Hello everybody. Welcome to chapter 4 - Confessions.

First of all I want to thank all the reviewers and the PM writers. I´m always so happy when I see that there is a new review/massage for me. To be honest I always do a little dance , I guess it mostly looks stupid but I´m so happy a can´t hold it :D

I got a lot of PM that had plenty of questions. And I think I´m going to answer some of them (of course anonym) on my profile in the next week.

But now, enjoy.

Confessions

I really missed her. It was unbearable. It bugged me that she was not here and it bugged me even more that it bugged me at all. I couldn´t sleep well for weeks although I almost trained till uncouncioness. I just could not sleep. I was so angry. Angry all the time. On me. Why was I always so insensible to her. I had planned to bind her to me, and instead I urge her further away. Even so far that she is now only around that bald head and suffocates me any chance to approach her. And then she tells me that she wants to break up and I panic and run. I idiot! I should have took the chance, but no. And now she is gone.

I almost had her. I could even smell her perfume. But when I saw that she had the child with her my heart starts shaking. It was not the right moment. So I flew back to Kakrott. And I can't believe actually what I hear then. And I still don´t, until I saw Trunks swollen eye. Clearly marked by a footprint which never could belong to Goten. I no longer understand a thing. She was human. Robotic was most likely not inheritable. OK she was her mother through and through, but as I said, this was impossible.

And now another week has almost passed, and her daughters birthday was today. I have not been to any of these birthdays, but if I wanted to finally have a chance to talk to her and put everything back into place I had to go. I sat in the back of the plane across from Piccolo and stared out of the window for the rest of the flight. I tried to ignore the others who entered through the rear and who stared at me like they saw me for the first time. And I started to wonder what the matter was. I joined social events more often in the last couple of years. I only avoided the birthdays of her daughter and her husband. So where was the problem? And I could hear them whisper and not to mention the knowing malicious grin from Piccolo.

After two hours, the ride has finally ended and we began to land. I didn´t want to be the first to exit so I led everybody go ahead. I wanted to see her so bad right now, but I also didn´t want to run straight into her arms. And I also didn´t want everyone to see my face when I saw her. I knew that I would be happy and that look was only hers, and for nobody else. But I couldn´t see her. She seemed to be still inside. So I ran around the House and away from the others who spread out on the benches and chairs in front of the House. Behind the House was a single chair I had dragged there years ago on my first visit to the island. I took off my shirt, because it was a very hot day, and the chair stood in the Sun and it was not recommended to boil here.

I could hear her voice. She seemed to be in the kitchen with Krillin and trying to get the birthday cake ready for Marron. Typically she instructed everyone near her around to bring her this and that. I realized how I was getting impatient. I was just a wall away and I could not reach her yet, but luckily I had not seen HIM today too.

"Hey Uncle Vegeta."

"Hey."

"I have spanked Trunks butt yesterday," she grinned. "And today´s my birthday."

"Is that so?"

"Yes. And what will you give me?" Very cheeky.

"Trunks will give you your present later. Where is he anyway?"

"Goten and Trunks are hiding from me and I cannot find them." The island isn´t too big so they couldn´t be far away.

"Have you checked the House? I'm sure they hide where you are always going when you are hiding yourself from your MOM if you have done something." With new vigor in sight, she fixed the House. But before she stormed off, she came back again and jumped me on my chest to give me a kiss on the nose.

"Thank you Uncle Vegeta. You're not as evil as you always look." And she was gone. Uncle Vegeta. How come?

I must have been falling asleep because when I wake up again by the seductive scent of grilled meat, I notice that my skin on the face, tightens and burns. When I open my eyes a XXL tee bone stake dangles right before my eyes. But only half of it the other half is in Kakarotts mouth. I don´t understand a word of what he wants to tell me but I guess it´s time to eat. I push him to the side to find my way to the buffet. Most have already loaded their plate and took it back to their table and started eating. And still I can´t catch a glimpse of Eighteen. I throw a quick second look into the round while I'm waiting behind Gohan to get to the buffet. Marron seems to have found Goten and Trunks. And really everyone seems to be there except for her. What kind of cake is it that keeps her in the House all day. No one really seems to pay attention to me so I trot back to the back of the House and enter through the bedroom window. Why haven't I done that earlier? On the first floor, there is not much to see so I go right down to the ground floor. But nothing. Where is she? This was the birthday of her daughter. So I went out again. Precisely the same way I walked in. And search the water with my eyes. Doesn´t anybody find this strange except for me? I slowly got withdrawal symptoms and had also dismissed food for her. I was about to question Krillin about her when I heard a faint whistle behind me. And there she was. Totally wet and wearing a sexy skin-colored bikini. With quick steps I went up to her, until I saw the look on her face, so I stopped.

"What in the world are you doing here?" Friendly was different.

"I wanted to see you. I said I´ll be waiting. And I did. I waited and waited but you never came."

"I had my reasons. I had to straighten a lot again."

"Don´t say it like I would have put it in the imbalance." She breathed deeply in and out.

"Don´t let us argue here. Come with me."

"I did not come to fight. And what about Marron?"

"Not your business, just follow me."

She waded into the water and she was gone. I didn´t wait too long and went after her and damn she seemed to hold her breath forever. Does she even have to breathe? When we were far out in the ocean we appeared and flew the rest of the line to a neighbor island. And as we arrived it pointed out, she was prepared. She had deposited clothing on a stone. Even a towel lay there, which she threw to me after she had rubbed her hair dry.

"Vegeta listen to me."

"No, wait. Listen to me first. Please." She only nodded so I started.

"I want to apologize. OK? I have been a jerk, really, and I'm sorry." She seemed surprised. Well, I was also. Who would have thought that the words come so lightly on my lips. "I didn´t want to be so disgusting to you. I've missed you. Really missed you. I could not sleep. Do you know how insufferable I am since I can´t sleep good? I can´t stand myself no longer. I, MYSELF!" She laughed. "I beg you not to keep me at a distance no more. We don´t have to have sex, though it is desirable but, no wait delete it, just come back."

"Back where Vegeta? To you, in your bed in the Capsule Corperation? Where I expect to find what? Secret sex and then I sneak out again and when we meet outside we act like we can´t stand each other again. I have a family that I love. Krillin is there for me and he really loves me, you know, why should I throw this away? And then there is Marron. She is so sensitive I don´t want her to go through all this argues and fights."

"So are you breaking up with me?"

"Breaking up with what? There wasn´t anything ever. I fell in love with a proud, vain men that simply takes what he likes and I realize to late that I´m only a piece in the whole game you play. How could I ever think that we could be more. . . I am so mad at you! At me!"

She was mad and gesturing wildly back and forth, and I could see that she had a hard time to breathe evenly and I heard that her voice was pressed and quiet even if she really tried to shout at me. And I realized how much I had to have kept her at a distance and with what eyes I must have been looking at her that she could say something like that about what we had. She was the only person I had a direct connection to and she felt used.

"I know I've not fought for you and I know I have never really told you that I need you, but it is so. I'm going crazy without you. And what I said a couple of weeks ago, I am very sorry. Suddenly, I paniced but I want to have you around me. I ruined it once before but I didn´t know back then that I should have better ran after you."

"And how do you imagine our future? You want to rent the couch in the KAME House or should I make space in my bed for you or should I move in with Marron to your 30m² room?"

"I don´t want you to ever again lie in this bed! He should keep his hands from you and you from him."

"And where should we go?"

"Without being brazen now. But you've got money. You have extorted 20,000,000 zenni from Mr. Satan. That´s a good start." I could tell that she knew I was right but I also knew that this was not the answer she wanted to hear. I crossed the space between us and took her in my arms.

"I've missed you. I need you. " She pulled me in and she moved up tighter to me. And she began to cry. I had not expected that, and I had no experience with weeping women.

"I love you Vegeta. Why don´t you understand this. Why do you make it so hard for me?"

The words stuck back in my throat. So I just tightened my embrace. I have to clean my throat before I can speak again.

"I get it now. I´ll try. I want to give my all now. I. . . I. "

But before I can say any more she raises her head from my neck flexion and kisses me. I could feel how life returns into me. But before I can rejoin the kiss in the slightest, she urges me at a distance again. Nervously she begins to run up and down and I don't understand it at all. What is going on? I see her shake her head and wring her hands and she doesn´t stop crying. If I make a step she raises her hand and points me to stop. It feels like an eternity until she finally stops and commands me to sit down on a rock. But then here she goes again.

"I. . . I. . . I was not always honest to you. I'm a terrible person. I just didn´t know how to tell you. And I don't know it even now. I've lied to you so much is for sure."

"You're already thirty?" I tried to loosen up the mood, but she couldn´t laugh.

"Vegeta I mean it seriously. You know that the thing between us was so stormy and unexpected and kinda crazy back then. I could not really stand you. At least in the beginning."

"But still you were sitting on that rock every day to see me in training."

"Yes I have. I could not understand just how you could be so strong within one day but that is not the point!" She almost yelled.

"I felt drawn to you. You were among all these people, and yet so alone, and I had nobody. And you have made the first step and I was suddenly in love. It didn´t make any sense to me that I felt so hot when you were around me and that my heart was beating so fast when you kissed me. I was still so young. And just about to feel human again."

I simply didn´t understand what she was up to.

"You know that we had so much wonderful together. I had my first. . . "

"You don´t have to say. I know." And I have to smile. She was so young, and looking back I am a bit ashamed now.

"And suddenly you´ve turned your back on me."

"I had a feeling you run into something of which you had no idea and I also had no idea what that should look like. How that will work. And then you were suddenly the one who was out of reach for me. You started dating with this. . ."

"Watch out now what you're saying!"

"He has taken you away from me. You no longer came to me and were only with him. And you have laughed so much. I wasn't sure if you had laughed so much with me."

"I had but I was never sure whether you've noticed it. And I'll tell you why I no longer came, and I do not know whether now is the right time or whether it has ever been a right time but it is crushing me and I want to come closer to you again but I can't as long as you'll live in a lie with me that I cannot carry."

I didn´t noticed that I again stood with her. And because I had the feeling that it was her dear when I sat, I sat back on the rock. But what did she want to tell me?

"OK. . . So. " She took a deep breath. "I could not return at that time. I had gotten myself panicing. And I remembered Krillin and his caring manner and I decided to find him because I needed security and I couldn't detect this security in you. I loved you but that was suddenly so insignificant ´cause I was sure that you didn´t love me. And I could not stand it. We had months together, but at the moment, all this was decrepit."

"What are you talking about, now finally get to the point, I don´t understand a word!" I immediately was sorry for the way a said it but I just did not understand it.

"I was desperate, I had no idea that this was possible, and I could not imagine you as a father. . . "

I felt slapped very hard, or hit by something really really hard. My ears seemed to be deaf.

"I was pregnant. Of course, I had to blame myself. But you also, you had to think abou that possibility too! And I didn´t know where to go. To you, I could not go, I could not sleep with you, knowing that I was pregnant and on that day I met Krillin and it was suddenly so logical. And he was also so sweet and I was so young. My heart so undecided." And she began to cry, again, but this time the tears rolled down like she would never stop and almost deafeningly loud.

"Do you understand what I am saying?" No, I understood nothing at all actually. Except that she had been pregnant and that she wanted to foist the child on Krillin as his, and that she could not tell me. And suddenly. . .

"Marron. She is your daughter, Vegeta!"

"But she is blond!"

"And Trunks has the blackest hair I've ever seen!"

"Sorry. Knee-jerk reaction. Oh my god." If I would not sit already, I would need to sit down now.

No matter how hard I press my fist against my forehead the carousel in my head seemed not to stop. And I did not want to start now with allegations and accusations at her. Basically, I knew that I was the one to blame. I have not given her the hold that she needed to at least tell me, and as the father of Trunks who was at the time just a year old, I have not been the perfect example of a good father, never at home and having an affair with a girl that just hovered between a grown up teenager and an adult. And this stealth status we never left. So, no wonder that she never told me, but

"Does Krillin know that she is not his daughter?" She stops crying for the first time and glares at me furiously.

"Of course not! And you will never, ever tell him or anyone!"

"Of course I don´t say anything. I don´t even know where we stand now. Now, let alone what to do."

"Do I look like I know that?!"

"Please let´s not argue again." I trusted my legs now not to let me down and went slow steps toward her. When she saw what I was up to she ran straight into my arms. "I'm here for you. If this helps, I'm even working, no matter what. I will do it right now.

"But I can´t leave just like that. What do I tell Marron, she will not understand that you shall be her father now and not Krillin. You were never there, and I don´t mean it as an accusation now, but that will turn her life completely upside down."

"We must go back, we are already gone far too long. Let us talk tonight. We meet here and discuss everything. I need to get away from the topic to get a clear head again. Tonight the world will hopefully look very different."

"I think that´s not a good idea. I can´t sneak out at night anymore. He almost knows."

"And that of all people you and I are missing is no hint?"

"I always take a break on Marrons birthday for one or two hours. Don´t look at me like this, it´s a fact. Don´t ask."

"OK, so any ideas?"

"Go back home Vegeta, do not come back to the party. I'll contact you if a solution occurres to me. Please wait till then."

This was hard, but I don´t want to be bullheaded now. So I kissed her goodbye and then flew away. I stayed at a safe distance until she popped back into the water.

The End- but not the End of this story. See you in chapter 5

A thing I want to add before the next chapter or to avoid too many Vegeta OOC complains ;D

I guess that everybody knows that Vegeta is not the youngest anymore and that he ( in my story) wanted to start a relationship with Eighteen ever since it got serious between them after the cell games. But as it always is in live, you first have to lose someone to know that you miss him/her.

So I guess what I am trying to say is, that sometimes you have to confess and he is old enough to know when the time is right :D

So thanks again for reading and I am looking forward to your reviews and PMs

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