Thanks to: for reviewing! I felt really bad about the last chapter's suckyness so I thought I'd try to make it up with the next chapter. This is going to become a cycle soon, isn't it? I hope to do good on this chapter, and I really love this song...so, fingers crossed!

Disclaimer: Song owned by Carrie Underwood, Characters owned by James Patterson. Mentioned songs owned by their respective owners.

'Oh come on dude....do I have to knock you out or something?" I smiled at the DJ, my I'm-frustrated-with-you-but-it's-in-my-best-intrest-not-to-show-it smile. "May I please change my song? " I asked, for the hundredth time. "who're you? You max?" The man asked, slipping his headphones to his neck. "Yes. I'm up next, but I've changed my mind. I'd like to change the song." I said, beginning to grind my teeth. "Sure sure. What song you want." He handed me the beaten-up iPod that served as their play list. I scrolled quickly. "This one." I said, highlighting it and handing it back. "Ok, just get up on the stage and get ready. I loved your first song. That guy your boyfriend?" I started at the guy. What did he ask? "No, Nick is my brother." I said, finally. "Oh. Well, are you single?" the DJ winked at me. I shivered, snatched my headset off the table and stomped up the steps. That creep had to be at least six years older than me and we was...well, a creep!

I was having second thoughts (or is it thirds?) My first solo song was 'Angel Of Darkness', but I'd changed it. But was this song any better? Ugh, I don't know!!! The music was starting, so I took center stage. Ah, god...it was a lot scarier up here when people were staring at you and you were all alone up here! I glanced at our table. The flock was eating, and I was surprised food wasn't flying everywhere. I took a deep breath and held it, let it out. Calm down max....none of these people are erasers. They'd have attacked by now.

Last night
I was pouring out my heart
Like a waterfall to you
And with one kiss
I was a runaway train
Flying off the track to you

'I love you' came flooding out
I couldn't make it stop
Couldn't shut my mouth.
I felt like a fool then lied
And said I was sorry, but

Fang stopped eating and sat up, back completely straight. Nudge was leaning back in her seat, and watched me out of the corner of her eye. I wonder if she knew was I was getting at. Angel was smiling at me. She'd probably been in my brain. I'd have to talk to her about that. Popping in and out of peoples brains, that is. Argh, max! Stop getting distracted!

I unapologize
I meant every word
Won't take back the way I feel about you
Can't unsay what you heard
Cause you heard me right
And I won't try to fighting back
And hide my feelings for you
I unapologize

I was watching Fang's expression like the hawk I partly was. C'mon Fang....Understand! Put it together! ....Don't you remember? Please.....I felt tears biting at the back of my eyes. Come on! I wanted to smack him, or me, or both! Nudge had gotten it, so had Angel. Their faces glowed with comprehension. They weren't even there when it happened and they understood...Come on Fang!

You know people say a lot of things
That they don't really mean
And last night I told a little white lie
Hoping you'd forget the scene
Where it felt like a movie under that porch light
Couldn't help myself when you held me tight
Said what I meant
Then I lied and said I'm sorry

But I meant it. I told you I loved you and I meant it! I meant it then, and I still do! My voice was starting to shake. I took another breath, and channeled my inner Carrie. Maybe I don't sound like I mean what I'm singing. That must me it. I had to be me convincing, more genuine. That's all. Deep breath...Hold.....Release...and sing.

I unapologize
I meant every word
Won't take back the way I feel about you
Can't unsay what you heard
Cause you heard me right
And I won't try to fighting back
Or hide my feelings for you

I unapologize

I managed to steady my voice, and take my gaze off Fang. No pressure or anything, just the wellbeing of my heart and emotional sanity. Wait, sanity? Which one of us has any of that? Oh well. But I do have a heart, and I'd like it in one piece so...please, Fang, take some focus factor or something!

There's no time to be
Holding it all in and trying to pretend
That I don't feel anything
Oh, I shouldn't have said I'm sorry
I meant every word
Won't take back the way I feel about you
I can't unsay what you heard
Cause you heard me right
And I won't try to fight back
Or hide my feelings for you
I unapologize

The music was slowing. The song was over and he hadn't figured it out yet! I stared out into the crowd. They were all applauding. I felt like crying, screaming. I was breathless. I stumbled past that creep DJ's table and left him the headset. Then I went outside the restaurant, ran around back, and took off. I didn't go far, a mile tops. I was sitting on a high, thick branch, my wings wrapped around me, encasing me in a feathery cocoon. I was sobbing. Those tears from before fell endlessly, without mercy. My arms were wrapped around me, possibly the only thing holding me together. I felt like my heart was a bomb, beating faster and faster. Soon, it would be beating so fast I'd think it'd stopped. Then it's exploded, blowing me up from the inside out.