Chapter 4: rounds of chemo.

Bella's POV

After Charlie got over the shock and…..*coughfurycough* he was happy that I had a couple of girlfriends to keep me company.

As we walked to the hospital, I trembled.

Today was going to be my first round of chemo.

I was going to lose all my hair and I was going to become weaker and bruise more easily…not like I didn't bruise before.

I entered the hospital with Rosalie and Alice on either side of me.

I started to hyperventilate. I was only 18!

How could I get leukemia!?

I didn't do anything wrong!

Did God do this to me for a reason?

I shook my head at myself.

There was no reason to angry at God.

He brought me Edward.

But because of me, he left.

I inteernaly groaned. Why couldn't I be enough?

I paused at the door to the chemo room and sighed.

"It's okay Bella." Alice murmured.

I took a shaky breath, "I know. Just taking the last few moments of whatever I have of my old life."

We stood there taking it in.

I took a deep breath and walked in with Alice and Rose by my side.

I was greeted by Dr. Sanders, "hi Bella. So today's your first day of chemo."

"I noticed." I said unenthusiastic.

"Well…Nurse Jen will take care of the rest." He said letting a nurse with chocolate hair and almost green eyes come u to me.

"Hey Bella." She said her voice a soothing murmur.

Can you sit down for a moment?" she said gesturing to a gray plush uncomfortable chair.

I nodded and sat down, "we're just going to check your blood pressure." She said in the same soothing tone,

I just sighed, 'better get used to this.' I told myself.

When she finished, another nurse came in with a needle. "Okay sweetlie, here goes." She injected the needle into my veins.

Then it was over.

I had survived my first round of chemo.

Rosalie and Alice grabbed my arm and tried to rush me out f the room.

But before we could take a step out , the nurse yelled out, "Wait!:

Alice and Rosalie paused, "we have to check how her body takes it." She said.

"And if my body rejects it?" I quipped.

The nurse shrugged, "you die."

I froze.

Who the heck first INVENTED chemo therapy?

I didn't' notice that they moved my frozen body onto the hospital bed until I saw them try to put an IV in my arm.

I shook the nurse's hand away from mine. "We have to see if it got through or not." She said frustrated now.

Then Alice did something I never thought she would do.

She slapped me.

I linked in shock. The nurse took that time to stick the needle into my arm.

"Sorry Bella. It was necessary." she said her chiming voice filled with sorrow.

I just nodded and laid my head on the flat hospital pillow.

This sucked.

Eventually,I fell asleep.

I have to admit that the bed wasn't as comfortable as the one at hom'my dreams were the same.

The best memory I had with Edward….and ym worst.

I woke up screaming, "Bella, go back to sleep." Rose murmured soothingly.

I nodded and fell back into a dreamless sleep.

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