The car ride was relatively silent. The hummer was silent even, Jude leaned her head against the window and sighed. She didn't know if she should be happy or sad, Tommy admitted his was sorry, he came back for her...and yet, she still felt she should be mad at him.

Dammit Jude, it wasn't his damn fault the baby died! Sure it would have been nice having a little family, but that's not how it is going to be. You and Tommy just aren't meant to be. Can't you see that? Sure he came back to you, sure he held your hand, sure he was the only one to visit you, but that's because he thinks he fucked up by getting you fucked up! Forget every thought of being with Tommy, because guess what sweetie? It's not going to happen!

Jude clutched her head, the voice inside her was screaming at her now.

You stupid ignorant fool! You're never going to be happy!

Jude let a moan escape her mouth and closed her eyes.

You'll never have your prince charming.

"Jude?" Tommy looked immediately worried.

See what you've done? You're going to die little girl!

It was like the witch from The Wizard of Oz was in her head.

You'll never fall in love, you'll die all alone!

"No!" She slammed her wrists on the dashboard; she didn't know the car had come to a stop.

"Jude!"

All alone Jude! All alone!

The voice cackled and laughed, and faded away.

"No no no!" She felt a hand on her arm she squirmed and tried to break free but noticed the hand wouldn't let up, she let herself fall into the masculine arms and cry into his shirt. "Jude..." Tommy repeated, stroking her hair gently with his fingers.

Jude remained silent, she stared out the dashboard window to find that she was at Tommy's house, a small condo, much like her own, yet heavily decorated with patio furniture, a well kept garden, and grey shingles.

"Will I ever be happy Tommy?" Jude finally spoke.

"Of course you will girl." He kissed the top of her head.

"You just have to find the right guy to fill your heart." Jude slightly pulled away and looked deep into Tommy's eyes. She stifled a moan as she leaned onto Tommy's shoulder, his lips gliding past her temple as she rested on his body, his arm wrapped protectively around her shoulders.

They just sat there for close to twenty minutes, before they both fell asleep. Jude awoke the harsh whispering inside her head, she turned her head slightly to see Tommy was asleep, she sat up, straightening her hair, when the voice grew harsher.

Alone forever.

"Not again." She looked around cautiously.

Die alone.

"No." She brought her hands to her ears.

You'll never be loved.

"Stop please!" She threw open the car door, and ran up the steps of Tommy's house, rain had started to pour and the sweet aroma of wet grass filled her nose. But she couldn't smell anything, she couldn't see anything, she was blinded by the voice in her head.

Just give up right now sweetie, put an end to all your pain.

She jiggled the door in her hands.

Locked.

"No!" She cried, falling to her knees, the rain soaking through her jacket and t-shirt, causing her skin to turn clammy, she wrapped her arms around her shivering body and sobbed, quite loudly.

Doesn't that knife look inviting? Don't you just want to end it all?

"No I don't!" Jude jumped to her feet and was about to take off running, but only got as far as the bottom step before she fell into Tommy's arms. She had her eyes shut tightly, but she could see the worried expression on Tommy's face, rather she could feel it as he tightened his grip on her frail body.

"Hey." He stated, kissing her wet hair, "It's okay, what's wrong?"

Jude pulled away slightly and looked into Tommy's dark brown eyes, Something is obviously wrong with her, something I most likely caused, something I...

He was cut off when Jude's lips molded into his, the kiss lasted seconds, and when Jude pulled away she looked deep into Tommy's eyes. "I love you." She stated, a roll of thunder clattered above them, they both looked up as the rain began to lighten, and the clouds began to separate, a moon peaking out of the grey sky.

They looked back at one another. Jude heard two last words from the little voice in her head, just two last words before it left her head forever more.

Not again.

The little voice left her head, Jude felt the warmth come back to her body as she leaned into Tommy's arms and kissed him gently. Tommy was the one to pull away this time, he slightly smiled and put a hand to Jude's cheek. "What happened to you girl?"

Jude sighed and leaned into his touch, "I never thought I would be happy again."

Tommy nodded. Jude continued, "Then I found you."

Tommy smiled at those last words, he wrapped his arm protectively around Jude's waist and they walked up to the front door together, Tommy pulled his keys out of his pocket, still smiling as Jude's head leaned on his shoulder. He brought her inside and walked her upstairs, gave her some fresh sweats to change into, and walked back downstairs.

After about 20 minutes he didn't hear Jude come back down so he went upstairs. He cautiously pushed open the door to find Jude asleep on his bed. He smiled and walked over to her, pulling the afghan to her chin he kissed her cheek.

"Good night girl." He whispered.

Okay, this didn't suck too bad did it? Kind of a different side of Jude, but kind of eerie. Sorry I was in a bit of a rush to send this to ya'lls. R&R Please.