Why Love Me?

(Regulus's POV)

I don't understand a lot of things. Like I don't understand why Sirius doesn't want to listen to my parents. But I don't understand why they have to hurt him. Why does parents think they have to control their kids. Why cant they just be proud of him, I mean Sirius is amazing. He has great looks, he has great grades, I mean so he hangs out with mudbloods, blood traitors, and half-bloods, but he has a great heart, I don't tell anyone this because I am scared my parents would hurt me instead. I am a coward I REALLY wish I could be more like Sirius. My parents and him are already fighting. I cant watch so I run upstairs. I reflect on the good times…when we were younger.

I was six and Sirius was seven, I was just learning how to fly and Sirius was helping me. Once I got into the air I was squealing.

"Sirius, Sirius look at me." I screamed.

"I see you Reg, your doing great." He said, he was so proud of me, soon I lost my balance and he came running over to me. "Reggie are you ok?" He asked.

"Yeah." I said, I was trying to be tuff, it wasn't really working, Sirius pulled me into his arms and calmed me down, soon it didn't hurt anymore. "Thanks Siri." I said.

"Anytime Reggie." He said.

"I love you."

"I love you to."

That is one of my favorite memories, I knew Sirius was always different. He never liked to be mean, he doesn't call people names like mudblood and all that. He has always been the black sheep…or the white. But I never thought we would separate. He warned me though and for that I am thankful.

"Reggie…may I talk to you?" He asked walking into my room, I was only ten and he was about to go to Hogwarts.

"Of course…what's up?" I asked.

"Look…I don't think I will be in Slytherin?" He said.

"What?" I asked.

"I am not like them and well you know. I know you wont like me after this…but just don't forget the good times. And always know there IS a good side and there IS right choices…you just got to find it." He said…he was always wise.

"I will." I said.

Thing is I never did, I let him down. I hate him, or I think I do. When I found out he was in Gryffindor my parents turned…and so did I. We never talk anymore and we never say I love you…we never say anything. Once I heard the screaming and hitting stop I walked downstairs and got my book, but before I could go back upstairs Sirius was coming down.

"Where are you going?" I sneered I didn't mean to…its just a habit.

"I'm leaving." He said icily.

"Oh really." I asked.

"Yeah…you could come to." I want to, I wanted to tell him.

"I'm never leaving."

"If they hurt your Reg…please tell me…we could help you." He said why does he still care about me.

"They love me…plus I don't need your help." I knew it wasn't true.

"Fine." He said as he opened the door. "Reg I want you to know…we all make mistakes but I will still ALWAYS love you." And he walked, limped, out the door. Right then my parents came down.

"Did the brat finally leave?" My mum asked softly.

"Yes ma'am…thank Merlyn." I said.

"What did he say?" My father asked.

"Just that he was leaving." I replied.

"Where is he going?" He asked.

"He didn't say." I replied…probably the Potters, I am happy for him as long as he gets a REAL family.

"Probably the blood traitors Potters." He spat the name.

"Well he is one…he belongs there." I said, I was just trying to help them see he didn't belong here.

"Your right son." My father said proudly.

"Did he say anything else." My mum asked.

"No ma'am, he just said that then left…I am sorry." I said.

"Its ok now why don't you go upstairs to bed?" She asked and I just nodded.

I left out the part about everyone making mistakes because I don't know why anyone would love me, I am horrible and a coward…just another thing I don't understand, why love me?

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Ok so I didnt go into Regulus's POV much but I just wanted you to see what he thought, I thought about what he thought and he will be used again...mabe a lot. So tell me what you think and please review, give me any ideas and tell me anything. Thanks!