( sigh) I don't own Gundam Wing or anything for that matter, I jsut write or type what my mind sees and hears.

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Christmas Thoughts

Heero's POV:

The clicking of computer keys as a dark haired young man finished up a report, then scanned the sercurity system. Heero Yuy sat back with a sigh 'Finally it's all done. ' He cleaned up and then walked out of the central computer room. He walked down the hallway and up a flight of stairs, he was about to go up another flight of stairs when a voice called out to him, he sighed.

" Heero, are you ready yet we are leaving to go to Quatre's in 2hrs, don't tell me you were working again. " A young woman with shoulder leagth blonde hair appoched him.

" Releena it is me job make sure everything is running smoothly. " He turned to go up the stairs, but stopped when a hand was laid on his arm. He turned to look at her.

" Heero, are you alright? "

Was he alright, no not really, he just felt empty as though something was missing, something important but he couldn't figure out what. " Your fiancee, will be showing up soon, I still have to get packed. " She let go of his arm and he went to his room. He packed light, he had gotten, (under Releenas guidance and advice.) some gifts for his friends. He didn't know what to give one person though, quatre was tough but with Releena's help he got him something. Heero didn't really want to go, but a threat from Her Highness well he thought better of refusing. Tears wasn't somthing he wanted to argue with, he wouldn't win. He looked out his window. ' Why do we have Holidays anyway ? what's the use of something that on;y comes around once ayear. ' He packed up and proceeded to walk to the front lobby.

" Merry Christmas Releena. " A deep voice spoke, a gentle laugh and an oh.

Heero saw Releena and a tall young man well built, with dark hair and hazel eyes, he was putting a braclet around her wrist then he kissed her hand. She was holding some white roses, she turned and asked a maid to put them into water , then said to finish up and go home for the holidays. the maid smiled and curtied and left to the kitchens.

" Are we ready to go? " Richard Stover asked, he spotted Heero who just nodded. They piled into a car and went to port. Heero just stared out the window, first watching the sceenary go by, then throught the city watching people walking here and there, waving to each other, kids running around, he just didn't understand it. ' Hn, why waste the time and energy to get things for people they are going to forget anyway.'

" Heero you have been frowning at that window for awhile, what is wrong with you? " Releena asked with a concerned look.

" I'm fine. "

They arrived at port and boarded a private plane. Heero just couldn't shake off this empty feeling. ' What am I missing? ' He just couldn't figure it out, he watched people, a young couple holding hands, several elderly couples in deep conversations, some children playing a game and laughing. He saw these things, the togeatherness, the careing as a young man helped an elderly man into a seat. Children laughing or hugging their parents. He didn't have parents he didn't recall, and he never felt a warm embrace of a parent or a loved one. Yes he cared about Releena but she was a friend. ' He leand his head on the window of the plane as it was being taxied to take off. He must have dozed off because the plane was landing. He streached himself awake. he glanced at Releena and Richard. releena had her head on his shoulder and he was rubbing his thumb along her hand. It was sweet and nice a fuzzy kind of good. They departed the plane, dressed warmly they left the port and climbed into another car.

" Heero are you feeling better, I didn't want to wake you, you looked really tired. " Releena smiled at him.

" Yes, I guess." He casted his eyes down, his bangs covering his eyes.

" I hope everyone could make it, " Releena glanced at Heero " Wonder if Duo will make it? " Heero jerked his head up

' Why wouldn't he make it? Say party and that baka would be the life of it. ' Heero stopped his thinking, and went back to all the people he saw through the week, about couples holding hands and kissing, children playing and laughing, he wanted that the feeling of caring and love, he wanted to feel the light of the Holidays, but how he didn't know how to really feel about it or even anything. The only time he really felt anyhthing was when... he stopped that thought to. ' What am I thinking, Duo and Hildie have been togeather for awhile. '

They arrived at the Winter Palace, it was indeed a grand place, decorated in crystaline lights and pine wreaths. The inside was just as bright as the outside, garlen, and lights lined the stairs and archways.

" Wow beautiful." Releena breathed softly.

" Welcome to the Winter Palace." Quatre went to each and gave hugs, Trowa smiled and shook hands with Richard and gave Releena a hug, and nodded to Heero who nodded back. They were shown to their rooms and to freashen up. In a parlor of sorts that looked out into the back garden. Lady Une and Marrimaia were already there, seemed like Marrimaia was getting physical theropy to walk, Une adopted her, Wufie was there and he seemed happier, beside him stood Sally. Everyone was greeted and they talked for awhile, seems that Wufie asked Sally out, which surprised everyone. Quatre noticed Heero withdrawn state.

" Heero: Quatre apporched him.

" Quatre, the place looks. . . nice. " Heero sorta didn't know what to say.

" Thank you I had help, the towns folk came up and help decorate, it was fun. " Quatre brightly smiled

" Hn " heero looked out the window to the decorated garden.

" You know you can tell me what's wrong."

Heero sighed he knew Quatre wouldn't give up, he saw how happy he and Trowa was, how happy Releena and Richard were. " I'm missing something, I want to feel, but I don't know how, this doens't mean anything to me, I can't feel the light of the Holiday. "

Quatre nodded his head, sometimes it is hard to feel anything, when there is bad things out there, but with the familly and friends we have hold those dark things back. "

Heero shook his head " I know that Quatre, I want to really feel to beable to express, find someone to feel those things with. "

" You have us, and we do care about you Heero, we are a familly. "

Heero nodded " I know, I just . . . I just can't explain this emptiness inside, I feel hollow. "

Before Quatre could answer " Merry Christmas my friends, the life of the party has arrived. " I young man with shining voilet eyes and a long chestnut hair appeared in the door way beside him were to people Hildie who was hiding he face with her hands, and another young man with sandy brown hair, and dark brown eyes, he had his arm around Hildie.

" Meet Brian Hess, Hildie and him are going to tie the knot next year ! "

Heero couldn't believe his ears, poor Hildie blushing to her ears, but Heero just set his eyes on the young man who wouldn't stop talking. Duo Maxwell, and Heero could feel something when those large voilet eyes looked at him. it fluttered in his stomach. Duo was walking right towards him ' WTF, what do i do and what do I say. ' He backed up abit, Duo gave him abig grin

" Hey Heero buddy. " Duo purred, then he pointed up, Heeero looked up and right above his head was misltoe 'WTF how did that get there? ' He looked at Duo, who was grinning ear to ear " Sorry Ro it's tradition "

' He isn't going to do it, is he? ' Heero noticed that he wouldn't mind it either, whiched surprised him. ' I think I do want him too. ' He was ready for the tackle.

Well another chapter wow... wonder if Duo tackled Heero? What gift did Trowa get Quatre? I guess you all are just going to have to wait.. LMAO ( ducking for cover )