Lexa makes her way through the snow to the Ark. She has her long coat and fur hood up over her head. She nods at her passing warriors and SkaiKru alike. She turns the corner after entering the halls of the Ark and runs directly into Raven.
"Woah, where you off to?" Raven asked backing up a bit in the arms that held her from falling at the elbows.
Lexa shifted in her footing and let go of her, "I'm going to see Abby."
"Need backup?"
Lexa smiled, "No, thank you Raven. But I think I can do this one on my own."
Raven nods and pats her on the shoulder, "Find me when you're done I want to show you what I've been working on."
"Okay. We will be leaving for Polis tomorrow night, did you want to come with us?"
"How is that even a question? I think I love that place more than Kane," Raven said chuckling and sidestepping passed Lexa.
Lexa hummed happily and made her way to the medical wing. She took a deep breath to steady herself before she went through the doors to find Abby at her desk. She smiled warmly and stood up when Lexa entered immediately pulling her into a hug. "Are you alright?"
Lexa hugged her back but stiffened at the question.
There are so many answers for that.
The question asks so much.
She wonders if Abby knows that, she only hugs Lexa tighter and runs a hand lovingly over the back of her head. "You look just as nervous as the last time we met in here," Abby cooed softly. She pulled back and kept her hands on Lexa's sides, "We are going to be family soon. What's on your mind?"
And because Abby is fucking mothering Lexa and Lexa is starved for that kind of affection she lets her.
She slumps into a chair and tells her everything.
She breaks. She's overwhelmed, anxious, nervous…excited? There are so many emotions swarming Lexa she is having trouble differentiating. And that doesn't even begin to include what she's feeling when Clarke's emotions swarm along with her own.
"I am worried about all of this. You saw what happened in the tent and to the ground when I shared my blood. We have unleashed something into this world amidst the chaos and threats…" Lexa's voice was soft and she knew Abby had to strain her ears to hear her clearly.
"The ground is always chaos and threatening," Abby said cautiously, clearly worried about Lexa's vulnerability that was typically reserved for her daughter. Abby's heart was splintering just at the sight of the young leader.
"I do not wish it to be. I started the coalition to bring an end to the bloodshed, meant to put an end to the chaos. I started it so that the only bloodshed would be in the name of justice not brutality. I do not wish us to be savages." She spat the last word out like venom.
"And you have done admirably Lexa. Anyone who looks at you with clear eyes can see the effort you put in. They can see the good you have done. We see the blood you have spent to create it."
"It is crumbling between my fingertips," Lexa confesses fidgeting with her fingertips. Abby promptly grabs her hand to soothe the girl once more.
Abby ran a hand on Lexa's back, "The coalition still stands sweetheart." She made Lexa look at her, "It may be fractured, slightly bent, but it stands. You took a broken, warring world and brought them together. The fact that many still remain loyal to the cause means they share your belief for a better future. You took a broken heart and mended it, strengthened it and gave it new purpose. If you can bring Clarke back from the dark depths the mountain took her to, then together you two can unify the clans again." She shrugged, "Who is to say this new energy you unleashed wasn't necessary for it to happen? Who is to say the universe isn't pushing for this just as hard as you. So hard it broke the rules to give you two a chance."
Abby smiled warmly and let her words sink in to Lexa as she told her she'd be back with some tea.
Lexa thanked her and waited. When Abby spoke like this it reminded her of Clarke. The Griffin spirit was strong, resolute and hard to ignore.
Lexa thought back to her reading in the Polis library as a Natblida.
The history books tell tales of Griffin's being notorious tricksters and manipulators. They tell of wit, strength, courage and tenacity. A Griffin essentially represents both power and wisdom. In mythology, the Griffin was a mythical creature with the head of an eagle and the body of a lion. In her world, the Griffin is Clarke with the mind of a leader and the heart of a lover.
The similarities don't end there. In Greek mythology, the most notable Griffin was one who pulled Apollo the sun God's chariot. Apollo also represented wisdom as power. The sun's heat, the ability to harness that fire, resides within Clarke's heart.
Perhaps Abby was right.
The universe is working alongside them.
The hints are there, whispers of possibilities, but it will be up to the two young leaders to bring it to fruition.
As Abby walked back into the room with hot tea Lexa was filled with a whole new vigor. She was filled with the overwhelming feeling that this was happening for a reason. That everything was playing its part and the two Heda's just needed to capitalize.
She'd be damned if she was going to ignore it.
The universe was screaming at her now and she couldn't escape its volume. Clarke and her were meant to be tied together, born for greatness.
"Abby, thank you for…this" Lexa gestured awkwardly to the room. She hoped it would sum it all up for her. She was thanking Abby for everything. For her words and touches of comfort. For her care and love. For Clarke.
"Lexa, I care about you as if you came from me. You love Clarke with every bone and drop of blood in your body, literally," She smiled at her own little joke. "You look at her like she is your whole world and she returns it just as strong. All I ever wanted in this life for Clarke was happiness and love. I don't care where or who it comes from. It doesn't even matter what dangers lay before you two any more – I see that now. This thing between you too strong to be denied or coerced, you two have no choice in loving the other. In this life and the other's it's always been you two." She shrugged and sipped her tea, "Soulmates."
"What if our love destroys the world?" Lexa voiced her fear she raised her chin to look at Abby, "We have before."
Abby furrowed her brow, extremely confused, "What do you mean?"
Lexa swallowed, they had not really delved this deep into their past lives with Abby. "Remember how you asked me how I knew the blood would save Clarke?"
"You said you had seen it before…"
"And I had," Lexa said slowly. "Just not in this lifetime…"
You could hear a pin drop.
Silence.
Just steady breathing.
Abby's eyes widened with her mug frozen mid-sip in front of her lips. It was just hanging in the air along with Lexa's revelation.
So Lexa broke the silence, "We may not have been entirely forthcoming with how much we know about ourselves…"
"Well, now may be the time to do so," Abby said sternly.
Lexa nodded and leaned forward. She filled her in on Alex and Claire to her stunned silence. She waited for Abby to scoff or roll her eyes.
But it never came.
Abby had seen what happened in the cave. She knows something bigger than themselves is happening, she may not understand it but she accepts it. She may even look prideful, like a mother bear watching her cub catch it's first fish.
This was the moment Lexa saw Abby change.
In this moment Abby accepted who her daughter was. It was like an invisible veil had been lifted from her eyes, Lexa could actually see the woman processing the information she had received.
This moment Abby not only knew, but also believed that Clarke was special.
Not special in the way a mother should always see her child, but special in a way she could not quite explain. Special in a way that defies logic and understanding, pushes beyond your limits and reaches out to the universe that brought her here. The one that created her, the one that helped define her fate, the predestined events in motion that created this unique soul meant to be tied with another.
She then looked at Lexa clearly, as if seeing her for the first time.
Lexa Kom TriKru. Just as unique, just as strong, just as loving, just as special.
A single tear dropped from her eye.
After some heavy silence, Abby Griffin pulled a Clarke and started to ask questions. Lots of question.
Most notably: "So, did Alex and Claire have this…these gifts the two of you are displaying? The lights, the fire?"
Lexa shook her head, "No. Although, it is said that Heda Kom Faete (Claire) did transcend through flames and fire to enter the universes beyond in search of Alex. And the only proof we have of that is Clarke's dream memory. Alex came to Earth sometime later…" The emotion was heavy in her voice because, in a way, it happened to her.
Abby swallowed, "You have to help her control it."
"Me? What?"
Abby held up a hand, "These gifts are connected to your emotions, you know that. Lexa, you know how deeply she feels. Her emotions can be unbridled, if she loses control now it could be devastating. If the proof from the flames raging in your tent during your…evening activities is anything to go by anyways."
Lexa blushed to all of this because she is highly aware of these things. She didn't even have to address the fact that she would help Clarke. That was a given.
Abby continued, "I also think that's why I was able to pass through your field to treat Clarke. We are connected, blood of my blood to your blood now. But it's more than that, you love me, don't you?"
Lexa was stunned; Abby read it all so well. She was processing everything and helping Lexa cope just by talking it through. Mothering.
Her heart melted a little, she visibly relaxed, "Yes, like a mother I never had the pleasure of experiencing due to my blood."
"I love you too Lexa," Abby gushed and hugged her tight. She kissed her temple and sat back in her chair.
Lexa paused, "Why do you think Raven and Octavia couldn't get through the field, it even burned Raven? I love the both of them." Sisters she never had.
Abby smiled and laughed a bit, "Well, I think that probably has something to do with it being that you don't exactly trust them. How could you they're always playing their little games with you, it's just the way that they show their own love."
Lexa laughed, "They push the limits of my trust, that's for sure. Also, I'm sure the copious amounts of nuts that lay beside the furs when I woke up prove her intentions were more for the energy and not us."
Abby laughed and brushed her hair back over her shoulder, "It was hard not to be intrigued by it. Plus, there was little to no other entertainment while you two slept, the nuts bouncing off the field was a good show even I'll admit to that."
Lexa smiled at her and they sat in a comfortable silence, well comfortable for Abby. Lexa still needed to ask for Abby's help and she was afraid to ruin their nice moment.
"My land girl, your thinking too loud." Abby was smirking, "What's on your mind now?"
Lexa stood up, "I need to ask you for something-for Clarke."
"Anything."
She swallowed, "I understand your people have their own customs when a couple weds. We are not going that route after discussing it but I do want to carry something from your people, your world in space, into the ceremony. And I just think, I really think, Clarke would love to have something of Jake's I could give her. Maybe I could fashion it into an item or-"
"Lexa. Honey, take a breath."
She was rambling pretty fast there and now she was indeed in need of air.
Abby fell silent but smiled wide; she played with the chain around her neck and stood up to join Lexa. She removed the chain and dropped it into her own hand. LExa fell silent while Abby looked fondly at the item before wrapping Lexa in a warm hug that spread warmth all throughout her. "I don't have much of his things left," Abby said stepping back and holding out her hand, "But I was saving this for Clarke."
In her hand attached to the chain was Abby's wedding ring.
"Abby, I can't-I didn't mean-"
Abby's hand landed on her chest lightly as it dropped the ring into Lexa's palm, "I know you didn't. This is better than anything else I have of his. Jake was a firm believer of soulmates, always with his head in a book, writing poetry, singing… he passed that belief in true everlasting love on to Clarke." She wiped a tear in her eye and smiled, "Love was a weapon he always said... And today you two are proof of that."
"I don't know what to say." A rare occasion for Lexa.
"You don't have to say anything, I'm more than happy to do this for you two. I'm glad you found each other in this life."
And they'll find each other in the next.
And every one after that.