1Raph POV
No… I did NOT just do that… But I did. My eyes widened and I backed away, already feeling salty tears snake their way down my cheeks. I saw blood begin to ooze out of the wound, and I felt really sick. I kneeled down next to him and used one of my knee pads to try to stop the bleeding.
"Raph… I'm sorry…" Leo says, pained. What? Sorry?
"Leo, it should be me to say sorry…"
"No. I-I made you resent me… Just remember I… never… hated…you. I-I love you R-Raph." Leo said, choking out the last words between shallow breaths. That's when I realized… he's dyin' here. Tears fell down my face and dripped onto his bleeding plastron.
"I love you too bro… But don't leave me here!" I said. I felt his weak, shakin' hand grip both of mine, which were still keeping pressure on the wound.
"Never…" He whispered. But the pain and blood loss started to get to him.
"Ra-Raph… When you g-get home l-look under m-my bed. You'll understand me t-then." His eyes shut to try and take away the pain.
"I will Leo. Do- do you hate me now? Was that stuff you told Splinter true?"
"Oh… 'Course… N-never hated y-you ev-ever." He whispered to me, his eyes still closed. His breathing slowed and I feared the worst. I looked down with tears brimming my eyes, but he spoke again.
"N-never your f-fault… L-love all y-you. S-sorry…" Leo whispered. Minutes of silence went by, then suddenly, the grip on my hand loosened and the warm tickle of breath on my leg stopped. I hugged his limp, lifeless body to my own. My big brotha is dead 'cause of me. I sat there, bawling my eyes out, still holding his dead body for hours. I will never get to hear one of his lectures, see those unique spirit filled sapphire eyes. I will never see a memory of him… unless it's this. Me killin' 'im. After two long hours, I realized that I need to head home. Home. It will never, ever be the same.