Author Note

Hi, everyone! I hope you are okay... ^.^

Sorry for the late update but I will try to make the second one soon.

Regarding the chapter: This was supposed to be much longer than that with a cute/dangerous cliffhanger but it turned out to a little suspenseful at the end however this length now is proper.

It is a little bit violent (sadistic!) and the same reminder: In my opinion, the twins' relation is a completely devoted brotherly love and a deep affection. You can interpret it as you like, though. It is up to you.

Thanks for your kind reviews: Yue-chan, Immortal Fallen Radiance, one shot princess, Yukicole02, and Yamato Achahito. Arigato for you too, my dear readers! Enjoy! ^.^

Thanks to Kaito Lune who beta-read this chapter.^^" Arigato Kaito-chan.

Edit:4/30/2012

Disclaimer: I don't own Digimon or any related series.

Darkness Fangs

Chapter Three

My Pain Is You

A scream.

A purely terrified scream shattered the peaceful silent darkness, destroying with it the sweet yet bitter slumber he had sunk into. Pants and low moans escaped his pale lips as he regained consciousness, leaving him with a blurred vision and a terrible headache. He fought desperately to sit in order to know where he was at least. With difficulty, Kouji managed to sit up on what he discovered seconds later to be his bed his bed. Despite the last dead rays of the sun that looked darker than usual due to the dark clouds sneaking to the room, his room looked dark, empty and icy cold even more than usual.

Silence settled himself once more as his moans became more controlled and quite, giving him the chance to think a little bit clearly and allowing him to utter the first thing he thought about.

'Kouichi?' He sat suddenly feeling the cold sweet on his forehead as if the name itself has such a great effect on him.

He silenced himself and muttered bitterly to himself, Do I even deserve to utter his name?

He grabbed the sheets with one hand, clutching them worriedly while the other ran through his hair to discover that his bandana was missing. With a quick glance, he found it sleeping peacefully beside his pillow. He sighed and looked at himself to discover something else: his clothes were not the same he wore before whatever happened.

Speaking of that, what really happened? In fact, he didn't remember anything aside of the scene of blood and the sound of screams…his twin's screams.

What have I done?

Footsteps were coming closer to the room and the door was opened hesitantly as if whoever was there was afraid of entering.

A soft, trembled voice echoed fearfully in the darkness to be replied with more silence.

'Kouji?'

The addressed boy looked at the voice's owner to see an identical yet completely different image of him standing there.

'Kouichi?' he asked, uncertain.

Kouichi's racing into the room towards Kouji's bed and launching himself on him, snuggling in his shirt and sobbing bitterly cut the seconds of silence. 'Kouji! Thanks God you are okay. I was afraid I might lose you. You slept more than a day. I didn't know what to do. I was scared and—Oh Kouji, You are all right! I am glad!' he mumbled in Kouji's shirt and talked without stopping.

More tears and sobs escaped the boy as his grip on Kouji's shirt tightened without any reaction from Kouji who sat passively.

Surprisingly for Kouichi, his brother pushed him a little forcefully and refused to look at his eyes. It was the first time that Kouji ever did something like this

'Kouji?'

'Idiot, you should have escaped from me! You should have told someone! Why are you here after everything I did?' Kouji snapped and sat on the edge of his bed.

'Kou…' he muttered to his slightly younger twin.

'So you liked it. Yeah, the feeling that you are worthy and valuable. Wanna feel it again? I don't mind,' Kouji said darkly.

'Kouji, please…'

'Shut up! Do you think changing my bloody shirt would make me forget?' Kouji yelled in frustration and stood in front of Kouichi's shaking form.

'Nothing happened,' Kouichi said in his gentle yet fearful voice, 'You lost consciousness before...biting me. When I woke up and saw you in that condition, I took off your shirt because I touched you with my wounded hand.'

Is this why I don't remember the taste of his blood because I didn't have it in the first place?

He looked towards Kouichi and for the first time he realized how different his twin was from the last night. Kouichi was paler than usual; his eyes reflected nothing, just a complete shallow and dull stare. Kouichi's fragile body didn't stop shaking unintentionally.

'Nii-san,' he murmured, attracting Kouichi's gaze to him who smiled tiredly nodding his head in calm assurance.

'What happened to you?; Kouji asked, concerned.

Kouichi looked at his feet, feeling dizzy and admitted. After all, Kouji would know anyway.

'I lost some of my blood due to my palm's wound. I fainted before bandaging it which made it bleed for a long time.'

'Kouichi...'

'I am fine. Don't worry about me. I will get you something to eat,' he smiled warmly and headed towards the door but his vision became foggy as he leaned against the wall. He moaned unconsciously and breathed heavily.

Kouji looked at him helplessly. He lost consciousness because of me. He is in pain because of me.

He sighed. It was the time to be courageous enough to make a decision. The time had come to leave his childish desires and to kill his sweet promises because he couldn't keep them. He clenched his fist, gritted his teeth and said coldly, "That's enough."

A puzzled glance from Kouichi received an even bitterer answer.

'I will tell our parents everything.'

Kouichi choked out a "What?" as he stumbled towards Kouji, begging him silently to look at his eyes.

'They will hate me but I don't care anymore. You will have a normal life finally,' he said, completely ignoring Kouichi's silent pleads.

'You can't! You just can't!' Kouichi snapped, 'You promised. You promised that you won't leave me!'

I hurt you; even if I didn't drink your blood this time, I will do that sooner or later even if I want it or not. And this means I broke one of my promises so no harm in breaking another one,' he hissed coldly.

'Kouji, please,' Kouichi whimpered, "I can't stand living without you…"

Kouji ignored him, looking at the window and the new raindrops that started to knock on the window.

'Take all of it,' Kouichi begged after few seconds of silence, unbuttoning the first three buttons in his shirt and exposing his neck. 'Please, you can drink as much as you want. I won't scream or even cry. I promise I won't do anything just accepting that.'

He wept and knelt on the ground, looking at his bandaged hand smiling faintly and grabbed it and took few seconds to undo the bandages and it took another few seconds before tiny drop of blood started to fell on the floor.

'I told you that when we discovered who you are and I am telling this now too.' He smiled kindly and whispered weakly, 'My blood is yours, Kouji.'

Different things happened at the same time. Strong, cold arms seized his shoulders painfully pushing Kouichi towards the wall while his nails dug deep in his bare skin. He gasped and looked at the flashing red eyes in front of him. The eye contact didn't last more than five seconds as Kouji pushed him towards the wall forcefully twisting his body so his face was pressed to the cold wall while his arms were seized behind his back.

An icy shiver ran down his spine sending his hair on end as he felt his brother's breath on his neck. Kouji's breaths were shallow and heavy.

'Selfish!'

Kouji hissed furiously behind Kouichi's ear. Kouichi tried to say something but the coldness of the chill increased as he felt Kouji's tongue liking against his bare neck. He groaned and breathed heavily feeling that his body would collapse any moment but—Why? he thought.

I offered this to him I should accept it.

'Are you that worthless to sell yourself like this just because you are afraid of staying alone?' Kouji snarled as he gave Kouichi's neck another long lick causing a louder moan from him.

Kouichi managed to free a whisper but it was a faint and useless, 'Kouji,' as another sough echoed in the darkness and more tears streamed down Kouichi's cheeks.

'Selfish. All that you care about is yourself. Are you that mean to be unable to think about anything other than your well-being?'

Kouichi gasped at his twin's harsh, cold, sad words.

Sad?

'WHAT ABOUT ME?' Kouji screamed in agony, fear, anger, and pain. 'Have you ever thought of me as vampire? As a creature who needs to live a real life? I AM A VAMPIRE yet I can't even feel like one.'

Kouji released Kouichi's wrists and twisted his body towards him so he can look at him in the angry red eyes with his teary blue ones.

'You want to give yourself up?' he sneered, waiting for Kouichi's answer who only nodded and muttered sobbing, 'If this means not staying alone.;

'SELFISH!'Kouji yelled as his hand made contact with Kouichi's cheek causing him to fall on the ground. Kouichi's whole body screamed and his headache intensified. The elder twin cried in pain as his head hit the floor and started to bleed. He raised his pounding head weakly to his brother who was standing above him, gazing at the floor unblinkingly.

'The moment my fangs sank into your skin, the innocent beloved Nii-san I knew would die forever and you would be nothing but an empty soul who will shiver and scream whenever he sees me.'

'Kou…Kouji,' he whispered as his head ached harder.

'It hurts.' A gentle, distanced voice unlike the coldness he was using few seconds. His gaze softened and whispered, 'I should have left that night, the night I became one of them.' His navy eyes regained its mysterious beautiful color. 'Do you know how hard it is?\he whispered sadly, 'to see that unconscious terrified look in your eyes...to see how unwillingly afraid you are from me?"

Kouichi's eyes widen in understanding and at the same time in confusion.

'Do you know how painful it is? The pain I feel whenever I see you trying harder and harder to make me happy and yet I couldn't think about anything other than your blood and stupid mental conflicts causing you worry and angst.'

Kouji's body collapsed on his bed pulling his legs towards his chest and hugging himself. It was the first time in his life that he looked so weak and broken. The sound of his muffled sobs occupied the air between them as Kouichi helped himself to stand forgetting his pain and looking at his brother.

'I love you, Nii-san,' he wept, hugging himself closer. 'You mean the world to me,' he whispered and raised his head to his elder twin who looked at him with big teary eyes.

Kouji smiled faintly. 'Every time I see you and feel how close we are, I hear my heart's screams, begging me to let go of you but I was selfish. I didn't want to lose you to any one, even to our parents. That's why I kept you with me.'

'Kouji...' Kouichi murmured desperately and came closer to his twin opening his arms to hug him but Kouji shook his head and hugged himself further burying his head on his knees.

'I don't deserve your trust. Every time I hug you or you sneak to my room and sleep beside me, I suffer. A part of me persuades me that you are too precious for me to even think about hurting you, which encourages me to hold you closer. The other part, the voice in my head, the voice that was nothing but a reflection to my wishes and desires kept reminding me of what I really want, of the whispers and gossips in my class about Pure Human. My head's complaining about how pathetic and ungrateful I am towards my real identity,' he whispered sourly.

'But I...' Kouichi muttered but his twin interrupted him quietly.

'You are so innocent to look at me as a monster but that is the truth. I don't even know how I didn't do that to you last that moment yesterday I believed in your words.'

"Kouji is my brother. That's why I am safe with him even if he is one of them."

Kouji added shamefully, 'But reality gave another fact I attacked you, ignoring your screams. If...if I sucked your blood, then you would be killed, not physically but emotionally.'

Kouji looked up and smiled genuinely, 'I will stop being selfish and let you go. I have caused enough pain to you.'

Kouichi stepped back, his wounded hand on his chest. He shook his head nervously. 'N...no I-I can't...'

'Time is strong enough to make you forget me.'

His tears revealed themselves again as he looked at Kouji in fear but it was a completely different type of fear: the fear of being left behind.

'You are wrong. I...I am the selfish one...I forced you to act like a human, ignoring your need to be yourself. I have only thought about myself. You have every right to hate me. I am the reason you are in pain.' He broke down and stormed out of the room leaving Kouji's slightly shivering body as the feeling of his brother's warmth disappeared from the thin air.

'I wonder who was the other's real pain?' Kouji murmured between his tears.

Thunder struck more furiously blaming them, teasing them and mocking their childish promise years ago. The pain each of them caused his twin and their pride that hold on their mistakes regretting them, yet never take a step to change. How pathetic!

To Be Continued

So chapter 4 is updated. ^.^ I hope you enjoyed it.

Sorry for making Kouji a little bit different (aggressive heeh) in this chapter. So much angst and violence but I guess it worked... ^.^

Hopefully, I will update soon as the next chapter is ready.

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