Chapter 4

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Ally didn't run home, she couldn't deal with the sympathetic looks from her parents telling her everything would be alright. Because she knew it wouldn't she kept running until she found herself at her local park, she ran into the bushes where she sat on the bench that her and Austin had found when they were younger. If it had been any other time she would try and remember all the memories that they had made here. But it was too painful for her to even think about Austin. She felt terrible how she had never told him, but what made it worse was that she could not get the look that he had gave her before she had run away. She let the tears fall, she had been coping so well with everything going on, she thought, but she just knew that she had suppressed all those feelings and put on a show to make her look brave and alright, but now she just felt like she was having a breakdown. Austin probably never wanted to talk to her ever again, never mind be in the same room as her for two weeks, Ally knew that whatever she did to try to get him back would never be enough, she had lied to him, he knew that she never lied and with the first lie she ever told him was almost a life or death situation. It was a lie that she couldn't even forgive herself for telling, especially to him, someone she has known all her life and used to be inseparable. She couldn't even bare the thought of lying to him, but she had!

She sat on the bench in tears for what felt like hours and it was beginning to get dark when she heard footsteps coming up towards her. She looked up to see Austin. He had been crying too but didn't look as awful as she probably did. She hadn't though that anyone would be looking for her, especially Austin considering what she had done to him. But he had come looking for her and that made her feel better that after two years he still cared enough about her to come after her in the dark. She was getting cold but she didn't care, she couldn't go home without explaining herself to Austin. But what was she going to say to him? She couldn't even think why she had lied to him in the first place, never mind explaining to him! "Hey Ally... I came because I needed to talk to you. Why didn't you tell about this?" he asked Ally. Ally just sat there whilst she tried to compose a reason. "Well... I mean... I was going to tell you but... the first time was when I came round into your garden but then you said about how you couldn't live without me and that's why i ran away, i thought by what you said that it would be better if we never became friends again. That it would be better for you if you never knew..." She looked at Austin "... But then I thought that if i told you it would at least prepare you at least. But I just needed the right moment to tell you, I was going to tell you whilst you were staying at mine to look after me... That's why i lied about it in the school hallway!" Ally stopped as Austin stood up. "Do you know how I found you?" He asked her, like he was trying to change the subject. Ally went along with it and shook her head. "I know you. You wouldn't want to go home because of the pity looks and words you would get from your parents. So that limited the chance of going home, i thought of Sonic Boom but i thought that would be the same reason. So I thought back to when we were younger. What was your favourite place to go to be alone and think or hide away from the world? The park! I remember finding this place with you, i even still have the picture somewhere. "He smiled at Ally and that made her feel better in itself. She felt like she knew him again, like they were friends again. But did she want to be more than that?

Austin sat back down on the bench but sat much closer to Ally. He was hot against her bare shoulder with his black leather jacket; she was cold but didn't complain. It was the least of her worries. The feeling of him beside her was so familiar to her but because it had been so long it also felt strange. She rested her head on his shoulder, enjoying the way her head fit perfectly on his shoulder and that made her feel better with just that. "I'm sorry." She said. With that, Austin sat up as did Ally. He looked at her deep in the eyes and she just stared straight into his gorgeous brown eyes. He grabbed her by the shoulders. "No! You're not sorry! You didn't do anything wrong! I should e the sorry one and you have no idea how sorry i am!" he began to shake her and she began to laugh like a little kid. "YOU HAVE NO IDEA!" he said as he shook her. He stopped and just stared into Ally's eyes, he was mesmerised by how beautiful she was, the way her brown hair framed her small face and those innocent hazel eyes that had been hurt one too many times. "You have no idea." He whispered to her as he began to lean in, as Ally realised what he was doing he was centimetres away from her, he could fell her quick breath against his lips, he smiled and closed the gap between them. As their lips met he felt like their was nothing that mattered but him and Ally and he wished he could stay like this forever but it was soon over when Ally pulled away. "You still have no idea." He said. "No iea about what?" She said clearly confused. "You have no idea how beautiful you are." He said and then he kissed her again. This time more passionately, he let all the feelings that he had once been confused on go and just stayed in the present, he didn't worry about how the short future for Ally would fold out. He didn't worry about how much time he had left with her. He just worried about breathing. He pulled away from Ally to catch his breath and could see Ally was shivering. He knew it was cheesy but he took his jacket off and drooped it over her shoulders. He couldn't risk getting her sicker under the circumstances.

They sat their and talked about everything for hours, they talked about Trish's birthday and her outfit. It sounded so weird to talk about but Austin just listened as Ally rattled about Trish and Dez. She had always thought that Trish and Dez were going to get together and Austin had agreed. They talked about what would happen throughout the holidays and where Austin would take her was up to him, as he was the only one who knew how to drive! It came to around ten o'clock when they decided to head home. With homework to do and parents to face Ally knew that she was going to be in trouble no matter how hard she tried to wriggle out of it. Austin took her home instead of her walking in the dark, being the protective friend he had always been. Dropping her outside of her house she could see her dad at the window with an angry look on his face but his eyes showed pure relief that she was home safely.

She walked through the door and straight into the living room to her parents they were both annoyed with her but they were also so relieved to have her home safely. "Ally! You know you have to be back for eight o'clock sharp or your in big trouble because you have to take your medication! And your TWO HOURS after curfew! You're in big trouble young lady and who was that boy who dropped you back home?!" Her dad shouted at her "It was Austin! You know the guy who live next door, who I have know my whole life!" She shouted back at him "For God's sake Ally! I thought you had been kidnapped or something! You know you have to take your tablets at eight o'clock!" He shouted again Ally just groaned and stormed away, up to her room. But before she got to the top of the stair she turned around and shouted back at them "Well maybe I don't want to be taking tablets, maybe i don't want to be sick! Maybe it would just be better for all of us if i stopped taking the tablets and just DROPPED DEAD!" She shouted back at them. She knew she was out of order but for what she had been through today she needed to let some steam out. She walked into her room and slammed the door shut. She screamed to let the rest of the anger out. She couldn't take it anymore. The pity looks she got from her parents, the millions of tablets she had to take! She knew she had to do her homework but she couldn't care less! She could get the special pity treatment that schools gave you if you were dying. She could get a one off because she had never forgotten her homework before. She couldn't care less if she got expelled for it. She didn't give a shit anymore!

She climbed onto the roof and just sat there, she needed the air, away from her parents and this was as much space she was going to get under her parents rules. She knew she had to take her tablets to help her sleep and help her health so she got back down took them quickly, got changed into her sweatpants and hoodie and climbed back onto the roof, the stars around her were faded thanks to the streetlights but they were still there. They felt like they were part of her as she sat there and stared up into the sky. There was an infinite possibilities of how her life would turn out, and out of all those possibilities she was chosen to die early. Maybe God held a grudge against her and their was nothing she could do about that, but she thanked God for all the good things she had in her life. The good things like Austin, Dez, Trish, her parents and music. Without all this she would have never had a life any way. She was thankful that if she was going to die that she had known she great people who had given her the best thing she could ever ask for, a life.