Hell. That was what happened to me. My body felt like it had been charred to a piece of unrecognizable charcoal. I was surprised I could even think. The pain in my body, though, was

overshadowed a million times by the pain in my mind. He was gone, Jacob was gone, and my family was gone for me. I would never be able to go back. I was becoming a monster. I had

finally realized what was happening when I did not find myself dead after Victoria had released my throat. The burning pain began to lessen from my fingertips. How I longed to find

Edward but I could not face rejection twice, and I was afraid that if I found him I would hurt him for leaving and causing me this pain. I had never felt so alone. The burning seemed to be

leaving my extremities and concentrating into my heart where it was becoming more painful by the second, my heart was beating so fast I was surprised I could even distinguish the

beat's, it should have been an endless continuous humming. Finally the fire went out. It felt strange to be pain free, when I was sure it had been days I had been burning. Only one fire

was not out, my throat was burning subtly, but it was far from unmanageable. I was a vampire, and I only felt bitterness. I was Cinderella ten minutes after midnight, my prince had gone

and I was standing all dressed up for the ball outside closed gates. I did not know where to go from here. I could never see Charlie or Renee again and Jacob would hate me, I was a

'leech' the pack would probably attack me. Victoria was gone, I would have been glad for even her company right now. I began to wander through the forest seeking a purpose. It was so

hard to stay still, I could feel raw untapped power in my limbs. I began to run. I laughed as I did so. It felt like I was flying I was going so fast, but yet, I could still see everything in

precise detail. A tiny raindrop on a leaf, a particle of dust floating to the earth. I had to be going over a hundred Kilometers per hour. I finally stopped when I smelled something, it smelled

faintly disgusting, but yet so appealing. I followed the scent to a herd of elk, and without thinking, took one down and snapped its neck, draining it of blood in seconds. I pushed the

empty carcass off myself in disgust. I had killed an innocent animal and drank its blood. I was disgusted with myself, but at the same time the fire in my throat had not lessened in the

least, and I wanted more. I found a few more elk and drained them too, making an awful mess of myself in the process. I was covered in drying blood. I contemplated jumping in the river,

but then decided to just get some more clothes. I returned to my home, jumping quietly through the window and changed my messy clothes, grabbing some extras and shoving them in a

bag. I grabbed my stash of money under my bed and my bank card and some other essential items and shoved them in my bag as well. When I felt I had everything I needed I took a last

long look at my room and stepped out of the window again. I crept quietly around to peek in the windows and saw Charlie. He was surrounded by a stack of posters with my picture on

them, Jake was beside him. They both looked awful, and Jake angry. He probably knew what was going on. I felt a pang of loss as I stared at two of the people that meant the most to

me. This was the last time I would be seeing them. I turned to leave when I felt someone staring. Jake was looking right at me. I ducked and started running. I distantly heard Jake tell

Charlie he needed some air, Charlie just mumbled a reply, I don't think he even heard. I heard thundering footsteps behind me and I put on a burst of speed. It did not help, Jake

overtook me in his wolf form and tackled me, phasing back to human form. He stared at me in shock. I began to sob, no tears coming through. I was shaking uncontrollably when he

stopped and put his arms around me. I jerked away, and in a quarter of a second I was on the other side of the clearing we were in. A snarl ripped through my throat. He stared at me in

shock and I immediately felt horrible. "Oh Jake, I didn't meant to! I'm so sorry" I began to cry again. He kept his distance from me but still came. His voice was laced with pain as he came

up and crushed me in a tight hug that would have normally shattered all of my bones. His nose wrinkled in disgust and I laughed. "How did you know where I would be."

"We found you with the bloodsucker, sorry Bell's, we killed her and went back for you but we were too late, you were gone. We knew you had been changed."

"What happens now?"

"I don't know. The pack is not happy, because of the treaty we cannot allow you to come on our lands, but Sam is willing to make an exception, if you're good." I knew what that meant, no killing humans. Human blood had no appeal to me however. I could deal with that.

"Jake, don't bother rearranging rules and such, I don't think I can stay here now. I can't stay anywhere. I don't want to. I have nowhere to go." I had started to cry again. "I have to leave Jake."

"Bells, please don't go, you can stay with me. Billy will be fine."

"I'm sorry Jake, I can't stay here a minute longer. I'll never forget you, maybe I'll come visit, but don't wait for me."

"Goodbye Bells." He could not find anything else to say to me. He was unwilling to break our gaze, and I had to be the one to do it. I turned quickly and ran into the forest.

Sorry about the long chapter, or is it really long? It's long compared to the others, but I have ideas coming faster than I can type. I'm on a role! Will have updates very soon. Next chapter is in progress. See Ya!