Chapter 4

MARY POV

I came closer to him. This time, I can't stop my self from crying. How I hope he's not angry with me because I leave. I want to be his friend even though were away for a long time. I want to see him smile and laugh again.
"S-Severus?" I said softly as I studied him. I gasped as I saw a cut in one of his legs. I wiped away my tears, knowing that he will not like to see me cry.
"W-What happened? Are you alright Sev?" I looked into his eyes which was very different when we were young. His eyes no longer have that warmth and happiness but replaced by coldness and emptiness. He changed a lot! I'm glad I'm a ghost so he will not see me blush.
"Its nothing. I'm alright. What are you doing here?" He looked away to me and looked at the floor. He stopped cleaning his wound and I shivered a bit when I heard his cold voice.
"Its nothing? You're bleeding Sev! Aren't you happy to see me?" I bite my lips afraid what his answer could be. I watched him finished cleaning his wound by covering it with a gauze and by the time he finished that, he looked into my eyes again.
"Never mind this. Its just a simple cut. Nothing to worry about. Of course I'm happy to see you. Where have you been?" He leaned in his chair and gazed at the fire in front of him.
"I don't know. I wasjust pulled away by an unknown force, then when I opened my eyes, I was now in some kind of hill where flowers and grasses surrounds me." I paused to see his reaction.
"Is that heaven?"
"No. Oh, and a beautiful woman approached me. She said you know her. She's like an angel." I saw him tensed and changed his reaction.
"Her name is Lily." His eyes grew wide and there's something in his eyes. Afraid? Hurt? Confused? Why? Why is he reacting like this?
"A-Are you serious? Don't play games with me. Its not funny." Playing games? What is he talking about?
"I'm serious Sev. What are you talking about? What is your relationship to her?" Silence. Why am I so afraid to know their relation?
"She even said that she will always be by your side and I must take care of you."
"Did she really said that? S-She's my friend." He replied softly.
"Yes. Are you sure you're just friends?" He seemed so nervous. Why?
"Yes. I need to rest now. I still have class tomorrow." He stood up and walked towards his room.
"Wait, C-Can I stay here?" He stopped in front of the door and without turning back at me, he replied:
"If that's what you want." He went inside his room adn leave me alone in his living room. What happened? Did I said something wrong? I stared in front of the fire as I felt my eyes become moist again.
As hours passed, I became bored and wondered what am I going do. I floated and debate to my self if I'm going to check him. Because of my curiosity, I slowly float towards his room and passed through his door easily. I looked around into the dark. Eventhough it was dark, I can still see him, so I came closer to him. When I was near him, I gazed into his sleeping form and wondered why he looked so different now. He loos sad and he looks like he was carrying all the problem in the world. I came nearer to his face, when were only inches apart, I tried to touch his face by my hands but it only pass through him. I sighed and backed away from him and made my way outside his room and his quarters.
I don't know where to go. So I just follow my instincts. I want to go outside but being new to this place, I don't know where to go. Suddenly, I heard footsteps coming towards me. Surely, there's nothing who can harm ghost so I tried to hide my fear. I stopped and waited for the sound to come really close to me. When I turned back, I saw a light walking towards me. When I looked to his face, I gasped as I realized who he was.
"S-Sev?" I looked to his eyes that are so blank and dark. He stopped in front of me.
"What are you doing here?" 'Hey, I'm the one who will said that'
"I'm bored. How about you? Aren't you sleeping?" 'I touched him! Did he wake up in my touch?'
"I need to patrol here in school." He walked pass through me. I felt hurt but tried to catched up with him.
"Can I follow you? Maybe in that way, you can show me the whole castle." I floated beside him.
"You're already following me didn't you?" 'Yeah right.'
"Are you really sleeping?" 'Did he felt my touch?'
"No." Silence. I felt uncomfortable but I really like to be with him.
"After your patrol, can you show me the way outside?"
"If that's what you want." After hours of walking around the castle. Surely it will take more than hour to wander around the castle right? Even if he didn't talk to me while we were walking, I still want to follow him. Maybe tomorrow, I can wander again and enter the classtooms. Wait, is that alright? Or am I forbidden here? Maybe I can ask him, since he's a professor here.
"Sev, Can I wander again tomorrow or even enter some rooms here?"
"Maybe." 'What kind of answer is that?'
"You know, there are a lot of ghost here in the castle." 'I'm not the only one?'
"Really? Where are they?"
"I don't know. Do you think I know the where about of the whole inhabitants of this castle?"
"I'm just asking you know." Silence again.'Arrggg. Why is he so rude? Is that the right word?' We came to a stop infront of the big door. Maybe this is the way ouside.
"Go straight to this door and you will find your way outside." I felt disappointed because he's not coming with me. But its okay. Maybe he's tired and he wants to be alone.
"Thank you." He turned his back to me and made his way to his dungeons. I just hope I can find my way back to his quarters.
I floated outside. The whole place was dark. The only light was the faint light coming from the castle and the moon. There was a lake in front of me and trees surrounding it. I floated above the lake and made my way under tree. I sat down and gaze at the reflection of the moon in the lake. I throw some pebbles in the lake and started to hymn 'What Hurts the Most by Rascal Flatts'. I don't feel like singing so I just hymn it and tried to enjoy my solitute. Even if there's something I felt inside my heart.

A/N: I do not own the world of Harry Potter and I dedicate this to KendraCastielSinger for making my cover :P