'Some days are good. Some are fine. Other days, I sit and wonder what the point is. Does any of it really even matter? Sometimes self-destruction is necessary. Maybe a little wouldn't hurt too much. Just something different to do. It'd be nice to feel something. This really came out of no where. But I guess it does that.
Classes are going well. A's and one B. Final exam in English and Math in about three weeks. Two tests left in Psychology. Really just the final presentation in FYE. So that class is rather boring and it lasts for what feels like forever. Sure sometimes the conversations are interesting, but largely it's very boring and nothing to do really. It's mainly a GPA booster class. Just do the easy assignments and show up to class. And, theoretically speaking, you should pass. The hardest part of the entire class will be the final presentation. Getting up in front of everyone and showing the powerpoint I made and then talking about each slide. It lasts eight to ten minutes. I'm betting it will be some of the longest ten minutes I've spent in that class. Though with how boring it is..., all the ten minute intervals are long.
I don't know about things with Kyle. Sometimes they seem to be going well and other times I wonder. I love him, don't get me wrong. But sometimes he makes me wonder if we should really continue trying. We're opposites in almost every way. And while opposites attract, is the opposition too much? Sometimes I think it is. And despite my love for him, I wonder why we still try. We seem to fight far more often than is healthy for a relationship. He's everything I've ever wanted except for one thing. And I wonder if that one thing will eventually drive us apart for good. I'm betting it will because it causes so many problems as it is. I mean, as I said, I love him, but that one thing..., it makes me doubt that we will actually work. It causes so very many issues between us. So I don't know what he intends to do. Stay or go. I'll leave the choice up to him. I'm tired.
Maybe a nap before my next class. Well I've two hours. So an hour and a half nap if I napped now. Or I could play something. Maybe I'll play something. Probably for a little while. Maybe have some lunch before class too.
This week I want to buy some alcohol and have a night of drinking and gaming. Like I used to. The hard choice is which night. Considering I have to be up early nearly every day. Maybe tuesday night. Since I don't have to be up early wednesday for once. Don't know what games I'll play but I'm sure I'll find some. Drink some mike's and play maybe Dragon Age. Maybe some Stick of Truth. Maybe some guitar hero.
Either way, it'll be a good time.