Chapter Four – Beauty and the Beast
She's beautiful.
Like her mother.
Soft, full lips. Cute button nose.
Expressive eyes that seem so innocent.
Flawless skin with a hint of freckles.
She looks like me too.
Perfect...on the outside.
But what's inside.
Her essence.
Who she is.
That's what matters.
That's where she most resembles her parents.
Monsters, killers.
I always wondered...
What it would be like to father a child.
Now I know.
These feelings are welling up.
Aching to be released.
I want to hold her.
Soothe her.
But I'm not an idiot.
I know what she is.
I know how this will all end.
The End
bjxmas
February 2012
All standard disclaimers apply.
I think somewhere in Dean's head he thinks his looks mask who he is. That the perfect bod and handsome face hide the ugly truth of who he really is and what he's capable of. As if the depths of his soul are unworthy and blackened somehow from the harsh job he is forced to do.
He could not be more wrong. He is beautiful inside and out.
When Emma told him he was a good man Jensen's delivery of the line, "If you knew me, you'd seriously doubt it's true" broke my heart because I really don't want Dean thinking of himself like that. I want him to see what every innocent he's saved thinks of him, what Jamie from Monster Movie thought of him. I want him to rediscover the awesomeness of helping people. To see once more how special he is to be the guy who slays monsters and saves people.
I do know that Dean sees beneath the surface when he judges others. He is intuitive and knows people, sees into their hearts and feels compassion for them. He is a good guy, and only a crazed Amazon man-hater would fail to see that.
Thanks for reading. Later, B.J.