Ianto:
Ianto Jones, reporting for juty.
Member of Torchwood Three...
and Jacks part time shag.
I've never been one to fall in love. I either feel everything, or nothing, and most people can't bring out enough feeling in me for me to love them. Lisa did.
And Jack did.
It's hard not to love Jack, really. I mean, everyone does. The problem is, he makes it worse by flirting with everyone. Not just the attractive ones either. Seriously, everyone. Aliens, Men, Women..
It's bad for your self esteem to be involved with Jack.
If you can call it involved.
With most people, when you regulary having sex, flirting all the time, seeing eachother regulary... it's un-spoken that you are together. But with Jack, it means nothing.
Friends.
Part time shag.
Tea boy.
I suppose I'm one of those people who seem so ordinary, but have secrets they hide. One of them, for instance, is that when I was a teenager I used to have panick attacks pretty regulary. I have trouble trusting anyone. And I've only been in love twice in my whole life.
Once with Lisa, and now with Jack.
It's so easy just to forget when your around him. Just forget that your pretty sure your being used. That even though he'll do anyone, he'd rather be doing bloody Gwen then you. It's easy to forget how he can build you up, make you feel so special, and then just ignore you and crush you.
It's easy to forget how he's completely un-aware he does all these things.
It's so easy just to close your eyes and believe.