Lifeline

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Chapter 4: Damian

Tim himself was replaced by Dick, not even by Bruce. But Bruce didn't do anything about it. Kept Damian as robin. Even though Tim was much better as robin. Damian is more like Jason himself. Angry and hot-headed. But Jason is the failure, the robin who didn't listen and who got himself killed. But Damian also doesn't listen so why? Why does Bruce let that Brat be robin while Bruce knows how it failed with Jason. Hell Damian has killed before, would still be able to do it. Only doesn't do it for Bruce. He crossed the line before so why does Bruce let him into the family? Jason knows deep down that it is because he is still a kid but..but why does such a exception not count for him? He knows he killed but only the ones that deserved it and ...he is trying to stop now. He hasn't killed in like month's. Yet Bruce doesn't treat him like he treats Damian. It makes Jason's blood boil and makes him hate Damian. Yes he is jealous of the brat. Bruce loves him. He is so rude, killed before, respects almost no one and doesn't listen to batman and yet..and yet...

Tears leave Jason eyes. Why is it that he does love Damian, cares about Damian, hugs Damian, smiles at Damian and not at him? Is it because Damian is his true son? His blood son? That must be it. Jason wasn't really Bruce son. Just a replacement. Bruce never really cared about him anyway so what else should he have expected?

When Damian died and he saw how everyone reacted he wondered if this was how it was for them when he died. But he thinks it is not the same. They wouldn't have missed him that much. After all Damian was not replaced. No Bruce did everything to get him back. Did he do that for Jason? No. He even...god...he even brought ...Jason thought him and Bruce .. were getting better and then Bruce took him out on a solo mission. Jason hoped...let himself hope that maybe this was a sign. A sign that ... things could get better between them. Were getting better between them. The mission was a sign All right. For how less he meant to him. He took him to the place he died so he could think about it and give Bruce clues how to bring back his son because he wanted to see him growing up. The pieces of his already shattered heart just shattered even more. How could Bruce do that to him? He still has nightmares every night, still hears that laugh and then he brings him to his place of death. Did Bruce even think about what that would do to him? Did he even care? Jason guesses not. His anger..went sky high. He was so so mad because he was so so sad. He thought... but he thought wrong. If Bruce brought him to the worst place he has ever been to relive the worst moment of his life so that he could see his son grow up. That was answer enough if Bruce choosing the joker over him wasn't clear enough.

When he came back from the death Bruce didn't welcome him back with a hug but with a baterang in his throat. An yes Jason did awful things that went against batman's rules. It is just still unfair. Bruce did everything to get Damian back, even putting his own life on the line but he didn't do that for Jason. Is he not worth that? And when he got Damian back he was happy. Relived. Glad. Not one of the emotion he showed when Jason was back. Everyone was happy when Damian came back even though he ran off on his own and got himself killed but he didn't get called broken or a failure. Only Jason. Yet the boy does follow his father's rule. Does see something in it. Even with Talia's upbringing. So maybe it really lies with Jason.

When Jason ran off alone, died, was brought back to life no one said they were happy, he got from no one a hug. No one tried to help him. They weren't glad. They wanted Damian back. They didn't want Jason back. Jason doesn't wanted to be back either. He didn't.

*cut*

More red colours his skin but Jason doesn't care.

Author's note

I really feel like it is unfair how they treat Jason if comparison with Damian. I mean what is up with that? I feel like Jason does feel respect for Damian that Damian tries to better his life but he feels bitter towards him because of Bruce. Bruce...how on earth could he bring Jason back to the place he died...I am still salty about that! Ugh. Next chapter will be shorter.