Chapter 4

Nu-Ah breathed deeply and evenly, concentrating on the sound of the air passing in and out of her lungs. Eventually the spinning in her head slowed and settled, but she was not confident enough to open her eyes just yet. The bed that she lay on felt very comfortable, and she felt very tired. She was on the verge of sleep when she heard Tangyue's voice.

"She must have passed out" Tangyue said to himself, startling her awake.

He gave another mournful sigh. "That did NOT go as well as I had hoped" she overheard him say. "Maybe it's better this way, she won't remember any of this."

She felt his fingers gently brush a strand of hair off of her face. "I should just leave the Heavenly Realm" his voice sounded frustrated.

Nu-Ah opened her eyes in alarm. "Don't leave!" she forbade him.

Tangyue jerked his hand back, startled. "I thought you were asleep!"

"Don't leave Tangyue! I couldn't bear that!" Nu-Ah declared, then blinked back the dizziness that resurfaced.

"It would be better for both of us" he argued. "I don't think that I can bear to be around you, knowing that there is no hope for us."

"I thought you said you were going to wait for me?" she asked.

"Who am I kidding?" Tangyue replied, running his hands through his hair irritatedly. "When you do find the right man for you, it will drive me insane. It's better if I'm not here to see that."

He stood up and turned towards the door.

Nu-Ah grabbed his sleeve to keep him from walking away.

"Change my mind!" she demanded desperately.

He looked down at her with consternation. "You don't mean that!" he replied.

"If our only options are for you to leave or to change my mind, then change my mind, because I don't want you to leave" she said earnestly.

Tangyue gaped at her. His facial expression changed multiple times as he thought it over. It looked like he was at war with his conscience. Nu-Ah bit her bottom lip as she watched him nervously, fearful that he would decide to leave.

Tangyue sucked in a breath. "Nua!" he gasped out, falling to his knees beside the bed. He grabbed the sides of her face between his hands, pulling her lower lip out of her teeth with his thumb, and then lowered his face down to hers, placing a gentle kiss on that lip.

"I can't walk away from you" he told her, his voice sounding strained.

He studied her face intently, and then slowly reached for the belt at her waist, unfastening it and removing it. He continued to watch her, looking for any hint of resistance, as he undid her dress and peeled it away from her body. As her breasts became exposed, his eyes took on a burning intensity.

"You are so beautiful, Nua" he murmured in awe.

He slid his arm underneath her back, gently lifting her up so that he could slide her dress off of her shoulders, and down her arms. Once she was free of it, he lowered her back down to the bed.

Hurriedly he stood up and stripped off his own robes, tossing them aside to reveal his naked torso. Then he leaned down over Nu-Ah, placing a trail of delicate kisses on her face, from her forehead down her nose to her lips, from her lips down her cheek to her neck, from her neck down to her breasts.

Nu-Ah stared up at the ceiling, wide-eyed. Her experiences with love in the Mortal Realm seemed so far away, like a dream. She had never done anything like this in her real body, and it felt so much more real, and so much more awkward.

A sudden hot pressure on her nipple caused her to look down. Tangyue was sucking on her breast. She closed her eyes. Part of her wanted to run away from this embarrassment, but if she did that then Tangyue would definitely leave.

She thought about how it would feel if Tangyue was gone from her life, and her heart contracted painfully. He had always been there for her, ever since she could remember. When she was sad, he would make her laugh. When she got hurt, he healed her. Any time she needed him, he was there. Now he needed her.

She held out the hope that maybe, if she let him do what he wanted, this would lose its allure. Maybe he wouldn't want her so much anymore, and then he could move on. They could just be family, and never speak of this again.

She felt Tangyue's mouth move to her other breast, his tongue circling the nipple, before starting to suck on it. She turned her head towards the wall, and felt the spinning again. She groaned, turning her head back to a forward position. She opened her eyes to check if the room was moving. Tangyue was staring at her face with fire in his eyes. She looked up to the ceiling again, wide-eyed and nervous once more.

She felt Tangyue's hands at her waist, pulling her underskirts down and off. Now she was completely naked before him. She had never felt so vulnerable. She chewed on her bottom lip, and closed her eyes tightly, trying to block out her nerves. The room felt like it was moving again.

She opened her eyes. The room was moving, or rather she was moving. Tangyue had spun her sideways, so that her head was at one side of the bed and her legs hung off of the other side. She looked down to see what he was doing, and her heart almost stopped. He was kneeling on the floor by the bed, lifting her legs onto his shoulders, his head between them.

"Tangyue!" she protested, unable to stop herself.

"Shhhh, Nua" Tangyue replied. "This will make you want me" he assured her.

He wrapped his arms underneath her legs, his hands on top of her thighs, and parted her legs wider, lowering his face down to her most private area. He placed a delicate kiss on top of her labia. Nu-Ah gasped, shocked.

He smiled at her reaction, leaning down again to kiss her nether mouth. He plunged his tongue between the lips of her labia, circling her clitoris, and then sucked on it.

"Oh!" Nu-Ah exclaimed.

Tangyue didn't stop, exploring every part of her with his tongue and lips. He shoved his tongue as far inside her crevice as it would go, then pulled it out to concentrate on the bud of flesh above it. He flicked his tongue over it lightly and quickly.

"Oh! Oh!" Nu-Ah couldn't help but exclaim. The sensations were overwhelming.

Tangyue suckled her clitoris, grazing it with his teeth, and then rapidly stroking it with his tongue again.

"Tangyue!" Nu-Ah exclaimed. Her embarrassment was forgotten as wave after wave of pleasure rolled over her while he continued to lick her clitoris. Just when she thought it would crest, another wave would come behind it, and another, and another.

"Tangyue! Oh, Tangyue! Oh, Tangyue! Tangyue!" she cried out between panting breaths.

She clutched at the blanket underneath her body for support, twisting it in her hands. After an interminable time, her threshold for pleasure was finally reached, and her lower body rocked with the spasms of her climax, causing her to groan loudly.

After her throes of passion had quieted, she lay still on the bed and watched Tangyue with a feeling of wonder. She had never imagined that such pleasure existed.

Tangyue laid himself down next to her, having already wiped his face with the edge of the blanket and turned both of their bodies around to lay on the bed more comfortably.

"Tang...Yue..." Nu-Ah breathed his name.

Tangyue nuzzled her neck, and whispered into her ear.

"I felt your maidenhead with my tongue" he told her. "I could taste your virginity."

He raised himself up onto his elbow to look her in the face, his eyes burning intensely.

"I WANT it" he demanded, his eyes boring into her soul. "I have to be your FIRST, Nua. I have to be your ONLY!"

Nu-Ah nodded, her breath still uneven.

"It has to be you, Tangyue" she agreed. At this moment, she felt like she would give him anything he asked.

Tangyue pushed his pants down and kicked them off, exposing his hardened phallus. He rolled over top of Nu-Ah, parting her legs and wrapping them around his waist. He squared himself, hesitating for a moment, and then slowly pushed his phallus inside of her.

Nu-Ah winced, feeling a sharp pain as her maiden head broke. Tangyue's face registered either intense pain or bliss. His eyes rolled back into his head and then closed, and his skin turned a deep red, the tendons on his neck standing out from strain. He breathed out a long held breath, and dropped his forehead onto her shoulder.

"Nua" he breathed, "you feel so good". He moaned long and low while pushing himself in and out of her.

"Tangyue, it hurts" Nu-Ah told him, pouting.

"I'm sorry, Nua" he told her in a strained voice. "It always hurts girls their first time."

He paused his movements and slid his hand in between their joined bodies, placing his palm over her lower belly. Nu-Ah felt the warmth of his magic seep through her skin, penetrating muscle, bringing relief from the pain.

"Ahhhhh" she sighed. "Thank you" she whispered.

Tangyue kissed her shoulder, and began undulating his lower body into hers again. Nu-Ah contemplated the unfamiliar feeling of having a man inside of her. She hadn't experienced this in the Mortal Realm, having been in a man's body, so this feeling was completely new to her. She placed her hands over his broad shoulders which covered her. She felt so small underneath him.

Tangyue started to breath heavily. He pushed himself up, holding his weight with his hands placed on the bed on both sides of her, still joined to her body. He thrust himself into her firmly, causing her to cry out. He groaned, his eyes closing, and thrust himself hard into her again.

"Tangyue!" Nu-Ah cried out again in a pleading voice.

He lost control of himself then, slamming into her hard and fast, again and again, his breath coming in gasps, punctuated by moans. Nu-Ah felt the warm tingling pleasure building, spreading outwards from her core, reaching towards her toes.

The sight of Tangyue's naked body, and face consumed with passion, enhanced her excitement. She would never be able to look at him the same way, after seeing him like this. Her lower body twitched compulsively around him as the pleasure reached the extreme limits of her body. She moaned orgasmically, her head lolling back and her eyes closing.

"Nua!" Tangyue groaned, thrusting hard one last time, and holding still, his twitching phallus buried deep inside her body. After a long moment he released the breath he had been holding, and collapsed down onto the bed next to her. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her tightly against him, resting his chin on top of her head. Nu-Ah soon fell asleep, cradled in his warm embrace.

The realization of what she had done would come later, along with sobriety, in the morning.