P.O.V Lucy

"Why do i fell like i do? I shouldn't, we only met a few months ago... and now i can't get him out of my head. Mom why do i fell like this? You taught me that love is something that grows with time... i feel so dirty by loving a man who i just met"-..ucy, Lucy are you ok?- Mira's voice snapped me from my thoughts.

-Yes, Mira-chan. What's the problem?- i faked a smile, so she won't see my confusion.

-I had been calling you for almost ten minutes but you didn't answer- she told me.

-Ah- i scratched my back- Sorry, lately i have a lot of things in my head- i apologized.

-Are you all right?- she asked concern all written on her face.

Luckily on that moment Natsu entered Fairy Tail. i took this opportunity and snicked to his side -Natsu...-started Luce but he interrupted me growling.

-What the hell is he doing here?!- "I had never seen that face on him... It's scary... but why is he so angry?" then i noticed who was he looking at... Gajeel! Retaliation hit me... he didn't know that Gajeel was a new member of the guild... "Could Natsu be angry at him because he tortured me?...", that thought made my heart leap on happiness.

-He is a member of Fairy Tail now- answered Master . I noticed that he was about to shout but he sniffed something and ran towards it. I followed him as fast as i could however, he was too quick.

When i traced him, i was surprised of where i found him "What is he doing at the library?". I secretly gazed from the almost closed door... and what i saw broke my heart. Natsu was sitting under the window of the library, with Levy's head placed on his chest, his right arm around her shoulder, she was reading a book and explaining it to him "He told me he hated books! So why does he look interested on them while Levy is reading?" However, what shattered my heart into a million of pieces was the way he was looking at her and... her smile... his eyes were full of adoration and... love.

I left without making a noise so they could have some privacy "Levy i thought that you knew about my feelings... so why sis you betrayed me like this?", i felt a few tears fall from my eyes but wiped them as soon as i heard the voice of Happy- Lucy!- he flew towards me- Did you find Natsu?

-Yes- i smiled sadly- He is with Levy at the library... but is better to leave them alone.

-Levy?- he asked surprised "If you knew how much i was"- It's nice to see that he returned to hang out with her again- "Again?" seeing my confused face, he explained it to me "I'm lucky that he isn't as dense as Natsu"- Levy and Natsu were like siblings since they joined the guild, he was closer to her than to Lisana and she was closer to him than to Jet or Droy- i was beyond shocked "They were that close". I had heard of Lisana, she was Mira's younger sister but died two years ago, she and Natsu did everything together "If Mira's sister and Natsu were that tight i can't imagine how tight were Levy and he"- However, when Lisana died they became distant to each other. Natsu suffered a lot... but now that he has her back i'm sure that he will be more than fine- Happy smiled cheerfully. "They were like brothers... so that lovely look was a sibling kind of look... I'm really sorry for mistrusting you Levy!", my heart was now recovered and very happy for Natsu because he gained back his sister- Ne Lucy.

-Yes, Happy- i smiled at him but when i saw his worried expression my face turned serious- What's wrong?

-Natsu had a nightmare- "Natsu? That's strange he always is very happy... as if anything can hurt him... Maybe he does have something that can... could it be...".

-Maybe he was dreaming about Igneel leaving him- i guessed but Happy shacked his head.

-No, he shouted another name when he woke up- he murmured "Another name?..."- He yelled 'Lica'- "Lica?... It sounds female... could it be that... stop it Lucy you can't start imagining that he is in love with every women! Your jealousy confused a sibling love into a romantic one and even if he loves her it shouldn't be a problem for you. After all he is only your friend". However, i knew that it was a pretty lie that i wanted to make myself believe- I never heard him mention that name before... i'm worried Lucy- he buried his face on my chest, i corresponded the hug and tried to calm him down.

-Don't worry Happy i'm sure that it isn't anything serious, maybe it is a one night thing- he looked up and wiped his tears.

-Are you sure?- he asked shyly.

-Yes, i'm sure- "I hope..." Happy returned to his usual mood and we went to the bar and ordered a fish and a strawberry milkshake.

When i opened the door of my apartment at midnight i expected a lot of things... specially those idiots i have for team mate... but never my best friend with a really worried expression- What's wrong Levy? Did someone hurt you?- i asked concerned.

-No Lu-chan... but i have to ask you a question... can i come in?- i opened the door fully and nodded "A question?". She explained me everything that she felt about this guy and asked me desperately- What is wrong with me? Why do i feel like this?

-You are in love Levy!- i squeezed. "Who is this guy? And really she is the smartest mage on Fairy Tail but couldn't figure it out by herself. Now i see how did she and Nastsu end up like siblings... they are both as dense as a rock when it comes to love", i shacked my head in disbelief.

-Thanks Lu-chan- she told me before she went to Fairy Hills, leaving me worried "Was she ok?" i asked myself remembering her expression when she left.

Almost a month had passed since Fantasia Parade and i feel Natsu each day more distant. He hadn't been snicking anymore in my house or bed "For which i should be happy but i'm not, after all even though i say i hate it... on the bottom of my heart i love it". Also, Happy told me that he still has those nightmares each night... he is worrying me a lot.

I was walking towards my home and decided to take a deviation through the Park. I looked around and found out that the scenery of autumn really suits the place, it was like any other normal stroll until... "Is that Natsu?" i saw him under a big tree taking a nap "What an idiot! Taking naps on places like this, he'll get sick". I approached him and watched his sleepy and peaceful face "Those nightmares must really keep him up all night" i thought bittersweet " maybe if i ask Master he could help him.

My gaze turned from hopeful to concerned when i saw that Natsu was writhing on his sleep "What is wrong with him?!", i started to panic- ...ca- i heard him murmur something, i got closer so i could hear better-...ica, Lica, please don't die Lica- My heart missed a beat "That name again... wait a minute did he say don't die?... could it be that Lica is a dead friend of his?... poor Natsu he suffered a lot, Igneel left him and two friends of him died"- Lica!- he yelled waking up agitated. He looked at his surrounding before placing his gaze on me- Luce? What are you doing here?

-I... i took a deviation towards my house and then found you sleeping here. I decided to wake you up before you catch a cold... but you did it by yourself- i answered shyly.

-D did you hear?- he asked nervous evading my gaze.

-'Please don't die Lica', that was what i heard- i answered. He looked at me nervously, i saw that he opened and closed his mouth trying to figure out what to say- I knew about it- i whispered but with his dragon senses he was able to hear it- I knew about your nightmares... since the first night.

-How?- he finally asked after a few minutes of uncomfortable silence.

-Happy told me, he was worried about you- i told him- You should tell Master he might know what to give you to make them stop.

-I don't want them to stop- i looked at him in shock "Was he mad or what?! they are making him suffer!"- I want to remember her.

-W what do you mean by remember her?- i asked slowly due to i didn't know if i wanted to know where was this heading towards.

-I forgot everything about Lica... but in my nightmares appear the lost pieces of my memory... however, they always end up with her death- my eyes were as wide as plates from his confession.

-Natsu- i reach out for him and hugged him while crying- I know that loosing your memories of someone is difficult but you need to make them stop, they are affecting your health- i murmured in his ear. I felt him grab my waist, i thought that he was going to hug me back... but i was wrong. He pushed me away, making me fall on my butt. I was about shout at him but i froze when i saw his eyes... they were cold and full of hatter... and it was directed towards... me.

-What would you know about loosing someones memories?!- i flinched at his yelling, i never saw him like that... specially towards a nakama... or towards me "Who was this girl? And what was she to him?". The simple fact of thinking that he might loved her or still in love with her made my heart hurt- You don't nothing about it so shut the fuck off?!- he turned around and stomped away angrily.

When i couldn't see him anymore i started to cry as hard as the day my mother died- Princess are you all right?- i heard Leo's concerned voice asking me, "He really is a free will spirit" i thought bittersweet. I didn't answer, i only wrapped my arms around his neck and cried. When i stopped the tears from falling from my eyes he carried me bridal style towards my house, where he lay down on my bed next to me and sang me a lullaby so i could have some rest. "Why can't i love him? Why did i fall in love with that idiot?", i felt a few tears fall through my cheeks before sleep claimed me.

To be continued...