all week. Still not understanding how and why he was clutching onto her like a lifeline scared she was going let go and let him sink. She was that life raft of hope gripping onto him refusing to let him get swallowed by the sea of darkness. He didn't know how long they sat there on the rooftop as she just let him release all his emotional stress.
They sat there for who knows how long in Kylo drunk mind. they had both moved to sit back against the wall of the ledge. His head resting on her shoulders as her arm was wrapped over his shoulder still. His hand still wrapped round hers tight. Even though it was fucking freezing at whatever time it was in the morning Kylo didn't want to move. He held tight to this woman who had come to pull him down from his almost stupid mistake. Slowly his eyes began to droop feeling emotionally and physically drained.
He felt her move behind him to stand up as she stood over him still holding his hand as she helped heave him to his feet. Kylo body still felt drunk and out of it as she drew his arm over her shoulder to help him towards door. she was able to get his drunk form back inside as they staggered down the steps as she took his full weight it seemed. Once reaching the third level of the town house she guided him to his bedroom as she kicked open his door with a soft tape.
"Oh my." She whispered at the sight of his room. it was just like the lower level of the house. Mountain of clothes and trash everywhere. She helped maneuver him through the maze of clothes as she helped him to his large king size bed. Kylo long legs helped him sit on the high bed as she laid him down. Kylo was already slipping into slumber as soon as his head hit the pillow as she grabbed the blanket pulling it over his body to tuck him in. His body slightly shaking from the cold they were sitting in.
Rey went to move away from the bed when Kylo hand shot out like a bullet grabbing her wrist tight. She jumped at the strength of his grip as she looked down to see Kylo eyes were still shut as she could see a tear rolling down his cheek. Reaching up she pushed some of his hair out of his face as she leaned down to whisper to him.
"Don't worry, I will not leave you." She said softly as Kylo gave a ragged sigh before slipping fulling into his slumber. After a few minutes his grip on her wrist loosened up as she was able to pull herself from his iron grasp and put his arm back under the black comforter. Leaping over the large mass of clothing she was about to leave when she stopped at the door glancing back to Kylo sleeping as she snagged a good armful of clothes to add to the never-ending pile in the laundry room. Just when she thought she found the light at the end of the tunnel with doing laundry she found this hoard. She was going to make him give up half of his clothes if she had to twist his fucking arm to do it. Or do it Maz style. Everyone feared the Maz style of persuasions.
Shutting the door behind her she was making her way to the stairs when a wave a nausea hit her hard. Dropping the clothes at her feet her hand slapped over her hand over her mouth as she turned to the nearby bathroom bolting to it as she ran to the toilet just in time. Gripping the edge of the toilet she threw up a few times as her body shook. Gasping for air she fought to control her shaking body. a cry came from her as she gagged again into the toilet.
Dear god she had not done that before.
She actually got up on the ledge with him as by the grace of a miracle she overcame her bloody fear of heights to look downwards. She had not been able to stand that high before in the last seven years without the fear and the world spinning on her and she had been a damn champ with the burning need to pull Kylo away from the ledge overcame that fear. For the moment.
Rey pushed herself up from the toilet as she walked with shaky legs to the sink turning on the water to splash some on her face. She couldn't believe she actually did that. Not only she had she stood against her fear she had told Kylo about what few knew. She had never even told her past clients that she had jumped. Her heart was losing its mind in her chest as she shut her eyes and began to practice the breathing technique she had been taught to calm her anxiety down. Slowly lifting her head up to look at herself in the mirror she saw her frightened eyes. At how close she was to her fear. Horrible vision of the past flashed passed her eyes, she saw the look of her someone else eyes filled with hatred as she let go of their hands.
Rey groaned out at the feeling of regret fill her body as she had to keep telling herself over and over the same thing chanting it.
"It wasn't my fault, it was not your fault." She whispered out holding her hands to her face to try and keep herself breathing right.
After a few minutes of calming herself down she reached up pulling her hair out of the messy bun as she regathered up her hair to pull it into another tighter bun. Walking away from sink and mirror she needed to go do something that would calm her down. Her nerves and mind spiraling out of control.
She needed to clean. That was her outlet. Clean until she was happy once more and there was a kitchen that needed to meet the powerful scrubbing of Rey magic erasers. Walking back out of the bathroom she walked to where she dropped the clothes gathering them up once more before sending a glance to Kylo shut door. she gave it a small smile knowing she had put down the first stepping stone to gaining his trust and it was up to him to lay down the next one.
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Poe walked up the stoop reading the text he got from one pissed off woman about how she was treated by his best friend the night before. Poe almost slipped on the step seeing her last words were.
I hoped he jumped!
His heat jumped to his throat and his eyes jerked to the tall town house as he shoved his phone into his pocket Yanking out his keys he was quick to unlock the door to the metal gate quickly running into the house. Slamming the door behind him he made his way towards the spiral staircase.
"KYLO!" Poe yelled out as he began to run up the steps just as he was halfway up the stairs he ran into a invisible wall he couldn't pass. He came to a stop in mid step, his nose going upwards as he took in a few good sniffs. He flipped around on the step walking back down his nose still in the air his stomach at the mercy of the intoxicating aroma of food that was beckoning him. He felt like one of those cartoon characters being lifted off the ground floating down the hallway towards the kitchen following the beautiful trail of good smelling food.
He totally forgot about Kylo at that moment as he rounded the corner coming to a stop as he let out a loud impressed whistle at the sight of the kitchen.
"Holy moly, there is a floor again!" Poe said looking from the newly polished white tiles all the way up to the ceiling not seeing a speck of dirt anywhere. The cabinets were all washed down and back to their off whitish blue color. Doors that were once broken fixed and even the granite on the island and kitchen counters were almost blinding at how sparkly they were. Poe saw the double sink cleared and not a damn dish in sight. His eyes locked onto movement as the girl who had been haunting Kylo all week was standing near the stove turning around to give him a warm smile.
"Well good morning, Mr. Damion." She said looking back down to the frying pan flipping some food. "I was wondering when you would show up. I have a fresh pot of coffee if you would like some."
Whatever the hell she was cooking smelled so good as Poe closed his eyes taking in a deep breath mouthwatering with eagerness as his stomach growled saying the bagel he ate this morning was futile to satisfy his hunger.
'Bacon.' He muttered with a groan knowing one of the smells as he walked into kitchen quickly to come to a stop over the woman eyes all the frying pans filled with food. Poe couldn't help but lick his lips at the sight of the food. Rey dumped some of the bacon she was cooking onto a plate near the stove as Poe reached for one quickly.
He was deflected with quick slap of a spatula on top of the hand.
"Ouchie!" Poe hissed jumping back waving his stinging hand. Rey turned to look at him with a smug smile.
"If You can go wake the slumbering beast and you can have a share of this." she said waving to the large buffet she was cooking for.
"Just a piece of a bacon," Poe said eyeing the plate holding up one finger as Rey could see him licking his lips to keep himself from drooling.
"How about this." she said picking a piece up to wave it before his face as she watched him follow it. if she had to describe the look on his face watching the bacon wave back it forth it reminded her of the T-rex off Jurassic park watching the scientist wave the flare. And she could hear Poe stomach growling like one. "You go up there and wake Kylo for me you can have as many pieces of bacon as you want. And cooked ham, butter toast, eggs, beans…"
Poe looked at her snagging the piece of bacon from her hands so fast it startled her.
"For this food I'd go straight for you," Poe said shoving the bacon into his mouth groaning in happiness. "Be back in five minutes. I like my eggs over easy, please."
"If you need help waking him wave a piece of bacon across his nose." Rey said handing another piece of bacon towards Poe who grabbed it shoving it into him mouth quickly.
"He not going to need bacon with the way I have planned to get his dumbass moving." Poe said turning to run out of the kitchen. Poe booked it up the steps taking two at a time as he came to the third level of the house. Walking towards the bedroom door he thought about kicking the door down, but a sneak attack was going to be needed. Opening the door slowly he peeked into the dark room spotting the large bed sitting in the far corner as a snore could be heard from Kylo slumbering form. How the fuck could he be sleeping when the whole house smelled like a buffet heaven? Opening the door to slide in he tipped toed over the piles of clothes to stand next to he bed a wide smile on his lips as Kylo was sprawled out still dead to the world.
"Ring ring," Poe said holding his hand up to his ear like a phone. "OH! Good morning Mr. Ren, this is your lovely good morning wake up call. Please enjoy your ride, courtesy of your best friend."
Rey listened to Poe run up the stairs as she went back to finishing making breakfast fit for a king. She heard the sudden sound of crashing above her and even the walls rattled. Her head jerked up to the ceiling hearing the sound of something large getting thrown hitting the floor hard as the sound of stomping and loud cursing echoed through the walls. More banging and thumping came up above her as she could hear two different male voices yelling at each other as she could hear the footsteps stomping across the floor away from above the kitchen.
Poe hysterical laughter flowed into the hallway outside the kitchen as she could hear Kylo voice screaming at him.
"I'm GOING TO FUCKING MURDER YOU!" Kylo yelled.
"Can't do that!" Poe yelled back. "Then Who the hell going to be your best friend!?"
"You dumb fuck! You broke my bed!" Kylo screamed back.
"Make a fucking nest with all your clothes then!" Poe laughed back. the sound of something shattering echoed down the stairs Just as stomping came down the stairs as Poe tried to stop his dead run sliding across the floor in the hallway almost missing his chance to get into the kitchen as he grabbed the doorway tipping on his feet as he ran towards the island counter. He leaped up into the seat spinning around yanking off his jacket tossing it over the back of the stool as he clasped his hands together rubbing them eagerly with the anticipation of the coming food.
"Okay, the beast is awake. Feed me now!" Poe said with a wide smile patting the empty spot before him. Rey looked to the empty spot before him then back to him with a brows raised as she placed her hand holding the spatula to her cocked hips staring at him hard.
"Pretty please feed me." Poe said in a whimpering voice clasping his hands together in a praying manner bottom lip sticking out far and he added the quivering chin to it. "Preettyyyy please! Its been forever since I've had a home cooked meal!"
"POE!" Kylo voice echoed down the hallway. "Where the hell did you go you son of a bitch! I've got a fucking bat your name on it for that little stunt!"
"PLEEEEEEASE!" Poe begged. Rey only rolled her eyes walking to a cupboard pulling out two plates. She was quick to load up the plates right as Kylo came stomping around the corner of the kitchen. he hit the breaks instantly as two things hit him. First the shock of seeing the kitchen that was deemed unlivable actually clean. Like spotless. He let out a whistle himself at the sight of the kitchen he didn't think anyone could save. Fuck he didn't even think his mother or grandmother had ever had this kitchen this clean before.
Second thing to hit him was the smell. The mouth watering smell of food that his dehydrated and hungover body suddenly screamed for. his eyes snapped to where Poe was as Kylo was ready to bash his fucking brains in for literally flipping his whole bed over sending Kylo flying into the wall. As Kylo was ready to inflict his vengeance on his best friend the girl who had been the sneak little fox came walking around the kitchen island with large plates full of food. She was getting ready to set it down before Poe at the island as she looked over at him waving the most beautiful plate of breakfast food Kylo had ever seen. Poe reached for his plate as she held it out of his reach whine of unhappiness from the man.
"You willing to take a peace offering?" She smiled at him. "I told him to go wake you. Figured you need a smashing hangover breakfast."
Kylo eyes locked onto the food as his stomach began to sing the song of its people mixed with a dying whale call. He watched her smile grow on her face clearly hearing his body begging for food other than random takeout and pizza.
"Sit, Please." She said nodding to the empty spot next to the Poe. She knew she had hooked him and he moved before he could stop himself walking up to the island walking past her eyes still locked onto the plates she was holding feeling his mouth water at the sight of everything on it. His mind trying to remember the last time he had a homecooked breakfast, fuck anything homecooked in the last ten years. He had paused at the chair still eyeing the plates as Poe yanked him down into his seat. There was cooked ham, bean, perfectly cooked potato cut up into small bite size pieces with melted cheese on them, Sausage links, bacon. Perfectly cooked toast with melted butter on them and perfect eggs over easy.
"Fucking sail," Poe hissed out. "The food going to get cold before your sit down!"
Rey moved to lean between the men both eyes on the massive plates as she set them down on the counter before them. She didn't even get a chance to let the plates go fully when the hungry men snagged theirs yanking the plates before them as both began to eat like starving Lions.
She only snickered as she walked back around them to grab some forks for the men. Tuning around she saw Poe shoving in three more pieces of Bacon as Kylo was destroying his sausage links. Jesus they were eating like they had been starved of food for years. She came to the men scarfing down their food as she held out a fork to Poe who snagged it with a mouth full muttering something along the line of 'Thank-you'. Kylo was quick to lean past Poe with his long arm to snag the fork from Rey hand as she could only laugh watching the men eat.
"Remember to Chew boys, that's what separates us from the animals." she laughed as the men only grumbled out some grunts stabbing at their food. She walked back down the island to grab two mugs from the cupboard pouring some fresh made coffee into them as she snagged the bottle of creamer. She had made a quick shopping trip this morning after gutting the kitchen making sure to get enough to make breakfast, lunch and dinner for the day. Walking back to the men she set the mugs down before turning to grab some glasses and pour both men some fresh made orange juice. She had unearthed a juice maker while cleaning and put it to good use this morning.
As soon as she set the glasses down both guys snagged them guzzling down the juice. She just snickered walking around the counter grabbing her own coffee mug as she leaned up against the other side watching the men eat.
"That's it." Poe said after a moment mouth still half full. "If you don't want her man, I'm trading with you. You can take Maria, she can't cook worth shit."
Kylo didn't say anything as he took a large bite of his toast. His arms were resting on both side of the plate like he was guarding it afraid this little plate of heaven was going to get taken away from him. as he was chewing he shot a glance up to the woman who had cooked this meal seeing her leaning up against the counter looking at something on her phone sipping her coffee.
"Oh! by the way!" Poe said with a full mouth as a hard slap came up to the back of Kylo head as he almost choked on what he was swallowing fast flying downwards to almost slam into his plate.
'What the fuck was that for?!" Kylo hissed over at him mouth full.
"For the dumb shit you tried to pull last night." Poe snapped over to him stuffing some potato's into his mouth. Kylo brows came together confused for a moment as he suddenly remembered bits of last night as he shot his head towards the girl at the other side of the island.
'You told him?" Kylo hissed out. She looked up at him brows together as she gave him a quick shake of her head.
"Nope." She said softly.
"No the dame you tried to crush her skull in last night told me." Poe snapped fishing out his phone to swipe it open to the angry text as he tossed it onto the counter between them. Kylo looked down at it seeing the girl he barely remembered being with last night had filled in Poe about everything. He stared at her words reading the text.
'I don't fucking remember any of that." Kylo said shoving the phone back to Poe.
'Oh so you don't remember telling her you were going to jump?" Poe snapped back picking up his coffee to take a sip. Kylo sat there pausing his chewing as he thought back about last night. Fuck he almost forgot about all of it. Frankly he couldn't remember leaving the couch downstairs let alone the girl who he was with. he remembered blonde hair and then…he was standing on the ledge. How the fuck he was able to even climb up there was a mystery to him. He sat there staring at his food twisting his fork between his fingers as he tried to remember everything.
All he could remember was looking down at the darkness then a hand being held out to him. His eyes looked up to the girl leaning against the counter still sipping on her coffee as she must have felt his eyes on her as she glanced over to him over her mug giving him a slight smile.
Kylo remembered her climbing up onto the ledge with him. Holding a hand out to him and asking him why he wanted to die. Frankly even now Kylo didn't have a fucking answer for her. he had no idea what drove him to climb up onto the wall. He looked away from her back to his food feeling the guilt of what he almost did surfacing over his mind. He didn't want to die, he knew that was a fact.
Why do you want to die? There is a reason for it, we all have one that consumes our brain. Whispers those horrible thoughts pushing us slowly over the edge.
Kylo sat there replaying her words in his brain as he tried to think of a reason. He chewed on his inner cheek lost in his limbo of a mind trying to figure out what the hell had triggered him to do this. it was then he felt the intense stare at the side of his head like someone was trying to burn him with laser vision as he turned to find Poe suddenly closer then he wanted him to be.
Poe was leaning on his chair staring at his Best friend trying to decode the bastard next to him. His eyes searching Kylo's hard as Poe slowly tilted his head barely blinking as he tried to read Kylo.
"You thought of her again didn't you?" Poe snapped.
"Who?" Kylo asked confused for a moment. Poe grabbed his phone swiping the text up to where he needed it to be to prove his point. Flipping the phone around he shoved it into Kylo face. "You called Chesley by the one who shall not be named, tried to bitch slap her and then climbed up onto the ledge."
Kylo stared at the words on the phone rereading the texts as he tried to remember any of that. Nothing. Blank. Fuck, he had not had an episode like that in god knows how long. Last time he tried something stupid was not long after all the shit went down and Poe and Hux had to tie his hands together with zip ties until he got sober.
'I don't remember any of that." Kylo said looking away from Poe heated glare. "I just remember drinking, then standing on the ledge and then the Cleaning Nut showed up to pull me off. Everything else is just fuzzy. I haven't thought of her in forever."
That earned another slap upside the head as Kylo hissed out at the stinging pain as Poe face was easy enough to read that his was livid with his friend.
"Hey Mighty mouse." Poe said looking over to the girl who had walked over to the coffee maker pouring herself another cup of coffee acting like she wasn't listening to anything the guys were staying.
"Yes, Poe?" she asked with a slight smile at her nickname.
"Did you tazer him or straight football tackle him off the ledge." Poe asked.
"Can't tell you." She said with a snicker mixing some creamer into her mug as she picked it up walking past them. "My mouth is sealed on what goes on between my and my clients. So if you want answers get it from him. I have to go pack up my stuff so when you guys are done put your dishes in the sink. I will wash them before I leave today."
"All rightly you deal breaking son of a bitch-," Poe said pointing a finger at Kylo.
"I don't fucking remember any-" Kylo said at the same time. Just as both went to fight with each other they both paused before they whipped their head to the retreating woman.
"What do you mean you are leaving?!" Poe yelled at her. Rey came to a stop before turning around at the kitchen entrance.
"I was seen before my week was up and didn't finish cleaning the house." Rey said in a matter of fact voice. "So Kylo won the bet. I already texted your mother, she going to find another person to come in."
She flashed Kylo a wide smile before turning around to walk out of the kitchen. Poe mouth dropped open as he turned his head slowly towards Kylo who was still staring at where she had left. Poe let out another smack as Kylo hissed in pain.
"Fucking hell, my head already feel like a fucking elephant stomping around in it, fucking knock it off!" Kylo hissed rubbing the side of his head.
"Did you try to jump just to get her to come out of hiding?!" Poe snapped at Kylo. "if you did that was a cheap ass move!"
'What?! No!" Kylo hissed at him turning back to his plate. "Like I said I don't know why the hell I did it!"
"Do we need to put child locks on the upstairs doors?" Poe snapped. "What in god's name were you thinking!?"
"Apparently I wasn't!" Kylo hissed at Poe. "Fuck man, I don't wanna talk about this."
Kylo ran his hands through his hair frustrated as he could still feel Poe heated glare against the side of his head.
"You promised man," Poe snapped. "you promised that you would call me when shit got to deep in your mind."
"I don't remember man!" Kylo snapped looking over to Poe. "All I remember was drinking on the couch and then like the world went blurry and I was looking at the skyline of the buildings. And the next thing I knew she was standing next to me asking me why I wanted to do it and then told me she-"
Kylo paused in mid-sentence as more of her words came to his mind. He suddenly remembered what she told him that she jumped before. that she had jumped and died. Kylo head whipped around to the kitchen doorway as he felt his brows come together. How did she die and was somehow still here? That didn't make any fucking sense!
Kylo turned shoveling in more of his food as Poe sat there watching him as he waved his hand slowly for Kylo to finish.
'She…did…what?" Poe said slowly trying to get Kylo to keep talking wanting to know all the detail about last night and how Mighty mouse got him down. Kylo grabbed his glass guzzling down his juice as he turned jumping off his stool walking out of the kitchen fast to go find the girl and have her tell him the fucking bullshit story fully that she spat out at him last night.
'Where are you going!?" Poe yelled after him. "I'm not done bitching at you man!"
Poe watched Kylo run out of the kitchen as he jumped off his stool to chase after his idiot best friend as he quickly turned around grabbing his plate with food still and his cup of coffee as he quickly took chase after Kylo.
Kylo was already down the stairs to the basement level as his eyes scanned the large room as he could hear her in the laundry room as he walked quickly across the bottom level in long strides. Coming to the door of the laundry room he pushed it open to find the girl standing before the dryer pulling out clothes. She was folding a shirt when she saw the door open out of the corner of her eye as she turned to him smiling.
"You got to get rid of some of these clothes." She snickered to him. "you have enough to give clothes half of New York homeless if you wanted too."
She finished folding the shirt laying it on a table near the dryer as Kylo stepped into the laundry room eyeing the girl. He looked over her body trying to find any visual scares from her story. He replayed last night as he decided to ask her the same question.
"Why did you want to die?" Kylo challenged. He watched her faltered a bit while folding another shirt as she let out a deep sigh as she turned to give him a weak smile.
"Because I felt guilty and alone." She said with a sigh as she folded the shirt tossing it up on the table of skyscraper of clean clothes.
"Enlighten me," Kylo snapped. "I'm having a hard time processing that you died like you said."
Rey leaned down grabbing another shirt from the dryer as she looked off to the corner of the laundry room. he could see her trying to figure out how to start the story. It was then the sound of loud chewing came up behind him as he looked over his shoulder seeing Poe leaning up against the door frame eating from his plate as Kylo quickly grabbed the door slamming it shut as Poe jumped back in time to keep the door from taking out the plate in his hands.
'oh come on!" he heard Poe bitch on the other side. "I wanna hear too!"
Kylo leaned up against the door to keep Poe from coming in looking over to where Rey was giving a snicker grabbing another shirt.
"Tell me, now." Kylo snapped. "How did you kill yourself?"
"There are a few people who know of what I tried to do was suicide and not an accident like the police believed." Rey started as she finished folding another shirt as she tossed it onto the large clean pile before stepping back to the wash opening the front of it to pull out the wet load.
"To say me being here is no short of a miracle that for sure. Defiantly lots of luck and pixie dust." She said with a sigh grabbing the clothes as she stuffed them into the dryer before turning to lean up against the dryer with her hand smiling at Kylo. Rey had been debating all morning long on if she should tell Kylo her full story. There were parts she still didn't want a lot of people to know about. The only people who knew her full story was Maz, Luke and Snoke. Even Finn was kept in the dark about her fucked up past. She had replayed a version on her story to tone down the worst of the it. twisting the words just enough that it wasn't far from the truth.
"I was ten when I jumped from that bridge. I died when I hit the water, or when I sunk under drowning. Who the hell knows. I woke a year after that being called the River miracle girl." Rey said walking to the washer as she shoved a few more clothes into the front-loading machine.
"Why did you jump?" Kylo asked eyes hard on her.
"Because I let a psychopathic thirteen-year-old talk me into it." Rey said looking over her shoulder at Kylo with a weak smile before turning to stuff the clothes in. "Like I said we all have demons within us. Some don't go away even after they die. Tiffany still has a bloody hold on my mind sometimes. I can still hear her nagging voice in the back of my head from time to time."
Rey finished loading the washer as she tossed a soap pod into it before shutting the machine to start it as she walked over to the dryer starting it. she turned walking to the door where Kylo sat leaning up against it still watching her every move closely.
"I'll tell you more while I'm packing. It's a short fucked up story I promise." Rey said waving Kylo out of the way as he stood there for a moment staring hard at her. she only raised a brow at him with a sideways smile.
'What you don't want me to pack?" she laughed out. "You were hell bent on getting me out all week."
Kylo pushed off the door looming over her as he grabbed the handle opening it up as Poe leaning up against it almost fell with flat on his face from pressing his ear up against the door to listen. He caught him stepping back with wide cheesy smile at getting caught listening in. Kylo sent him a glare as Rey only smiled walking past him to the door to her room.
She walked into the room as Kylo leaned up against the door frame watching the girl move around the smallest room in the house. She opened a small closet pulling out a suitcase as she unzipped it as Kylo waited for her to say something. Kylo could hear Poe annoying chewing behind him most likely eavesdropping near door once more to get his fill of the gossip.
"You going to finish this fucked up story?" Kylo asked impatiently.
"My parents gave me up for drugs," Rey said with a sad sigh as she walked to a small dresser opening it up to pull out some pants and other clothing items as she walked to the suitcase tossing them in. "I was seven or eight when that happened, I think, I never celebrated my birthday. So I don't really know when I was born. My mom most likely gave birth to me in the back of van or something. I don't have a birth certificate so who bloody knows. I think my parents ran out of way to get money for drugs. I don't remember them ever spending money on me but I do remember eating scraps from the table and watching my parents getting high."
She turned walking to the closet as she open it up to grab the few shirts she had hanging in there yanking them off the hangers to fold them nicely.
"When I was around seven-ish I remember my parents taking to a house a long way from where we were living somewhere in England. I remember the long ride in that beat-up piece of shit my father tried to keep alive. I never left the house much so being outside was a rare treat. I thought that we were finally going to do something as a family but my parents dropped me off at this man house. I remember then switching suitcases with him talking about how the transfer was complete. They had traded me for drugs I later realized."
Rey looked to Kylo as she finished her sentence.
"I don't know what happened between you and your parents to make you hate them. But they seem like saint compared the pieces of shit who traded me to a monster for a suitcase full of drugs." She said with a dark snicker shaking her head as she looked back down to the open suitcase tossing in her shirt.
"I was traded for work," she heisted a moment on her choices of words. "For a while I did whatever the man wanted and was his little working slave. About a year later he left the door unlocked and I was able to escape that nightmare. I was picked up by the police and taken into foster care. I only knew my name and barely could even speak at the time. I was so thin from being starved. I remember the social worker asking me questions about where I came from who my parents were and I couldn't even tell them if I wanted too. I bounced around from orphanages and foster houses until I met Tiffany."
Rey finished folding her clothes as she sat on the edge of the small bed looking at Kylo who was watching her closely.
"I already felt unwanted. Already understood I was abandoned by my parents. I felt alone and no one could ever love me or want me." She said to him. "We all have demons of our past and Tiffany is one of them for me. I thought she wanted me, that she loved me like a little sister. She whispered false promises at first then began to fill my head with horrible words, telling me that no one would want me and only fueled that fire of hating myself. I was a fucked little ten year old by the time I jumped."
"She talked you into jumping?" Kylo asked Rey could only let out a huff shaking her head.
"More like she tired to kill me at first." Rey said to him. "I remember little of that day. Took me a while to even remember that I even jumped. I have pieces of that day in my mind. My therapist tried to hypnotize me into remember but I cant remember all the details which I'm sort of happy about. but I don't remember the pain and the hatred I felt as I watched Tiffany fall from the bridge."
"What happened?" Poe voice perked up behind Kylo. Kylo glared over his shoulder at the man leaning up against the wall outside the door.
"Well from what I remember," Rey said lifting a hand to rub the back of her neck as she tried to recall all the details of that day. "she talked me into going for a walk, we came to a train bridge. And she was talking about how my day had come. That it was my time to go to the next life. I didn't understand her at the time, but she pointed to the water saying something about how it would carry me to my next life and she would come right with me. I didn't want to lose her, still relying on her for everything not realizing the psychopathic bitch had been planning to kill me the whole three months I had been there."
"Oh shit." Poe hissed out.
"So as I was looking over the side of the bridge I remember the fear I felt. From the how high I was up. the rushing winter water in the river. I remember how much I was scared of being so high up and scared to do what she wanted us to do. I remember someone hands coming to my back to give me a hard shove and something like my survival mode kicked on as I reached out grabbing a wire of the bridge. Well Tiffany slipped I think as she was shoving me and lost her balance. I was able to reach out and grab her had as we both swung there for a moment over the water."
Rey paused for a moment looking off into the corner of the room as she felt that familiar guilt rushing through her chest as she fought to keep herself from shaking at the memory. She twiddled her hands in her lap as she swallowed a lump in her throat.
"I tried to hold on," she said in a softer voice. "I really did. But I was losing my grip on the wire not strong enough to hold on to both of us. I remember looking down seeing Tiffany glaring up at me. I remember her screaming. 'You have to die! I want you to die!' as she was kicking her feet trying to get herself back to the bridge." Rey said.
"Did you both fall in at the same time?" Kylo asked.
'No," Rey said turning to look at him. "I let her go."
Kylo brows coming together at that comment. He could see her eyes beginning to gloss over fighting the tears.
"I didn't want to die at the moment, so I let her go and watched her body fall off the tall bridge. I can still remember her screaming at me. I remember the hatred in her eyes as she fell. I remember her body hitting the water like she was hitting a cement wall. And watching her lifeless body float away from me." Rey said softly looking away from Kylo again.
"I remember the pain I felt. It was my fault she died. I didn't really understand that she was trying to kill me at that time." Rey said looking to her hands as she twisted her fingers together. "I remember feeling utterly alone one more, that I killed my best friend and that I didn't deserve to live like she said. even after she was gone I could still hear her hate filled words laced deep in my brain. So as I watched her body float down the river I felt so empty and hallow on the inside that I had nothing now. Abounded an guilt for murdering someone I thought I loved and who was trying to help me or so I thought." Rey said with a ragged sigh.
"I don't remember hitting the water," Rey said with a slight shake of her head. "But I do remember letting go of the wire. Dropping to follow after my friend to this afterlife she talked about. then darkness."
She stood up once more from her bed grabbing the top of the suitcase to flip it over to zip it shut.
"I was pulled out of the water a few minutes after I jumped. Some local fisherman had seen me fall, so they saved me never seeing Tiffany was the first to drop from the bridge. Her body was found about a two days later, but I was placed in a ambulance and shipped to a nearby hospital where they declared me dead on arrival." Rey said walking away from the bed to a small desk as she opened the drawer to pull out a stack of receipts to give to his mother on all the spending she did as she grabbed her purse to pull out the credit card to give back.
"Did they bring you back?" Kylo asked.
"Nope." Rey said looking over her shoulder at Kylo. "I was placed on a table to get my organs harvest, but I guess the universe had other plans. Before the good doctor could even slice me open my heart began to beat again, my body trying to breath. From what I was told I was in surgery for over thirty hours as they repaired my lungs from the broken rip cutting through. My whole left side was fucked up from hitting the water."
She pulled out a receipt from her purse for the morning food run as she pulled out her phone to take a picture of it to send to Kylo mother assistant.
"I was in a coma for over a year and I finally woke up, had to relearn how to walk, talk and eat on my own." She said with a snicker. "I felt like a damn toddler. But the doctors loved me. I remember hearing them talk about how I shouldn't even be alive. That I should be brain dead from it having no oxygen for so long. I was a mystery to them."
"How did you come to the states?" Kylo asked still leaning up against the door frame listening to everything she said.
"An evil lady that I am scared to death of that I love more than anything else in this world came to save me." She said turning to Kylo once more. "her name in Maz. She had me transferred along with another boy to the states to take custody of us. She has a way of knowing the truth about everything even if you don't tell her. She came to visit me in the hospital when she was seeing some other family, she could look in my eyes and see that I didn't just fall from the bridge. That I jumped. So she called dibs on me and brought me back to New York when I was healthy enough to leave."
Rey grabbed the stack of receipt picking up the zip lock bag to toss them in to make sure to drop them off at the office.
"So from a young age you made it your mission to save other from killing themselves?" Kylo asked with a slight tilt of his head. She turned looking across the small room to meet his dark eyes as she gave her head a little shake.
'No," she said with a slight sigh. "It was three years ago, when another good friend of mine jumped from the roof a building after something tragic happened to her. I was a day to late on getting back to help her. After that I decided I wanted to help others who had been where I once was. I gave up finishing college and here I am."
"Why?" Kylo asked. "What makes you think you can save people? Myself included."
She grabbed her jacket and scarf as she walked over to where her luggage was as she grabbed the handle pulling it off the bed as she looked to Kylo giving him another small smile.
"I'm prof that you can find that light you're so desperate to reach. Your mother didn't bring me here to be your babysitter or just your maid. Luke and Snoke were also my therapists, they recommended me to your mother because I'm the only one that knows how to scale those dark pathways in your brain. Because I have the same lingering trail in mine. This is my job Kylo, I am a survivor of my suicide and I make it my damn mission to save anyone I can from making the same mistakes I did. I am here to be your companion and your guide. A friend and someone to lean on like last night. I'm not here to make you do shit. I'm not here to make your choices. You're a big boy. Like last night when we stood on that ledge I saw you wanted my help. That wasn't the way the great Kylo Ren is supposed to end."
Rey walked towards him as Kylo didn't bother to be in her way stepping back as she walked out the door as she stopped near Poe who was holding his empty plate with a big pouty lip and teared filled eyes.
'Why are you crying?" Rey asked with a laugh.
"Because you Miss Mighty mouse are my new hero!" Poe sniffled out pushing off the wall to give her a big hug suddenly. Rey only snickered awkwardly patting his back.
"Its okay, Poe." Rey laughed as Poe kept sniffling before he turned to glare at Kylo standing outside the door.
"You're a bastard." Poe cried out. "Letting this little guardian angel leave! I'll never forgive you!"
Kylo only rolled his eyes crossing his arms as he shifted his eyes to the back of Rey head as Poe was holding onto dear life to keep her from leaving. Rey tried to shimmy herself out of Poe grip as he only held on tighter.
'No I'm taking you home!" Poe said. "I can pretend to be as fucked up as Kylo!"
"I'm going to have to pass on that." Rey said with a snicker pushing away from him. she snagged his plate quickly from his hands as she walked past them glancing back to the men. "I already have another client lined up so I have to get going here soon."
She walked down the hallway to the large room to make her way towards the large spiral staircase as Poe turned to look up at Kylo. Kylo was watching the back of the girl leave his eyes hard trying to process everything she said. Trying to believe this story. By the way she talked about it was hard not to believed everything. Something dark in his mind whispered it could have just been a pity story to get him to change his mind to let her stay.
She did save you from fucking killing yourself last night.
A little voice whispered that to him as he had no argument against it. It was right. She had come to him in his darkest hour and even though he didn't remember why he almost jumped or what triggered it. she didn't baby him or tell him to spill his guts about his feelings. Only asked him why he wanted to jump and helped him off the ledge and just held onto him.
He felt something clutch his chest hard at the thought of losing her.
Fucking hell he didn't even know this chick. She had been plaguing him for the last week and he still wanted her gone.
Do you?
Kylo hissed out a curse under his breath running a hand though his hair as his mind began to fight on the pros and cons of letting her stay here. It was then that Poe decided to put his unneeded two cents in.
"You know man," Poe said crossing his arms watching Kylo small inner fight. "You sure do know how to fuck things up."
Kylo eyes shot to him with a heated glare opening his mouth as Poe took a step towards him so fast giving Kylo a nut shot before he could react. Kylo yelped in pain one hand grabbing his junk as his other hand shot to the wall near him to keep himself from falling over.
'What..the…hell!?" Kylo strained to hiss out at Poe who stood near him arms crossed once more.
"Like I said you sure do know how to fuck a good thing up." Poe snapped down at him. "You got this beautiful girl here who knows everything your going through, wants to help you at your own fucking pace and not force you to get over your shit like everyone else has been trying to make you do. She cleaned half the house which I didn't think was possible even when you threw more parties to chase her out she stayed. You might see it as stubbornness, but I see it as a blessing that someone actually wants to stick it out with you for a good reason other than a paycheck."
Poe turned walking down the hallway towards the opening of the large entertainment center as he came to a stop looking back down to Kylo recovering from the quick shot to the junk.
"You need her," Poe snapped back to him. 'More then you need me or anyone else, if you let that girl walk out of here and not take her up on her offer you're more stupid then I realized. How many more chances are you going to get? You're on a self-destructive path that I can't even keep up with anymore. You need help Kylo, get over your fucking ego and wake up or you're really going to lose everything. You already pushed Hux and Plasma fucking away from you more and more and now your pushing me away. You've locked yourself in this house and forgot that there is actually a world out there, yes you got a hard job but fuck man."
'You stopped living when that bitch fucked you over. Not saying what she did wasn't horrible but just like our Little Mighty Mouse and that bitch Tiffany, that WOMAN has a hold on you that shouldn't be there. She gone, never coming back and if she does I've already thought of fifteen different ways to kill her and make it look like an accident. Your family is fucked up I get that, but your true family wants their friend and brother back. We stuck around this long with hope for you and we don't want to have to be the ones to drop you six feet under."
Poe was huffing an puffing by the end of this speech as he turned walking away from Kylo heading towards the stairs as Kylo was still leaning up against the wall watching one of his closest and few friends walk away from him. Kylo let out a ragged sigh stepping towards the wall to lean up against it.
Poe was right.
How many more chances did he have until he finally made a stupid decision that would end his life. He didn't want to die that was or sure. He thought about what Poe said. he had been pushing people away and it was mostly the three people who he really considered his family. He had known all of them since they were super young and They were the only ones that understood what it was like coming home to an empty house every day after school. They were really the only ones he could trust in his life and Poe was right, he's been fucking up his friendships with them bad.
Kylo looked down the hallway as the pain subsided as he walked towards the room coming to a stop looking around it. he had visions of a happier times that took place in this room. He could see Hux and Phasma standing near the pool table fighting over a cheap shot Phasma as done as the tall girl loomed over Hux calling him on his bullshit. He could see himself and Poe sitting on the couch both fighting to get the top kills on a game. A relaxed feeling as all the most important people in his life. He could remember all the fun times before shit went south in his life.
Letting out another sigh he felt alone once more. he hated this feeling. He hated being left alone in his dark world.
Could she really help him? he couldn't stop himself from asking. Could she really help him become the old person he once was?
Kylo quickly shook his head. No, he could do it on his own. Poe was right that the bitch who fucked him over had a hold on him all these years later. And it pissed him off hearing that. Walking towards the stairs he began to climb it slowly as he could hear Poe laughing at something from the upper lever as Kylo came to a stop at the top of the stairs looking to the kitchen opening. he slowly walked toward it to listen in on whatever they were talking about.
"Now what are you cooking?" Poe asked.
"Just putting a pork in the crock-pot," he could hear the girl say. "Was going to make pull pork for dinner tonight. I'll just leave some instructions on what to do for Kylo."
"God, Kylo is stupid." Poe laughed out.
"I don't think he is." The girl said. "He's just lost."
"No I mean he's stupid on giving you up." Poe barked out which made Kylo roll his eyes wanting to sucker punch Poe for all the shit he has done to him this morning as he leaned up against the wall listening to them talk. "I mean giving you up. Fuck you can cook, clean, your drop dead beautiful and you're funny. A Conning little fox which means you're smart as shit and know when to leave the man the hell alone when he wants it. If that's not what a man is looking for in a woman I don't understand these straight fuckers. You sure you don't have a penis or twin brother I can have?"
"Sorry only child." She laughed out as Kylo could hear dishes getting moved.
"So since you are leaving can I get your full name now?" Poe asked. It dawned on Kylo that he still didn't even know this girl's first name.
"Why?" Kylo could hear the girl snickering.
"So if I was going to try and hunt you down to have some coffee or a home visit for you to feed me I need more then a first name." Poe said. "and I might need back up the next time Kylo a fucking retard."
There was a long pause as Kylo waited to hear this girl name.
"Wolfe." She finally said.
"Rey Wolfe." Poe playfully said her name. "now that's a name I don't think I will ever forget. How many people have to ask for your name twice on the phone thinking you said Grey Wolf?"
"I lost fucking count on that. Wasn't really my idea for that name in first place but I lost the war of picking my new last name quick." She laughed out.
Poe began to ask her question about herself as Kylo pushed off the wall walking quickly towards the stairs as an idea popped into his head. He was quick to get to the upper third level of the town house as he came to the door to his office. Punching in the code to unlock the door he pushed the door open walking to his desk as he slid in before his computers. He wanted to see if she had told him a bogus story or if this girl had really gone though the shit she said she did.
One thing about being one of the best hackers in the world was that there was no firewall or program he couldn't get past and he could slip into a network like a ghost and never be detected. Kylo finger were quick to break through the firewall he built for the government as he began to search for the person named Rey Wolfe. His fingers moving quickly to search through hidden files. He was able to find her information quickly as he read through her files. He saw she had changed her name to Rey Wolfe from Rey McGrath when she turned 18. She had no living relatives and only person on her files was woman who fostered her named Maz Kanata. He saw her files on her college reports, but he decided to look later at what she was going to school for most likely all for her job now he guessed.
He shuffled through the files looking for anything that was sealed on her past. He couldn't find anything as he knew that he would have to hack into the England database to get the files he needed. He sat back in his chair as he thought about doing that. the burning need to find out of Rey was lying to him or not.
Kylo looked to his phone sitting charging on near his computer as he reached over yanking it off its cord as he ignored the missed text and phone calls from Poe and a few other people as he went to his contacts looking for the one person who had access to get the files without Kylo having to hack into a foreign countries database again. Clicking on the name he pressed the phone to his ear as he listened to it ring after the third ring someone answered.
"Well this is a fucking surprise." A voice snapped on the other end.
"Hello to you too," Kylo snickered staring at his screens.
"Been a while since you called me," the coldish voice said on the other end. "You must want something from me, and no I will not be delivering you booze if its that. I'm in the middle of court dates and I have to squash this son of a bitch like a bug."
"I don't need booze, Pat." Kylo snickered.
"Oh? Well then, what do you need from me if you are honoring me with a long overdue fucking phone call?" Patricia Phasma hissed on the other end. Kylo leaned forwards to rest his elbows on his desk running a hand over his face letting out a frustrated sigh as Phasma harsh tone. He knew he deserved it. He had not talked to Phasma in months and the hostility from her wasn't even the tip of the iceberg on how much a nightmare she could really be. Phasma was in her last year of law school and she was already the most terrifying Lawyer that had come out of Harvard and most likely never be dethroned. Judges and other lawyers all began to sweat bullets when Phasma walked into a court room.
"I need you to look up someone for me." Kylo said after a second. "I know you have connections in England to get the files I need."
"Oh please for the love of god tell me I'm going to sue someone for you." Phasma cried on the other end. "I need someone to obliterate on the side, this fucking case I'm on right now has me pulling my damn hair out. and if I don't take it out on some poor scumbag to rip their soul from them I'm going to be charged with murdering my own client."
"Jesus I pity the man you will marry one day." Kylo laughed out. "No I just need closed files on someone records as a child."
"Who and why?" Phasma voice perked up as Kylo could hear her shifting on the other end as papers were being tossed.
"Rey McGrath she changed her name to Wolfe at the age of eighteen," Kylo said as he could hear her typing in the name on her own computer.
"Who is this person?" Phasma asked as Kylo could hear her yawn on the other end.
"The chick my mother brought in to clean." Kylo said.
"The Mighty Mouse of cleaning?" Phasma laughed out. "Poe told me all about her driving you batshit crazy all week. Glad you found yourself a new girlfriend."
"She not my fucking girlfriend and she still driving me crazy." Kylo said. "she is leaving today and I wanna see if what she told me about herself is true."
"Why England?" Phasma asked. "And don't tell me you finally caught her. I was kind of rooting for this girl I've never met. Poe said she been good for you. Looks like Hux is going to win the bet we placed on you two."
"It's where she's from." Kylo said with a sigh. "Glad to hear Poe been filling you in about all my fucking shit."
"At least takes the time to call me." Phasma hissed out. "I'm looking for the best child locks right now for your upstairs windows and door, they should be delivered later today. I'm hoping these locks confuse the best drunk idiots from getting out."
Kylo groaned out knowing full well that Poe would have already sent both Phasma and Hux the unfortunate update about last night shit.
"God damnit. Hux is coming down, isn't he?" Kylo snapped pinching the bridge of his nose.
"Well you did try to jump, buddy boy." Plasma snapped. "I would be on my way down as well, but I have a court tomorrow up here. So Hux is bringing my fury with him. I hope you can handle those two idiots that are going to orbit you now like nagging satellites watching your ever move."
"He never going to leave." Kylo hissed out in anger. "I cant handle both of them at the same time without you here."
"Oh don't get mad at me." Phasma laughed out, "You're the one who promised the next time you were going to go down the fuck'n rabbit hole you would call one of us. That didn't happen and this stranger who been there for only a week had to pull you off the ledge. Frankly Kylo, if I didn't love you like a brother I would have left you to defend for yourself by now. When are you going to get over that walking disgrace of a human being? She doesn't deserve to have this control over you."
"I didn't call to get a fucking pep talk from you as well." Kylo snapped rubbing his brow feeling the headache of his hangover coming back.
"I don't care if you called me asking me for an organ to save your life." Phasma snapped. "You are going to get this talk from all of us whether you want it or not. You wanna know why? Because we actually give a shit about you."
"Always so subtle." Kylo sighed out.
"I never beat around the bush with you." Phasma said.
"How long until I get the information?" Kylo asked going to exit out of Rey files on his computer screen as he saved her college repots to read later.
"I'm waiting for Jean-Claude to get back to me. You know it's the middle of the fucking night over there right?" Phasma asked.
"Well just shoot it to me with an email." Kylo said, "I don't plan on going anywhere."
"I know your house is getting all pretty once more, and I can come there without the need to throw up now at the smell." Phasma said. "But how about you go for a walk for once? You live right next to a world famous park. Enjoy the weather Before the shitty snow hits. You know, breath in fresh air that you really haven't had in four years."
"I can go to my roof for fresh air." Kylo said.
"Not the same thing." Phasma said as she paused for a long moment before speaking. "Do me a favor Kylo."
"What's that?" he asked leaning back in his chair.
"Try to fucking live a human life again." She said. "For the sake of your friendship, we are all waiting for you to catch up with us and its beginning to kill us that you won't make the effort anymore to even try and save yourself."
Kylo was about to open his mouth when the phone when dead. He pulled his phone away tossing it up onto the desk to rub his face. Fuck Phasma wasn't even holding back her anger at him. she was never a nice girl which is why Kylo liked her. She spoke what was on her mind and didn't give two shits if it hurt or offended someone. If someone could slice you up with words it was Phasma, she held no mercy back when she puree someone brains. She had almost made Kylo cry once as a child. Once.
He sat there staring at his screen as he looked over his shoulder to the door that sat open still. When was the last time he went out into the real world? He sat there for while in the semi darkness as his mind was lost in the story this girl told him. How could someone like her help him? His phone buzzed after a while knocking him out of his deep thought. Picking it up after a moment of thinking he looked to see if was Plasma saying the email was sent.
Reaching for his mouse he moved it to open to his Email. A few clicked later he opened the one Phasma had sent him, with her connection in England he knew that she had some leverage over the man in some fucked up way to get this information she needed. Kylo saw that Phasma had written something to him in the email as well.
Kylo, I know I'm being a bitch to you, but We are running out of ways to get through your thick head that we want the best for you. We are all losing this war to pull you out of your darkness and it fucking killed us all this morning that you tried to hurt yourself again. Don't forget that we are your family. On this Wolfe girl, I read some of the files. I remember hearing about this girl when my parents took me to England when I was younger. She a medical miracle that no Doctor could explain why she came back to life. Even after being legally dead for thirty minutes. Anyways, I will be down next week. Be smart until I get there to beat whatever is left over after Hux attack you. Your BEST and Smartest friend, Phasma.
Kylo let out another deep frustrated sigh as he rubbed his face after reading Phasma email. She was right too. He was forgetting that he had a family he used to fight for. looking to the seven or so attached files he clicked on one as it popped up a few scanned papers as he began to read into the history of this woman. Damn whoever this guy was that Phasma knew was able to get everything on Rey. Soon he had all the files pulled up on her there was pages and pages, from doctor papers to the foster care system. He was read a few news paper clippings finding she was indeed telling the truth about herself. But the police reports said that she fell from the bridge while playing with the girl named Tiffany who was living at the same foster house as her. Kylo kept digging through the files until he came to a picture of a tiny seven year old looking girl.
His hand froze on the mouse as he was staring at pictures that the government took of this broken looking girl. He leaned back from his chair looking at the younger version of Rey. She was not smiling. The soft warm brown eyes he was looking at only an hour before were not seen in this picture of this girl. He knew that look, it was one he had seen in his own eyes before to many times he lost count. They looked hallow and filled with darkness and hatred. Her body nothing but skin and bones literally. Her eyes and cheeks looked sunken in. fresh bruises and cuts all over her face and body. He clicked through the files reading everything about what they found about his girl. A note under her physical report made his eyes widen slightly.
Consistent Severe sexual trauma.
Kylo read through the police repot seeing a whole part of the story she seemed to have left out. and for a good fucking reason. He couldn't believe what he was reading. How could a child go through something like that? No wonder she tried to kill herself as a child. Kylo felt rage bubbling up in him for the girl he hardly even knew. Rage for her parents that sold her for drugs, rage for the man that did horrible things to her. She didn't just escape, the cops had raided the place when the man was linked to drugs deals and found her chained in the….fuck. Kylo had to stop reading before he punched his computer screen at the awful words regretting at the very second for wanting to see if she was telling the truth.
A knock came to his door as he jumped in his head flipping around to find Poe leaning in the doorway.
"Hux will be here soon," Poe said with his arms crossed. "He wants to have a powwow with you. And don't worry I had Rey help me hid anything he could use as a weapon to beat the crap out of you before she leaves."
"Oh….okay." Kylo said softly turning to the files on the screen as he clicked a few buttons making the screens go black.
"Just okay is all you have to say?" Poe asked with a laugh. "Your life is now endanger to a pissed off Ginger that hold no mercy back when he fights, and you just say okay?"
Kylo didn't say anything staring at the black screen. The mental image of those hollow dark eyes of the child were familiar to him. The things that girl went through surpassed any shit he had gone through in his past. By a million plus. How the hell did she get over it? Fucking hell he felt like a weakling compared to how strong willed this girl was to overcome her past. He began to have second thoughts about this girl leaving. Something within him switched to almost a protective mode as he wanted her to tell him how she overcame it. If she was really over the past she would definitely could help him get over the pain of his pathetic past. His brain began to hurt as two sides battled on just letting her leave and everything would go back to normal...
Yeah his world would become just as fucked up as his brain again. The other side of his brain begged him for the help. To take her hand once more.
"Is she still here?" Kylo asked over his shoulder.
"Yeah," Poe said pushing off the doorway eyeing the back of Kylo head wondering what he was reading on the computer. It didn't look anything like the code work he usually had on the screen. "Hux wants to meet her and give her a bonus for finding his pool table for him and thank her for helping you last night before she leaves."
"She not going anywhere just yet." Kylo snapped out pushing away from his desk to go find her.
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I think I fixed the bugs in this chapter. For those who are new to reading this, i hope you are enjoying this. a lot of this chapter was based on personal shit, and depression. Depression is a constant battle that some fight forever. I'm hoping to help Kylo fight out of this depression one day at a time with Rey.