*Disclaimer: I Do NOT own degrassi.A/N: I switched povs sorry I have a bad habit of doing that
Unconditional Love
Chapter 4
It was the anniversary of Elis' death everybody was gathered at Clare and Adam's house for a dinner CeCe had actually started the tradtion of a family dinner on this date to celebrate the life of her deceased son.
"Grandma CeCe Where's Grandpa?" Munro looked at CeCe. "He had to cover at the station for 'll not be joining us this evening." She ruffled his almost black hair.
"Is dinner almost done Clare Honey?" Adam looked at her with a smile.
"Yes honey it is almost ready.I hope everyone is fine with having meatloaf and mashed potatos with corn." She looked at everyone sitting at the table. Helen,CeCe,Adam and Munro. They all smiled at the choice for dinner and this satisfied Clare.
She goes and checks on was done so she fixed everyone a plate."Adam dear can you come help me please?" She called from the kitchen.
Adam excused himself from the table and walked into the kitchen ."Yes dear you need me?" Clare smiled at him.
"Can you please help me take these plates to the table?" He nodded and grabbed two plates and walked them to the walked back to get the other two plates leaving Clare with hers .He walked to the table and gave the plates to CeCe and Munro.
Clare came out of the kitchen a few seconds later."Dig in everyone." Clare said as she sat down she honored Eli by not saying shot her a look she hated this part of the Bites her lip hard.
"Mommy everything is great." He smiles at her and takes another bite of his meatloaf.I smile at him and take a sip of water."Thank you sweetie." I said once I swallowed my everyone was finished I cleared the table and put the dishes in the sink. We all gather in the living had brought tapes of Eli when he was little so we popped one in the VCR and watched Eli as he rocked around the living room of his house to a dead hand song.
I laughed so hard I had tears falling from my eyes."I..Never...E-Eli..danced..CeCe."I said through my looked at me surprised by my reaction."Mommy are you Okay?" Munro looked at with worry in his dark green eyes.I look at him still laughing.
"I-I'm f-fine Mun." I started slurring my words."Clare Dianne Edwards are you drunk?"My mom looked at me with a scrowling face .I giggled at her."No M-ma'ma." I tried to be serious with my lie but failed with more giggle fits.
"Come on mom let's get you to bed." Munro comes to where I'm sitting and grabs my arm and proceeds to walk me to my bedroom. "But I-I don't wanna." I look at backs away from my breath which smells heavily of vodka."Mommy why? Why would you drink?" He says as he sits me on the end of my pulls the covers back and helps me slide under them.I look up at him.
"Mommy I know it's a tough day but every year before you haven' tonight?" He looks at me with concern and he sits down beside me. "Mommy I'm just worried about get some rest and I'll be into check on you before I go to bed." He leans down and kisses the top of my head before walking out of the room."I love you mommy." He says before shutting the door."I love you Mun." He shuts the door leaving me to sober up. I got the vile taste I knew I dread.I got up and ran to our bathroom.
I lean over the cold procalin and release all my stomachs' previous contents.I sit down on my knees and started to cry."Eli what am I doing?" I said putting my head in my hands.
Munro's pov
I came back downstairs after helping mom get in bed.I hoped she was doing alright as I walked back into the living room."How is she doing sweetheart?" Grandma CeCe and Helen asked in unision as I reached the Adam just stared at me with worry."She is fine I put her in bed she wouldn't tell me why she was drinking though." I looked down at the floor.
"Oh sweet boy don't blame yourself." Helen walked over and hugged her only grandson. "But Grandma Helen I feel like it is my fault.I remind her so much of daddy." I pull away from her."Oh Mun sweetie you are the only thing that truly brings your mom joy." I feel tears forming in my emerald eyes.
"I'm going to go check on her and go to bed." I stand up and go to hug Grandma CeCe then uncle Adam and Grandma Helen before I head upstairs to check on my mother."Goodnight Munro." All of them say simitanusly. I smile my goodnight and walk upstairs to my mom and Uncle Adam's I reach their room I knock on the door."Mommy it's me." I knock once more and go in.
Clare's Pov
I hear knocking on my bedroom door.I know who it is and don't answer.I hear another knock and then the door opening. "I-I'm in the bathroom Mun." The bathroom door swings open."Mom you alright?" His green eyes shown with worry and concern. I swallow hard and nod.
"Mommy are you sure?" He comes and sits down beside me in front of the toliet."Yeah sweetheart I'm sorry about tonight.I don't know what I'm doing." He wraps his arm around me to give me a side hug.I feel tears starting to soak my cheeks again."Mommy it's okay I understand." He squeezes me tighter.
"Munro Sweetie I'm such a horrible mother there is nothing I can do to make it better." The tears were falling faster then I could attempt to wipe them away."Mommy look at the best mother anyone could ask for." He moves my chin to make me look at him. "You raised me all by yourself mommy after daddy died to save you and in it's self takes stronger than you know courage makes me strong and I'm proud to call you my mommy." He smiles at me.I smile with tears falling.
"Munro Elijah Goldsworthy you are so wise for your age,How did this age?" I look at him."My mother raised me to be myself and be determined." He smiles at me and I ruffle his hair."So are you feeling better?" I nod. "Well good I got to get to bed school tomorrow." I nod and kiss the top of his head.
"Okay goodnight Sweetie sweet dreams." "Goodnight mommy." He gets up and leaves the bathroom through the hallway door.I get up and go lay back down in bed.I stare up at the ceiling until I hear Adam come in."Clare honey are you alright?" I sit up on my elbows."Yeah AdamI'm fine about earlier." He changes out of his shirt and jeans and changes into a pair of black shorts and climbs into bed."It's okay sweetie it kisses my forehead and then my lips.I smile in the kiss."It's so hard to believe Mun will be sixteen next week. My little boy isn't so little anymore." I frown and he kisses me again.
"I know Clare he is a very well rounded young man.I wish Eli was here to see him he would be so proud of you and Munro." We lay down I end up laying on Adam's fall asleep.
Next week
I sneak into Munros' room."HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BOY!" I squeal. He wakes up groggily."Mommy what time is it?" He rubs his green eyes free of sleep and I laugh."It's 5:40 A.M. the exact time you were born sixteen years ago today." He sits up on his bed as I sit down."Seriously mommy you had to wake me up this early?" I laugh."Yes I did and what do you want to do today?" He looks up at me. "Well uncle Adam was going to take me to get a tattoo." I look at him."Really? Well I guess that would be alright just don't forget about your birthday dinner Aunt Alli and uncle Drew are coming over with Ashlynn." I smile and ruffle his hair he eyes me and chuckles.
"How could I forget mommy we do it every year?" I laugh. " I'll leave you to get will be waiting for you." He nods and I stand up to leave."Okay mommy." I walk out his bedroom door.I head downstairs to make some came down a few minutes after I started breakfast."Good morning honey." I smile as he wraps his arms around my waist and kisses my neck.
"Good morning I heard your taking Mun to get a tattoo." I turn to look at him in the eyes."Y-Yeah I may have mentioned it to him." I giggle at his nervousness. "It's okay Adam I know he won't get anything comes into the kitchen."Morning uncle smells great Mommy." I smile."Morning when do you want to go get your tattoo?" I roll my eyes and flip the last pancake.I take the whole plate to the table and sit down.
"After breakfast,Are you coming mommy?" I shake my head."Sorry baby boy I got to clean up for tonight." I take a bite of my pancake."Alright mommy well we will be back as soon as possible." He takes his last bite of pancakes. Adam had wolved down his four pancakes. "Ready to go Mun buddy?" Munro nods and gets up from the table. Adam follows suit. They both kiss me goodbye and head for the front door. "We'll be back soon honey." I smile and wave. "Love you too." "Love you mommy." "Love you honey." I smile and they walk out to the car and head to the tattoo parlor.
I shut the door and the phone rings.I pick it up."Hello?"
"CLARE!" I hear a famillar squeal on the other end. "Alli how are you?" I smile as I sit down on the couch. "We're what time do you want us over for Munro's Party?"
"Um 4:00 P.M. right now him and Adam are at the tattoo parlor getting Mun a tattoo."
"Your actually letting him get a tattoo?" I laugh.
"Yeah I little boy isn't so little anymore Al." I hear stifle a laugh.
"Yeah I know what you mean Clare Ash is wanting her navel pierced but me and Drew keep saying no." We both giggle.
"Well I got to go and get stuff ready."
"Alright see you soon Clare." I smile.
"Alright Al see ya." I hang up the phone and go to wash I'm washing the dishes I hear the front door open."Mommy?" I drop the dish in the sink and run to see him."Well how did it go?" "He did good don't you show your mom Mun?" Munro lifts up his sleeve and removes the gauze to reveal was Eli's name with a ying yang underneath it.
"Wow Mun. What made you get that?" I looked at him as he put the gauze back down."Well I wanted to honour you and daddy I got his name and the ying yang represents light and dark." I nod my head. "Oh why don't you go get the time your done Aunt Alli and them should be with CeCe and Helen." He smiles and kisses my forehead before going up to his room to change.
"Thank you Adam for going with him." I smile and he kisses my lips is a series of knocks coming from the front door.I go to answer it."CLARE!" I smile bright and let Alli Drew and Ashlynn in. "So good to see you guys it's been awhile." I hug her and then Drew and goes into the kitchen with Adam."Munro should be down soon." As if on cue he walks down the is another series of knocks and he answers the and Helen come in the living room. Me and Alli were sitting on the couch."Hi Alli." CeCe and my mom say to her at the same proceeds to hug me."Clare bear are we doing okay today?" My mom looks at me.I glare at her."Yes Mother I'm fine. Alli gives me a what-is-she-talking-about- look."I'll explain later." I whisper to her. "So what's for dinner?" I smile. "Munro's favourite pizza.I'm cheating but it's his night." I laugh a little and Alli laughs with me which makes me laugh harder. "I better order the pizza." Adam says as him and Drew walk into the living room.
"Sorry Adam me and Alli are just catching up." I giggle. "So where is the birthday boy?" "I have a feeling I know where he is." I say getting serious and looking around the room with staring faces."E-Eli's." Was all I could manage to say. "Ash must have went with him.I haven't seen her in awhile either." Alli grabbed my hand."We'll go get them." Drew said looking at me and Alli.I shake my head 'No.' "Me and Al will go you all stay here and enjoy." Adam hugged me and whispered in my ear."Are you sure honey?" I smile as I pull away from him."I'm sure baby."
Alli was still holding my hand when we exited the house to go to her offered to drive once she found out we would be the ones going after our children."Alli are you alright?" I look at her with worry."You know this is the first time since Eli died that I have been to his grave." I grab her hand and squeeze it tight."It's okay we don't have to go." I point to the two teenagers walking up the get out of the car and run up to them and shower them with look at each other then at us."Mommy what's going on?" I looked up at Munro."Why would you go somewhere without telling somewhere Munro Elijah Goldsworthy?" I could tell he was biting the inside of his bottom lip.
"Why would you let Ashlynn tag along? Don't you two know how dangerous it is?" He shurgs and then smirks."Sorry Mom I just wanted to talk to daddy on my just tagged along to keep me company. Are you mad at us? Sorry Aunt Alli." I look at Alli she smiles at him."It's okay Mun just you two need to ask next time." He nods and the four of us walk back into the house."That didn't take long." Adam said as I shut the door behind us.I smile."These two caming walking back as we were just about to leave."
I sit down beside Adam on the sat beside Drew on the love and Mom sat in the and Ashlynn sat together on the all talked about the day Munro was born and waited for the door bell rang Adam got up to get the comes back and everybody digs we were done I went into the kitchen to get the cake.I come back in with candles lit and we all sing"Happy birhtday" Munro blows out the all enjoy a piece once Adam cuts it continue just talking and laughing when I feel a hand on my shoulder but there was nothing there I know it's Munro has told me time and time again his love is unconditional.