Chapter 4
Demise of Sound
I had to put my big girl panties on and face what was in front of me. After crying and talking to my dad I slept. I slept for days and I dreamed. Some were happy but most were dark; darker than anything I felt before. Every time I'd awaken there would be a mark on my flesh. Deep flesh wounds that dripped with blood at times; only my parents knew of this I didn't want anyone else to be aware of what was going on.
I knew the guys would never think this but if an ounce of weakness was shown in the pack or in front of the tribe my status as future Chief might become threaten. It would be a fight. As it stands there has already been talk about my ability as a leader since Sam's desertion of our relationship. If couldn't keep my man, especially from my cousin, how can I keep the tribe flourishing in the decades to come.
My heart hurt at the obvious doubt of my people but this sickness, this betrayal of my body was something I could not understand. How is it that my mind wasn't my own anymore? The answers weren't here in La Push. We'd researched but there seemed to be only one place that may hold the answers that I seek. It was risky, stupid, and suicidal but what other choice did I have.
It doesn't matter how I got here or why. The only thing that matters is that I am here now; in this place, standing at this door: waiting. I knew Edward would not take this well but it had to be done. I had to accept the fact that this was happening to me. That my body was changing, that the life that I dreamed for myself was not going to happen, and that the life that was planned for me wasn't going to either.
Balling my hand into a fist I lifted it to knock on the door and I waited.
I felt as if that was all I had done lately was waiting. I hoped beyond hope that she would have the answers. Alice was a lot of things: annoying, pushy, girly. She is everything I disliked about girls in general but since she could now see me in her vision; she would be able to tell if this trip would be worth it or my demise.
The door swung open and I was manhandled inside, "Alice what the hell? That actually hurts you know."
She growled, "Yes, Leah I know it hurts. I know that you have hurt for a while now. Why did you think it was okay to keep this a secret from us? You didn't even tell Carlisle, let alone Edward" she was seriously mad. Her eyes were dark with anger. I was seriously no longer a block to her eyes.
"Because Alice I know what Edward would say: 'No, Leah we need to find another way and we can figure this out together'" Alice was not pleased with my mocking tone of her brother. But, she knew that what I said was true. Edward would not take kindly to me going to the Swiss Alps by myself, let alone Italy, which would only be as a last resort anyway.
"Look I just need to know if my plan has a chance of working" I said to Alice as I finally sat down on the couch. It seems as if she was hesitating to tell me what I needed to know. I didn't want to go into this blind and she knew it.
With bated breath, she finally spoke "Look Leah I can see you but not all the time. I don't see you at all on this trip. I don't know what that means but I do see you in flashes with a vampire in a well-lit room. There is blood everywhere and you are silent."
"Ok" I begin to say but Alice cut me off, "No, Leah you do not understand. It looks as if you are screaming but nothing is coming out of your mouth you are completely silent. I can feel your pain, Leah, your need to voice it but it's just silent."
I stared at Alice noticing for the first time how small she looks, confused, I see dark mark have formed on her skin.
"Alice, what's happening to you?
"We don't know," said the voice on my right. It was Jasper. Damn, I must be slipping I didn't even sense him in the house. Concentrating, I made sure that no one else was here or at least within listening range.
Jasper picks up Alice and places her at the other end of the couch I was still sitting on. Producing a blanket he spread it on top of her, "She has felt your pain this past week, Leah. Every time you bleed a mark would appear on her skin."
"Jasper," I begin to speak lifting my eyes to gaze at Alice. "I do not understand how you would know that her wounds have anything to do with me. Alice said she can barely see me in her visions."
I paused to continue but before I could, "BECAUSE I CAN SEE YOUR DREAMS, LEAH! Every lustful, demonic, angry, scary dream: I see them. The day you ran out of this house and were attacked by Sam, I saw it. Who do you think sent Edward to your aid?" he yelled as Alice's hand lightly touched on his arm.
I look at Jasper dumbfounded, "I don't understand, how is that even possible? I thought you could only feel emotions and I thought Alice could only see into the future."
He sighed and placed his hand over Alice's, "I don't know. It only happens with you Leah. Maybe it has to do with you being the Alpha Female. We had looked into the fact that you can affect the elements…maybe you can control other things as well."
I rolled my eyes there is no way I am doing all of this, "I seriously doubt that I am affecting everyone around me, Jasper. However anything is possible when you are the AF after all."
Okay, so they weren't really feeling my joke but I did agree to ask about this once I made it to the Alps. I headed to my car as the sun started to set. Perhaps all this was my doing, the wolf's doing; everything is changing around me maybe I wanted other things to change as well.
I was an hour away from the airport so that would give me more than enough time for my brain to go in circles about this.
A/N: Dun, Dun, Dun! What is really going on with Leah?