Sorry for taking forever with the update. I figured it would be bad to try and write this while I was having an emotional break down. And then of course, as soon as things were better, my work started and then I had no time for anything really. But now its all better. Works done with for now and I have time to write again! Again, sorry for the delay.
"Is she going to be okay? I mean what happened? What did that bloodsucker do to her? I sware I will kill him if he hurt her. " Someone started saying. I had no idea who it was, I recognized the voice, but couldn't figure out who it belonged to. I opened my eyes and looked around.
There was Jacob. Sitting right by my side. It was his voice I heard. Even thought I had hurt him, he still cared about me. Did he know that I knew about his imprinting? How long had I been unconscious?
"Jacob,.." I barely whispered. My voice was so raspy. I had to have been out for a while. "Bella love!" Jacob exclaimed. "Your awake. How are you feeling? Do you want anything? Is there anything I can do? What happened? Whose ass do I need to go and kick?" Jacob kept questioning. "JACOB, will you shut the hell up? The girl hasn't even been awake for 2 mins and already you start with the questions." I knew who it was without even looking. Its Sam. "Bella, are you okay? How are you feeling?"
I had never heard Sam sound this way. It was as if he really did care. His voice was much softer and gentler then usual. "I think I'm okay. Nothing hurts. How long was I out for? Where's Edward at?" I asked. Suddenly all these questions started to fill my head. Would Edward ever forgive me for just running off like that? And look where I ended up. At the Black's. Would Edward believe that I didn't mean to end up here? Would he believe that I just ran, and then I realized where I was running to when I saw the Black's house? Of course not, he's not stupid. He knew I loved Jacob. He had to assume I would have made it here. Is that why he didn't stop me? Had Alice seen all of this and told him? I needed answers.
"Bells, you've been sleeping for about a week. I tried to wake you, but you gave no response. We had no idea what happened. We called Carlisle and told him that you were here and that you still hadn't woken up. He came over about the third day you still hadn't responded to us. He had no idea what was wrong. He checked your pulse and said that your heart was beating, but ever so slowly. He's been here every day since then. Alice was here yesterday. She was talking to you about Edward. I hope you don't mind if we overheard it. She said that he misses you. And that he's sorry for what he did. And the reason he didn't run after you is because he knew he had hurt you and that he knew you.." Jacob's voice faded off.
"Knew what Jacob? I need to know. I have to talk to him. I shouldn't have ran out on him like that. It wasn't fair. Would you just tell me Jacob Black?!" I demanded.
"She said he knew that you loved me and that you needed to talk to me." He quietly finished. Sam stood up and cleared his throat. Everyone else who was in the room stood up and followed him out of the room. I wanted to tell them to stay , that whatever had to be said between me and Jacob, could be said
in front of them since they would hear it anyways, but I didn't. I let them leave. Now it was just me and Jacob. He stood up and walked to the window.
"Jake, I'm soo sorry." I started sobbing. I couldn't help it. It was all my fault. I hurt him. How could I live with myself? Jacob turned around and walked over to the bed and sat down next to me. "Bells, you shouldn't be sorry. You didn't do anything. You did exactly what you should have done. You listened to your heart. I understand that now. I'm guessing that blood.. I mean Edward told you." Jacob said as gave me a hug. "Y-y-es, h-he t-told me." I said through my sobs. "W-wh –why d-didn't-t y-you t-t-tell m-me-e?" I looked up at Jake. He looked as if he was ready to start crying. Great, first I broke his heart, and now I'm making him cry. This wasn't going the way I wanted at all.
"I couldn't. You have to understand something." Jacob let go from our hug, and continued. "I didn't know how to tell you. When I realized that I had imprinted on you, it was after I knew you loved Edward and me the same. I knew that you had to choose already. I didn't want this to add to all of your problems Bells. I was only trying to help you. I was planning on telling you. Once you and Edward were happily married and you had come home." He looked down at his hands which now were holding mine. I didn't say anything as I waited for him to finish.
" It was completely stupid of me, but I had a plan. I was going to tell you before you decided that you wanted to end your human life. I was hoping that by me telling you, it would change your mind. That you would see that ending your human life was stupid and that it would give you reason to keep your heart beating." He sighed, but I still didn't say anything. "I was hoping that it would give you reason to leave him and come back to me. Bella, I'm soo sorry. It was wrong of me." He was crying now. I gave him a hug.
"Ooh Jacob. It's okay." I said, trying to comfort him. We were both sitting on the bed, crying. We sat that way for a long time. Neither one of us knew what to say to the other. We knew that we were both the most vulnerable now, and neither one of us wanted to make things worse. I knew I had to say something to him. After all, he had just confessed everything to me. I couldn't just say its okay and be done with it.
"Jake, will you please look at me?" I gently asked as I pulled his chin up so he was looking me in the eyes. I was surprised that he didn't put up any sort of fight. Looking into his eyes, I saw all of the hurt, betrayal, everything he was feeling. He must have know this because he looked away from my gaze. I put my hand on his cheek and pulled his face back to mine and I kissed him.