A/N: Hey people. Sorry for not updating for a little while but I've had stuff to do. This is a really epic chapter with pretty serious stuff for Rose and Kendall. If you're liking the story send me a PM or review. :D Enjoy.

*Kendall*

Kendall walked in at a brisk pace down the street, still slightly in shock about what James had just told him. He and Rose had been dating for 3 months and she hadn't even bothered to clue Kendall in on such an important part of her life. Did she not trust him? Part of him felt sorry for her, he knew living with depression would be hard for anyone but he though that their relationship was strong enough for Rose to let him in and let him at least give her support.

Kendall arrived at his destination quicker than he anticipated - he must have been too deep in his thoughts to realize the time passing. He walked down the sandstone stepping stone pathway up to Rose's front door. It was grey outside, a mix of a storm coming and early evening setting in making the air cool and damp. He knocked at the door, trying to calm himself down before it opened. Rose's little sister Stella opened the door, she was only 7 with similar hair and facial features to Rose except she had piercing blue eyes instead of Rose's hazel-y green eyes.

"Hey Kindle" she said beaming. She was so cute, and never really remembered what Kendall's name was.

"Hi Stella is Rose here?" He knelt down on one knee to come down to eye level with her, and talked to her in a calm voice while on the inside he was raging.

"Yah she's upstairs." she said, turning around to go back to the tv room to keep watching New Town High - wasn't she a bit young for that show? He shrugged the thought off and shut the front door, then made his way up the stairs. As he approached Rose's room he realized he had no idea what to say to her, he probably should have thought about that before.

Kendall knocked on her door and Rose answered dressed in sports shorts with a hoodie and headphones in her ears, having clearly just come back from a run. She realized who it was and straightened herself up, removing the headphones from her ears.

"Hey babe, what's going on? I wasn't expecting you." she said contently, with slight confusion in her voice.

"Rose." he said trying to swallow, but his throat was dry. "I need to talk to you about something" Rose nodded her head, sensing that Kendall was being serious. She led him over to her bed and they sat down.

"Rose do you trust me?" Kendall said trying not to be too blunt about the subject.

"Of course I do. You are so special to me and I would trust you with anything" She said with a gentle smile taking his hand in hers, but Kendall pulled away.

"I can't believe you. Why would you lie to me like this?" Kendall said raising his voice slightly. Rose looked slightly scared now.

"What do you mean?" she said softly.

"DON'T GIVE ME THAT BULLSHIT. I KNOW YOU HAVE DEPRESSION. I TRUST YOU ENOUGH TO LET YOU INTO MY LIFE RIGHT AFTER MY FATHER DIED BUT YOU CAN'T TRUST ME ENOUGH TO TELL ME ABOUT A VITAL PART OF YOUR LIFE!" Kendall pretty much shouted, standing up and looking down at Rose. She looked like a deer in headlights, all the blood had drained from her face and she looked absolutely scared to death - maybe Kendall was too harsh...no.

"I...I'm sorry. I didn't know how to tell you and I didn't know how you were going to react." she said, almost whispering.

"what do you mean you didn't know how I'd react? I would have loved you to have told me, I would have supported you, helped you, helped you. But instead I have to hear it from James, who heard it from Jess. Do you realize how that makes me feel? To know that they knew before I did?" Kendall said fuming, but also feeling hurt. He saw Rose's head was down and realized he had upset her.

"I'm sorry Kendall, I didn't realize that something like that meant so much to you" he now realized that she was absolutely pissed off. At him?

"Oh yeah it totally not a big deal or anything and it's not like I tell you all my secrets and problems." Kendall said sarcastically.

WHAT DID YOU WANT ME TO DO? TELL YOU STRAIGHT UP THAT I HAVE DEPRESSION AND THAT I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF!" Rose said exploding at Kendall, spitting each word out with rage. Kendal was a shocked, but for some reason her souring just set him off more.

"You should have told me. I could have helped you. I would have been there when you needed me and supported you when you were in trouble." Kendall said with slightly sympathy lingering on his voice.

"Kendall, I..I don't know what I can say. I trust you but I guess you can't understand that I want some things in my life private." she said now completely annoyed at Kendall and it showed through her voice

"Well if we can't agree on anything I guess we should take a break." Kendall huffed looking at Rose's piercing eyes.

"Get out." Rose said flatly clearly trying to hold back tears. Kendall turned on his heel and angrily trudged down the stairs and out the front door in a rage.

Kendall sat in the gutter on the street, he was so ashamed of himself. He let his anger and frustration get the better of him. He hated himself for what he had said to Rose. He knew what it was like to lose someone who means the world to you and he shuddered at the thought of losing Rose if she had anything happen to her. He needed to fix what he had done, but he knew that wasn't going to be as easy as walking into Rose's room, laying her down and kissing her until she begged for him to stop. This was their usual make up routine, but Kendall knew this was much more serious. Kendall got up, brushed himself off and made his way as quick as he could back the way he had come. Kendall knew he needed to apologize, he realize he should have just accepted that Rose was scared to tell him instead of being an absolute dickhead and going off at her. She looked so broken when he shouted at her and he hated the way that he had done that.

He arrived at the same doorstep he was at only 20 minutes ago. He decided not to knock because he wasn't in the mood to talk to Stella and he knew their parents weren't at home. He waked inside and made a beeline straight for Rose's room. As he got to the top of the stairs all Kendall could hear was crying. Rose sounded so hurt and it made Kendall feel horrible to think that he made her that upset - it didn't help that she had depression either. He opened her bedroom door and saw Rose doubled over on the floor bawling her eyes out.

"Sweetie, I'm so sorry about what I said. I didn't mean any of it and I over reacted. I realize that it must have been hard for you to tell me but I don't want to take a break from us because you are the best thing in my life and I love you." Kendall said with regret lingering on every word he said. Rose said nothing, just kept crying. Kendall began to worry and went over to Rose, placing a hand gently on her back trying to calm her down. Rose turned to reveal what would normally be her beautiful, beaming face but instead was replaced by her beautiful face being red, puffy and tear-stained. She kept crying and averted her gaze to keep from looking at Kendall.

"Rose are you alright?" Kendall said now even more worried. Rose shook her head, taking a deep breath and uncurling her body to sit and face Kendall. He felt immediately sick to the stomach and horror struck his face. His heart stopped as he saw his worst nightmare. Rose's faded pink singlet was now covered in blood all over her abdomen.

"ROSE! HOLY FUCK WHAT HAPPENED? ARE YOU ALRIGHT" Kendall shouted, scared as hell. Tears dripped down his face as he saw a blood stained Swiss Army Knife fall out of Rose's hand and onto the floor. She lifted her singlet up and looked up at Kendall like a scared little lamb.

"I'm sorry Kendall." she said weakly. The sight he saw nearly made him pass out. There were cuts - deep ones - all over her perfectly flat stomach. Some of them looked like old scars but the majority were fresh and bleeding like there was no tomorrow.

"You haven't done anything wrong sweetie, you're going to be fine just hang in there and hold this on your stomach to stop the bleeding" Kendall said in a hurry, while pulling off his own tee shirt to give to Rose to stop the bleeding. She placed it onto her stomach and winced as she put some pressure on it. Kendall was trying to be calm to keep Rose calm but in reality, he was panicking and could barley keep his hand from shaking - as if him crying wasn't bad enough. Kendall pulled his phone out of his pocket and quickly called 911 with shaky hands.

"911 what is your emergency?" The friendly woman on the line said.

" I need an ambulance. My girlfriend is cut all over her stomach and is bleeding a lot. We're at 88 Simmond Street." Kendall said while holding Rose close.

"Ok sir an ambulance is being sent to your location and should be there soon. Just keep yourself and your girlfriend calm an if anything else goes wrong call me back, and ask for Lucy" Kendall hung up and didn't let go of Rose until the paramedics pulled him off her.